Sunday, September 2, 2012

CHAPTER 33 - FIFTY SHADES OF VANILLA



Chapter 33
Fifty Shades Of Vanilla


Before Anastasia fell into my office and into my life, I’d meticulously plan out what scene I wanted to play with my latest sub in my playroom each weekend to relax and unwind. I’d always take into account my subs preferences in line with their hard and soft limits, but basically I’d always plan things out purely for my own pleasure.

But now that Anastasia has given me another chance with her, I’ve spent some time considering how we can both enjoy our sexual relationship, how we can mutually please each other.

She admitted that she likes kinky fuckery, so I’ve been thinking what that means in terms of how far I can push things with her. There’s no way I'm risking doing anything that could upset her in any way, but I think I’ve come up with several ideas that could be termed as kinky vanilla. I think she will like this and I know I will, especially as they’re things I've never actually done with anyone before. I like the idea that we are venturing into new territory together.

So, I have a very special dessert in mind to follow the tasty stir fry chicken and noodles that Anastasia seemed to effortlessly throw together. She sure can cook, and it’s been relaxing sitting here on a furry rug on the floor, eating and talking together. We both had very healthy appetites after our great first reunion fuck. 

But now I'm definitely hungry for more, and I'm not talking food here, so when she says we have ice cream - vanilla ice cream - for dessert, I know what I want to try with her, seeing as I didn’t think to bring the silver balls with me, which she’s already asked about tonight. She seems really keen on them. Shame, it would have been my pleasure to give her another erotic spanking, but that will have to wait for another time, when I'm confident that she can handle it.

First off, I check that she’s fine with me staying at her place. I really want to spend the night with her, because I've missed sleeping with her and waking up next to her so much. She seems surprised that I'm asking, but I don’t want to seem presumptuous, and anyhow it’s basic good manners. Once she's agreed, I go find the freezer and take out the carton of Ben & Jerry’s finest vanilla she says is our dessert.

“This will do just fine. Ben & Jerry’s & Ana.”



As I spell it out to her, I see her jaw drop as she realizes what I'm suggesting.  She’s shocked, but aroused – I think, I hope so anyway. This is going to be so much fun. Vanilla kink of the finest sort. I’m realizing that vanilla sure as hell doesn’t have to be boring, if you just use a little imagination. And I have a great imagination.

We head for the bedroom, and I prepare the bed for some messy, sticky fucking. The sheets can easily be changed afterwards, that’s no big deal.

“Don’t mess with my balloon,” Ana warns me as I move it out of its special place under her pillow, which makes me smile fondly at how sentimental she is. I love that she’s still holding onto a deflated Charlie Tango, just because I gave it to her. That’s really sweet. Like her. She’s really sweet.

She doesn’t raise any objections when I tell her I want to tie her up, in fact I can see she’s turned on by it, which naturally thrills me. I fucking love this kinky side of her, and I’m looking forward to developing and encouraging it. Very promising.

“Just your hands. To the bed. I need you still,” I reassure her.  She has to trust me. This is crucial after everything that happened before.

“Okay,” she whispers, her eyes open wide in anticipation, as I slowly pull the sash of her robe undone and then remove it. So now she’s standing gloriously naked in front of me.

 I stroke her face and gently kiss her mouth to try and relax her, then I get her to lie on the bed.

“I could look at you all day, Anastasia” I whisper, as I gaze at her in the soft muted light. She needs to hear just how amazingly beautiful she is, as she never seems to realize it. She should be confident and proud about her gorgeous body, instead of being shy and reluctant about showing herself to me, although I do find her shyness endearing.

I straddle her on the bed and instruct her to put her arms above her head, so I can tie the sash from her robe around her wrists, and secure them to the metal bed head. I make sure her arms are held nice and tight, so there is no chance of her wriggling free, as she might be tempted to do with what I have in mind. I like her like this very much. Fucking love her like this, don’t you Grey? 
Now I don’t have to worry that she might freak me out by touching me.  I'm back in control, despite not being in my playroom. I pull Ana down the bed, so her arms are stretched right out. Now she can’t move at all. Even better. Perfect.

I quickly undress, get the ice cream and then straddle Ana on the bed again. She looks up at me nervously, still not quite sure what I intend to do to her.  I take things nice and slow. Anticipation. Always build up the anticipation to heighten the sensations.

I take a spoonful of the ice cream in my mouth, and slowly let it melt as I lick my lips.

“Delicious. Amazing how good plain old vanilla can taste. Want some?”

She nods shyly, so I scoop out another spoonful, and offer it to her as she opens her mouth, but I'm only teasing, as I pop it into my own mouth instead. The indignation on her face is a picture, as she protests at my deception.

“Why, Miss Steele, do you like your vanilla?”

“Yes,” she says forcefully, and then tries to buck me off, but of course she’s unsuccessful. I love that she’s fighting back, and I love that it’s pointless. I fucking love having her restrained like this.

“Getting feisty, are we? I wouldn’t do that if I were you.” You are only turning me on even more here, big time. It’s a great game.

“Ice cream,” she begs. I like her begging.

“Well, as you’ve pleased me so much today, Miss Steele.”

I feed her a spoonful of ice cream, and then another. This is good, I enjoy feeding her like this. I like seeing food pass her lips.

“Hmm, well, this is one way to ensure you eat – force-feed you. I could get used to this.” Tie her up three times a day to ensure she eats proper meals – you’d fucking love to do that, wouldn’t you, Grey?

She refuses the next spoonful, so I let it melt and then drip it onto her throat and her chest. Next comes the best bit. I slowly lick it off her.

“Mmm. Tastes even better off you, Miss Steele.”

As I expected, Ana finds it impossible to keep still while I do this, so she starts struggling and pulling on her restraints. But it’s no good, she can’t get away, I've made sure of that. All the more fun for me though. I find I don’t mind some resistance; it’s arousing, because it makes me feel even more empowered. Resistance is futile. You must comply. The Borg. My dad was a Star Trek fan. A secret Trekkie. He keeps that quiet though. I don't blame him. 

I take another spoonful and this time I let it dribble onto her breasts. I spread it round with the back of the spoon, and the chill makes her nipples peak and harden.

I bend down to lick and suck all the ice cream, as it starts to melt and run down her sides onto the sheet. My mouth and tongue warm her cold nipples, as I slowly suckle the creamy ice cream from her breasts. Mmm, delicious. This is so erotic. Hot and cold, all at the same time.

Then I kiss her mouth, my tongue mingling with hers to share the taste of the ice cream.

Next, I trail a spoonful of ice cream down the center of her body, across her stomach and down into her navel, where I put a large dollop of the cold substance.

“You’re going to have to stay still, or there will be ice-cream all over the bed,” I warn her, knowing she will find it impossible.

I kiss each of her breasts, sucking her nipples hard, and then work my way down her body following the trail of ice cream. As I suck the ice cream from her belly, she is moaning and her hips are jerking up because she is so aroused.  I carry on, trailing the ice cream all the way down to her sweet spot, which makes her cry out in shock.

“Hush now,” I whisper, as I start sucking and licking the ice cream from her clitoris, lapping rhythmically in a relentless soft pressure to bring her close to the edge of her release, before I slip one finger inside and expertly stroke her second sweet place, the G Spot just inside her front wall. I lick and suck and stroke and rub, knowing all this stimulation will bring her to a mind blowing orgasm. And I quickly succeed.

She writhes and groans as her orgasm hits, and as she rides the waves, I quickly slip on a condom and then slam hard into her so we can mutually enjoy her pleasure.

We’re sticky and slippery as our bodies join together, which feels weird, but in a good way. But I want more. So I pull out, and turn Ana over onto her front, so that we can try another vanilla variation. I want us to fuck every possible vanilla way, try every variation known to man and then some. Inventive and imaginative – two useful attributes of yours, Grey.

I release her hands, and then bring her back towards me to ease her down on my length, so now she’s sitting on me, her back to my front. This way I get to play with her breasts and tease her nipples, at the same time as I fill her with my cock by flexing my hips up into her. And she can’t touch you like this.

“This way… oh yes…” I murmur.

This is so fucking good. I nuzzle and bite her neck as she throws her head back against me, moaning with pleasure.

We are so good together. So fucking good. Fucking has never been like this with anyone before. Being with Anastasia takes everything to a new, higher level. It’s amazing. She’s amazing. She’s wonderful. She is everything to me.

“Do you know how much you mean to me” I whisper into her ear.

Does she have any idea at all that she is now my whole world?

“No,” she gasps back.

She still has no idea of how precious she is to me? I hold her jaw and throat tightly to emphasize my words.

“Yes, you do. I’m not going to let you go.”  Ever. You belong to me.  Forever and always.

Fucking her this way feels so good that I can’t hold back any longer. I pick up the pace, flexing my hips to grind into her harder and faster because her silky walls are rubbing, and gripping and squeezing at my cock in such a fucking hot way.

“You are mine, Anastasia.”

“Yes, yours,” she moans, as she leans her head back against me.

“I take care of what’s mine,” I tell her, as I nip her sweet little ear, and she cries out. No other man is ever going to touch her or take her. I will protect what is mine, always.

“That’s right, baby, I want to hear you.” Scream as you come for me, baby.

I put my arm around her waist and grip her so I can get my cock in even deeper. I need to get every last little bit of my length all the way in to totally and utterly fill her.  She is entrapped, helpless in my arms to do anything other than take everything I’m giving her, and she cries out again at the fullness of my possession. We are made for each other. We are a perfect fit.

“Come on, baby,” I growl at her through gritted teeth, and with a final hard thrust from me, we both fly over the edge. She screams out as I release deep within her, feeling her orgasm tightening in waves around me, as we ride it out together.

Slowly, we come down from our high, and just lie there together, as I bury my nose in her intoxicating hair. We are both a sticky mess, as are the sheets. But it’s a good mess.

“What I feel for you frightens me,” she quietly confesses in a little whisper, her words taking me by surprise.

That’s exactly how I feel. She feels the same as me. We have the same fear. We both feel vulnerable. This is a revelation for me.

“Me too, baby,” I whisper back. It’s good to know she feels like this too, even if it I don’t understand and find it really confusing.

“What if you leave me?” She’s echoing my thoughts and fears. Turns out we’re on exactly the same page of the same book. Don’t you understand, baby – that’s never going to happen?

“I’m not going anywhere. I don’t think I could ever have my fill of you, Anastasia.”

She smiles and kisses me, as I gently tuck a wisp of hair behind her ear.

“I’ve never felt the way I felt when you left. I would move heaven and earth to avoid feeling like that again.”  I was a broken man when you left. Now you’ve mended me, but I don’t think I could survive that again. If there was a next time, I couldn’t go on any more.

She kisses me again, and looks so sad and concerned, that I decide to quickly change the subject, to lighten the mood.

“Will you come with me to my father’s summer party tomorrow? It’s an annual charity thing. I said I’d go.” 
Mia will never forgive me if I don’t bring Ana. She’s already done the seating plan and has us sitting at the same table as her, and she’s organized the special fancy masks for both of us. She loves doing all that kind of thing, and I have to admit that my little sister does have very good taste in these matters. 

Ana smiles at me shyly. “Of course I’ll come.”  But then her face falls.

“What?” You don’t really want to come, is that it?

“Nothing.”

“Tell me.” I need to know.

“I have nothing to wear.” Is that all? That’s easily fixed, there’s a whole wardrobe of clothes I bought for her as my submissive. Shit, she probably won’t like being reminded of that, especially as she never likes me buying her things anyway. But it’s the logical solution. I’ll give it a shot.

“Don’t be mad, but I still have all those clothes for you at home. I am sure there are a couple of dresses in there.”

“Do you, now?” she mutters somewhat sardonically. 

Does she think I was assuming she’d come back to me?  Does she dislike the fact that they were bought for her as my submissive. Fucked if I know. But I really don’t want to argue with her. They are just clothes, for crying out loud. Very nice clothes, actually, that she would look stunning in, if she could just swallow her pride or whatever it is that is standing in the way of her accepting the clothes graciously.

But then she smiles sweetly at me, and I'm guessing she’s not in the mood to argue either.

“We’ll see about the clothes later. Maybe I’ve already got something that will do,” she says. I seriously doubt that, remembering the dreadful unflattering crap she was wearing, the first time we met at my office when she came to interview me. 

“For now, I’m going to take a shower. Why don’t you have a listen to this while I’m gone – it’s the first track of a playlist I'm putting together for you to return the favor – songs that say it for me.”

She leans over to tenderly kiss me and stroke my cheek, as she gazes into my eyes for a moment, seeming to search for something.

“Listen carefully to the words,” she whispers, before she leaps up, grabs her robe and heads for the bathroom.

I slowly smile to myself as I lie back on the bed, and listen to the track. It’s called ‘Redemption’ by The Strange Familiar.* It seems that sweet and innocent Miss Steele believes I have a good heart and a good soul. How little she knows about you, Grey.

~~~

I’m woken by the sound of terrified screaming, and for once it’s not me. It’s Anastasia.

“Jesus, Ana!” I gently shake her, trying to get her to wake up. She gradually comes round, sweating, shaking and confused. I know exactly how she feels; I’ve been in that disorientated state myself countless times.

“Baby, are you okay? You were having a bad dream.”

What on earth has got her in this state? Seems I'm not the only one with night time demons. I switch on the bed side lamp and examine her face carefully for clues.

“The girl,” she whispers, not making much sense.

“What is it? What girl?” I gently probe, trying to calm her down.

“There was a girl outside SIP when I left this evening. She looked like me…but not really.”

FUCKING HELL. Leila. It has to be.
 What the fuck was she doing talking to Ana? How does she even know about her? How did she find her? I've suspected all along that her actions were somehow brought about by the fact that I'm in a different type of relationship with Ana than any of my previous fifteen subs. Leila wanted more, but I wasn't interested and turned her down out of hand. 

She always was a rather nosy and devious young woman - we still haven't figured out how she managed to bypass all the security measures to get into my apartment, although Taylor suspects something to do with the service elevator or possibly the fire escape. He's still investigating, and I know he's giving it his top priority, because naturally he's very concerned about Gail's safety when she's there on her own, as I am.

So maybe Leila saw that picture of Ana and me in the newspaper together at the graduation ceremony, and that triggered some sort of a reaction in her, because she would have understood its significance. She would have taken it as a clear indication, a public announcement that I'm giving Ana More. I don’t want an unbalanced Leila anywhere near Ana.

“When was this?”

“When I left this afternoon. Do you know who she is?”

“Yes.”

“Who?”

I really wish I didn’t have to tell her any of this, but I know she’s going to want to know more details. What a fucking nightmare.

“Who?” Ana presses me for an answer.

“It’s Leila.”

“The girl who put ‘Toxic’ on your iPod?”

“Yes. Did she say anything?”

“She said, ‘what do you have that I don’t have?’ and when I asked who she was, she said, ‘nobody.’ ”

 I close my eyes. Fuck. I was right. This has everything to do with Ana. As I suspected, Leila wants to know why I'm giving Ana more, when I wouldn’t with her. I wanted to keep Ana out of this, to protect her so she didn’t get caught up in any of the sick baggage that I carry around with me, but it’s not going to be possible now is it? Already it’s giving her nightmares. 

Leila is ill; I want to help her, but she keeps running off before we can get to her. What game is she playing? I can’t take any risks.  This has to be sorted without delay.

I get out of bed, pull on my jeans and grab my Blackberry. I don’t hesitate, even though it’s only just gone five in the morning. My security staff are on call 24/7. 

I ring Welch and fill him in on what’s happened. He’s instantly awake and alert when he realizes the seriousness of what potentially could have happened when Leila accosted Ana. It’s fucking typical that I’d only just called off the surveillance on Ana, and fucking typical that she didn’t tell me before, when the first new lead we’ve had on Leila would still have been fresh. At least we know now that she hasn’t left Seattle, as we thought she might have done.

Ana follows me out into the main room of the apartment, wearing just my white shirt from yesterday. Despite everything, I can’t help noticing that she looks hot – she has really great legs.

“What time exactly?” I ask her. Welch wants more precise details, so he can pinpoint where to look on any CCTV footage he can get access to.

“About ten to six?” she mumbles. Shit, I’d only just walked into Fifties myself at that time. Could Leila possibly have been following me and then seen Ana by some strange twist of fate? The stalker is himself stalked? 

Or had she somehow tracked down Ana’s work place, and was there waiting for her to leave at the end of the day? Either scenario is pretty creepy.

“Find out how…”

“How she tracked down Miss Steele? Yes, I’m working on that as we speak, sir.” I can hear him furiously tapping away on his keyboard. I think he feels his professional reputation is on the line. “From your personal experience of Miss Williams, would you say she poses a threat to Miss Steele? Could she turn violent against her?”

“I wouldn’t have said so, but then I wouldn’t have thought she could do this.”

“Then we have no option. Miss Steele will have to have a close protection officer assigned to her at all times when she goes out. The covert operatives cannot give her the level of protection this situation calls for.”

I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I know Welch is right, but how the fuck is Anastasia going to take having her privacy and independence curtailed in this way? She’s going to hate it, I just know she is, and will probably kick off majorly.

“I don’t know how that will go down.”

“Can’t guarantee her safety any other way I'm afraid, Mr. Grey. You’ll have to convince her.”

“Yes, I’ll talk to her.”

“Just until we locate Miss Williams, sir. Hopefully now we’ve had a recent sighting of her here in Seattle, we’ll be able to track her down and bring her in. It's the only way.”

“Yes, I know. Follow it up and let me know. Just find her, Welch – she’s in trouble. Find her.”

I finish the call to see Ana looking at me questioningly, so I know she wants more information. What the fuck do I tell her?

“Do you want some tea?” she asks, as she heads into the kitchen.

I could try distracting her. She does look really hot and sexy wearing just my shirt…

“Actually, I’d like to go back to bed,” I suggest with a wicked smile, hoping to win her over for some sex instead of an interrogation.

Not a chance in hell. No way is Miss Steele going to allow herself to be sidetracked by sex. She’s trying to act as if she’s not worried, but I can tell she’s pretty anxious. All I want is to shield her from all this shit, so I don’t want her to be burdened with any of the gory details. I am dealing with the situation, so she really doesn’t need to know any more than she already does. It will only serve to worry her unnecessarily, and I don’t want that. But I'm kidding myself if I think Ana is going to just meekly accept the situation. I try to evade her questions, but she won’t let me. She gets right to the heart of the matter.

“She found me and accosted me outside my office. How does she know about me? How does she know where I work? I think I have a right to know what’s going on.” Blast her inquiring and intelligent mind. If Ana was your unquestioning, obedient submissive this would be so much easier, wouldn’t it, Grey? Having regrets already?

“Please?” Ana asks again. I heave a big sigh as I resign myself to fessing up. None of this is her fault. She deserves to know the truth and all I can do is lay it out for her as best I can, hopefully without scaring her off. My sordid past has come back to bite me on the ass, big time.

So I reluctantly fill her in with what happened with Leila and Gail in the apartment, why I had to curtail my visit to Georgia to come back and deal with the situation. Ana won’t let me gloss over any of the details, and quickly works out that this whole sorry mess probably has something to do with my new relationship with her. 

She must have noticed that she and Leila look similar, so she’ll have worked out that I have a thing about pale skinned, brunette girls. You’d better hope she doesn’t work out the rest, Grey. Because you’re screwed if she has the least suspicion of how truly twisted and perverted you are, what your ‘thing’ with brown haired little girls really is.

“Why didn’t you tell me yesterday?” I ask, not wanting to sound as if I’m accusing her or that I'm angry. It’s not her fault she didn’t know the significance of the encounter. But fuck me, it’s so frustrating, because it would have been so much better if the security detail had been there to pick Leila up, or we’d at least had the Intel sooner to follow up. The trail is pretty cold now.

“I forgot about her,” she shrugs. I wish I could forget about Leila, but I have to ensure she gets the care she needs. I was her Dom; it’s what I must do for her. 

“You know, drinks after work, at the end of my first week. You turning up at the bar and your… testosterone rush with Jack, and then when we were here. It slipped my mind. You have a habit of making me forget things.”

“Testosterone rush?” Is that what you call it? Putting that asshole Hyde in his place?

“Yes. The pissing contest.”

“I’ll show you a testosterone rush.” I know she has nothing on under my shirt that she threw on, and the thought of her divine body beneath it has me hard for her in an instant. Enough with the talking. I want her. Again. Right now.

“Wouldn’t you rather have a cup of tea?” Now she's trying some distraction techniques of her own. Excuse me? Tea instead of sex with you? Seriously Anastasia?

“No, Anastasia, I wouldn’t. Forget about her.” Just shut up, and prepare yourself for a damn good fucking, woman.

Catching glimpses of Ana's lush body barely covered has made me very impatient for her.  I need to relieve my tension, and I need her now.  So, as I lean down to kiss her, I scoop her up and sit her on the kitchen worktop, forcing myself between her legs.


“Oh baby, there are so many ways I want to take you,” I murmur as I urgently kiss and nip her neck, quickly dispensing with the shirt to continue down to her breasts. She moans and throws her head back to grant me better access, as she runs her fingers through my hair, clasping me to her as I lick and bite her nipples. She tastes delicious.

“Christian, you are insatiable,” she murmurs.

“Always with you, Anastasia. I can never get enough of you. It’s what you do to me; you entice me and bewitch me.”

I back away from her just long enough to undo my jeans so my cock springs free. I get the condom from my pocket, rip the packet open and quickly sheath up. I urgently need to bury myself in her, now.

“Are you ready for me, baby?” I whisper, as I gently suck her ear lobe. I can't seem to resist her ears, they are so soft and sweet. Just like the rest of her. She's soft and sweet all over. You can't resist anything about her, can you Grey?

“I'm always ready for you, Christian,” she replies, in that sexy, husky fuck me voice she has when she’s aroused. I look into her eyes, and see they're shining with sensual promise, their blue depths sparkling an even more intense shade of blue than usual. She has such amazing eyes, I could get lost in them forever.

I grab hold of her hips and pull her to the edge of the work top, where she’s at exactly the right height for me to immediately ease into her. She groans with pleasure, as she wraps her legs around me and clings to my neck. She wasn’t lying – her soft folds are already fantastically wet and welcoming. I feel her expanding around me as I slide in, and she feels like velvet, encasing my length and sucking me in deeper. I pull out and push in again, savoring every little sensation, every rub and stroke of her exquisite tightness caressing my cock.

I’m swamped by sensation; Ana’s sweet, sexy scent; the sound of her moaning with pure pleasure; the feel of her legs tightening around me to bind me to her, and pull me in deeper.

All our worries disappear. Nothing else matters, just us.  We’ve become one entity, melded together in our intense shared pleasure, moving together to heighten the sensations that we willingly give each other. We breathe together, moan together, touching and caressing, words superfluous between us because we are so in tune. She is meant for you. You are meant for her. She is like no other for you.

I don’t hold back. Our combined need keeps me relentlessly pushing and thrusting into her, harder and deeper to get us both to the edge of our release.

“Come for me, baby,” I urge, before I finally explode into her as she convulses around me. My release is so intense, I see stars as I cry out her name.

How can it be like this, so fucking amazing every time? I’ve always loved sex, it’s pretty much always been great, but this is beyond that. What happens between Anastasia and me is something beyond just great sex. I can’t explain it, I don’t understand it, but that’s the truth of it.

Now I slowly withdraw from her, then help her down from the kitchen worktop, holding her to me and gently kissing the top of her head.

“That was so much more pleasurable than a cup of tea, wouldn’t you agree, Miss Steele?”

“Yes, Mr. Grey, I have to agree that in this instance you were correct. Sex with you definitely wins out over a cup of tea. But I’m warning you, don’t be under illusions; don’t think you have succeeded in anything other than a momentary distraction here. As I said, I have a right to know everything that’s going on with you and this ex sub of yours, this Leila.”

With that, she smiles sweetly at me, and moves away, busying herself making a fresh cup of tea, as the first one she made has gone cold while we were otherwise occupied.

I scowl at her, then head off to the bathroom to dispose of the condom. No matter what she says, I don’t want to contaminate sweet, unspoiled Ana by involving her with all the details of my sordid previous existence. She only needs to know enough to ensure she will agree to the CPO that is going to be necessary for her safety until Leila is apprehended. 

Please God she is found soon to get her the help she needs, for everyone’s sake, and that all this will not give Ana second thoughts about granting me my redemption.



*Ana’s choice: ‘Redemption’ by The Strange Familiar


The night is slowly closing
But my eyes are slowly opened
And I see that somewhere in you

There is a good heart
There is a good soul
For everyone lost in the silence
For every one missing piece

For every will that is broken
No matter how dark it may be
There is redemption
I feel the threat of thunder

But this rain can't last forever
The light chases the dark
Where there's a good heart
There is a good soul

For everyone lost in the silence
For every one missing piece
For every will that is broken
No matter how dark it may be

There is redemption
There is redemption
For everyone lost in the silence
There is redemption




I don’t own any of the Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters therein. They belong to E L James. I’m just borrowing them for fun and not for profit. Please refer to the Legal’s page for further details. This work is not to be copied or reproduced in any way without permission. 
   




142 comments:

  1. wonderful chapter!!! I loved it! The song was perfect. I can't read the next chapter at the ball, especially with the bidding at the dance.

    You are doing a great job with Christians POV!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks Claire - glad you liked the song - it's really lovely isn't it?

      Delete
  2. Brilliant as always

    Sare x

    ReplyDelete
  3. Another fantastic chapter loved it well done ur writing is outstanding

    ReplyDelete
  4. Another amazing chapter! Thank you so much. I loved the part when the stalker becomes the stalked! Can't wait to see this Leila
    Stuff play out from his POV! Amazing amazing amazing! Thanks again so much and you are wonderful!:-)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks Sam:) Perhaps Christian is getting a taste of his own medicine!

      Delete
  5. What a fabulous way to end my birthday - a new chapter!!! :-) Tracy x

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I did thank you - best pressie was the new chapter for sure!

      Delete
  6. Again you dumbfound me with your writing skills such a good read this has become my fix I'm addicted to you and crave more so much more your proof reading sub always xxxxx

    ReplyDelete
  7. I love how every time I read another chapter of yours the smile on my face never leaves. Thank you!!! I LOVE Christian's POV so much!!! GREAT JOB!!!! * Andrea *

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Putting a smile on your face has to be a good thing Andrea:)

      Delete
  8. Terrific chapter! Makes me hungry for a scoop of vanilla ice cream. Maybe B&J will rename it and call it 'Fifty Shades of Vanilla Sex'! I'd by gallons of that!

    Nan :D

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Now that is a GREAT name!!!!! Ben & Jerry's should even if it is just for a short while.

      Delete
    2. Haha, they really should, they'd be silly to miss a great marketing ploy.

      Delete
  9. Another amazing chapter. I am looking forward to the time between book two and three, when they are engaged. My favorite chapters are the ones when you can break free of EL James and write from your heart.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yes, it's far more rewarding for me to write my own thing. That's why I have reservations about following the entire trilogy, and so will maybe be a bit more selective about which parts to cover.

      Delete
    2. Please do not have any reservations...you are doing a fantastic job with Christian's POV...I get a kick out of his "in head" conversations...kinda shows how sorta insecure and unsure of himself he really his ...so unlike the facade h shows to the public.

      Delete
  10. Whoo-hooo! amazing again! xx

    ReplyDelete
  11. Bloody amazing is all I can say you never fail to deliver the chapters are so
    Intence and you can really feel what he is feeling. Can't wait for the next instalment don't stop what you are doing you are a very tallented writer and make my day

    ReplyDelete
  12. Fantastic again!!!! Looking forward to the next chapter!!!

    ReplyDelete
  13. Yum...vanilla.luv it all. Can't wait til u get to where laila is in the apt. Christian desperately want to see where u take the bath scene and Christian turning intosub mode. thanks

    Shannon

    ReplyDelete
  14. I'm all steamy on this fine Sunday afternoon. I'm suddenly in the mood for ice cream. I better go find my hubby.........;)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Did you find him, Jo? And did you have your ice cream - I'm assuming it was vanilla, of course ;)

      Delete
  15. Great chapter! Can't wait for the ball. Looking forward to your next post

    ReplyDelete
  16. Keep up the great writing! I love reading your CPOV and therefore getting more authentic insight into him.
    Will now go back to rereading the chapter... :D
    Thanks!! T.

    ReplyDelete
  17. fantastic, really steamy, just loved it thank you

    ReplyDelete
  18. This was so awesome. Very sexy and HOT. Just love how you capture everything from Christian's perspective. I can hardly wait until the next chapter. Thanks so much for your fantastic writing.

    ReplyDelete
  19. fantastic job... i'm very keen for the next chapter, could you posted quicker???

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. :( ok thank you for replying and for posting these here!!!

      Delete
  20. Thank you!! You made this day bearable!! Wonderful work!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Oh dear Stephanie, you sound down in the dumps:( Glad reading the blog cheered you up a little anyhow :)

      Delete
    2. I could use a hot fudge sundae with vanilla ice cream.

      Glad to be hitting menopause soon, it'll be 6 years of marriage next April and I'm still a virgin bride.. I hate brain tumors.

      Delete
  21. Another great chapter. Especially great when you fill in gaping holes like what Welch is saying that we hadn't been privy to before. Or Christian's interaction with Mrs. Pedo or Flynn or Taylor. Getting his POV gives us a much better understanding of where he's coming from and adds a whole other dimension to the enjoyment of this wonderful love story.

    And in spite of the fact that Christian wants to be open and honest and said he'd respect Ana and be truthful, he's still keeping her in the dark at every turn because he thinks it's the right thing to do. Very frustrating man! thanks again, Boots. P.S. it's birthday weekend so thanks for the surprise!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Hope you had a great birthday, Boots. Filling in the gaps from Christian's pov is what is so much fun to do, and what I intend to concentrate on going forward. We'll see how it goes :)

      Delete
  22. HOT chapter! I missed their sexy time. Thank you thank you thank you!!

    ReplyDelete
  23. Once again, another outstanding chapter,nice & long. I can't thank you enought for your writing & allowing me to continue my fifty shades addiction. Wish I could send you a bottle of "Bollinger"! It's such a treat to open my email & she that you have posted a new chapter. Please, please keep writing. Can't wait until you get to book 3 (which I sooooo hope you do). I feel like there was so much missing from Freed. I want to know more about the wedding, the honeymoon, the pregnancy, life for Christian with a newborn. There is just so much more that could be told & I sure hope you can spare the time to do it. It would be perfect!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks Anita. I shall keep going for now anyhow. And thanks for the Bollinger thought. I do like a nice glass of bubbly, but it might slow down the writing I guess!

      Delete
  24. I am in Awe ! on how good this chapter was!. I can not wait for the Party scene i wish i could wake up every morning to a new chapter as i have read the Trilogy 4 times already !!! Love It ! Thanks so much !
    Viola Kumaritakis

    ReplyDelete
  25. Delicious! I re-read the previous few chapters in prep for enjoying this one and they only get better. Truly a pleasure to read. I agree with the others that you are at your best when embracing freedom beyond simply narrating the original from Christian's POV.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks - that's what I intend to concentrate on going forward, otherwise it just gets boring.

      Delete
  26. thank you for the new chapter, hoping we can read more chapter soonest


    Bebei

    ReplyDelete
  27. Thank you, thank you, thank you....Great chapter....I love Christian's POV. More interesting....please update soon.

    ReplyDelete
  28. Thanks for the new chapter. You are best when you're on your own. I enjoyed it very much. Well I said before I will read what you write. I dont mind you going different direction. This chapter you did great.
    I love Star Trek. Thanks for mention the beloved series. Hope you mention Fringe sometimes??? I know this is not about us the scifi nerds.
    Kim

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Hi Kim. I guess the Star Trek reference was really a reference to my hubby, the Carrick figure of our family. My kids come out with sayings from Star Trek thanks to his viewing it as they were growing up. Fringe is not one I'm familiar with, sorry to say :( But I'm glad you liked the ST reference, I wasn't sure about putting it in tbh, but then thought sod it!

      Delete
    2. Say hi to your hubby for me. I thought the reference was a nice touch. Made Christian sound normal and sweet. He knew his dad well. And all the Trekkie in the world would love to hear you know about us. Trekkie are the most loyal fans.
      Kim

      Delete
  29. I read a lot of Christian POV stories, but I honestly think you do the best job at capturing his personality and inner monologue. I love the extra touches you add like the star trek reference. Thank you for all your hard work writing this, and I hope you continue!

    ReplyDelete
  30. Well Done, Sir! Thank you again and again and again for making my day!! I truly love this chapter and wait patiently for the next. This chapter is as interesting as ever, Mr. Grey. I hope all is well with you and your family. Again, thank you and I will sleep better tonight. x

    ReplyDelete
  31. This is déjà Vu all over again, yet another great chapter. They just keep getting better and better. I love coming home from vacation to a new chapter. I like this chapter because you were able to get creative with the behind the scenes stuff not mentioned in the book. Like the song that says it for Ana, and the hot, hot, hot sex scene with Ana and Christian in the kitchen. I loved it. Also I know it may have been somewhat insignificant but I always wondered what Welch was saying or asking Christian on the phone. I spent my vacation reading in the sunshine your lovely blog from beginning to almost end, it was nice to go right into reading a new chapter. Thanks again, I can't wait for the lipstick road map, as I guess others are also anticipating. No pressure! ;D

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Glad you had a good vacation, Brooke. Filling in the gaps is the fun bit of writing FF, so I'm glad you enjoyed it:)

      Delete
  32. Thank you! I can't tell you how much I needed this chapter this weekend. In my impatience for more Fifty, I made the grave mistake of going to fanfiction.com and reading a story entitled "Fifty Shades Older." In it, Christian and Ana have been together for twenty years. Christian stopped taking Ana into the Red Room as he know thought of her as a mother and had many subs on the side for years. They mean nothing to him until a conniving girl studies Ana and decides to become her to steal Christiaj away. It starts to work before Ana finds out! Christian even wanted more with this girl! He supposedly wanted to make love to her and have her touch him because she so reminded him of Ana. It made me sick! These characters are so beloved to me, it just broken heart! I literally had a knot in my stomach all weekend like I was the one betrayed! Silly I know but the only thing that helped set my world straight was your latest chapter! You nailed it! Especially when he's thinking how she is his whole world now. Such a turn on. I don't believe Chrisyian would ever cheat on his Ana and I hate the fan stories that make him. I think that's fundamentally against who he is. Would you agree? I wish I had never read that piece of fiction, it really upset me.
    Yours on the other hand always takes me to my happy place!
    Thank you for all your time and efforts. Words cannot express how much it means to me! P

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Susan, I totally agree!! I know it is only a fantasy but I just do not want either of them to cheat on the other.

      Delete
    2. Hi Susan. First off let me say that I rarely read any other fanfic apart from the two other blogs I endorse on my info page. I prefer to bury my head in the sand and just concentrate on writing my own version of the story, so I haven't read the one you are referring to.
      All credit to the author for coming up with an original idea, and good luck to her.
      But I'm a true romantic through and through. Christian and Ana are the original everlasting love story in my humble opinion. Yes, they have to adapt to the changes in their lives that having children inevitably bring, but in my opinion, Christian would be a true bastard if he used that as an excuse to go back to his old lifestyle.I was a little sad that they had a baby so soon in ELJ's version, rather than have more time with just the two of them, so I do have an option for an alternative ending in mind. Maybe I'll do two versions - one canon, one au. We'll see.
      So basically, I agree with you. Christian would not cheat on Ana, or her on him, and I would never write that. But it's always interesting to see how other writer's imaginations work.
      Thank you both for your interesting feedback :)

      Delete
    3. And i must say that Janes, Mazies and your writings are the best out there!
      I am really looking forward to your two versions...

      Delete
    4. I have already written a few chapters of a different ending, thinking I might post it as a separate story, but then thought I might use it here, so I held it back. I think there would be howls of protest if I didn't do a version that followed the original!

      Delete
    5. I will be patient, knowing whatever path you decide take it will be good!

      Delete
    6. I'm on board for the no baby, more C & A time!
      K

      Delete
  33. Great job again!!! Love, love, love...please don't stop!

    ReplyDelete
  34. You never disappoint. Awesome, hot , sexy chapter. You' ve made my day.

    ReplyDelete
  35. great chpt!! it was all types of hot. or should i say all types of sticky lol? anna really doesnt realize she really is christians whole world, if she knew she would never have any doubt about him leaving her, he cant even invison that. like he says, he wouldt be able to deal with it. it was funny when he realized he might have been stalked himself. he really shouldnt worry about telling anna these things, shes tougher than she looks but he is learning this as he goes. keep up the good work :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Hi KC. I think Christian is just trying to protect Ana isn't he, in his typical alpha male way. As you say, he's finding out with Ana that appearances can be deceiving.

      Delete
  36. Breath taking. Gotta Love that Vanilly Sex... I literly was aching for his touch.

    ReplyDelete
  37. This chapter was well worth the wait, thank you once again.

    CP

    ReplyDelete
  38. Awesome chapter. I can't wait to read when Leila was in Ana's apartment!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  39. Fantastic! Love it, love it, love it!

    Thank you ...thank you...thank you....x x x

    ReplyDelete
  40. Amazing as always. You have christian down to a T. I had started reading your blog from the beginning on Friday ( for the 4th time ) and when I saw the new chapter i was reading the new proposition, so I had to read as quickly as possible as I was very eager to get to the new chapter. I thought it was brilliant. Even though I love the sex scenes,I especially enjoyed the part where christian was woke up by screams and was surprised that they weren't his own. Can't wait for next chapter when Christian takes ana for her hair cut and she spots Mrs robbinson, look forward to what christian says to her in the salon. Thanks again for your amazing writing xx

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Hi Amy. Yes, I'm just about to start writing the Mrs Robinson scene, and I'm so looking forward to dealing with the bitch troll again :)

      Delete
    2. cant wait for more :D

      Delete
  41. Amazing!!! Loving it!!

    ReplyDelete
  42. I am so glad I found your blog. I absolutely love it & can't wait for the next chapters. The thought you put into the story & detail is absolutely fantastic. Keep up the great work!!

    ReplyDelete
  43. You're so good to us with all these chapters. As usual, my favourite parts were Christian's thoughts (on her clothes, on the sex). He really is a delightfully amusing...well...asshole.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yeah, he really is pretty old fashioned and chauvinistic in his views, although he presents a PC face to the world. I think most men are, deep down inside, truth be told!

      Delete
  44. thank you for yet another great chapter.
    more more please

    ReplyDelete
  45. thank you for yet another great chapter.
    more more please

    ReplyDelete
  46. Finally new chapter, I've been checking for updates several times this week :)

    Perhaps you wanna post link to this awesome blog at Fanfiction.net?

    There are so many new stories and many new fans there, just in case they missed it.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I do have my Grace story on FF with a link to this blog, but unless folk read that story , they don't find out about it. Having said that, I do
      have some followers who have found their way here by that route. Hopefully, next time I update Grace's story on FF, it will show as an updated story and more folk might notice it and read it.

      Thanks for your interest and support :)

      Delete
  47. Another yummy chapter. Vanilla delux!! Your writing style is great, intelligent, sexy and thoughtful. Thank you xxxx

    ReplyDelete
  48. ok,it's terrific! but, YOU CAN'T stop writng!! I know you want to do your own books - I get it - but you are doing such a phenomenal job with this POV don't quit. Please? I'll beg! I need to know how this finishes out from his POV. Leila, Elana, Jzck,Jose Blip, all of it!! Your writing is amazing. I can't wait for more. Thank you for all your time and effort!

    Melanie - USA

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Don't panic - I shall continue to write for the foreseeable future!

      Delete
  49. another great chapter. awesome read

    ReplyDelete
  50. Another brilliant chapter. I am so glad I found this blog. Your work is beyond amazing. I love the fact that now I am able see things from Christian's pov. While reading the trilogy many of times I found myself wondering what was going on in Christian's mind and thanks to you I am able to go back and enjoying the book even more. Thank you for great reads. Keep up the good work. I am looking forward and I can't wait till the next chapter.

    ReplyDelete
  51. Every day, I check your blog for another never-disappointing chapter. Yesterday while sharing this blog site with a friend (who also cannot get enough Fifty), I saw that another chapter was posted!! I couldn't wait to get home and read it privately with no distractions!! I love how you have developed Christian and how we can see into his beautiful mind what he is thinking. The build up is so suspenseful to when he finally admits to loving Ana. Thank you yet again for your interesting writing. Please keep it going!! Love, love!!

    ReplyDelete
  52. I was thrilled when I checked and saw there was a new chapter! It was AMAZING just as every chapter is. Thank you for continuing with CPOV, its exactly what I need. Keep up the amazing work!!

    ReplyDelete
  53. I found this amazing keep up the good work cant wait for the next chapter.

    ReplyDelete
  54. Absolutely loving these chapters in Christian POV very well done , can't wait for next chapter :-)

    ReplyDelete
  55. Once again Amazing, I don't know who you do it :) can't wait for more!!!!!!

    ~Annalee

    ReplyDelete
  56. I love reading your work! The way you write Christian is amazing. Thank you for giving us his pov. I look forward to reading more chapters.....soon, I hope.
    -Missy

    ReplyDelete
  57. You never disappoint~every chapter is brillant!
    Thank you!!

    ReplyDelete
  58. Found this earlier this month. I have now read through it twice! I think you capture Christian perfectly. I look forward to new chapters as they come available.

    ReplyDelete
  59. After reading the trilogy numerous times, I've now read your chapters a few times slso, they are great! Please don't stop, I hope you finish the entire story, I can't get enough of their story and I'm loving it from Christian's POV. I love Grace's story also. Keep going you are doing a fabulous job!! I can't wait for more chapters, especially thru Book 2!

    ReplyDelete
  60. Just fantastic love love love this :-) x

    ReplyDelete
  61. How long until your next post?

    ReplyDelete
  62. I just started reading all the chapters this weekend and I couldn't put it down I love how you capture is pov!! Can't wait to read more!! Love love it!

    ReplyDelete
  63. The way you capture christian point of view its just like reading it from E.L James writing.I'm always looking out for the new chapters so keep them coming. Thank you

    ReplyDelete
  64. Loving your chapters..........
    Doing an amazing job....
    You have 640,000 people watching you now....
    How amazing is that
    I believe by the time you have finished book 2 you will have 1 million viewers to this story..........
    Keep going
    Can't wait for the next chapter........
    Thanks Jen

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Hi Jen. I can't believe the total page views, but you are right, it is amazing! I guess everyone just loves Christian, don't they?

      Delete
    2. No I think they just love your version on the story.........Keep going.......
      730,000 and getting bigger and bigger....
      You are doing a wonderful job....
      Please keep going!!!!
      Chapter 34 is amazing.....as I thought it would be.......
      Chapter 35 about the mask ball should be even better.........
      Thank you......

      Delete
  65. fantasic job of giving christians POV spot on
    love very minute of is can't stop reading
    keep up the good work
    looking forward to NEXT chapter..hint hint
    carol

    ReplyDelete
  66. omg all thesee chapters are amazing! keep writing! i need my fix of CG xx

    ReplyDelete
  67. Please don't stop writing ;)
    I love what ur doing here..l

    ReplyDelete
  68. When are you posting another chapter ..can't wait!! You are doing an amazing job!!

    ReplyDelete
  69. When are you posting another chapter ..can't wait!! You are doing an amazing job!!

    ReplyDelete
  70. when is the next update pleeeeeze?

    ReplyDelete
  71. PLEASE POST THE NEXT CHAPTER SOON CAN'T WAIT!

    ReplyDelete
  72. I have read all of the chapters you have written so far over the past 3 days. They are absolutely fantastic!! I have forwarded this blog address to my fellow 50 shades lover friends. I can't wait to read more!!!! Keep up the marvelous work!

    ReplyDelete
  73. i just can't get enough of Christian and Anastasia!! Keep it up! can't wait for the next chapters!!! ^_^ --- Kate_36

    ReplyDelete
  74. i agree with everyone keep the good work up we need more chapters !!!!!! wel done x

    ReplyDelete
  75. QUESTION? CAN U POST QUICKER THAN A WEEK?..........PLEASE

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Well, here's the thing. It takes time to write a good quality, nice long chapter, especially as there's always research and reading to do. I also have a life outside the blog, which has been crazy busy recently. So sometimes I post a midweek chapter, but not always.

      But thanks for your support and enthusiasm for my work :)

      Delete
  76. U have done an AMAZING job writing these! Keep it up love reading them :) also loved looking through Graces eyes :)

    ReplyDelete
  77. Love all of it can't wait till the next chapter...keep it up I do hope u finish the entire book..keep it coming...gotta get my GREY on!! Your work is amazing!!!

    ReplyDelete
  78. Can't wait for the new chapter ...I keep coming back to check if there is anything new...an Nooooooo!!!!!
    Please!! I'm hooked :)
    Amazing job! Pleasse continue writing!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I am the same way. I have been looking every morning on my lunch breaks and before bed I am dying for a new chapter. PLEASE PLEASE update soon

      Delete
  79. Another awesome chapter. I can't wait for the next one.

    ReplyDelete
  80. Amazing job! I can't wait for the next chapter! Waiting patiently...

    ReplyDelete
  81. It's been a week.... i'm going through withdrawls.... PLEASE POST THE NEXT CHAPTER SOON!!!!!!! "Christian... Please"

    ReplyDelete
  82. Ah hello! Next chapter please! Getting bored?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Sorry you got bored waiting, but my life outside of the blog has been just crazy busy lately. But there is now a nice long chapter 34 for you to read.

      Delete
  83. Love your writing... I have shared your blog with many fellow fifty shades lovers... Christy :)

    ReplyDelete
  84. I'm dying here! I need a new chapter to read!

    ReplyDelete
  85. As always amazing chapter!!! I'm dying for the next chapter. I literally check everyday anxiously/patiently waiting!!! Cannot wait for next one!

    ReplyDelete
  86. Love it!!!!! I can't wait for your next chapters and see what you come up with...........especially since there are so many great parts coming up, the party at his parents house, when elena confronts ana and when he realizes leila is still in the apartment, I know anything you come up with will be great!!!! So waiting patiently til then.

    P.S. will you write more in Grace POV???? I would love to see her POV during the the charity dinner......

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yes, I will be updating Grace's story. Once I've covered the masked ball from Christian's pov, then I plan to recount it from his mom's pov.

      Delete
    2. YEAH!!! SO EXCITED !!!

      Delete
  87. Really enjoying. Cant wait for the next chapter!!!!

    ReplyDelete
  88. Next chapter pleeeeeease!

    ReplyDelete
  89. Dude....this is so freaking awesome....i love these books...and I love this blog spot...can't wait til the next chapter..I'm back on the first book for now please please hurry I'm goin crazy here..team Damon for Christian Grey...:-)

    ReplyDelete
  90. This is amazing! :)

    ReplyDelete
  91. Im addicted!!!!!!! Whilst sitting in on a cold and miserable evening here in the UK I look forward to the heat that these chapters give me night after night!! Keep going please :-) xxx

    ReplyDelete
  92. Im addicted!!!!!!! Whilst sitting in on a cold and miserable evening here in the UK I look forward to the heat that these chapters give me night after night!! Keep going please :-) xxx

    ReplyDelete
  93. Just found your blog! Love it. I'am now playing catch up. Thank God I'm a fast reader. You are doing a GREAT job with Christian POV.

    ReplyDelete
  94. Re-reading from the beginning and had forgotten the bit of Ana putting together a playlist too. Think Ana could benefit from some Kate Bush tracks - Wuthering Heights and The Sensual World for their literary references. Running Up That Hill and of course The Man With The Child in His Eyes

    ReplyDelete

Thanks for taking the time to leave a comment. I read each and every one.