08 February 2013

Chapter 53 - Viva Las Vegas

No, Elliot, absolutely not,” I insist, as we sit having lunch together at my club. 

I’ve asked my brother to be best man at my wedding, so when he rang first thing this morning to ask if we could urgently meet up to discuss some vital arrangements, I assumed he wanted some clarification regarding his responsibilities for the wedding, and rearranged my schedule to fit in lunch with him. 

I’m horrified to discover his agenda this lunchtime consists solely of organizing some sleazy bachelor party for me.

“Oh come on, Christian. This really is the one time you should relax and let yourself go – it’s your last chance to have some legit sexy fun before the little lady gets to clamp the handcuffs on you,” Elliot tries to cajole me, not realizing the irony of the words he’s chosen.

“You’ve got all these lost years to make up for, so a bachelor party weekend in Las Vegas is an absolute must, because let me tell you, they don’t call it Sin City for nothing. 

I’ve already been busy getting a group together, and I thought we could fly down to Vegas in your private jet. Ethan’s up for it, as is your boat guy Mac and Claude as well, and I’m sure we could twist Taylor’s arm to join in. 

I’ve got a contact who I guarantee can arrange the hottest strippers and pole dancers for us, and we could take in a few card games, throw a few dice, you know the kind of thing.  

"I’ll make sure we have plenty of booze on hand to loosen you up, and maybe even some weed to really relax you. Just leave me to take care of everything, so all you’ll have to do is sit back and have a great time. 

One thing I can tell you from experience is that handing out lots of generous tips to the lap dancers always ensures you get a very personal service, if you catch my drift, which will certainly be no problem for a gazillionaire like you. 

Oh, and in case you don’t already know, the rule is ‘what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas’ so you don’t have to worry about anything getting back.”

There’s a gleam of excitement in his eyes and he’s getting quite animated as he tells me his plans. But I have to burst his bubble.

“Elliot, you’re not listening to me. You might be literally drooling at the thought of a trip to Vegas, but I most certainly am not. And in any case, I can’t possibly spare a whole weekend away. I’ve got far too much that needs organizing before the wedding and our honeymoon.”

I truly can’t think of anything worse than a Vegas bachelor party. I’d rather stick hot needles in my eyes. Besides, I really don’t want to be away from Ana for a whole weekend.

“Don’t be such a spoilsport, Christian. Let your staff handle all that shit, that’s what you employ them for isn’t it? As your best man, it’s my duty to organize a truly awesome bachelor party for you, so you can’t turn me down.”

I sigh in resignation. I know only too well what Elliot is like, and that he is not going to give up on this. I decide damage limitation is the best option.

“I guess I can free up one evening, so we could have a nice dinner together here in Seattle instead. I’d like that,” I suggest.

“Oh man! You are so fucking boring. Are you sure you wouldn’t rather go to Vegas? Please? It would be so much fun,” Elliot tries pleading in his most endearing way, as he tips his head to one side and grins at me.

“Fun for whom, Elliot? You know I hate all that kind of thing. I appreciate the thought, I really do, but please, let’s just do something civilized here in Seattle. And when I get back from my honeymoon, maybe we could go hiking together - we haven’t done that for a while, have we?” I offer this olive branch, as I really don’t want to fall out with him.

“I just knew you were going to say something like that, but I had to give it my best shot, didn’t I?” he sighs.  “You know, you really need to live more dangerously and try pushing your limits. You’re always so fucking controlled all the time, but you should let go, and try out some new experiences. There’s a whole kinky world of sexy fun out there that you ought to at least try, because once you’re married to your sweet little Anastasia, I know you’ll stay true to her. I don’t want you to miss out or have any regrets, so I was just trying to offer you one last chance before it was too late.”

If he only knew the truth about me and kinky fun, but thank fuck he doesn’t. At least it proves Kate kept her word about not telling him about the Dom/sub paperwork she came across in my jacket pocket in Ana’s old room.

“Trust me, Elliot, I'm not missing out on anything by marrying Anastasia, and I will never have any regrets on that score. I’ll check my schedule and let you know what evening will work for us to spend an evening together before the wedding,” I promise.

“Okay. I guess I'm going to have to live with that. I just hope Kate’s having better luck arranging Ana’s bachelorette party,” he sighs.

“Bachelorette party?”

“Yeah, Kate’s maid of honor as you know, so she’s planning to have lunch with Ana today to discuss all the arrangements,” he informs me.

“What bachelorette party? What arrangements? How come I don’t know anything about this?” I can feel my temper rising. 

I’ve been busy making all kinds of vital arrangements regarding Ana’s security and yet I’m being kept out of the loop about something like this? I didn’t even know she was having lunch with Kate today.

“Oh, Ana doesn't know anything about it, or at least she won’t have done until this morning. Kate and I decided we’d tackle you both today to get something sorted as there’s so little time. What’s the big rush about getting married anyhow? Ana’s not…?”

“No, of course she’s not,” I scowl at him. As if he needs to ask, the number of times I've lectured him in the past about not taking risks.

 “What is Kate proposing for this supposed bachelorette party for Ana?”

“Well, she’s pretty keen on a Vegas party for the ladies too. Apparently there are whole packages you can book that include male strippers for bachelorette parties. Kate mentioned a film I should watch - Magic Mike, I think it was, because it has lots of guys stripping off for bachelorette parties.  So something like that I guess.”

“No! No way is Ana going to Vegas to get drunk and ogle naked men or have them pawing her!”

Elliot stares at me, as I’ve practically yelled at him.

“Easy there bro, it’s just a bit of harmless fun. Scared of a bit of competition in the male eye candy department, are we?”

“No, it’s not that. It’s just Ana is so naïve and trusting. She’ll be put at far too much risk.”

“Oh Christian, you worry too much. She’ll be fine, and besides, she’ll have Kate with her to look after her.”

“Fat lot of good she’ll be,” I scoff. “Don’t you remember the night we went to find Ana at that student bar in Portland? Kate was with Ana then, but it didn’t stop her getting so drunk she couldn’t fight off unwelcome advances. If I hadn't turned up when I did…”

“But everything turned out fine in the end, didn’t it? You got your girl, and I got mine. We both got lucky.”

“I just don’t want anyone else having the opportunity to get lucky with Anastasia ever again,” I tell my brother.

There is no way I’m allowing Ana to go to any kind of bachelorette party in Vegas or anywhere else come to that, and I'm furious that Kate has gone ahead and initiated all this without even thinking to consult me, not giving the slightest thought about the risk to Ana’s safety.

I know Elliot seems pretty keen on Kate, but I’m finding I really don’t like these Kavanagh women at all. Diane - the mother - is going out of her way to keep the wedding dress design secret from me. 

Despite his best attempts, even Barney couldn’t hack into her computers to gain access to her files, which means her systems are impressively encrypted and secure. I suppose at least it means no one else will be able to access them either to get a sneaky preview of her design for Ana’s wedding dress. 

The media have been going fucking nuts since word got out about our wedding, with the paparazzi hanging about wherever we go, trying to get a shot of us that they can then sell to the highest bidder. 

So that’s another reason to avoid a Vegas trip for either of us. Christ knows what kind of pictures they’d get.

“Well, I guess it’s up to Ana to decide what she wants to do, isn’t it?” Elliot shrugs, as he finishes off his lunch. 

I just coolly smile back at him. Oh no it fucking isn’t. But there is no point in discussing this further with my brother. I will be taking it up with Ana first chance I get.

“So, what’s gone down between Mom and Elena? I thought they were meant to be good friends, but Mom practically turned puce the other day, then ran out of the room when I mentioned about her coming to your wedding, and Dad gave me one of his glares as if I’d said something really stupid. 
Then Mia hissed something about how could I be so insensitive when she’d been such a bitch. So I asked Kate, and she just said she always thought Elena was a nasty snob, before she started going on about how she’s nothing better than a social climber who married well, so who is she to talk when she’s basically just a beautician. I don’t get it. What have I missed? Why am I out of the loop here, why has everyone turned on Elena?”

Shit. This is awkward, so I decide the best policy is to tell him the truth – just not the whole truth. I tell him the abridged and sanitized version the rest of the family has been given.

“I guess you must have been too busy getting drunk as usual, for you not to have heard how at my birthday party Elena snubbed Ana and accused her of only being after me for my money. Naturally, Mom was furious, and the family is closing ranks to freeze Elena out. So now you see why she and Mom are not exactly the best of friends anymore.”

“Whoa! Elena actually said that about Ana to Mom?”

“No, she said it to Ana actually. So Ana threw her drink in Elena’s face,” I chuckle, finally seeing a fragment of humor in the situation, and actually finding it good to confide in my brother, as he’s about the only person I can talk to about this, apart from Ana.

“No way! How did I not know about any of this! Ana’s quite the feisty little thing under that deceptively quiet exterior isn’t she? You’d better watch out there, bro. How the fuck did I miss all this drama?” Elliot’s face is a picture of incredulity.

“Mom wanted it kept quiet, she didn’t want to spoil the party. So, under the circumstances, I think it’ll probably be wise if you don’t mention Elena’s name in front of Mom again.”

“No, right, I won’t. But what a bitch! To say that about Ana, when you couldn’t meet a nicer, sweeter, more honest girl. Oh, and of course that explains why you kicked off about the prenup with Dad, because it hit a sensitive spot after what Elena said to Ana. I totally get that now,” Elliot works it out. 

He’s really not such a dense guy when you get down to it, and the way he didn’t hesitate for even a nanosecond about supporting Ana makes me glad I’ve got him for a brother. So I confide in him how I feel about Dad, because I know he will understand, having been on the receiving end of his disapproval more than a few times himself over the years.

“I think Dad’s being really insensitive. He’s so used to being the efficient professional lawyer, but he didn’t stop to think how suggesting a prenup would make Ana feel. I fucking hate seeing her so upset and cut up, thinking Dad sees her in the same way as Elena, when she is one of the least materialistic people I’ve ever known,” I explain.

“Yeah, your little Ana really isn’t bothered about all that, is she? Well, I think she’s perfect for you, and I know she’s going to make you very happy, and it’s about fucking time you learned to be happy after all you went through before Mom and Dad adopted you. I know we’ve never talked about it, so I don’t know any of the details, but I’ve always thought that anyone who had screaming night terrors night after night the way you did in those early years must have been through pure hell,” he says quietly.

“Sorry about that. Can’t have been easy for you tolerating an annoying little shit like me,” I joke, to try and lighten the mood, not wanting to talk about all that crap. “And then they go and dump a brat like Mia on you as well.”

“Yeah, I know. Parents eh?” Elliot’s picked up that, as usual, I don’t want to revisit that period in my life, so he quickly shifts the topic of conversation. “I’ve been out to give your new house a quick survey, and the good news is it’s basically sound. Great location, I have to say. So, once you and Ana have had a chance to talk through what you have in mind with Gia, I don’t foresee any major problems with re-modeling the existing house and making it more eco friendly.”

So we’re back on safe territory once more, after venturing uncomfortably close to too much personal shit.  

Facts and figures. Buildings. But it’s good to know I can always count on my brother Elliot’s unswerving loyal support, however crazy and inappropriate his stupid ideas about a bachelor party for me are.


“Are you going to tell me all about these plans of Kate’s for a bachelorette party in Las Vegas for you?”

Taylor is driving me back to Grey House after lunch, and I've taken the opportunity to quickly call Ana’s cell, knowing I’ll be heading straight into a meeting when I get back.  I'm not in the best of moods, not at all happy about any of this, and am determined to nip any plans they may have been making in the bud.

“Hello, Christian. Nice to hear from you. Excuse me, but what are you talking about? What party?”

“You heard me. A Sin City bachelorette party. You just had lunch with Kate to discuss it.”

“No, I didn’t, actually. Kate called about having lunch today, but I had a Commissioning Editors meeting I couldn’t put off, so I'm seeing her tomorrow instead. Is that what she wanted? And how come you know about it before I do?”

“I just had lunch with Elliot. He and Kate have been hatching plans for us it seems. Bachelor and bachelorette parties. In Vegas. Can you think of anything worse? At least now you’re forewarned in preparation for turning her down,” I smile, feeling a bit happier as nothing has been set in motion yet.

“Why would I want to do that, Christian?” Ana queries.

“Because you won’t be going to any bachelorette party, of course.”

“You already decided that for me, have you?”

“Don’t be stupid Ana. It wouldn’t be appropriate for you to attend, surely you can see that.”

“Why? Because it might be fun? Because I might actually enjoy myself?”

“Ana, this is not up for discussion. You will not be going to any kind of a bachelorette party. It’s far too risky.”

“You’re right, Christian. I agree, this topic is not up for discussion.”

“Ana… don’t forget we’ve got the appointment with Reverend Walsh straight after work tonight,” I try to remind her, but it’s too late. She’s hung up.

I see Taylor glancing at me in the rear view mirror, maybe half expecting me to order him to drive me over to the SIP offices to have this out with Ana. 

I’m tempted, but decide to wait until later, as this meeting I’m about to attend concerning the shipyard deal in Korea is pretty important. 

I’ve told Ana there will be no bachelorette party, so that’s an end to the matter as far as I'm concerned.


We’re sitting in Reverend Walsh’s small office, enduring a long lecture from him on the subject of what a huge commitment marriage is. 

I’m tolerating this because I get it – he doesn’t really know us, and I respect the fact that he’s taking his responsibilities seriously, and I know he's genuine because he came up clean in all the in depth background checks Welch ran. 

It’s his job to make sure we aren’t rushing into this just because Ana wants to wear some fancy wedding dress, or because we’ve made some lucrative deal to sell our story to one of the glossy magazines. 

But he does rather labor the point, especially when he learns that we’ve only known each other for a short time.  

Unfortunately, I was on my cell practically the whole time Taylor was driving us over here straight from work, dealing with critical work issues. Aside from trying to set up the shipyard deal, there are also problems with transporting the latest food shipments out to the Sudan. 

So we didn’t have a chance to talk before our appointment with the minister, and Ana has been ominously quiet so far while he’s been talking.

“I’ve even had some couples rejecting the whole concept of ‘Till death do us part’. Instead, they want to opt for preemptive phrases such as ‘for as long as our love shall last,’ ‘until our time together is over,’ and ‘for as long as our marriage shall serve the greatest good’. The rationale offered is ‘Don’t make a promise you can’t keep’. But when a husband and wife do not honor marriage for what God intends it to be – a lifelong union – they lay the foundation for marital failure. When marriage is not viewed as ‘till death do us part’ it becomes increasingly easy to end it rather than working  at it to solve the problem with love. Vows must not be lightly made nor conveniently broken.”

I agree with his sentiments, and it seems he is a traditionalist, a man after my own heart. So I’m feeling pretty confident he’s going to support my views about having Ana say she will obey me.

“Reverend, I can assure you I wholeheartedly support your views with regard to taking our wedding vows seriously. And I don’t hold with messing around with words that have served very well for hundreds of years,” I say, as I smile and take Ana’s hand in mine. 
“That’s why my preference is for us to use the original, unaltered 1662 prayer book version of the vows.”

“Really? That is unusual these days. By unaltered, I take it you mean that you wish Anastasia to promise to obey you?”

“That’s correct, Reverend.”

“And is that also your wish, Anastasia, to include the word ‘obey’ in your vows?” he turns to look at her, as she frowns and withdraws her hand from mine.

“No, it isn’t, actually, Reverend. I think using that term is a throwback to the dark ages, when a wife was treated merely as her husband’s possession. That’s no longer the case today – or at least it shouldn’t be. It's not as if we live in the times of Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth Bennett, is it? I look on marriage as an equal partnership between two people who love and respect each other, where everything is openly discussed and agreed, without one partner being considered superior to the other and having the right to order the other around, or tell them what they can or can’t do. So I don’t see why a wife should have to promise to obey her husband, and I will not be saying that word.”

She turns her steely blue gaze on me, as she defiantly tilts her chin up in the air, and squares her shoulders, ready to do battle.

“Anastasia! I thought we’d already clarified this issue,” I glare at her. I’m furious with her defiant attitude. All I'm trying to do is my duty as her husband – to take care of her and look after her. Why is she being so difficult by willfully choosing to misconstrue my intentions, trying to imply that I'm still trying to treat her as a submissive?

“You clarified your position. Now I'm clarifying mine,” she states firmly.

“It’s for the best, Ana. I need to be able to look after you and protect you. Please, you have to trust me on this.” I meet her steely gaze with my own, determined I’m not going to back down. I have to make a stand, because I cannot contemplate our future life without the necessary structure in place to protect her. 

Anastasia is the most precious thing in my life. I cannot take risks in any way with her safety. I cannot live that way. I have to be allowed to protect her in any way I see fit.

“Well, back at you, Grey. You’re just going to have to learn to trust me to look after myself.” But you’re just an innocent little girl. You have no idea what could happen to you. And I want you to stay as innocent about all the ugliness in the world as possible.

Reverend Walsh clears his throat, and starts speaking to try and break the impasse between us.

“If I may just interject here, before things get too heated? The origins of the word obey can be traced back to the Latin dictionary and means ‘to listen deeply’, while the Oxford dictionary defines it as to ‘do what one is told’. But what does it really mean when included in the marriage vows? The origin of the wedding vows used in Anglican services can be traced back to the Middle Ages to the Book of Common Prayer, which was approved by Henry VIII. Henry's approval must raise some doubt about the integrity of the marriage vows as more than anyone in history he is infamous for flouting his vows. Thankfully, today a beheading is not the result of a wife's disobedience.”

He tries smiling at us with his little joke, but neither of us laughs, so he continues.

“Biblical references to the implications of marriage vows are also ambiguous. Paul, in a letter to the church in Ephesus, directed that it was necessary for ‘wives to submit to their husbands as to the Lord’. But while this sounds very much like typical male domination, he also instructed everyone, male and female to ‘submit to one another’, which suggests a distinctly modern view of an equal partnership. 
The problem is that today we equate obedience with power and domination. But in the Bible submission or obedience is more about outlooks than individual rights. It is a desire to be unselfish and not to demand our own way and does not imply that once married a woman becomes a second-class citizen who relinquishes all of her rights. Equally, it certainly does not give a husband the right to demand that whatever he says goes. Rather it suggests a desire to accept the other's wishes not out of subjection but willingly, because of love.

“There, you see, Ana? That’s exactly what I’ve been trying to explain to you.” I think the minister has just proved my point very nicely. So surely now Ana will agree to my wishes?

“Okay Christian, so why aren't you planning to use that word in your vows? Why is it only me who has to promise to obey?”

“Now you’re being ridiculous! In our marriage we will have different roles to play, so that requires different commitments from each of us. As your husband, it will be my duty to shield and protect you, and as I keep explaining, in order for me to do that, you have to promise to comply with whatever I need you to do.”

“I disagree. Whatever the issue, you should always talk things through with me to explain things, and I will then make up my own mind about the appropriate response. Such as whether or not I want to party in Vegas with Kate,” she hisses.

“Oh, so that’s what all this is about, is it?” I roll my eyes. Fucking Kate Kavanagh, interfering and stirring things up between us again.

Reverend Walsh clears his throat again.

 “It seems to me that the two of you need to go away to discuss this matter further. If you haven’t yet managed to come to any sort of an agreement on the basic issue of your wedding vows, I would suggest that possibly you aren’t as ready as you might think to make this kind of commitment. Why don’t you come and see me again next week, after you’ve both had a chance to reflect on matters and calmly discuss them?”

And so we leave, and I am so angry about her whole attitude I barely hold myself together as we make our way back out to where Taylor is waiting in the Audi for us, and I don’t trust myself to even talk to Ana on the ride back, as she sits there silently with her arms folded.

I head straight for my study as soon as we get back to Escala.

“I have to work. Tell Mrs. Jones to bring a tray of food to my study. Don’t wait up for me,” I tell Ana.

I’m still so mad with her that I  have to have some space on my own before I risk giving into the compelling urge I feel building within me to try and force Ana to comply with my wishes. 

I know that would be totally the wrong way to handle this. So I decide maybe the best thing is to give her some time on her own to reflect and realize how important this issue is to me.


“Mr. Grey, there’s a Mr. Dan McAllister waiting downstairs and he’s insisting he has to see you. He’s been told repeatedly you’re not available, but apparently he just keeps asking for you to be told he’s here, that he’ll just wait until you are free however long it takes, and he’s refusing to leave the building. He’s been there all morning already, apparently. Do you want security called to remove him?” Andrea asks me.

“McAllister? For fuck’s sake, why wasn’t I told about this sooner? Put back my next meeting with Johnson from accounts until this afternoon, and tell them to send McAllister straight up,” I bark at Andrea.

I’ve been in a shitty mood with everyone for the last two days – even shittier than my usual short tempered self. 

Ana and I still aren’t speaking. She’s still sulking and hasn’t come to her senses about the vows. Each evening, I’ve been working in my study until well into the early hours, so by the time I get to bed, she’s asleep. 

She seems to be sleeping peacefully as I watch her, but I know she’s upset because she’s been talking in her sleep more than usual. Most of what she says is incomprehensible, but I’ve caught a few words.

‘Obey… one word …. won’t …. can’t… Christian … obey … no …equal …talk…’

Why does she have to fight me this way? Why is she so stubborn? 

Why are you, Grey? Two stubborn fools? 

And Kate refused to discuss this ridiculous idea of hers about taking Ana to Vegas when I rang her, to try and explain the security risks she’d be exposing my fiancée to. She said it was up to Ana, and that I should butt out and mind my own business! Fucking nerve of the woman!

I’ve been for a run with Taylor very early both mornings, just as I always used to, followed by a work out in the gym, before showering and heading straight to the office for my prearranged breakfast meetings. 

So Ana and I have barely seen each other, much less spoken.

How long she can keep this up for I don’t know, but I really miss her, and I'm feeling pretty miserable at a time when I thought we’d be so happy.

I look up as McAllister strolls in, baseball cap in hand, dressed in plaid shirt and jeans, just as he was the day he gave us the lift back to Seattle in his truck. He whistles as he looks round my large office with its impressive view.

“Mr. McAllister. I've only just been informed of your presence, so I apologize that you were kept waiting,” I say, as we shake hands.  “It’s good to see you again. Please take a seat.”

“I told you before, call me Dan. No need to apologize, I can see you must be a real busy guy. Quite some set up you’ve got yourself here, Mr. Grey. Very impressive,” he replies, as he sits himself opposite me at my desk.

“Thank you, Dan. And please, it’s Christian. So what brings you here to see me today?”

“Well, I wanted to drop by to say thank you for everything you’ve been doing lately to help me and Betty. I wouldn't usually accept help from strangers, I don’t like being in anyone’s debt, but that Ros sure is one persuasive lady. So when she said I might be able to help you out in return, I thought it was about time I came to see you to find out how I can repay you.”

I vaguely remember Ros mentioning something about coercing him to accept our assistance, but for the life of me I can’t quite remember what it was.

“And how is your wife?” I ask.

“She’s pretty good, as it happens. Booked in to have her procedure next week.  That Dr. Archer at Harborview is a real nice guy, and he said not to worry about Betty’s bill because it was being taken care of when I asked about it. I guess that would probably be something to do with you?”

He stares hard at me, and I know there is no point in lying to him.

“My mother, actually. She’s a doctor, Dr. Archer’s an old friend, and I think he owes her a favor.”

“I see. So I’m guessing maybe your father is this Mr. Grey, the lawyer who’s scaring the pants off all the loan sharks because they were threatening me with all sorts of extra charges when my loans suddenly all got paid off?”

“Yes, that’s my dad. He has a particular interest in that type of unlawful practice, so he jumped at the chance to take them on.”

“And the guys who turned up in a Grey Construction pickup truck to fix our roof?”

“They’d be from my brother Elliot’s company.”

“And the offer of free meals delivered to my door by Grey Catering when Betty goes into hospital?”

“My sister Mia is just setting up her own business, so I thought maybe you wouldn’t mind being a guinea pig for her?”

“And then, suddenly out of the blue after all these years, the Veterans Association contacted us offering all kinds of support if we needed it following the loss of our son. Something about our name being forwarded to them by a Mr. Taylor? Let me guess, another family member of yours?”

“Not exactly, but he is in my employ.”

“I guessed as much. Quite some backup you’ve got going on here, Christian.”

“Everyone was extremely grateful for the way you helped Ros and me out when we needed it the most. They're just helping repay the debt we feel we owe you.”

“Well, I don’t see as I did anything out of the ordinary, but I can’t deny it’s good to see a close family like yours. And I bet they all pull together if someone gets on the wrong side of any of you, don’t they?” He grins and winks at me.

“You could say that,” I smile back wryly, thinking of Elena and the way she’s being frozen out.  

“Then on top of all that, Ros tells me my new truck, complete with McAllister livery,  has been ordered, and as soon as it’s ready, she’ll go through the business plan she’s drawn up for me.”

“That’s correct.”

“So my question today, Christian, is what do you get out of all this? When all these things connected to you started happening, I did a bit of reading up, so I’ve figured out that despite being so young, you are the main man behind all this. It’s obvious you’re very astute, and the investment you’re putting into McAllister Trucking goes way beyond repaying a simple favor.  I might not have the best business brain in the world, but I'm not stupid. So, I repeat – what’s in it for you?”

I look at him for a moment, as I rub my chin in contemplation, before I start explaining.

“You’re right, Dan. I don’t believe in investing money in lost causes. A large part of my success is down to the fact that I have the ability to see clearly where problems lie within a business, and what it will take to fix them. I logically weigh up the cost of any investment required to fix these problems, against the probability of turning the business around to make it successful and turn a healthy profit.”

“That makes sense so far. But I’m still not sure where McAllister Trucking fits into all this.”

 “Dan, you know the trucking business inside out – that is your strength. But you are hopeless with the paperwork and administration side of things – that is undoubtedly your weakness, but one that Ros can easily fix for you once she’s organized a simple and easy business plan for you to follow. As for where you fit into things? Well, recently, we have been having problems with the trucking company we currently employ to ensure shipments of essential food supplies to third world companies reach our ships in time, meaning a lot of it is going to waste. So I need someone who knows all about trucking to solve this issue; someone I know I can trust. Ros and I think you could be that man. But until you have a suitable truck, we can’t make any definite plans. Therefore I saw it as a prudent investment to get a new truck ordered for you without delay.”

I’ve remembered now what it was Ros suggested to me. McAllister Trucking could actually prove to be really useful to us. Food shipments have to be transported for shipping within a tight time frame before they become expired - I refuse to supply anything that does not conform to the highest standards just because the people it is intended for happen to be extremely poor.

“I see. Now you’re talking my language. You’ve got my full attention, because that sounds real interesting,” he grins widely

I can see he still hasn’t been to the dentist yet, but I guess it’s only been a couple of weeks since the dreadful day I thought I was going to die in Charlie Tango. So much has happened since then.

“I thought it might. So you see, Dan, I think we could have a mutually beneficial arrangement. I get reliable transportation; you get a decent, regular income. A win/win situation, wouldn’t you say?”

“Sounds good to me. So as soon as I get my new truck, you’ll just let me know the details of these loads you need transported?”

“Yes, I’ve delegated this task to Ros, as you know her personally, and she will be in touch again shortly. She will keep me informed every step of the way.”

“Yes, of course I know you’re a very busy man, Christian, because I’ve been reading about how you’re getting married in a couple of weeks, aren’t you?”

“That’s correct,” I try to smile, although the way things are between Ana and me at the moment, it’s not looking too good.

“So, is this the young lady you were in such a hurry to get back to Seattle for?” he points at the photo I have on my desk, the one that was taken of us at the charity ball. “I can certainly see why. She sure is one pretty lady, and you’re a very lucky young man to be marrying her.”

“Yes, I am,” I agree.

“Well, I expect  there are all sorts of folk giving you all sorts of advice at the moment, son. But the one piece of advice I was given when I was about to get married that I've tried to live by, even when things get a bit rocky from time to time, is ‘Never let the sun go down on an argument’. I think it’s from the Bible, so I guess the words have stood the test of time. I’ve found it’s always best to get things sorted, don’t let them fester for days on end, because you never know what might happen. You wouldn’t ever want your last words to each other to be angry ones, would you?”

“Sounds like very sensible advice,” I agree, trying to put a brave face on things. 

Festering for days – that’s exactly what’s been happening between Ana and myself. Dan is right. We have to sort things out between us.


“Anastasia, we need to talk. We have to agree on the wording of our vows ahead of our next meeting with Reverend Walsh.”

I haven’t disappeared into my study this evening. I’m sat waiting in the kitchen when she comes in from work.

“That depends on what you want to talk about Christian. If all you want to do is continue to order me around so you can get your own way about the vows, then there is nothing for us to talk about. Unless your attitude has changed, there is little point in us having any kind of a discussion.”

So she is not going to make this easy. I take a deep breath to remain calm.

 “Why are you being so incalcitrant on this issue?”

“Why are you?”

“I'm responsible for your safety. That’s far too important an issue to ignore or leave to chance.”

“No, I am responsible for my safety. It’s my life, and it’s up to me to choose what risks I'm prepared to take.”

“So you don’t think I should have any say in the matter? Even though becoming my wife has a huge impact on how you will be living your life, because you will be at risk of being kidnapped and held to ransom.”

“Christian, you worry too much! The risks are tiny, and I have to be able to live as normal a life as possible. I want to still be able to have fun.”

“And of course you will, as long as you allow me to take all the necessary precautions. Then we can both relax and get on with our lives.”

“You mean have me shadowed twenty four hours a day, with not just one, but two great big shadows? How am I supposed to relax and pretend everything is normal?”

“You’ll soon get used to it and forget they’re even there,” I assure her. I always knew Ana would hate having a close protection detail, but it is essential.

“I hate the feeling they’ll be watching everything I do and no doubt reporting it all back to you,” she complains petulantly as she glares at me with her arms folded. 

“Well if you haven’t got anything to hide, I don’t see what the problem is.”

“That’s not the point, Christian! All your obsession with control manages to achieve is to make me feel like doing something bad on purpose just to prove I still can. Like you ordering me not to have a bachelorette party in Vegas. That just makes me really want to have one, when left to myself, I would probably have told Kate not to bother. And she’s furious with you too for trying to interfere, so naturally she’s encouraging me to go ahead with it. Don’t you see, you make me want to rebel when you try so hard to restrict me?”

“Now you are being really illogical and perverse. You’re acting like an immature teenager, wanting to do something dangerous just to prove a point.”

“And you’re acting just like my dad. Is that your new scene? Daddy Dominant and his little girl, just because I like sitting on your lap and being spanked sometimes? I’ve been reading up about all this shit, to try and understand you and see if it really is possible for someone with your needs to change.”

“No!  That’s not it at all. Look, I don’t deny that I still crave control, and I always will; it’s just part of my make up, but that’s as far as it goes. I don’t still want to be your Dominant, and I thought we’d sorted all this out. It’s not because of what Elena said to you, is it? Because I'm telling you she was wrong. I don’t need all that shit. But I do need to make sure that you are safe at all times. I can’t relax otherwise.”

“Maybe you need to talk to Dr. Flynn about this. Maybe he can suggest some relaxation techniques for you. You can’t expect to protect me every minute of every day. Life is full of risks, most of which are minuscule. You have to learn to live with them. Bottom line is I will not be promising to obey you. Deal with it.”

“But Ana…”

“I’ve a lot of work to catch up on, so I’ll be in the library. If you would be so kind as to ask Mrs. Jones to send a tray in there for me?”

And with that, she storms off in the direction of the library and closes the door firmly behind her.


“Mommy! Mommy!"

 Mommy is asleep on the floor. She has been asleep a long time. 

I brush her hair because she likes that. 

She doesn’t wake up. I shake her. Mommy! Mommy wake up! 

She lies still. She is so cold. I sleep beside Mommy. I think she is ill. I think there is something wrong with Mommy. 

The door crashes open. 

He’s here. He kicks me, and I hit my head on the floor. 

My head hurts. He calls someone and then he goes away again. He locks the door. 

I lay down beside Mommy. My head hurts. 

Now the lady policeman is here. No. No. No. Don’t touch me. Don’t touch me. Don’t touch me. I stay by Mommy. No. Stay away from me. The lady policeman has my blankie, and she grabs me. I scream. 

Mommy! Mommy! I want my Mommy! 

The words are gone. The words are gone. I can’t say the words. Mommy can’t hear me. I have no words. I have no words. I have no words. 

The words are gone.

“Christian! Christian!” I'm being woken. “I’m here. I’m here.”

I gradually wake from my nightmare, shaking and sweating as usual, although this nightmare was one of the worst I’ve had in a very long time because it felt so real.

Ana is leaning over me, her big blue eyes filled with concern and tears. Ana. My Ana. Thank God.

“You’re here,” I croak. I felt such emptiness, such intense loneliness, that it’s hard to rid myself of the fear I’ve just experienced.

“Of course I’m here,” she comforts me, as she hugs me tightly. It feels so good as I feel her warmth seeping into me.

“I had a dream…” I can barely whisper.

“I know. I'm here, I'm here,” she croons.

“Ana.” The relief I feel because she is here is overwhelming. She is my life, my light, my everything. She is my reason for existing. 

Why have we been fighting for so long? Why have I been so foolish as to risk losing her?

“Please let’s not fight,” I beg. I wrap my arms closely around her, as she entwines her legs in mine. We need to be as one. She feels it as much as I do, I know she does.

“Okay,” she whispers, as she plants sweet little kisses on my chest, where she has tucked her head under my chin.

“The vows. No obeying. I can do that. We’ll find a way.” Stupid, stupid words. I’ve risked losing everything over one stupid word. I might as well be that mute little boy again, if I let one obstinate word destroy everything I’ve found with Ana.

“Yes. We will. We’ll always find a way,” she whispers as I kiss her sweet skin and breathe in her wonderful calming scent.

And so we make sweet, sweet love, merging our bodies to prove  that we can find a way to merge our thoughts and wishes and promises just as successfully.

I don’t own any of the Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters therein. They belong to E L James. I’m just borrowing them for fun and not for profit. Please refer to the Legal’s page for further details. This work is not to be copied or reproduced in any way without permission. 


  1. Yay! I decided to check for a post before went to bed. Sooo Happy I did. This makes me happy before the blizzard gets here. thanks for doing this:)

  2. Great chapter again. Can't wait for more to come

  3. So glad I checked this post even though its 2 am lol but it was soooo worth it! Great chpter as always, really like the whole bachelor/bachelorette party thing, Magic Mike wooo! Can't wait for the next one, Thanks again : )

  4. WOW!! This is amazing. BRAVO!! Well Done. I'd bet E.J. James has been enlightened with what you have done with the holes in her story.

  5. The argument felt real: "I’ve risked losing everything over one stupid word. I might as well be that mute little boy again". I wont be saying 'obey' in my vows either.

    1. It's hard to justify these days why anyone would expect the word 'obey' to appear in their vows, so writing these couple of chapters have certainly proved challenging for me!

    2. The way you wrote this chapter, one would never know that you had any difficulty at all!!!! You are a fine writer & I appreciate you :+)

  6. This is a wonderful wonderful chapter. I don't want it to end. Kinda sad when I sensed that the chapter is almost over. I can't wait for the next installment. Thank youvery much! --may

  7. I love ........ thanks

  8. Thank you for writing it this way. Love your mind. Please keep it up.

  9. One more reason to look forward to fridays:-) thank you for another amazing chapter.
    Cheers, Ann

  10. In New Zealand- Parked up with your steamy blogs, I love Fridays!! See you next week x

    1. Hello over there in New Zealand - about as far away from me as it's possible to get I think!

  11. Wow I'm glad I checked my email before going to bed. What a chapter! Vegas, showers, Magic Matt, vows and McAllister. I like the picture of Kim Catrell. She's the first one I imagined as Elena. Okay, I've had my bedtime story, time to turn out the light. Goodnight and thanks.

    Nan :D

    1. Thanks Nan. Kim Catrell's character in Sex and The City was pretty much Elena, wasn't it?

  12. Fantastic chapter. You really come into your own filling in the gaps in the story. I loved it, thank you.
    Mrs P

  13. Great,great,great! I'm from Germany and every friday morning I'm more than happy because I know that the story is going on.
    Thank you, your writing style is awesome.

  14. That was a lovely chapter and im still wiping away the tears as i read the last bit.You put so much feeling into your words,you make Christian and Anna come to life. Thankyou for these chapters they are so worth waiting for. Nina.

    1. Thanks, Georgina. It always comes back to how much they love each other, doesn't it, even when they are both being stubborn and pig headed.

  15. Loved it. love your style of writing. please tell me you have your own books I can read. truly amazing. Is it next Friday yet????
    Cheers from Land Down Under

    1. Hi down under. I'm busy writing my own book at the moment, as well as keeping up with the blog :)

    2. Yay, can't wait to read more of your work. Your awesome :)

  16. Awesome chapter!!! Loved Elliot teasing Christian about Vegas and Christian's conversation with Mr. McAllister. Looking forward to the next post...

  17. I love your version of Christian's Point of View. Your story was mentioned on another fan fiction site that I'm following about Christian and Ana. That story keeps true to the characters, but the story changes when Ana finds out she's pregnant and leaves Christian. I love that story and it leaves you begging for more. So I'd like to return the favor and share that site with your readers. You can read it at http://fiftyshadesofgreyandmore.wordpress.com/fifty-shades-meander/

    1. Sorry Anonymous....but I'm sticking to the real thing here....the other blogs that don't follow the story don't excite me. What the real thing right here.

    2. I understand...but I'd love to hear your opinion after reading just one chapter. I would be surprised if you didn't like it. ;)

    3. hmm...I will consider it....but I'm very very faithful to this blog. I don't want to be a traitor. She's the real thing here.

  18. Loved it. great work. his having control knows no bounds. You go Ana!

    1. I think Ana is starting out as she means to go on by standing her ground. It does Christian good after so many years of always getting his own way.

  19. Thank you for such a delicious chapter! I laughed, I cried, I swooned! Perfect.

  20. Excellent chapter was very happy to see Mr. Allister make a brief appearance ...like the other person wrote kinda sad I know this is the last book so my love affair with your writing will end so. :( so I will continue to enjoy your weekly posts thank you for writing!!!!

  21. Thank you for making my Friday. A great chapter love love love it. Can't wait until next Friday xxx

  22. Great writing as always! You have such a unique way of capturing Christian in every way....looking forward to next Friday =) Thank you again for doing what you do!!!!!!

  23. I can't believe how your writing manages to improve so much still, with each chapter, I think maybe you have morphed into Christian whilst writing his p o v, lol!! Although I look forward to every Friday for the next chapter, it is sad to think this is the last book :( Would you consider continuing the story, covering the pregnancy? Or will your own book be ready for us to continue appreciating your written word?? XX

    1. I have all sorts of ideas and projects going round in my head, but basically I really want to complete my own original story that I am working on to self publish later this year :)

    2. Look forward to reading it :) xx

  24. Love how you're filling the gaps! Christian always wanting to be in charge.
    bonus: Matt Bomer's ass!!

    1. Yep, I thought folk might appreciate that very nice behind of his :)

  25. I laugh hard!!! ... Magic mike. Lmao!! Its almost as if seeing Christian stripping. Hahhaha... Thanks!! This chapter is very entertaining. :)
    Hmm... Anyone picture Madonna as Elena? Hahah just a thought

    1. My first though when I saw the pics of Matt Bomer was, "Christian is stripping for Ana... Yeeeesss!"

  26. LOVED IT!!! I love the way you are writing Christian and Ana. Keep up the good work. Until next week.
    Thank you,

  27. Just wondering... If you ever come across Emine's blog on Christian POV. Reading yours reminded me of hers in someway.

    1. Sorry, I'm not familiar with it. I don't really read any other blogs that have similar story lines at the moment, so that I don't ever run the risk of other folks ideas seeping into my head.

    2. Just shows how deep you both go to understand CG i guess. Look forward to next friday :)

  28. Love Fridays i was up at two in da morn so i could read it :) cant wait for the next ch.

  29. I love the way you are writing about Christian and Ana. Thank you for going into detail about the prewedding issues. I really hope you would consider continuing the story, covering the pregnancy also.

    1. Oh yes, I can't wait to write about the first time Christian holds his new born son.

    2. I'm totally so anxious to see that chapter!!!! That I'm sure like several other chapters will be tearjerkers where a box of tissues are needed!!!! I anxiously will await that excellent read :+) Until next time........

  30. Love your blog. Thank you so much for posting an extra long chapter which covers a lot of ground. The magic mike pic and references seriously had me laughing so hard. Seeing Matt Bomer pumping is too perfect for the discussion about bachelorette parties. Thank you for making Fridays really wonderful!

  31. I love love love Fridays, knowing I get to have a new chapter to read! Thank you!

  32. I knew there was a story that we missed that was not written in the books and not explored because Ana wouldnt use the the word "obey" in their vows..So glad that you went there and you really have an enlightened view of how Christian would think & react. Cant wait til next Friday and your book(s).

  33. Another amazing chapter my dear! I love how you get his chat in with Elliot, get more details about the wedding and all this good stuff unlike the book. Truly amazing and beautiful chapter! I love waking up on Fridays and reading this!<4 thank you for all you do my darling!^_^ have a wonderful weekend!!

    1. Hi Sam. Thanks, and you have a great weekend too, sweetie :)

  34. What an emotional chapter this is! I adore how you incorporated Christian's entire family into helping Dan McAllister. It was genius and exactly as it should have been. Dan's advice to Christian was so sweet and real. It was perfect that you had Ros arrange things so Dan would accept the help by thinking he was helping Christian too since he was such a proud man.

    Christian's reaction to the bachelor/bachelorette party ideas was hilarious. Thanks for including the fact that Elena is being shut out by the family. I probably shouldn't have loved that part so much but couldn't help myself. ;)

    I wondered how you would have them settle the great wedding vow debate and it was perfect. I've read everything I can find about The Tudors and Elizabeth I so I loved the joke about Henry VIII. Thanks for including the references to the old, traditional wedding vows.

    I can feel how much of your heart goes into your writing and love your sense of humor. You have a special gift for being able to reach into the hearts of all these characters and breathe life into them. Thank you.

    TX Teacher/Huge Fan

  35. OOPS! I forgot to add that I adored how you had Christian attempt to have Barney hack into Kate's mother's computer to find out about Anastasia's wedding dress. I LMAO when I read it. It was Christian the control freak at his finest! Thanks for starting my day with a laugh.

    TX Teacher

    1. Hi Texas :) I think with Christian, you have to try and imagine the most extreme controlling behaviour, then notch it up another level, and there you have it.
      I'm glad you're still enjoying the chapters anyway :)

    2. I LOL too about the wedding dress. good rich humor!

  36. Fabulous! Once again Friday is always the best day of the week! I just love starting out with reading you blog! Thanks for the surperb writing! I thought it was awsome how you showed how the family had rallied around Christian to support Mr. McCallistar! I thought I would cry...and the fight when she turns the tables on him and says now you have Ms. Jones bring my food tray to me and then walks off was wonderful! Loved IT!

    1. Oh yes, Ana can be one feisty little lady, who gives as good as she gets. That's what keeps Christian so interested I guess :)

  37. Great job as usual I love the whole discussion of "obey" You handel it so well TGIF thanks to you and your writing

  38. The pics of Matt Bomer make me want to see Christian do a strip tease for Ana and say, "You want a bachorette party, well here you go.. And I'll even give you a special surprise!"

    1. There are some great pictures of Matt out there wearing very little.....

    2. Im ith you on that thought Rene.. Lol

  39. I love this version instead of you following the book exactly. It's wonderful to have the gaps filled in. Christian is such a nice man underneath the controlling front. Thank you x

  40. Baltimore, Maryland, USA - I cried at the end. Great work! They love each other so much. Thanks for all of your work. These chapters are fantastic. Sue

  41. That was awesome this chapter looking forward to the next 1. :)

  42. I need more. I’m addicted. Please write some more. Thank you.ERIKA SHOVAL

  43. This person writing this must be Christian Grey! Hi Christian!

  44. Wow, so glad you wrote this chapter this way. The word Obey can destroy if one lets it, but like Ana said, lets talk things out and decide where to go from there. Love this chapter, keep them coming

  45. Congratulations from Texas......a very fine job!!!

  46. Beautifully written as usual. C and A are so well attuned to each other and I am glad Christian realizes that Ana is her own person, but will always be there for him. I secretly always felt that another reason for Ana not to recite the word 'obey' was if she ever needed to protect him, that her vow to him would prevent her from doing just that. And it seemed she did need to put herself in harm's way to save Mia from Hyde and ultimately Christian. Does that make any sense?? I also wanted to mention that I recall reading a review on this blog where one of your readers observed that Christian's call signs, Golf Echo Hotel, are spell outs for GEH. Charlie Tango (CT) Christian Trevelyan. I observed that Ms. James' pen name initials are E.L., the same for a biotch troll we all know and loathe. Another blog noticed that the code for the elevator to Christian's Escala penthouse is the same number at a famous three part painting displayed at the Louvre. Okay, okay, I'm obsessed!! Sue me!! ;) xxoo

  47. LOL, I'm picturing Christian flipping out and having a stroke at the thought that Ana is going to Vegas. His world is turned upside down when he can't control her and he can't make her accept obedience as part of her wedding vows. But she's right in telling him to "deal with it". He doesn't have a clue how lucky he is that she thinks he's worth the effort and she's strong enough to stand up to him.

    Not to take anything away from Ms. James but you've really done a great job in filling in the characters for us. Even though her books are only meant to be from Ana's POV there is still so much missing. I dare say that the books would have been so much better if you'd written them using the characters the author created. I don't mean to embarrass you and do not expect a response to this comment!! Just calling it as I see it.

    Thank you also for the photos of Matt Bomer!!

    Have a wonderful weekend. Pat/Boots.

  48. Your writing is wonderful!!! I love Christian's POV, maybe even more than the original books!!! Thank you so much for staying with the original story! I look forward to every week that you post!

  49. Wow. This was really an awesome chapter. Loved the part about the parties in Vegas and especially loved Matt Bomer's pictures. Loved your writing and hope you'll continue after this book ends. I look forward to Friday's just so I can read another amazing chapter. Thank you so much.

  50. hello, I'm from Venezuela.. u're just amazing love the story please write more 'cause I'm a big fan.. Venezuelan Kisses ;)

  51. This was such an awesome find...you have a real talent!! Looking forward to next friday

  52. Thanks for updating so quickly! I really appreciate that. You write really well! ;)

  53. A simply beautiful chapter, that I was able to read after work, in front of a fire with a raging blizzard outside...perfect!! Amazing, wonderful chapter. Looking forward to the next one!

  54. This chapter was amazing. I love the fact that you are kind of writing your own story here and filling in the blanks for us. This is great. As a side note, I thought the deal he was making was with the Taiwanese, not the Koreans? Also Magic Mike was not made yet when they were about to get married, but I did understand the concept you were after. I definitely enjoyed this chapter tremendously and can't wait for more. Thank you for keeping this going for us!

    1. Hi Brooke. Of course you're right about the release date of Magic Mike, and call it artistic license, but I couldn't resist the opportunity to include a picture of Matt Bomer's cheeky backside! And as the years click by, only those such as yourself yourself with encyclopedic knowledge of the book would pick up on which year it came out. And as for the shipyards, Christian may perhaps be comparing different deals at different shipyards before making his mind up? I already spend hours reading backwards and forwards to try and get all the details right, so cut me a bit of slack if sometimes I slip up on a detail or two eh?

  55. Greetings from Chicago -so glad you're Continuing with the third book There so many gaps to fill In the story

  56. I loved this chapter! When I read the title I was like, wait...Vegas...I don't remember Vegas from the books. And your stipper from Magic Mike...that was my Christian Grey, Matt Bomer. I think he makes the perfect Christian. I know I am overruled here at this blog, but I just love him!

    1. I could have filled the whole chapter with great pictures of Matt Bomer, and it was very tempting - he is a great looking guy:) I'm trying to be a little more neutral about the pictures I use these days, but of course it's no secret I like using Ian Somerhalder's picture. Henry Cavill is great too...

    2. Henry Cavill está muy bueno también para este papel. en la serie LOS TUDOR hace un trabajo muy bueno, no dejes de verla.


  58. OMG LOVE IT CAN'T WAIT FOR MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  59. Love the chapter cant sait for more ......thanks for doing this :)

  60. Oh My!!! You really captured the essence of emotions in this chapter YOU.ARE.AMAZING !!! I love how you weaved Dan back into the story as well looking forward to next week :) I hope you Have a Happy Valentines Day

  61. Encore un très bon chapitre. Merci. I like the meeting with Dan MacAllister, and the developpement about one little word "obey", four letters to provoke a fight or a disagreement for days. Thanks to Dan's advice.
    Oh ! BTW Henry CAVILL as Christian GREY would be the top of the top, he is so very male and powerful.

  62. It's always lovely to read about Christian interacted with his family. It's made him more real to us.
    I think I would buy your books right away whenever you ready to pulish if this is what I would be expected. I love your writing.
    Please keep on writing and send our thanks to your family who share you with us.

  63. Thank you for another beautiful chapter! The way you see into Christian's soul is remarkable! Always looking forward to Friday...Can't wait to read what is next!
    Always wanting more,
    Lisa xx

  64. vjaskula@gmail.comFebruary 9, 2013 at 9:31 PM

    great chapter! love the extras!!!!

  65. I think this blog sucks now that you have strayed from the original story. I don't think you get Christian at all.

    1. Well, you can't please everyone. Thanks for your honest opinion :)

    2. Anonymous...get off the site. I have checked out other sites and simply gotten off them. you don't have to read this...no one is forcing you. I didn't need nasty comments on their sites. Grow up!

  66. Disagree with the comment that you strayed from the original story. The third book starts out on their honeymoon, with a few flashbacks like this on the great vow debate, so I think this flashback was in particular ripe for a Christian POV chapter. As far as characters that don't appear in the original, like Dan McCallister, Christian won't always be in the same room as Ana, will He? Frankly, the parts of the story where Ana's not there are the bits I am looking forward to the most!

  67. Couldn't agree more with the last comment......
    You are filling in the yaps and it is great.........
    There was not much written before the wedding... and just after, so it will be nice to see how Christian reacts to seeing Anna.......
    Thank you
    Keep writing please.......


  69. Mil gracias por otro excelente capítulo! La manera de ver a Christian es sensacional, tal como nos lo imaginamos todas. Sigue escribiendo, que tu escritura es preciosa. Quedo ansiosa al terminar cada capítulo. Saludos desde Venezuela.

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  71. Hello Special Friend/Writer,
    I'm one of the many addicted followers that you have! I'm enthralled with your writing, addicted to it, blown away by it, and of course very pleased that I was bored one evening, long ago and was surfing the web!!!! In doing so, I was fortunate enough to come across your Blog!!!!!! You cannot imagine the feeling that ran through my veins........totally unreal and so blessed to know that I can continue the Christian Sage in FSOG--Blog...Thank You So Much!!!!!
    Please understand that once you've completed all chapters and you have no more to write, I will be so "LOST!" I was curious if you were done writing Grace?
    I told some of my friends about your Blog and believe me, they were speechless!!!!! They love you & your writing!!!
    I will NEVER be able to thank you enough for all the voids you've filled for me!!! You are a gift to all of us that have followed your Blog.......
    I'm always anxious to move on to the next one...........thanks bunches friend :+)
    I hope you can even imagine even a pinch of how you're appreciated by all the thousands of people that read your fantastic Blog!!!.......
    I look forward to one day reading a book written by you with all your expertise!!!!
    Have a fantastic week-end.....until the next time.........you are one fine writer and you've got me in your trance....................
    I remain,


  73. I found this blog through the spanish version by Syrocco, however I got to the end of translations and couldn´t wait to know more about this story.

    I´m kinda dissapointed by the way Anastasia is now fighting this becouse, not even in their honeymoon she acts so fightful to him, so confident to fight him (after these period of time) I thought this could have been a little disagreement between them but not a several days fight with no speaking to each other and nightmare come back... I thought the pregnancy fight was the very first real fight (after breaking up at the end of first book, and it wasn´t a real fight anyway they just split).

    Don´t missunderstand me, I´m very glad with this blog and I´ve love every chapter I´ve read, I feel more in love with Chris every time I know a new thing about him and his love for Ana I feel more jelous for not having a real Chris for myself!!!

    Love form Venezuela, sorry for my english, and congratulations for your gift of writing


  74. I loved getting to see how they're helping Mr. McCallister, and how he'll be able to help them as well! Boy, Christian just isn't happy unless he has everyone under his controlling thumb!

  75. Hi there, you really seem to have done quite a bit of reseach for the arguments on each side. Especially the interpretations by the reverend impressed me a lot. Throughout your blog I like how your writing not only shows very good elements of style but also that you get your facts straight. And in such an entertaining way, too, Imust say :) Keep up your good work!

  76. Thank you so much for this book!!! I've enjoyed reading it very, very much. I've cried when they aren't spoken to each other. Kisses from Spain!!!

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  78. I just don't understand why the third book was so... shall we say jumpy, in that it skipped a lot of stuff. Almost as if James was getting bored with the story or something. This is how it should have gone.


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