13 April 2013

Chapter 59 - Chillaxing In Aspen

After my late night call with Elliot, and several emails sent in the early hours of the morning when I couldn’t sleep, our trip to Aspen goes ahead.

Ana seems delighted when she discovers my surprise guests of Kate, Elliot, Mia and Ethan on board the jet. She said she wanted to see more of her friends, and I want my wife to have whatever she wants, so I’m bringing friends with us on our trip. This way I can relax, happy in the knowledge that this arrangement makes for a far more secure and controlled environment for her to socialize in.

I love making my wife laugh and smile, and so I'm glad we’re getting away for the weekend after the extremely stressful events of the last few days. It’s only about a two hour flight, and I’ve always liked Aspen, ever since my parents took us there for the skiing when we were kids. 

Owning an Aspen property was one of the targets I set myself to prove that I had joined the ranks of the super wealthy, along with owning my own helicopter, private jet and boat. The fact that I’ve not had the time to use this place since I acquired it is an indication of how much time I still spend on generating even more wealth. I am never going to be poor or hungry again, and neither is my beloved wife now.

Taylor is happy about our trip to Aspen too, as the paparazzi in Seattle have been making life hell for his security team. Now that the whereabouts of both Leila and Hyde are no longer of concern, Aspen is a great location for us to head to, especially as part of the extensive refurb that was carried out on my house was to have a state of the art security system installed. Even so, Taylor’s organized his security connections in Aspen to carry out a sweep of my property in advance of our arrival, as well as a full threat assessment and a comprehensive but low key security plan. The worry is that Hyde could possibly have an accomplice.

Since Elliot has told me that he wants to marry Kate, for his sake I’m trying my hardest to at least tolerate my potential future sister-in-law, however much she grates on me. Even so, I have to keep my temper in check, because before we’ve even taken off, Kate wastes no time in quizzing me about Hyde, and then works out for herself that he very possibly has an accomplice.

No doubt about it, she’s a very bright girl, but she’s also very thoughtless. She appears to have no tact or consideration for Ana’s feelings, as my wife looks at me in horror at Kate’s words. After everything she’s been through, I hadn't wanted Ana worried unnecessarily on this matter of an accomplice, but her brash journalist friend, so eager to get to the bottom of a good story, hasn’t given that aspect of things the slightest consideration.

Kate’s words start a whole new thought process for Ana, who leaps to the conclusion that Elena could be involved, just because of how much she loathes her I guess. But I’m sure she’s not, and knowing how deadly the whole Elena topic is, I shut down that conversation before it can get out of hand and spoil my plans for a happy and relaxed weekend.


Once we arrive, Taylor drives us to the house in a hastily arranged VW minivan. I see Ana looking out of the window as we drive through the streets. Aspen is an attractive, characterful old mining town with lots of smart shops, and I hope she’s going to like the place as much as I do, because then we can come here whenever we like and make better use of the house.

However, I can't deny the thought of Ana learning to ski fills me with dread, because it can be such a dangerous sport when you don’t know what you’re doing. Perhaps skiing won't be her thing, but the way she’s taken to sailing and soaring, I suspect my wife will love skiing just as much as I do. I’ll just have to insist she sticks to the less challenging and safer nursery slopes on West Buttermilk Mountain if she goes ahead and wants to learn to ski.

“Home,” I mouth to Ana as we finally arrive at the house. I really like this place, and I want her to feel at home here, so that she can really relax and unwind.

My housekeeper, Carmella Bentley, is waiting to greet us. She already knows Mia and Elliot, as they have actually used this place more than I have in the two years I've owned it. I proudly introduce my wife, using her full name – Anastasia. A beautiful name for a beautiful girl.  I love the fact that she is now Anastasia Grey. Mine. My wife.

Ana’s taken by surprise when I suddenly pick her up and carry her over the threshold. Tradition dictates that to avoid a lifetime of bad luck and evil spirits, a new wife must never trip or fall as she enters her new home. With Ana’s knack for tripping and falling, I’m definitely happy to carry her over the threshold of every single new home we go to.

Ana  is very quiet and subdued as I show her round our very impressive house. I'm reminded all over again that this level of affluence is way beyond anything she’d experienced before she met me, and she’s still getting used to it. I have to constantly remind her that it is our money, our house, not just mine as she keeps referring to everything. I want to share everything I have with her, because otherwise it is all pointless and meaningless.

We end up in the master bedroom, where she stands looking out at the impressive view of Ajax or Aspen Mountain. She relaxes a little as we talk about Elliot - she asks if I knew about his fling with Gia Matteo, information no doubt gleaned from Kate.

I consider for a moment leaving Ana under the illusion that Elliot is the nice, kind, sweet boy  he appears to be on first acquaintance. He is such a master at it, when he really is such a badboy underneath that act– or at least he has been up until now. It appears that Kate is about to put an end to those ways, which is one of the reasons I can tolerate her – I've always worried about the fact that Elliot slept around so casually, putting himself at risk. So, if she can tame him and get him to act more responsibly, then I’ll put up with her.

I decide to go with honesty.

“Elliot’s fucked most of Seattle, Ana. Mainly women, I understand.”

Ana’s face is a picture of shocked surprise. He obviously had my naïve wife completely fooled.

“No!” she gasps in disbelief.

“It’s none of my business.” I hold my hands up, not prepared to elaborate any further.

Despite this little distraction, Ana still seems ill at ease and unsettled, and I'm worried she doesn’t like the house

“This can't be about Gia’s or Elliot’s promiscuity.” I probe.

“I know. I'm sorry. After all that’s happened this week, it’s just…”

It’s okay, I can see she’s still in some sort of shock, still recovering from everything that’s happened. This I can understand and relate to. This is exactly why we need a weekend of unwinding and relaxing together. Chillaxing, as Elliot would say.

I pull her into my arms to hold her tightly.

“Goes some way to explain why he’s always teasing you,” she murmurs, as she nuzzles into my chest. At least now she’ll get where Elliot’s coming from.

“He really has no idea about my past. I told you, my family assumed I was gay. Celibate, but gay.”

Ana seems to find this amusing as she starts giggling.

“I thought you were celibate. How wrong I was.”

“Mrs. Grey, are you smirking at me?”

“Maybe a little,” she concedes. “You know, what I don’t understand is why you have this place.”

“What do you mean?”

“You have the boat, which I get, you have the place in New York for business – but why here? It’s not like you shared it with anyone?”

As usual, Ana has got right to the heart of the matter. So, what did I have in mind once I’d achieved my goal of owning a property here in Aspen? Just let it sit empty all year round, as I never actually took a proper vacation since I started up my company, just the odd day here and there to go sailing or soaring?

I think deep down I always knew there was something missing from my life, but I never dared or hoped to believe that I would find out what it was, or that I would ever find it.

But I did.

By some miracle, by some divine intervention, Ana was sent into my life to turn my world upside down, but at the same time make sense of everything.

She was the missing piece.

Anastasia has made my life whole.

“I was waiting for you,” I say softly, and I'm rewarded by one of Ana’s beautiful smiles.

“That’s… that’s such a lovely thing to say,” she whispers, as  her eyes light up with happiness.

“It’s true. I didn’t know it at the time,” I smile back.

“I'm glad you waited.”

“You are worth waiting for, Mrs. Grey.” I kiss her tenderly.

“So are you. Though I feel like I cheated. I didn’t have to wait long for you at all.”

“Am I that much of a prize?” I grin at her.

“Christian, you are the state lottery, the cure for cancer and the three wishes from Aladdin's lamp all rolled into one. When will you realize this? You were a very eligible bachelor. And I don’t mean all this.” 

She waves her hand around at our surroundings. “I mean in here. Believe me, Christian, please.” She places her hand over my heart, and then pulls my head down to kiss me.

Ana thinks I have a good heart. She’s wrong, but she is working her special magic on me to try her best to make me into a better man. I don’t deserve it, but her love is the healing balm that will soothe and cure my inherent wickedness.

“When are you going to get it through your exceptionally thick skull that I love you?” she asks, exasperated as she can see I'm still skeptical.

“One day,” I murmur.

One day, as long as I don’t drive her away before she can complete the transformation. 


The weather takes a turn for the worse as it starts raining, so after lunch, the girls head off to do some shopping, while the boys do ‘outdoor boring stuff’ according to Mia. Ana insists I should go fishing – I think she wants me to have some male bonding time, although I could quite happily have come up with some ideas to occupy the time with my wife.

But it will be good for Ana to go shopping with the girls, and I'm sure Mia will have great fun encouraging my wife to buy something outrageously expensive in one of the exclusive little boutiques that Aspen specializes in. It will do Ana good – she needs to get used to being able to spend our money freely on anything that takes her fancy. It’s what I want her to do.

I insist that Taylor will accompany them, and am pleased when Ana overrules Kate’s rude assertion that they don’t need babysitting. Maybe she has learnt something from the whole cocktail drinking debacle, which pleases me.

Elliot makes an excuse that he needs to go into town to get a watch battery, but I know he has another agenda. He wants to buy Kate’s engagement ring. I tell him to take the Audi, and we’ll go fishing when he gets back.


In the end, Elliot calls to say we should go fishing without him. He wants to take his time choosing the right ring for Kate, and then he’ll probably need to wait while they resize it– he thinks he has a good idea on size because he’s secretly taken along another of her. 

He needs the ring for tonight, because at some point he’s planning to get down on one knee and propose. No one else has a clue that he has this planned, least of all Kate, so it should be an interesting evening.

“I know she really likes retro Victorian jewelry, so that’s the style I’m going for. I’ve seen a couple I think she’d really like and I’m just trying to choose between them,” he explains.

“No worries. You take all the time you need. Ethan and I will see you later.”

“Cool. Yeah, laters,” he replies.

So it’s just me and Kate’s brother who head off in the black flatbed truck for some fly fishing in the Roaring Fork Valley.

I can definitely see the family resemblance between Ethan and Kate. Both have strawberry blonde hair; both have green eyes; both are quite tall.

As an aspiring journalist, Kate is undoubtedly her press magnate father’s daughter, and what I want to know is if Ethan has the same tenacious drive and somewhat unpleasant directness that will make his sister a very good reporter. If he does, I can't see that he and Mia will get along, however much she may be attracted to this young man’s undoubted good looks. This is the trouble with my little sister – she can be rather shallow at times, placing a lot of importance on looks and physical attraction.

But Ethan seems to be playing hard to get, so I want to know what his intentions towards Mia are. At least the background check I had Welch run on him came up squeaky clean – no hint of any drug or alcohol abuse, no driving citations, nothing, not so much as a parking ticket.

When I knew Ethan was coming for the weekend, I instructed Mrs. Bentley to prepare separate rooms for him and Mia, but that’s not to say they will necessarily remain alone in those rooms for the entire night. Much as I hate it, I have to face the fact that my baby sister is a fully grown, very beautiful, adult young woman, of a similar age to my own young wife. As much as I’d like to, I can’t lock her away in her bedroom alone.

But there’s no way I’m forcing matters by assuming Mia and Ethan will be sleeping – or not sleeping as the case may be – together tonight.

Even Elliot agrees with me when it comes to our baby sister. Despite his usually somewhat laid back morals, he is also fiercely protective towards Mia. However, he seems to think Ethan is a decent guy, so that reassures me, and why I agreed to invite him along for this weekend trip.

Ethan and I start off by discussing the fishing.

“Have you done much fly fishing around these parts before?” I inquire as  I drive.

“Yeah, my dad and I have spent quite a lot of time together fishing around here. It’s one of his favorite hobbies. He always says it’s the contemplative man’s recreation.”

“Izaak Walton,” I grin, recognizing the quote.

Ethan’s father appears to be a man after my own heart, as I've always found fishing a very good time to do some thinking, while I'm pitting my wits against the forces of nature and trying to outwit the fish. My father introduced me to fly fishing when I was quite young, I think because he knew it was a sport that would suit my solitary nature.

“So, what flies are you planning to use? Have you checked the hatch chart?” I ask Ethan, and we spend some time discussing the merits of the different bait and then the casting techniques we prefer. It seems young Kavanagh knows his fishing,  so I guess he can't be all bad.

 “Are you planning to join your father’s empire? I understand you’ve had a year off travelling since you graduated last year.”

I want to know more about Ethan. At least he has experienced different cultures, and I respect that -  travel broadens the mind, so they say.

“No, I think I’ll leave all that to my sister, media’s much more her thing. It’s no secret that my father would love nothing better than to have me take over the family business one day and head up Kavanagh Media, it’s not the direction I want to head in,” he states firmly.

I glance over at Ethan with new respect. It takes a lot of guts to stand up to a man like Edward Kavanagh.

“So what do you want to do?” I ask curiously.

“Well, I’ve been accepted into the psych course at Seattle – I’m doing my  Master of Arts in Psychology. My father wasn’t too happy about it, so I’m funding it by drawing on my trust fund now that I've come of age. It’s a two year course, and I'll be working part time to fit around my lectures, doing an internship or practicum in one of the areas I want to specialize in.”

“Sounds pretty full on. So, what is your ultimate goal?”

“Eventually, once I’ve gained my license, I want to set up my own practice as a fully qualified psychotherapist. I’m still deciding on the area I want to specialize in, but the Seattle course appealed to me because it is an Existential Phenomenological Therapeutic Program.”

So Ethan could end up being another John Flynn. How interesting.
But now I need to cut to the chase. We’ve reached our destination, and once we’re out on the river concentrating on our fishing, it won't be as easy to talk. So as I pull up and turn off the truck engine, I turn to face Ethan and read his face.

“What are your intentions towards my sister?” I ask him bluntly.

He blinks for a moment and raises his eyebrows.

“I really like Mia, she’s a very special girl, but….” He sighs and rubs his forehead.


“But the timing is all wrong. Mia’s used to a very affluent and comfortable lifestyle, and I’ve got a long road ahead of me before I can set myself up in practice and hope to earn anything like a decent living. And I refuse to sponge off my father. I want to make my own way in life, not dance to his tune just to have a nice comfortable lifestyle. So it doesn't seem fair to start something potentially serious with Mia when I have nothing to offer her, not at the moment anyway. And I can't mess her around and expect a beautiful girl like her to wait at least another couple of years, can I?” He sighs deeply again. “But I really like her.  She’s so funny, so kind, so…  Mia. I've never met anyone like her. And it’s difficult, because our paths are going to keep crossing because of Kate being with Elliot, so unless they break up, which seems unlikely as I know Kate is totally head over heels in love with the guy,  Mia and I are inevitably going to keep seeing each other.”

“Have you talked to Mia about any of this?” I ask.

“I’ve tried, but Mia doesn’t seem to understand the realities of the situation. She says money’s not important, and that she has money of her own we could live on until I get myself established, but I'm sure as hell not taking hand outs from her or from anyone,” he states stubbornly. The glint in his eye reminds me of his sister Kate when she sets her mind on something.

“So you’d put your pride before my sister’s happiness?” I ask, as I study his face intently. His head shoots up at my words.

“Is that how you see it?” he asks, shocked.

I shrug.

“Just calling it how I see it, Ethan. Let me ask you this. How would you feel if Mia accepted that there was no possible future for the two of you, moved on and started seeing another guy. What if you had to keep seeing her with this other guy? Could you accept that, knowing that you might have been able to work at some sort of compromise with her? Might you regret not being able to swallow some of that stubborn pride, just to see if things might have worked out between you?”

Ethan groans and holds his head in his hands.

“That would be my worst nightmare. I’d want to kill any other fucker who got near enough to lay a finger on her,” he growls.

I grin. This guy is talking my language. This I can totally relate to. Not that I can quite believe I actually seem to be playing fucking cupid for my baby sister and Ethan. Me, the relationship counselor. Flynn would be proud of me – I think, anyway?

“Come on, Kavanagh. Let’s go fish. Use the time for some of that contemplative recreation your father was talking about.”


On our return, I find Ana out in the garage with Kate and Elliot for some reason. Straight away Ana notices that under my wading jacket, I'm wearing the blue coveralls she sold me in Claytons. Yeah,  I kept them because I'm sentimental – it’s not a crime, is it? And anyway, they are very practical, with lots of useful pockets.

That seems a lifetime ago, although it is only a few short months. I think it must have been love at first sight with Ana, even though I didn’t know it at the time. It’s the only explanation of why I acted so out of character to go chasing after her all the way down to Portland, hanging around like a lovesick puppy, fooling myself that I was in control of my emotions.

Looking back, I think Taylor probably knew the writing was on the wall for me when I overslept that time in Ana’s apartment and had to walk the walk of shame when I turned up late for my breakfast meeting, unshaven and in my jeans and T shirt from the night before – an unheard of occurrence up until then. Probably explained the smug look on his face.

When Elliot tells me he tried to tempt my wife to take a ride, as he smirks at me, I realize he’s referring to the trail bikes I have in the garage. Elliot and I took them out a couple of times when I first got the house and he was over here doing the refurb – it was good fun, but pretty risky. 

The thought of Ana riding one of those dangerous things nearly gives me a heart attack, but seeing the look of horror on my face, Elliot goes on to say that Ana declined as she’d said I wouldn’t like it. So that’s another instance of Ana being considerate of my feelings, after standing up to Kate earlier. I’m impressed – she really seems to be making an effort.

But Ana never ceases to surprise me.

“You can ride a motorcycle?”

“Not very well. Ethan taught me.”

Although I know Ethan’s interest now lies elsewhere, I still don’t like the thought of him having spent time getting close to my wife while he was  teaching her how to ride a trail bike. But I have to accept that she can't change her past any more than I can change mine.

“You made the right decision. The ground's very hard at the moment, and the rain’s made it very treacherous and slippery.” I tell her. I’d have been seriously displeased if I’d found out she’d been riding a trail bike.

“Where do you want the fishing gear?” Ethan calls out.

“Leave it, Ethan – Taylor will take care of it.”

“What about the fish?”

“You caught a fish?” Ana asks in surprise. Well, we did go fishing, didn’t we?

“Not me. Kavanagh did.” I pretend to be upset as I pout, making Ana laugh. Truth is, there is always an element of luck as well as skill in these matters, and today his choice of fly proved more effective than mine.

“Mrs. Bentley will deal with that,” I tell him. “Am I amusing you, Mrs. Grey?”

“Very much so. You’re wet. Let me run you a bath,” she suggests.

“As long as you join me,” I reply, as I kiss her.


The bath that Ana prepares for us has to wait while I make love to my wife – good job it’s a wet room.

Whenever we are apart for a few hours, we both feel a need to reconnect as soon as we are together again. That’s just the way it is between us.

It’s the sweetest of sweet vanilla sex between us this time.

It seems incredible to me now that I could ever have thought vanilla would be boring.

I love watching Ana’s face as I let my cock slowly sink into her silky depths. I love seeing her look of contented bliss and pure pleasure. I love looking into her beautiful eyes as she flies over the edge into the orgasm I give her. I love feeling her relax against my chest afterwards, sated and satisfied by our love making.

I love vanilla sex with my wife.


‘Does My Butt Look Big in This?’

That’s the subject of the  email I get from my wife on my cell.  Ana has been gone for ages upstairs with Kate, who’s helping her get ready after declaring that she should try out a new look with her hair and makeup for our evening out.

I think maybe Kate’s avoiding Elliot, as things seem pretty tense between them right now, but hopefully things will get sorted once Elliot has gone ahead and proposed sometime this evening. He’s got the ring he bought safely stashed away in his pocket, but I can tell he’s on edge, because he’s still not sure that Kate is going to say yes. 

I’ll be very surprised if she turns him down, although with women you can never be sure, especially one as strong willed as Kate.

So it seems my wife wants my sartorial advice. I’m sure her very delectable butt will look absolutely perfect in the dress she bought this afternoon, but as I tell her in my reply, I'm more than happy to give it a very thorough examination, so I head on upstairs straight away.


I can't quite believe my eyes when I see Ana standing there waiting for me. My wife has been transformed from her normal sweet, beautiful, sexy-yet-innocent looking self, into a high priestess of sexual allure and vampiness.  I can tell by the nervous expression on her face that she is worried about my reaction, as she has every reason to be.

Her silver backless dress is so short that it’s barely decent, and with those wonderful fuck-me high heeled Manolos, her legs look incredibly long and even sexier than usual.

But it’s her hair and makeup that make her look so different.

Her chestnut hair has been straightened and back combed, to make it look very full and Barbie like.

And normally, Ana only wears very light makeup, or none at all.

But now, her eyes have been emphasized by so much heavy kohl, that they look enormous. That, along with the bright red scarlet lipstick, mean that she almost looks like a whore, and part of me wants to order her to go and wash it off right now this second.

But part of me is incredibly turned on, imagining those sexy scarlet red, full, pouty lips tightly fixed around my cock while she sucks me off,  with those big, heavily made up eyes turned to obediently gaze up at me.

So I resist the urge.

There is no way on this earth that I would ever let my wife go out by herself looking like this. But asking me to come and check out her appearance means that she has sought my approval, and that pleases me greatly.

And as I will be by her side the whole time this evening, and will get to watch her and let my imagination go wild about what I'm going to do with her when we get back, I decide to allow it. I will grant her permission to go out looking like this, just on this occasion. But first I need to make a few things clear.

I stand behind as I turn her to look in the full length mirror. There is so much of her naked back on show, and the skirt of the dress is nothing more than a narrow band that just about covers that delicious ass of hers.

“This is very revealing.”

We both watch in the mirror as I trail my finger tips down her naked back, over her the curve of her lovely bottom, down to her naked thigh. The dress is too short for her to wear stockings, so her legs are bare, and that means the only barrier preventing my property from being exposed are her tiny panties and the barely-there dress.

“It’s not far from here, to here,” I demonstrate as I first touch the hem of her dress, and then the tiny fabric of her panties that nestles softly between her legs.

“And your point is?” she whispers.

“My point is…it’s not far from here,” I murmur, as I slip a finger inside her panties, “…to here. And then…to here.” I slip my finger inside her moist depths, making her gasp and then mewl in surprise.

“This is mine,” I tell her, as I close my eyes, and savor the feeling of slowly finger fucking my wife. “I don’t want anyone else to see this.”

I know this is really turning Ana on as she watches me in the mirror, because her panting is matching the rhythm of my finger moving in and out of her. Christ, I have such a raging hard on I could just take her right now, but as my brother and sister are waiting for us downstairs ready to leave, I  have to postpone that pleasure. Delayed gratification and all that shit.

“So be a good girl and don’t bend down, and you should be fine,” I tell her.

Ana looks shocked.

“You approve?”

“No, but I'm not going to stop you from wearing it. You look stunning, Anastasia.”

I suddenly withdraw my finger and move round to face her, then place the tip of the finger that has just been fucking her on her lower lip. I grin as Ana kisses my finger , and then I slip my finger in my mouth. Hell, my wife tastes so fucking good.

“Come,” I say as I take her hand and lead her downstairs.


Later that evening, as I talk with Ethan in the restaurant while we wait for our dessert, I can't help noticing that Mia is looking at the kid as if she’d rather devour him than any dessert. It seems my baby sister has got it bad, so I hope Ethan makes up his mind about which way he wants things to go between them sooner rather than later. 

Anyhow, I’m glad I've gotten a chance to get to know him this weekend, because Mia could do a lot worse than him, as my gut feeling tells me he will make a very good psychologist – and I should know, seeing as I’ve had dealings with more than my fair share of shrinks over the years.

I also think Ethan would be good for Mia, because already he is standing up to her and not allowing her to walk all over him by dictating how things should be. I know my sister well enough to understand that Mia would not respect a man that was too soft and compliant. My sister needs a firm hand, and I think Ethan might just be the young man to give her that. Time will tell.

I glance at my watch. Mia wants us to go clubbing next, so just as I'm thinking that Elliot had better get on with proposing or he’ll have missed his chance, I see him standing up, pushing his chair out of the way, so that he can get down on one knee. Silence descends over the whole place, as everyone watches with bated breath. Elliot reaches to take Kate’s hand in his.

“My beautiful Kate, I love you. Your grace, your beauty, and your fiery spirit have no equal, and you have captivated my heart. Spend your life with me. Marry me.”

The longest moment in history passes, as Elliot stares tensely at Kate, waiting for her answer. Clearly she had no idea whatsoever that he was going to propose, and for once in her life, Miss Katherine Kavanagh is lost for words.

Then a tear slowly trickles down her cheek, and she smiles back at Elliot.

“Yes,” she whispers, and I see Elliot finally relax and start smiling. I think we all heave a collective sigh of relief, thankful that she has put him out of his misery.

The whole restaurant erupts with applause and cheering and catcalls and whooping. I glance at Ana, and see that she has tears rolling down her cheeks, smudging her mascara.

For Elliot and Kate, it is obvious that no one else exists as they gaze into each other’s eyes. It’s a joy to see them so happy, as Elliot reaches into his pocket to produce the box with the engagement ring in.

Kate throws her arms around Elliot's neck, and then they kiss, as everyone in the restaurant looks on and cheers. My brother, ever the goofy clown, stands to take a bow as he grins broadly. Then he sits down and takes the ring out of the box to slide it onto Kate’s finger as they kiss again. I’ve never seen my brother look so happy, so that makes me happy too.

 Ana has been so caught up in the drama, that she has been clutching my hand really tightly without realizing it.

“Ow,” I mouth at her when she finally lets go.

“Sorry. Did you know about this?” she whispers.

I just smile at her, and I think she guesses that I did, but hopefully understands that I had to keep my brother’s trust by not revealing his plans to anyone, not even her. Ana would have found it hard not to have inadvertently given something away to her best friend if she had been aware of Elliot's plans.

I order some Cristal 2002 champagne for us all to celebrate, as everybody flocks round the happy couple.

Ana and Kate hug and kiss, as an emotional Kate sobs and laughs at the same time.

I shake Elliot's hand and then catch him by surprise as I pull him into a hug, because these days, thanks to the Ana effect, I can do things like this. I actually feel able to show my dear brother how happy I am for him.

“Way to go, Lelliot,” I say quietly.

“Thanks, Christian,” Elliot mumbles in shock, as he returns my hug.

For years, even after I eventually started talking, I struggled to say my brother’s name properly, and Lelliot was the nearest I could get to it. My mom and dad were so thrilled that I was saying anything at all that they never attempted to correct me, and so for many years my brother was Lelliot.

Despite how difficult it must have been for him, he has always been the best of brothers to me, and I'm so happy that this evening has turned out as he wished. For him, I will do my best to get along with Kate, because I can see how happy she makes him. I give her a brief hug too.

“I hope you are as happy in your marriage as I am in mine,” I say quietly, as I smile at Ana.

“Thank you, Christian. I hope so too.”

Once everyone has a flute of champagne, I raise a toast.

“To Kate and my dear brother, Elliot – congratulations.”


We head off to the most exclusive nightclub in Aspen – Zax.

It’s my nightclub, but although I own it, I'm not involved in the day to day  running. However,  I keep my finger on the pulse to check how well it is performing, as I always do for any of my assets, and I’m pleased to say that Zax is doing very well. It was a sound investment.

I'm taking this opportunity to test how on the ball the staff are. I didn’t forewarn them I would be visiting, but this evening I am immediately granted access when I head to the front of the queue, which means they have recognized who I am, and one girl even addresses me by name.

That’s good – I hate sloppy staff who are not aware of the correct protocols. Of course the owner of the club should be granted VIP treatment without having to mention who he is, so full marks to the management here for ensuring the staff have been correctly trained. 

They have probably been tipped off about my presence by the security checks Taylor will have organized. Well, no matter, the point is that they are following the correct code of behavior, although I am less than pleased by the way a young male member of staff named Max ogles my wife as she removes the coat I insisted she must wear to keep her covered while we made our way here, and  I will be bringing the matter of his inappropriate behavior to the attention of the manager.

Ana seems surprised when I  insist that she needs to drink some water, and that I'm aware of how much alcohol she has consumed over the course of the day, but that is part of my responsibility in caring for her. I know she has already consumed more than is really wise for someone with her low tolerance for alcohol, but I’ve balanced that out against the fact that she has eaten properly today, as well as understanding that we are here to relax and have fun. She’s with me, I will look after her, so all is well.

That is until she is out on the dance floor with Kate and Mia, letting herself go and dancing with unusual confidence to a David Guetta track.

Damn, you's a sexy bitch, sexy bitch!
Damn, you's a sexy bitch!

I like watching her, although I made sure I reminded her not to bend over before she headed for the dance floor.

She closes her eyes, and lets herself move with the beat, but then to my horror, I see a huge blonde gorilla move up behind Ana, and PUT HIS FUCKING HANDS ON MY WIFE’S ASS.

White hot anger surges through me. How fucking dare he touch her like that, especially as I know there is very little between his filthy hands and my very private and very personal property. I'm up on my feet and moving towards the dance floor in an instant. I am enraged, and I have to deal with this fucker without delay.

It appears that at first Ana assumes those are my hands touching her, because she can't see the guy behind her, but as I'm pushing my way through the crowd to make my way over, I see her look down at his hands and horror fills her face as she suddenly realizes those are not the hands of her husband.

I lose sight of them for a minute as the crowds get in the way, but when I finally reach them, Ana is holding up her hand to the guy and pointing to her wedding rings.

I stand behind my wife as she is moving away from the gorilla, and as she backs into me, I put my arm around her waist and move her to my side.

“Keep your fucking hands off my wife,” I spit out, as I feel the rage surging through me. It takes me back to the days when I was an out of control teenager, one who regularly got into brawls and fights due to his ferociously wild temper.

“She can take care of herself,” the fucker insolently replies, and without even thinking about what I’m doing, I land a perfect punch on his chin, and watch as he crumples to the floor. The cold detached part of me finds it satisfying that it has been so effective, while the white hot raging part of me wants to continue until I've beaten him to a pulp.

“Christian, no!” Ana gasps, as she tries to hold me back. “I already hit him.”

Just as the fucker is getting to his feet, Elliot grasps my arm, just as he has so many times in the past when we were teenagers, looking out for me and trying to prevent his hot headed little brother from landing in serious trouble. 

His firm touch helps to bring me back from my enraged, uncontrolled state, as I suddenly realize I don’t want to ruin his evening. I take a deep breath to try and regain my composure. The blonde fucker stutters an apology, but I don’t take my eyes off him as he beats a hasty retreat.

Elliot senses that the worst of the storm has passed now that the guy has left. He lets me go, and then finally relaxes when he can see that Ana is calming me down. As the track changes, he takes Kate in his arms and starts to dance with her.

Ana puts her arms around my neck, and makes eye contact with me, to try and break the spell of my rage.

“Are you okay?” I try and refocus on her.

“Yes,” she assures me. She refuses to sit down, but tries her best to get me to dance with her instead, trying to distract me out of my fury.

“You hit him?” I'm trying to process this information, as she takes my clenched fists in her hands.

“Of course I did. I thought it was you, but his hands were hairier. Please dance with me.”

Suddenly, I really want to dance with my sexy wife, to feel her body, my property, right next to mine.

“You wanna dance? Let’s dance,” I growl. 

I like to dance, and right now it’s the best way for me to release some of the tension that has built up in the last few minutes. I enjoy dancing with my wife, and I find myself having fun as I dirty dance with her.

Finally we go and sit down. Ana worries about what would have happened if the press had been here. Seems she’s finally beginning to think like a billionaire’s wife, aware that our actions are subject to the scrutiny of  the press, but I reassure her that it would all have been taken care of. That’s what my lawyers are for, to clean up any shit I tell them to, and one of the reasons I don’t use my dad’s firm. There are many aspects of my life that he doesn’t need to know about.

But I can see that Ana is very tired, has had enough and needs to go home. Kate and Elliot join us – I think they have their own very personal and very intimate agenda they want to follow. We leave Mia and Ethan behind at the club, and I hope maybe that will give them a chance to clear the air and sort out where their relationship is going.


When we get back, it’s obvious that Ana is totally wrecked. The combination of tiredness, alcohol and altitude has taken its toll – we are at nearly eight thousand feet above sea level here.  She can barely make it up the stairs to our room, having declined my offer to carry her in, although she allowed me to remove her Manolos. Pity, I was really looking forward to seeing her wearing just those sexy shoes and nothing else, but Ana is not in a fit state for any of the sexy games I’d got planned. Instead, I shall have to distract myself by catching up with some work once I’ve put her to bed.

But the state she’s in, if I don’t help her, she'll crash out on the bed just as she is, in her clothes, complete with heavy makeup. So I take her into the bathroom and put her on the chair. She just sits there and closes her eyes, nearly asleep already. I search in the cupboard to find what I need. Some cotton balls and baby oil should do the trick.

As I tip her head back, she opens her eyes in surprise.

“Eyes closed,” I instruct, so I can take off her makeup. I like doing this, caring for my wife, looking after her. That’s what loving couples do, isn’t it? They look after each other, and they cherish each other.

Just like the time Ana made me feel cherished when she shampooed my hair and then cut it for me. That made me feel very cherished indeed, especially when people made comments about my new haircut, and I could say "My wife cut it for me." Because she cares about me. Because she loves me.

“Aw, there’s the woman I married,” I say, once I’ve managed to get most of it off.

“You don’t like the makeup?”

It’s been a change to see her made up, but my beautiful wife has no need of artificial embellishment.

“I like it well enough, but I prefer what’s beneath it. Here, take these.”

I kiss her forehead, and pass her some Advil with a glass of water. Reluctantly she takes them after rolling her eyes, but she’ll thank me in the morning.

“Good. Do you need a private moment?” I ask, remembering how much water I’ve insisted she drinks.

“So coy, Mr. Grey. Yes, I need to pee.”

“You expect me to leave?”

“You want to stay? You are one kinky son of a bitch. Out. I don’t want you to watch me pee. That’s a step too far.”

I leave her to it in the bathroom, but this little scene has brought back memories. Some very strict Dominants insist their subs must always ask for permission to urinate or defecate, and must allow the Dom to watch if he wishes. It's a very effective method of exerting control, but tends to appeal mostly to D/s relationships that include an element of humiliation. It was something we covered when I was training to become a Dom, but was not an area that particularly appealed to me at the time.

Now, I’d help Ana without hesitation if she needed assistance in the bathroom, but it’s nothing to do with control or  humiliation, just part of looking after and caring for someone that you love and cherish.


“That was fun,” Ana whispers the following morning.

She’s just indulged my fantasy for some resistance, after I’d admitted that subduing her in bed while she struggled was a fantasy of mine – one that I've never been able to act out previously, because I couldn’t bear to be touched.

But it didn’t quite go to plan. It started off well enough, as Ana fought and kicked and struggled as she tried to push me off. That was really hot, even when she pulled my hair really hard, because that made it more real.

“Oh, baby, fight me,” I’d implored her, but then our fighting had morphed into intense passion. So I’d slowed the pace right down, to make sweet love to my beloved wife, but that had just seemed to frustrate a clearly very impatient Ana into fighting and resisting me again.

“You don’t want to play nice?” I’d asked, confused.

No, she wanted me now, it seemed, so I gave in and did things her way. Ana dictated to me how we should make love.

And that’s what feels so odd. Having Ana call the shots like that. I admit to her that it confounds me, because it’s so different from how I've always done things.

“Good different or bad different?” she asks, as she trails her finger over my lips.

I consider her question for a minute before responding. To be honest, I'm not really sure. Is it a step too far? Does it make me feel less of a man, less in control? Or does it make me feel good that I am adaptable and considerate of my wife’s wishes?

“Good different,” I try to convince myself, as well as her.

“You’ve never indulged this little fantasy before?” she queries.

“No, Anastasia. You can touch me.”

“Mrs. Robinson could touch you,” Ana murmurs.

It always seems to come back to Elena, as far as Ana is concerned. She seems to endlessly want to rehash all the old shit.

“That was different,” I whisper back.

“Good different or bad different?” she wants to know again.

I think this through, and try to come up with an honest answer.

What Elena did to me wasn’t exactly what I would call touching. She would punish me with the touch of a cane, or a whip, or some other instrument of her choosing. She would pull my hair to jerk my head back when I displeased her, or when she considered that I had been disobedient, so that she could slap my face. She would touch me enough to bring me to the edge of an orgasm, just so she could deny me as she ordered me not to come. 

But I can't think of a time in all those years when she touched me in a way that indicated she cherished me or cared for me in any way other than for pure sexual gratification. When she touched me, she was simply using me. And comparing this experience,  to what I experience now when Ana touches me, means there is only one answer I can really give her.

“Bad, I think.”

“I thought you liked it.”

“I did. At the time.”

“Not now?”

I gaze at Ana, and shake my head, as I weigh everything up. All that time with Elena. How could I have got things so wrong, when I was so sure at the time that she was a force for good?

“Oh, Christian.”

Ana launches herself at me, kissing me everywhere, but especially my scars. My beloved wife cares for me, cherishes me as her touch heals the pain and torment that she can see still haunts me.

This time when I make love to Ana, it is the sweet and tender loving of my choice.


The next morning, I wander downstairs before my sleepyhead wife, and as it’s been a while since I was last here, I take a stroll around the grounds just to refresh my memory and check that everything is as it should be.

 I come across Peter Bentley, my housekeeper’s husband and the maintenance man here.  He’s also a volunteer with the Aspen Fire Department, as that fits in well with his responsibilities, as most of the time the place is unoccupied. He’s a fair haired, dark eyed middle aged guy, who keeps pretty fit in order to be able to carry out his Fire Department duties.

We strike up a conversation as we walk across the lawn back towards the house, and he’s pleased that I'm planning to make more use of this place. 

Peter runs through all the regular maintenance work he’s undertaken, and goes on to highlight a couple of areas he thinks will need looking at before the winter snows arrive. He says it would be wise for the garage  to have a new roof, and for some of the guttering to be replaced, so I suggest he gets Elliot to take a look, and if he agrees it needs doing, then to go ahead and organize the work to be completed.

As we stroll, I pick up an old bamboo cane that has blown over from where it was supporting some plants that have finished flowering now. As I weigh the cane in my hand, I recall how particularly painful bamboo is for dealing out a punishment, how it gives a lot of intensity with very little effort, because of the bumps and ridges along the cane.

I test it out, whipping it through the air. Thin lightweight canes like this one are more flexible and therefore sting the most. How do I know? Because bamboo canes were one of Elena’s instruments of choice  when she began my training as her submissive. The bamboo cane brought me to heel very quickly and effectively, and I've never forgotten how much it stung, or the marks it left.

After my conversation with Ana last night about Elena, the memories this bamboo cane have stirred up are not pleasant or happy ones. As I look up and see Ana watching me out of the window, I'm glad I’ve got rid of all my canes from our playroom. 

Such a wicked and spiteful instrument does not have a place in our loving relationship, however much we both enjoy spicy kinky fuckery. 

Even if my wife can be the most frustrating woman on the planet sometimes, caning someone you love until they are black and blue is not cherishing them, is it?

After spending Sunday hiking and picnicking, we all head back to Seattle, suitably exhausted, but mostly happy. Ana and I are happy, Kate and Elliot most definitely are, but Mia and Ethan are barely speaking, so they don’t seemed to have resolved anything, which is a shame. 

But there is little more I can do about that situation, much as I hate to see my sister looking so down. If she can't work her magic on Ethan, no one can.

And so it is back to reality once more. At least Ana and I achieved our aim of a relaxing and sociable weekend, and I plan for us to have lots more great weekends together.

The track that Ana dances to in Zax - 
David Guetta : Sexy Bitch. 

I don’t own any of the Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters therein. They belong to E L James. I’m just borrowing them for fun and not for profit. Please refer to the Legal’s page for further details. This work is not to be copied or reproduced in any way without permission. 
 p. Don't say I didn't warn you.  No two are alike, and each is very intng looking


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    1. Oh, come on, it's been less than a week since my last update! Give my poor brain a chance :)

    2. fico muito curiosa kkkk, num vejo a hora de ler esse blog impresso em livro ..... ja li os blogs 3 vezes e agora leio eles junto com o livro....muito legal!!!

    3. Haha. Its worth the wait! Thank you for making us happy:)

    4. Its funny, my hubby said that its hard to really comprehend what a man really thinks about sex, love, passion, romance......until I read a couple chapters to him on Christian point of view... let just say he was floored! He enjoys the story as much as I do!

  2. Amazing yet again. Really like his pov in zaxs. Well done again. Xx

  3. Amazing!!

    I understand why you're writing the third book differently but am glad we got so much of Christians thoughts in this chapter. Are we going to have Graces views on Elliot and Kates engagement soon and Elliots surprise at Christians hug and congratulations, it's something i think he would have told her, or will there be no update to graces blog with the thrid book?

    Great work though. Don't want it to end.


    1. There will definitely be an update to Grace's blog, it may even possibly be the next thing I write. I'm just waiting to see which muse strikes next !

    2. So excited now!!!

      x x

  4. Yay can't wait for the next chapter!!

  5. What a great thing to wake up to on a dreary Saturday morning your wonderful words, excellent chapter I love reading about what is going thru CG beautiful head

  6. Thank you for updating! I just love his story and your take on Christian.

    I'm glad to see him rethinking his "relationship" with the bitch troll.... I wonder if she is still trying to contact him?

    1. I can't see Elena giving up on Christian somehow.

    2. I agree...It would be fun to see where that could have gone now that Christian is in love and feels worthy..

  7. Another great chapter, as always. Thank you for continuing this as I'm sure you are very busy with life, family and your own book. Your readers appreciate your work and will be loyal followers.

    1. Thank - you. I think you would all be surprised by how many hours each chapter takes, even though it takes but a few minutes to read :)

    2. Thanks for a great chapter, what book are you writing?? When will it be out?

    3. My erotic romance book will be called 'Starr Crossed' and I hope to self publish June/July time, if all goes according to plan. I will keep you all informed.

    4. I've had to tweak the title of my book. Latest thinking is to call it Starr Fated. :)

  8. Wonderful,the best one by far...loved it and want more.Thank you.

  9. Great as always, I'm so looking forward for more. thanks for the update

  10. Love it! Need more please

  11. Another amazing chapter! I love his interactions with Ethan. I simply adore your Christian POV and seeing everything from his eyes. Amazing chapter <3
    So excited for new to come!

  12. great chapter ove the writing you do

  13. Thanks for such a great chapter! Our boy certainly is making big strides emotionally! But, he's fierce in protecting what's his. Elena's hitting on him, and his reaction, when he finds out his wife is pregnant is going to be epic!

  14. Awesome chapter you got there! Always worth waiting for. Did you count how many emotions you packed into this one? Wow. Love jealous Christian. A frustrated possessive... yet reluctant bully. But I love the caring, passionate one just as well both you portray to the tee. And then again the slide show. You must have a lot of fun with that. The cupid is really cute! Who is the guy in the picture as Ethan? Looks perfect. Also the one of Ana. Just beautiful. Whoever is it? And Wow! that dress is hot! No wonder Grey was grinding his teeth raw.

    Love you work. The writing is superior. No wonder your fans love you! Now my Saturday morning is complete.

    Nan :D

    1. Hi Nan,
      Alex Pettyfer as Ethan, Emilia Clarke as Ana. And yes the cupid is cute, V, one of my Spanish translators came up with that one. I do enjoy finding the pictures, it makes a change when I need to take a break from writing. I put even more pictures on my pinterest board too :)

  15. Awesome chapter, as usual. Never cease to amaze me with your writing on Christian's POV. I love how you explain everything and it all falls into place. You're an amazing writer and I look forward to each chapter. Thank you so much.

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    1. There is NO mistake that it takes you MUCH time and EFFORT to put out each new chapter. That's why we LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Thanks for feeding our fantasy. I'm starting to wonder if your family is "fed" up with you, since you've been at this just shy of a year now. And to think I found the blog the beginning of Sept. and am your BIGGEST fan by far.

    2. Thanks, Nancy. I'm lucky that my family are very supportive, but they really want me to crack on with my own book :)

    3. Well, I can't blame them. you have SOME future in store for you. and with all your FANS in on marketing your book for you, we will AlL help you out. My birthday is in June, so definitely anticipating "Starr Crossed".

  17. I love it, especially when he approves of her club attire and how Ethan's feelings are more clear! Can't wait till next chapter :)

  18. Yes I prefer to think that Christian was not playing with the cane because he missed it but rather he was reminiscing on the nasty side of his relationship with the troll. I enjoyed his chat with Ethan too. We never really got to find out what the issues were with them.
    Excellent chapter thank you.

    1. I think Christian has to move forward after recent events with regard to inflicting punishments, doesn't he? And Ethan is a very under developed character, so that was fun to explore.

  19. This chapter made me laugh and cry, that means it was good! My favorite part was: "Ana’s taken by surprise when I suddenly pick her up and carry her over the threshold. Tradition dictates that to avoid a lifetime of bad luck and evil spirits, a new wife must never trip or fall as she enters her new home. With Ana’s knack for tripping and falling, I’m definitely happy to carry her over the threshold of every single new home we go to." Christian can be so funny ;p

    1. I like to think Christian has a very dry and witty sense of humour, so I'm glad you appreciate it :)

  20. What a nice surprise I wasn't expecting an update so soon .....Great job making something of what I always thought was a throwaway chapter in the original. He'e really trying hard this weekend- being supportive to Elliot and Mia. Suppressing his controlling tendencies with Ana's outfit. Glad to know that he wasn't being nostalgic with the cane, like Ana assumed.


  22. Love, love, love this chapter!!!!!! I think this one of your best chapters EVER. There was no cursing, entertaining, and a little emotional. You captured that part of the book exceptionally (though I thought that part of the book was sooooo boring). You really showed how Christian really cares and adores his wife. This chapter you've showed us readers how he's grown up as a married man. Keep up the good work. Hopefully there's a new chapter on Friday. I think when you take a break you come back on point and on your A game.

  23. This post made my day!! :D

    Love what you did with the filling of gaps in Aspen, of course! Anxious for the recount of Leila's visit (although I'm sure you'll be brief in covering that since it's more of an Ana storyline) and I suppose Ray's accident. However, I'm sad that this will take you 3/4 way into book three an so much closer to the end. :(

    The upside is that after that comes all of the juicy stuff we've all been waiting for. Thanks again for your writing! Best fan-fiction EVER.


    1. I will be covering Leila's visit from Christian's pov, but as it has him all angry and upset with Ana again,is everyone ready for that after he's been so sweet and loving in Aspen? I've already said I won;t be going into Ray's accident so much, much as I love his character, I'm afraid it seemed rather like padding for the third book - just my opinion.
      After that, we get to the good stuff :) But I will also be filling in some Grace story line too, so plenty still to come :)

    2. you write what you want to write...it's up to you. we will read whatever you give us. :)

    3. I think we're all ready for Mr. Mercurial, as ever. LOL

      Agree on the fact that Ray's accident dragged...

    4. I cant wait for you to cover Leila's visit!!

  24. This was a great way to wake up to after feeling not to great. Thank you for these awesome piece. Keep up the great work, XoXo...

  25. What a treat for the weekend, thanks :-)

  26. It's so good to have a new chapter from Christian's POV. How I would like to see him and Ana dance in ZAX, doing dirty dancing, rrrrhhhhhhhhh. That must be very evocative, something more like foreplay than dance. Thank you for this amazing chapter, you are doing so great, thank you again.

  27. A-MAZ-ING, wonderful as usual, FAB FAB FAB

  28. Thank you so much!! I can't wait for the pregnancy...

  29. I can wait for the pregnancy chapter...that scares me....he leaves her. something he said he would NEVER do.

    1. He lets her down and acts badly, no question, but I guess that's the scared little boy/immature adolescent side of him freaking out. Going to be an emotional roller coaster writing that whole scenario :)

    2. I hope you have booze of some sort for that chapter....because we will all need it. don't tell me you don't drink, because I wouldn't believe it for a minute....not with your down and dirty writing!

  30. loved this chapter thank you Dawn x

  31. Love this chapter. I've had to stop reading some stories on fan fiction authors thinking ana would cheat with Ethan because she wasn't experienced after losing her virginity to Christian. After reading this it just how's they never really understood there love for each other. Cannot wait for next chapter. Your a star.

    1. Seriously? Ana and Ethan? That is why I read very few other stories I suppose. That kind of plot just spoils a beautiful romance imho.

  32. I love it thanks for another great chapter!

  33. Just want to say, I only discovered your blog by mistake last week, I'm addicted. I finished the entire thing within 3 days I think. Jumped for joy when I got the update today. Thank you so much for posting these, I'm really hoping a Christian pov series is done!!!!!

    1. Welcome aboard Annie. Where did you come across my blog?

    2. Annie...where the hell have you been...sleeping under a rock?

    3. Random google search.

      Lol must have been Nancy! I've google the same thing about 100 times, Christian grey pov, and never came across the blog until now......but totally addicted!!!!

  34. WOW!!! I'm giving you an standing ovation right now, because this is just perfect!! Let me tell you, you have made my day happier :). I love every chapter you have done so far, as much as the happy one as the bittier an angry ones... and it is an amazing work. I'm already your big fan and am waiting anxiously for the next chapter as well as for your book coming soon, because i love love looove your writing.
    By the way, what would you think about Jeffrey Dean Morgan as Ray Steel??? I have a picture of him in my Pinterest board :)( http://pinterest.com/pin/570479477768579482). Wish you a great weekend and we all be looking forward for the next updated... Thank you again for such a great work.

  35. Another wonderful chapter! Your writing is amazing & looking forward to the next update!
    Thanks for making my weekend!

  36. thanks for filling in the blanks and increase my obsession for my 50th ..... I really liked to include the haircut =) thanks xoxoxo until next week,


    1. Glad you spotted Christian's reference to having his hair cut by Ana :)

  37. I absolutely love your blogs. I love getting the email stating that a new one is up. My husband thinks I'm crazy because I get so excited that I get to read another one. I am also writing a book so your blogs inspire me. So in that I say thank you so very much and please keep up the great work.

    1. Thanks, Brie. Husbands should be happy that we are easily pleased by something as simple as reading a new chapter of a story we are enjoying eh?

  38. Thankyou for this chapter and Christians POV on Ethan & Mia as well as Elenai like how you went in depoth with these characters in this chapter your blog is the highlight of my week and once again thankyou

  39. Can't wait for your next update :)

  40. I agree with the anonymous review. There are to many cheating stories on fan fiction. Where the authors are putting Christian and ana with others. I read one cheating story last week a different path for ana where the cheating was in fact a dream. Author explained at the end that the cheating stories were getting out of hand. Then explained she tweeted el James where she confirmed no they would never cheat. It's a shame that we have people trying to ruin our beloved couple. I only found your blog last week, whilst reading full circle. I was really disappointed with fan fiction for removing this story. Your take on this couple is beyond words simply magic. You should be so proud of yourself. I also like the fact you go through your reviews and answer them. A big thank you for taking your precious time out for delivering this wonderful story.

    1. Thanks, and I'm glad you found your way here and are enjoying my blog. I guess folk like to come up with different angles to the story, but for me personally, I hate any kind of cheating storyline. I'm a romantic :)

  41. Thank you for this nice long chapter. I loved reading about Christian's thoughts about his beloved wife and all the love he has for her, even the thoughts of possessiveness. However, I hated reading about his reminiscences of Elena. I find them very disturbing, and the visions stay with me for days. People comment to you about blogs where the writers include cheating. I don't like that either, not one bit, but reading about the horrendous and brutal treatment that Elena inflicted on Christian is worse. I know, I know it is just a story and that Christian tolerated it because it was all he knew at the time and that it is all part of that D/S relationship, but it bothers me just the same. Although, you only touched on it to prove to us that Christian wants none of that with Ana. Thank God!! I was so happy to see a chapter posted. Thank you again for doing this. Can't wait for the next. Love ya, Carol xo

    1. Carol, I understand what you mean about Elena, and I wouldn't reference back to her if I didn't think it brought something to the story. It's by comparing things Elena did to him, with how Ana is with him that helps Christian to work things out and move on from her evil influence. But unfortunately, as we all know Elena will play a vital role in how he handles - or rather doesn't handle - the pregnancy issue.

  42. Those who believe either Christian or Ana would cheat have missed the whole point of the story which is about 2 people falling in love and learning to live with each other.

    Christian and Ana have been part of our lives for almost a year but particularly yours because you have to emerse yourself in their story eachh week. There can only be few more chapters to go. My question is will you miss them or will you be pleased to move on?

    1. A bit of both! But I have some one shots planned as well as finishing the main story :)

  43. I really enjoyed this chapter. Christian was a bit scary in this last one, with the strong rage that was burning inside of him. It's good to see him being more insightful and sensitive towards Ana. Christian is big on doing background checks, as he did again with Ethan, but a background check on HIM would be very interesting, wouldn't it??!! The high school brawling would certainly show up, but I wonder if the BDSM would still stay hidden. I enjoyed the scene between Christian and Ethan, and their discussion about Mia. Thanks for more great writing!
    Brenda in NYC

    1. Ha, good point, but I think Christian will make sure Welch has everything hidden away from anyone else's prying eyes!

  44. I am so glad you are back to writing these. I have enjoyed so much hearing Christian's point of view - and a very emotional one it is. I also enjoy your description of his enjoyment of their kinky and vanilla sex. It is fun to read these and fanfiction fucked themselves up by not letting your story stay.

    1. They did me a favour really. I would never have got to grips with setting up a blog otherwise, and this is way more fun :)

  45. I was just looking that your first chapter was in June of 2012- you have given us so much with all your chapters since then- you write beautifully, and so in character- Thanks for sharing your talent with us. I look forward to every update.

    1. Yes, and I started writing on FF before that, so I've had this story in my head quite a while.

  46. Thanks for another great Chapter looking forward to the next one. You are such a great writer and I can't wait for :Star Crossed".



  49. wow!! your'e writing is amazing!!
    when will you publish the next chapter?! i can't wait!!

    1. Not sure when the next chapter will be - I'll keep you all posted :)

  50. Hi, I only recently discovered your blog, and I am very glad that I did! You have captured so well the essence of Christian Grey and it's hard to believe at times that I'm not reading the original books. Your original ideas marry so perfectly with the storyline and I am thoroughly enjoying your writing. Thank you so much for sharing your amazing talent and time!

    Michelle (Perth, Australia).

    1. Thanks Michelle - it's always great to get positive feedback. It's what keeps me going:)

  51. I read a couple of other fan made blogs from Christians POV... Wait rephrase, I started to read a couple of others and began to wonder if those folks even read the trilogy and couldn't finish.
    Then I found yours and was sucked in... I have read every post in 3 days and am now seeing double laundry is piling up and my family is begining to wonder if I will ever cook for them again.
    Your writing feels to me like i'm reading an extention to the original books and Christians POV rings true to me. (Grace's POV also)
    You are a very talented writer and I simply can't wait for the rest!!! For now I will take a nap and I might even wonder into the kitchen later.... Or maybe i'll just read then all again!
    So Thank You for taking the time to write this and keeping true to the chacters and giving me my Christian fix!
    Thanks again,

    1. Hi Penny. Laundry and housework - pah! You know what they say 'Dull women have immaculate homes'. I think a decent smattering of dust is the sign of a healthy brain actually, because I'd rather read or write any day of the week! However, please convey my apologies to your family, but maybe leave a cookery book out for them to start learning to cook for themselves....only joking ;)
      Glad to know you are enjoying my writing anyway. It means a lot to me.

  52. I discovered your blog while lodging in Big Bear over Thanksgiving break. My friends had read the book and suggested I read it. I didn't want to read it in front of my teen aged daughters, they like to read what I read, so I scoured the internet looking for a digital version. In my search I stumbled upon your site and boy o' boy I've been hooked ever since. I read every chapter during my week long trip. I immediately subscribed to your blog so I wouldn't miss out. I still haven't read the book, I figured reading your interpretation was more than enough.
    Thank you for a literary private getaway,

    1. Hi Shay. I guess that's why Kindles are so popular - no one knows what you're reading! But I'm glad you came across my blog, and that you enjoyed it, although I have to say that most folk have read the books first. But if reading this works for you, who am I to complain :)
      Nice to hear from you anyway :)

  53. This is Awesome, the way you make his point of view so realistic like James is writing it herself. Love This.

  54. I love it! Cant wait to see Christians side of Rays accident and Anas pregnancy, promises to be just as good!:-)

  55. awesome job once again, its amazing how well your writing from CG point of view, im looking forward to the next chapter. I agree with other people about how i always forget how im not reading the actual books. But my boyfriend always tells me im obsessed with them but ive read them so many times already.As soon as im done reading all three books, i always get on here and re-read what you have wrote from CG view. I love to read and write. but i would never be able to write like this. So i hope you are real successful with your writing professions.

  56. ~~A~~MAZ~~~ING~~~~~....WOW, this Chapter was without a doubt absolutely fantastic!!! As I continue to read you great work, I keep being drawn in more & more!!! It's as if I'm reading the book all over again with more insight! This chapter was hands down terrific, I loved how you wrote C~P~O~V.........his thoughts bring so much more to the plot of this amazing story that I have to remind myself that this is "fiction" and not reality....then I have to say to myself, WOW, what a talented writer!!!!! I'm so happy that I've connected with you in the way of being fortunate to have found your Blog and happy that when you put pen to paper or fingertips to keyboard, your gift is such that it inspires me to follow you and desperately await the next chapter!!!!
    I must add this, when I see a new Chapter posted, I'm in total awe!!!! Then as I read the last sentence, I'm totally miserable as I hate to see it end........looking back, I applaud you for all you've given me in all your hard work that allows me my Ana & FSOG FIX!!!! I'm happy that there are chapters left to follow, but in reality, there aren't as many as I'd like there to be ;=(( I will continue to enjoy reading the remaining chapters, however, I will be really sad when you post the last chapter.........Do you think that you will go a bit further with Ana & Christian's story???? You know & baby makes three...........
    I cannot thank you enough for yet another "FANTASTIC CHAPTER!" I look forward to the next one..........as I wait impatiently :=))
    I just know that the next chapter will be beyond my expectations as this one was....you keep surprising me at every turn..........all I can say is PLEASE KEEP IT COMING..........TY TY TY TY TY TY TY I'm in total AWE of your writing...................

    1. Not sure quite how far I'm going to take this, but I've said I want to write about how Christian reacts to his new born baby son. I also have a couple of one shots up my sleeve, and Grace's pov to cover as well. All this together with finishing my own first original book will be keeping me pretty busy :)

  57. hi, okay? I am following your story here in Brazil, I am simply in love! I swear to God I think sometimes thinks you're the writer of the book, because I think all so well written and so aligned with the book. I am very anxious for the part where pregnant ana ... I can take a hint? writes all the time that the book goes ... ie ana pregnancy and the birth of Pheabe. kisses, I wish much success and please do not stop writing! I'm counting the days to Saturday, missing only three days Laughs


    1. Hi Camila in Brazil. Glad you're enjoying my blog :)

  58. I can't wait until you write more with the remaining chapters of FSOG....love your thoughts of Christian Grey

  59. I read all chapters in the last 3 days and I can't wait for more! I have to admit that I really enjoy your writing. I'm impatient to see how you'll describe Christian's feelings at the end of the 3rd book. Looking forward to it <3

    1. I forgot to say that in my post before but If you want to post your story in French as well, I'll be more than Happy to re-write it for you :)

    2. Hi there. I would love to have a French translation of my blog, but it is a huge commitment. Perhaps you would like to email me direct at christiangrey50shades@gmail.com to discuss?

  60. You are an amazingly talented writer and I have absolutely loved every chapter of this saga. The only thing that I was sorry to see left-out of this chapter was Christian's perspective when learning that Ana's hand is hurting the next morning after hitting the guy on the dance floor. I can only imagine how furious he would be about his wife's injury! Of course, I do understand that you can't include every detail in your chapters, so it's certainly not a criticism! - Rebecca

  61. I'm soo ready for the next chapter, when will it be posted?

    1. Me too. Hopefully this weekend, please.

  62. IMO please finish christian POV before writing Grace blog.....its like reading the same thing twice

    1. I hear what you are saying, but I'm following the same timeline for both of them, so it makes sense to update this way. It will be while before Grace's blog is next update now anyway, so I will be concentrating on Christian's pov for a while.

    2. More Christian POV please and thank you. This blog is my escape as I've mentioned before. Thank you so much for this. Can't wait for your book to be published.

  63. WOW ! i've been silently fangirling about this blog for a while now, i read everything in almost 2 days ! it's sooooooooooo good ! the accuracy of christian's pov is amazing ! good work, and post the next chapter soon !

    1. Hi Jennifer - Christian is rather addictive, isn't he?

  64. I went through some of the stories on fan fiction.net, and I have to admit 99.9% of the stuff is NOT WORTH READING....... This blog is by far the BEST CG's POV from FSOG hands down....... Can't wait for your book to be published.... Keep up the good work and patiently awaiting the next chapter.

  65. hello, when will you post the new chapter. I am anxiously awaiting. please let me know and post soon. kisses

    1. Hi Camila. I'm planning to post a new chapter here at the weekend :)

    2. Another amazing chapter my friend! I was hoping that you would include the text message and the scene with the silver dress. It's never mentioned in the articles and blogs I've read and IMO it's one of the hottest scenes in the book! WOW! It made quite an impression on me ifyouknowwhatImean...;) Thanks for including the text/silver dress from Christian's POV.

      I also love the way you went into detail about Ethan's reasons for holding back with Mia. He's a great guy. Even Christian seems to like him which speaks volumes. I love that Elliott and Christian are protective brothers and take care of Mia. (My brothers did the same with me...actually still do.)

      I got a doubly whammy of sexy this chapter when you included Anastasia and Christian dancing along with the silver dress scene!!! You made my day! :) I recall Anastasia saying that Christian is such a good dancer that he makes her graceful. I find that sooooo sexy! :) We have a theory in TX among my friends that if a big, strong, alpha male can also dance it means he also has rhythm and other talents in the bedroom. My DH proves that theory to be true. ;) I've been surprised more hasn't been written about these two scenes and the other dancing scenes since I felt they played a major part in the love story...not to mention they're HOT! :)

      Happy you're back! I missed you! :(
      A++ Excellent Chapter
      TX Teacher and Fan

    3. I completely agree about men who can dance - it is very very sexy :)
      Glad you enjoyed the silver dress scenes anyway :)

    4. Ok! now your comments made me wanna give it a try to my salsa dance instructor!!! of course it has crossed my mind before (just seeing him dace makes me feel like I wanna dance like that and dancing with him makes me dance better so I can relate with Ana`s comments about it) I guess we´ll see what happens and then i`ll let you know!!! LOL

    5. I think we all want a full report on how things went with the salsa dance instructor ;)

  66. Cannot wait for more from Christians point of view. Are you going to write more from CPV? I hope so and love reading his pov. My family and I will be on vacation May 10-May 19 and I am not bringing my laptop. Melanie Boyce.

    1. I'm busily writing a new chapter which I'm planning to post this weekend, well before your vacation :)

    2. thanks and cannot wait to read more. Have you read the 50 shades of grey books? I read all 3 last year and I love Christian's pov. Great writing.

  67. sorry, you write anywhere else? what address? about? I apologize again, but do not understand what it means and cpv pov? can you enlighten me? Camila kisses

  68. ok, the pov is on the point of view of Cristian, but I do not understand is pdv ... I am sorry you take it, but I'm new to this thing fanfic and my research could not understand Pdv ... kisses

    note: sorry my English, it is very bad and end up wearing the Google translator


    1. Hi Camilla - I think pdv was a typing error, so I'm glad you figured out pov = point of view. Google translate is not the best I know!

      I am planning to have my own original work called 'Starr Fated' available as an e-book later this summer, which I will let everyone know the details about in due course when it become available.

  69. WARNING!

    TO Everyone who is involved in this blog and somehow with the writter let me tell you something about her:

    Her name is Sophy Kitaka. She is a proffessional lier.
    Last two years she was starting relationships with different people using fake pictures and fake stories about her.
    I am one of them. She convinced me with pictures of models and histories about her work and life that were 100% fake
    and she is doing the same all over again with different people.

    Please be careful. remember SOPHY KITAKA IS CHRISTIANGREY50SHADES

    1. I have no idea who you are seeing as you have left an anonymous post and did not have the courtesy to put your name, but I am most certainly not Sophy Kitaka, whoever she may be, so please check your facts before you post allegations such as these. I could just take the post down, but I am looking for an apology from someone who does not bother to check their facts. Look at my legals page and you will see that I am G E Griffin.

  70. hi my name is Shannon and i was wondering if once you finished this blog could you try writing a blog on what Christian was like when he was a sub for Elena i was only wondering because i think you would be the best person to write it because you have already been in his mind frame please think about it
    p.s your the best writer ever love this so much

  71. I forgot to mention how much I enjoyed the title of the previous chapter 'Cocktailgate'. Very clever.

    Your writing is amazing and seamless and I am hooked on every word.

    I enjoy classic Christian possessiveness like this:

    "I am less than pleased by the way a young male member of staff named Max ogles my wife as she removes the coat I insisted she must wear to keep her covered while we made our way here, and I will be bringing the matter of his inappropriate behavior to the attention of the manager."

    And I also enjoy his reflective moments: how he told everyone that his wife cut his hair, and the 'bamboo' epiphany - how beating her till she's black and blue may not be cherishing her.

    I also like the authentic little details such as subs having to ask permission for bodily functions. This really is a great piece of work. Let me know when you publish something, I would buy it in a nanosecond.

  72. Loved it as always :)

  73. Hey...i love the way you write and fill in the gaps..I spend hours reading your POV....but starting from the 3 rd book,it seems like you are missing certain parts and you could perhaps elaborate certain parts more.for e.g. the haircut scene ,the honeymoon,etc....still love your work...its wonderful! !!

    1. Glad you've been enjoying reading my blog. Yes, there are some gaps I haven't filled, but as a writer sometimes you just have go with what flows, and if I didn't feel I could bring anything to the story, I didn't want to include it. Hope that it explains things a little anyhow :)

  74. I think it's great you did it that way instead of writing something and possibly ruining the story. I love how you stay so true to the characters and the story thank you.


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