11 July 2012

Chapter 22 - Absence Makes The Dom Grow Fonder


The security detail have finally got their act together, so I now have pictures of Ana as she made her way to each of her interviews, and then of her going back to her apartment. 

And Welch has picked up some feedback on her interviews – SIP were impressed with her, so it seems likely they’re going to make her an offer, which pleases me as that’s the company I would prefer to acquire.

While I'm still at the office in the early evening, Anastasia emails to tell me her interviews went well, which of course I’m already aware of, but I’m pleased that she seems happy about them.  Then we have some of our usual witty email banter, which improves my mood a little. For some reason, she seems to think Mrs. Jones is an ex sub of mine – she doesn't understand that I never fuck my staff. The only exception to this rule would be if Ana came to work for me, but she’s adamant that she never would.  ‘Not for all the tea in China’, are her exact words. And then disappointingly she’s gone again, promising to contact me once she’s in Georgia.

I get surveillance pictures of Ana being dropped off at Sea-Tac by Kate. She’s travelling light as she’s only carrying one rucksack, and it really makes me want to take her shopping to buy her the kind of things my girlfriend should have. At least I’ve got her upgraded to first class.


However, I’m pissed when she emails me to say she’s had a back massage in the First Class lounge at the airport– I just hope it was a woman masseur. That was one of the reasons for getting her upgraded, and having an empty seat next to her, so that no other fucker would get his filthy hands on her. I have to know who the masseur was, but she takes ages emailing me back. And I don’t like the answer I get, even though I know she’s winding me up when she informs me how great some Jean-Paul dick was at massaging her.

Next time she goes anywhere, it’ll be in my private jet, no argument. I scold her for using her cell in the plane, and as the plane takes off at around ten thirty in the evening, that’s the last contact I have with her. I feel even more bereft now, knowing she’s actually left, gone, flown away to the other side of the continent. I have this horrid empty feeling in my chest. It's just indigestion, Grey.

So now I return to my apartment, thinking I won’t hear from Ana again until she's landed in Savannah. Needless to say, I don’t sleep well, and the nightmares return. Nightmares about being abandoned, about being totally on my own in the world, about pain and torture. I get up and head for my piano, hoping that playing something quiet and soulful will help my mood.

Finally, around five in the morning I’m pleased to get a text from Ana saying she’s arrived safely in Savannah, and then I see that she emailed me during her earlier stopover in Atlanta. I eagerly read the long, rambling email to discover she's finally opening up to me, as she expresses her fears and worries. She also confesses that the Jean Paul masseur dick was gay, which I suppose makes it not quite so bad, especially as she says she misses me. But she also says that she feels like a whore when I spend money on her, and that she’s scared of being hurt both emotionally and physically, so she needs some space to figure out what ‘more’ means to her. I spend ages reading and re-reading it, and don’t reply immediately as I need to give it some serious thought, but at least now I have something to work with.

Next I get some pictures through from the security team in Georgia, so they seem on the ball. They show Ana being met at the airport by a man and a woman, who I guess are her mother and step dad. Ana looks kind of emotional as they hug her, and I hope it’s just tiredness and that nothing has happened to upset her. Then they head off in a Tahoe SUV, which at least seems a reasonable car. 


I assume she’ll be getting some sleep, but then the next hour I get some pictures of her at some place called Tybee Island beach. She’s wearing a tiny blue two piece swim suit which she looks fucking hot in. I’d rather she was locked up indoors. Other men are getting to see her practically naked, while I’m stuck here hundreds of miles away. 

At least she’s at the beach with her mother, so that’s some sort of a chaperone, isn’t it? But that’s not stopping other men feasting their eyes on what is mine, what should be for my eyes only.  My mood takes a turn for the worse, and I kick the shit out of Claude during our early morning session. I think he is somewhat bemused by my ferocity.

When I get back, I sit down and reply to Ana’s email. I go out on a limb and really open up to her. I tell her wealthy boyfriends like to spend money on their girlfriends, and this doesn’t make her a whore. It just gives me pleasure, and she should look on it as a redistribution of wealth. I threaten to make her an appointment with Dr. Flynn because of her low self-esteem issues.

 I explain that she shouldn’t be scared of the type of relationship I want, because it’s the sub who has all the power. She can say no, just as she did in the boathouse, and then I can’t touch her. I tell her how much I want her to share my lifestyle, how she has me under her spell, how worried I am that she has flown three thousand miles to get away from me. 

I offer to extend the length of our contract to six months, a year, whatever she wants. I tell her we have to be honest with each other. I tell her she only has to be my submissive in the playroom, and that she has been exemplary in there so far. 

I tell her that I don’t want to change her otherwise, because I find her challenging and refreshing. 

I tell her to let me know what she wants from me, what more means to her, and that I’ll try to keep an open mind. 

I tell her I’m trying to respect her need for space, that she should enjoy herself in Georgia. But not too much.

I’ve never written an email like this before, and my finger hesitates over the send button. Fuck it. I hit the send button.

Next  I head off to keep my appointment with Dr. Flynn.
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“How was the conference, John?” I ask, as I settle myself on the green leather couch as usual. 


“Dull as ditch water actually. Nowhere near as fascinating as you, Christian,” he smirks at me from his winged chair, as he puts down the case notes he’s been reading.

“Or as profitable, with the outrageous fee you charge to listen to my shit, especially as you seem to find it so entertaining,” I throw back at him.
Of course I couldn’t care less what he charges; it’s just part of our warm up repartee. I like that he doesn’t take himself too seriously. But I also know that it’s a cover; underneath he is very perceptive and astute, and doesn’t miss a trick.

“So, last time you told me about this girl you’ve met – Anastasia, isn’t it. How have things been progressing with this relationship?” 

I like the way he pronounces Anastasia with his British accent. I just really like her name. I just really like her. Stop it, Grey. Grow up.

“Still pretty confusing to be honest. I took your advice about compromising, and I’ve said I’ll try to give her more, that I want her to be my girlfriend as well my sub, which I’ve never offered a woman before.”

“I see. Well that sounds promising,” he smiles. “What about her adapting to your BDSM needs?”

“We’ve played a scene in my playroom, and that went really well, although naturally I took it pretty easy on her.”

“Yes, that would be a wise decision under the circumstances, given her lack of sexual experience.”

“But she still says I’m too intense, so now she’s flown hundreds of miles across to the other side of the country to visit her mother, because she says she needs some space to think about us.”

“That doesn’t seem unreasonable, and is probably sensible of her. It means she’s taking things seriously anyway.”

“You think? But where does that leave me? I hate her being away. I feel like shit because I already miss her like crazy and I can’t stop thinking about her. Why does she need to go away to think? Surely she’s just running away from me? When we’re together, there’s this amazing bond between us, at least I feel it and I’m pretty sure she does too, so how can she leave me? And it’s not just the sex, although it is the best I’ve ever experienced, bar none. I even asked if I could go with her, but she turned me down. I’m fucking pissed that I feel like this, I’m not used to having an infatuation and it’s doing my head in. I’m a Dominant for Christ’s sake. I’m meant to be the one in control.”

“Hang on a minute there, Christian. Just because she's decided to have some time out to visit her mother does not mean she’s leaving you.”

“Well, that’s what it feels like to me.”

“Because unlike all your previous submissive partners, she has dared to go ahead and do something against your wishes?”

“Yes.”

“And you haven’t felt like this about anyone before?”

“No, never, and I don’t understand it. I'm obsessed – what the fuck is wrong with me?”

“So, you really miss her, you want to be with her all the time, you can’t stop thinking about her, and you feel something special exists between you? And you haven’t worked out what all this means yet?”

“Worked what out?”

“Oh come on Christian, it’s as plain as the nose on your face!”

“For fuck’s sake John, what the hell are you talking about?”

“Christian, you’re in love! You've fallen head over heels in love with Anastasia,” John declares, with a broad grin on his face.

“Shit! Don’t be so fucking ridiculous! That's not possible, I don’t believe in all that ‘love’ crap. Well, maybe for other people, but not for someone like me. My heart was destroyed many years ago and I’m just not capable of ‘falling in love’, as you term it. I think I’ve simply developed an unhealthy obsession, and that’s what I need your help with, to overcome and control it.”

John just looks smugly at me.

“Cupid has shot his arrow straight into your alleged heart of stone, and scored a direct hit. No good fighting it I’m afraid, Christian,” he states.



“You are talking straight out of your ass, and that’s not what I pay you for,” I glare at him. Love is only for good people with pure hearts, who deserve it. Like Mom and Dad.

“Look, you undoubtedly had a very turbulent and unconventional adolescence, where basically you side stepped most of the normal teenage experiences, such as falling in love, so it's little wonder that this has taken you by surprise. You’ve never claimed to have been in love with Elena, despite your long term relationship with her, have you?”

“No, love was never mentioned or discussed between us. It wasn’t that sort of relationship. But I do know that it was exactly what I needed at the time, because it was controlled and clear cut. I understood the rules, and that brought me back into line when I was in danger of totally losing control.  And so that's why I've always had a similar type of relationship with my submissives ever since. I know it works for me when everyone keeps to the rules.”

“Ah, yes your rules. How does Anastasia feel about all of them?”

“She finds them hard to accept. She’s scared of being punished, of being hurt, so I’m trying to show her that if she trusts me to know her limits, pain will actually become pleasure. But I think in time, she will see that the rules are actually there for her benefit.”

“You really believe that? You don’t think that maybe they're more for your benefit than hers, because you have control issues? And the fact that you’re falling in love is scaring you, because it’s alien to you and therefore makes you feel out of control?”

“Stop with all this ‘love’ shit. If Anastasia knew what I was really like, why I have this compulsion to beat the shit out of little brown haired girls like her, she’d run a million miles. So there’s no point in thinking about things like love. We just have to find a way to make this relationship work, to cater for my sadistic needs in a way that she can deal with. I know what happens if I don’t have a channel, an outlet, how wild and out of control I’ll become, if I try and suppress this need I have to punish her if she breaks the rules.”

“Christian, how many times have I told you not to use the term sadist? You could adapt and change if you really wanted to. Sexual sadism is a lifestyle choice, not a disease. It is possible for you to look to the future and develop new ways of channeling your feelings, if you have a partner that you love, but who does not wish to submit to the more extreme tendencies of your lifestyle. At least Ana has been willing to go into your playroom to experiment with you, which is a good basis to work from, wouldn't you say?  Clearly she must have strong feelings for you too,” John insists. 

“I am who I am, John. I have to be honest and up front about what I would eventually want from our relationship, even if I am willing to take things slowly. That need is always going to be there in me, whether you agree with the sadist label or not.”

“Okay Christian. I think we’re going to have to leave it there for now. But I would ask you to give some serious thought to the possibility of adapting your needs in order to be with someone you love, and who loves you back in return.  It’s a truly wonderful thing, to find someone to share your life with. Believe me, I know what I’m talking about. I’m a true Brit, who was very happily settled in London, with a very successful career, my future all mapped out.  Then I met Rhian. We fell deeply in love, and she just couldn’t settle and be happy anywhere but here in the States. So, that was it. In order to be with her, I had to up sticks and start all over again here in Seattle. It wasn’t easy at first, but I have absolutely no regrets whatsoever.”

“I hear what you’re saying John. But you’re one of the good guys. You’re not full of twisted shit. I just know what works for me,” I insist.

“No, Christian. You know what has worked for you in the past. You need to open up your mind to see what could work for you in the future, if you chose to leave all that behind, which I believe you could for a woman like this Anastasia. Just promise me you will at least give this some thought. This is your homework for the week,” he smiles, as I get up to leave.

“Okay, I’ll give it some thought,” I promise, but not holding out much hope of any great change in my outlook. 

~~~


At least now the report from the surveillance team shows that Ana is safely back at her mother’s place, probably for a rest. I wonder what her reaction to my long email is. Finally I get a reply from her at around four in the afternoon. And I’m happy, because she says that she loved my long, loquacious, email. She tells me she’s going out to dinner at her step father’s golf club, and that she will respond properly to my email later. And she says she misses me. So I should fucking well hope.

We send a few of our usual witty emails back and forth, then it gets really interesting when she starts talking about spanking, asking who spanks me when I roll my eyes. It makes me think about the two delightful times I've spanked her, and I get an immediate hard on.

When she says she has to get ready to go out, I find myself imagining her beautiful sexy body, and I offer to zip up her dress. She replies that she would rather I unzipped it, and I find myself with a seriously rock hard erection that is going to need some sort of attention, which is difficult as I'm in the office. 

It gets worse when she tells me she wants me to unzip her dress slowly, and I'm literally panting over my keyboard as I visualize doing exactly that. That she can have this effect on me from  nearly three thousand miles away is pretty fucking impressive.

‘Wish I was there.’ I’m literally groaning as I type this to her. Why the fuck did I ever let her go away?

‘SO DO I,’ she replies, with the subject ‘Moaning.’

Just as I’m seriously considering another first by locking my office door to indulge in a full on cybersex session with her, she frustratingly leaves me hanging when she emails back, saying ‘Gotta go. Laters, baby.’

I’m only a little calmer after taking things in hand in my executive rest room to relieve the tension that this encounter with Ana has left me with.

~~~

I’m just getting ready to go and meet Elena, when I get an email back from Anastasia, as she’s just returned from her evening out at the golf club. And we’re off again, sparring with words, and I think I win this time when I use the word concupiscent. I love the fact that she is such a stimulating and intelligent young woman.

I was displeased to see from the surveillance pictures that she wore the grey halter neck dress out to the golf club. I like that dress because her naked back is exposed in it, but I'm not there to appreciate it. At least it looks as if the golf club was full of mostly older men like her step father, but I still wish I’d been there to make sure everyone kept their distance and no one touched her. Her silky back is only for me to touch and stroke. However, I'm pleased that she’s now back safely at her mother’s house. This time I'm the one who breaks off contact with Ana, so I can go and meet Elena. I’m driving myself, having given Taylor the evening off. I know I’ve been a moody bastard with him recently, but I guess he should be used to it by now.
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 Elena arrives just after me at my club. Neither of us does late, which is another thing I like about her. I watch her confidently making her way over to our table.

She’s wearing a fitted black dress that shows off her trim figure to perfection, with black stockings and high black stilettos to match. I can't recall ever seeing her wearing anything colorful - black is her signature look. She’s taller than Anastasia, and generally a bigger build all-round, as befits a Dominatrix like her. 




Her large breasts look good for a woman in her early forties, but then they should as I know that she had a boob job last year. As the proprietor of the Esclava Beauty Salon chain, naturally she is groomed to perfection, not a hair is out of place. Her skin is a light coffee shade, which in Seattle can only mean she uses a sun bed or fake tan. I believe she favors spray tan, as it’s less damaging to the skin in the long run. She’s immaculately made up, sporting glossy pink lipstick, and her icy blue eyes are emphasized by false eyelashes.

As I stand up to greet her, she reaches out and places her hand on my arm, and I see her long, bright red, acrylic nails that remind me of talons. She used to use those to great effect on my back. As she kisses both my cheeks to greet me, I catch her unmistakable heavy signature perfume – Chanel No.5.

“Christian, darling, it's so good to see you,” she smiles, showing off her brilliant white teeth. I pull out her chair for her to sit, and she casually places her designer purse on the table. I remember that she has an impressive collection of designer purses. She’s also dripping in expensive diamond jewelry – earrings, necklace, and several huge rocks on her fingers. I have no doubt that they’re all genuine – Elena would never dream of wearing anything other than real diamonds.

When I was an impressionable fifteen year old, everything about Elena screamed SEX to me. When she kissed me and slapped my face, I was shocked, but totally enthralled at the same time. When I saw her in her black leather dominatrix outfit, I was hers to command, as she knew I would be. And she taught me everything I needed to know about fucking. She was harsh, cruel even, but I understood it, welcomed it. I knew I deserved every lash of her whip, every harsh bite of her cane. As she pushed me to my limits and beyond, I accepted it, because the pain felt right, it felt good.

She’d command me that whatever she told me to do, I was not allowed to come until she gave me permission, knowing full well that it would be impossible for a young man like me to have that kind of self-control. But I soon learnt. I learnt to control that and all the other wild feelings that were threatening to send me off on a path of self-destruction, just like my crack whore mother.  She saved me from myself. I know Anastasia doesn’t understand this, but that’s how it was.

Anastasia. I feel a pang of longing as I think about her. She is about as different to Elena as it’s possible to be, in every conceivable way. She’s natural, sweet, soft and kind. None of these words could ever be used to describe Elena. 


 “What would you like to eat?” I inquire, as I hand Elena the menu.

“Oh, you order for me please darling. You know what I like,” she states, not even bothering to take the menu. I look up and the waiter immediately comes over to take our order. That’s what I expect when I'm out for a meal - well trained staff. The waiter not annoyingly hovering at my elbow, but discretely watching to see when it’s appropriate to approach the table.

“We’ll both have the new season asparagus with poached duck egg, parmesan, balsamic and hollandaise sauce to start, followed by the sea trout with cauliflower puree, pea and broad bean dressing. And we’ll have a bottle of the Chassagne Montrachet, the 2007 if you have it. No dessert.” Elena never eats dessert, but we both enjoy a good French wine.

“Very good, sir.”

“So, why don't you let me look over those figures for the Esclava chain while we wait for the food,” I suggest. It won’t take me long; after many years of experience sizing up businesses, I can tell at a glance what I need to know. It’s what I do.

“Thank you Christian. I’d appreciate that,” she says, as she hands them over. I look over the Profit & Loss and Balance sheets. All seems pretty healthy and in good order.

“Just watch you don’t have too much money tied up in old stock,” I suggest. “And the cash outflow for the new branch at the Bravern Center seems to have matched the provision made, so that’s all good. It’ll be reassuring to see some return for that investment starting to come in – you’ve managed to expand your customer base there I see.”

“Yes. Reputation is everything in our business; word of mouth recommendations among our exclusive clientele are worth far more than any advertising campaign. Your mother and sister have been most helpful in spreading the word among their circle of friends.”

"Well, as your silent partner, I have no concerns.”

Our first course arrives, along with the wine. I taste it – it’s fine. Once the waiter has left, Elena starts to question me.

“So, have you gotten yourself a new submissive yet? It must be what, two months since you terminated Susannah’s contract? Such a shame she didn’t work out for you, she had such promise too. But a man with your extreme needs and requirements shouldn’t go too long without a suitable form of relief. I’ve told you before; it’s not good for you.”

I hesitate, not sure how to explain to her about Anastasia. At least I don't have to explain to Elena about my need to punish, my need to cane a sub if she fails to follow my rules. She alone understands only too well.

“Actually, I’ve got a new submissive under training – sort of.”

“What do you mean, 'sort of'?”

“I’ve met this girl who wasn’t into the scene, and I’m introducing her to it, gradually training her up to be my new submissive.”

“Good God, Christian! You’re taking a chance aren’t you? You usually recruit a very experienced sub to be able to handle your special type of needs.” 

I know, but I want her, and only her. Anastasia. No one else will do. I know it would be far easier to just recruit a new sub in the usual manner, but I’m just not interested. At first she seemed a natural submissive, so I thought why the fuck not? Everyone has to start somewhere don’t they? And I thought molding her to my own way of doing things could be stimulating and fun, something different, a new challenge.”

“I see. So how has this Anastasia of yours taken to subbing? Is she a natural? Has she accepted you as her Dominant? Can she give you what you need?” I see the skeptical look on Elena’s face, and I think she's put out that I haven't consulted her about any of this before now. 

“To be honest, I was wrong about her being a natural submissive. She‘s nothing of the sort, although she’s said she’ll try. And yet I can’t help myself; I still really want her.”

“What’s she like?”

“Anastasia? She’s a natural beauty. She’s sweet and lovely, yet challenging and witty, and sexy as hell. A real contradiction, ” I try to explain, seeing Elena’s disapproving  look.

“How old is she? What does she do?”

“Twenty one, coming up twenty two. She’s just graduated from WSU.” 

We pause as our plates are cleared away, and the main course is served. Once the waiter makes himself scarce again, we continue our conversation.

“Christian, are you sure that… well I hate to say it, but you are a very wealthy man. This …what shall we call it, this infatuation of yours with this young girl. Her apparent sweetness and innocence could be an act to entrap you, you do realize? Did she claim to be a virgin? That can often be part of the act you know.”

“For fuck’s sake Elena! I’m not stupid! She was a virgin as it happens, and no, it wasn’t an act I can assure you. She’s not interested in my money, and doesn't even like me buying her gifts. She is just a naturally lovely girl.” 

I don't mention Flynn's assertion that I've fallen in love with Anastasia. I know what Elena's opinion about that would be. I'm still not sure what I make of it myself. She's not a fan of Flynn in any case; she thinks he can’t understand the true nature of a BDSM Dominant, as he's never been involved in the scene for himself. 

“Hmm. If you say so Christian.” I can see she’s not convinced.

“So how is the submissive training going? Have you caned her yet? How did she take it?”

“I’m taking things slowly at the moment. We started off with some basic vanilla."

I remember only too well how Elena didn’t take things slowly with me; she caned and whipped me right from the very beginning. But that was different. I really needed it.

Vanilla? For a man like you? Christian, you’re her Dom for God’s sake, you can't go on like this. She has to comply with your needs, you know that you have to establish the ground rules right from the outset. You have to be honest with her, and if that scares her off, then she’s not for you, and it’s best that you know this sooner rather than later, however flattering it may be to have her chasing after you. All this is just a novelty for you.”

“I hear what you’re saying Elena, I really do, and normally that’s exactly how I would be. But it’s just different with Anastasia, and actually the vanilla was really great, I have to say. It paid off, because she was exemplary in our first scene in my playroom. And I'm the one pursuing her, trying to persuade her we can make this work. She’s away at the moment, gone to visit her mother in Georgia, so that she can think about things, about us.”

“Is that because you’ve told her about your needs? Has that scared her off to go running into her mommy’s arms?”

“I don’t really know, to be honest. It worries me that she felt the need to get away. I miss her like crazy, and I just want to go and be with her. But I think that might scare her off if I follow her to Georgia, so I'm doing my best to give her some space.”

“Nonsense Christian! If you feel that strongly, and she’s everything you say she is, then go and surprise her with a visit. But you have to be totally honest and up front with her about all your needs. You know what happens if you try to shut them off, and that wouldn’t be fair to either of you if you went off the rails again. You have to make her understand; don't hold anything back, be totally honest and show her, demonstrate to her exactly how extreme your needs are. Trust me, that’s what you need to do, if you’re going to stand any chance of making things work with her, if that’s what you really want. If she’s the girl you think she is, she will accept this and do it for you.”

“I know. I know what I am, and that she needs to understand about me,” I sigh.  
“Fly out to see her. Spend some time with her. Show her the real you. If you think it would help, I could talk to her, maybe even help you to train her when you get back. I could show her how to be a really good submissive for you. If you’re really sure this is what you want, I’ll give you my full support.”

I look at Elena’s hard face. So different from Ana’s.

“Thanks for the offer, I’ll bear it in mind, but I think I have things in hand. And maybe I will surprise her with a visit. You think she’d really like that? She did say she missed me and she wished I was there.”

“See? What did I tell you? Just do it, Christian,” she urges me.

So when I get back from my dinner date, I recall Taylor from his evening off.
Because I’ve made up my mind. 

I’ve decided. 

I’m going to Georgia to see Anastasia, just as soon as I can get everything arranged.

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197 comments:

  1. Love this chapter, when Dr Flynn was talking about Christian being in love, making him see he does have a heart. The photos of Flynn and Ana are exactly what i thought they would look like, hope they choose Colin and Alexis to play them, fantastic writing

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    1. Hi Chez. It's fun to put the pictures in - whether or not the actors get the parts we shall see. But Colin would certainly make a wonderful Dr. Flynn wouldn't he? And Alexis has those big blue eyes, whereas a lot of the actresses they have been suggested have brown eyes.

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  2. Sarah from Boston!July 11, 2012 at 12:21 PM

    Yeah! What a wonderful surprise to get a new chapter so soon! Now I'm late for work! But it was worth the read. Fantastic job on the Flynn session. Can't wait for the Georgia trip. Thanks again for taking time to write and share your story.

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    1. Hi Sarah - hope you didn't get in trouble for being late for work!

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  3. I was so excited to see another chapter posted. I love the pics you chose for Flynn and Elena and of course Anastasia (Alexis Bledel is my choice for the role). Poor Taylor never gets a minutes rest. Love, love, love your story!

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    1. Hi Jennifer. Poor Taylor indeed! Thanks for your support :)

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  4. Great update, I love that Christian is missing Ana so much to the extent that he knows her every move. Great conversations between him and Dr Flynn and him and the bitch troll hehe. The only plus side Elena has for me is that she convinced him to fly out to Georgia, I'm really looking forward to his thoughts and feelings on that :) Great work, E

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    1. Yes, at least Elena was useful for something!

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    2. I think she did it for selfish reasons though. I don't think she did it so he would be happy.... She thinks if he does it will scare Ana off. Bitch troll that she is!! ;)
      ~ tlc_23

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    3. I think the same

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  5. Fantastic!!!!!!!!!!God I hate that bitch troll and I love this romantic love story and the chapters you bring to us. Cannot wait for the next chapter.
    Sigrid

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  6. What a great surprise to wake up to this morning!! A new chapter!! Loved it!!! He is in love!!! Can't stand the troll woman (but u nailed it!!)

    Hope for an update soon!!!

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  7. update soon i love reading this its brill xoxoxo

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  8. Loving it all he's coming around to vanilla ,that's why vanilla ice cream so popular

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    1. Nothing wrong with good old vanilla eh??

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    2. Love, love, love your stories!!! Can't wait for the next one!! Thank you so much!!!

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  9. As always a great chapter. I loved how you wrote the bitch troll and gave us an insight into her personality, Christian thinks she is a good friend who is giving him good advice when in reality she is trying to sabotage things between Ana and himself. I agree Alexis Bledel is Ana. So again my many thanks to you for yet another wonderful chapter, please continue with many more chapters, I can not wait for the next one, and THANK YOU! ;) Laters Marcia.

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  10. Another wonderful chapter! I love your writing! Can't wait for the next chapter!
    Sal :)

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  11. Another great chapter.......love reading from Christians POV

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  12. As usual great chapter! Love the character choices you've made. Just who I pictured. How about Eric Dane as Taylor and Diane Lane as Gail? Just a thought. You always leave me hanging for the next chapter but thats a good thing. Keep it up!

    Nan ;)

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  13. Awesome job! I was so excited when I saw the next chapter ready. I can't wait for the next one!

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  14. Also really pleased to see an update do soon. Love the way you are writing Christian. Can't wait for next chapter. Keep them coming please. You are a very talented writer. Have you written anything of your own material? I would buy your book.

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    2. I would buy your book also, I'm new to all this, but am totally loving your blog!! Sue :)

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  15. This just gets better and better, never really thought he was watching her so much in book, but it makes perfect sense when you write it! The thought processes are awesome and enlightening. Love Flynn (love Colin Firth), am surprised the L word has come up this early but it works. You are the best COPV ever! Thank you for doing this for us!! Looking forward to the lemons coming up!

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    1. Hi there. Well I think everyone around Christian can see that he is madly in love with Ana, and the good doctor will be having to cope with the fall out from the break up shortly, so I think love had to come into the equation around about now, even if Christian is in denial about it.
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  16. What a wonderful surprise waking up to a new chapter.... wonderful as always... you really hit the nail on the head with Flynn in my opinon... just how I thought the conversation would of went. You are so good at this... looking forward to chapter 23!!!!
    Cissi

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  17. Great chapter. Keep them coming. I love how you got Christian down.
    Thank you

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  18. Great Chapter, keep them coming. Love how you got christian down. Thank you

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  19. I love your chapters especially when CG meets up with Dr. Flynn, we just see a deeper Christian and how he really feels deep inside. He's falling in love without even realizing it :) i love the office scene when CG is getting turned on by Ana's emails,lol. Exactly how i would like him to react to them since he's so head over heels with her. Great choice for Dr.Flynn btw! i love that actor, exactly how i pictured John. And as for Anastasia, I think Alexis Bledel would be a great Ana, she has that inocent look and the big blue eyes, plus she is a bronette, can't get anu closer than that! I'm so excitedbfor your next chapter but kind of anxious because i know it's coming close to the end. :( i hope you're thinking of going a little bit further with this. I'm a fan! lol

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  20. My dream cast!!! Henry is Christian ALL THE WAY and I love Ellen and Alexis in those roles as well. You totally nailed it!!! Amazing chapter!!! I just love Christian so in love and so undone. Thank you!!!

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  21. Another awesome chapter! I loved his session with Dr. Flynn. I also liked how you showed the extreme security measures he goes to in regards to Ana. Looking forward to the next update!

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  22. Even though I know what happens next, his POV is just so fantastic - everything fits so well! I can't wait for the next chapter - or to find out what happened when Ana left him......
    Natalie

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  23. Thank you again for a very wonderful chapter. Really enjoyed Christian's appointment with Dr Flynn, especially the part where Dr Flynn tells Christian that he's fallen in love with Ana. The pictures included is also a wonderful treat. I can definitely see Alexis as Ana. Innocent & pretty, however, IMHO, it would be a lot better if Ana will be played by someone unknown. :) Anyway, I'm looking forward to the next chapters...but a few more and it will be the end. I hope you will keep on writing. (I'm wishing. :) :) :) ) xxx.

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    1. Hi, I agree that it would be nice to see some unknown actors get cast for the film, but I thought Alexis had the right look with her big blue eyes, so I'm using her picture for now.xxx

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  24. OMG... I need more... Such a captivating chapter.. Love'n it........l.

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  25. Love it!So glad I found this blog. Cant wait for more.

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  26. LOVED, LOVED, LOVED it :) Thanks so much for keeping my Christian Grey obsession going - Can't wait for 23 :)

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  27. LOVE IT!!!!As usual christians voice is just brilliant to hear!!!! But that BITCH TROLL!!!! She's hidious, i wanna slap her, manipulating him like that!!!! Can't wait to see his trip to Georgia!!! x

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  28. I see Jason Statham as Taylor, I think he would be great.

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  29. great lunch time read, thanks for updating so soon .. i was missing your SL. looking forward to the next chapter, love me some CG

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  30. So glad I found this story! I love it!

    Love the pictures as well, never thought of Alexis Bledel to play Anastasia but I quite like it :D

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  31. I had to fight my temptation to read your chapter right away in early morning. I guested my boss wouldn't like that.
    As always I loved what I read.
    Thanks for taking your time to write. Hope you have time to write your own book as well.
    Kim

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  32. wow i absolutely loved that chapter, cant wait 4 the next 1!! keep up the amaing work :) xxx

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  33. Wonderful, that's all that I can say. You really nail and humanize Christian Grey. I loved his character before but I really love him now. I also would love to see Colin Firth as Dr Flynn.I hadn't thought of that but he'd be perfect although, he will always be my Darcy. Initially I was on the Ian Somhaulter bandwagon but am now firmly in the Henry Cavill camp. He's 6"1 and would pull Christian grey off wonderfully and I loved him in The Tudors.

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  34. So happy htere was a new chapter so soon. Thanks so much for helping me during the wait at the Dr.'s office, made time fly by!!!
    Janet

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  35. This was a fantastic chapter! I know there are many who feel bad for Taylor, but I personally feel the most sympathy for poor Claude! The poor man is getting the shit kicked out of him! I love the addition of the pictures you have up to fill the different role! For me- my Christian is still Ian Somerhalder, but some of the other suggestions have been fun as well.

    This chapter was a study in good vs evil: John Flynn is such a wonderful, positive source of GOOD in Christian's life. While I understand why Christian would think a subject like love could never be applied to a person like him, I think it was vastly important that John at least "planted the seed" that he could, in fact, have fallen in love with Ana *now*. I think it was important because there has to be *at least* a curious or skeptical examination of his feelings...a sort of, "could love be what I'm feeling?" This has to happen prior to the horrible break up scene when she declares her love for him. I think after she leaves, is when he FINALLY has that light-bulb moment and realizes that it's true and then he desperately seeks out John's help to "sort his shit out" and win her back.
    Elena, on the other hand is such a contrast in BAD, MANIPULATIVE and EVIL! When Christian was telling her about how great vanilla sex was, instead of encouraging Christian, she immediately kept trying to push the harsh, unyielding dominant to show Ana who's in charge. Forcing his will and his extreme appetite for whipping and caning, guaranteeing that would drive Ana away. She is so passive aggressive, suggesting things in the name of truth and friendship. And the saddest thing of all is Christian buys it hook, line and sinker.

    I loved your writing - even the contrasts between Ana and Elena: soft and hard, light and dark. Brilliant! Please keep the chapters coming!
    Cheers, Adrena

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      The fact that John Flynn and his wife get invited to Christian's birthday partner I felt showed that he is pretty close to him, apart from being his shrink. So he wouldn't be afraid to bring up the 'L' word with him. As you say, the penny has to drop at some point, such as when he is distraught when Ana breaks up with him.
      And it was such fun to write Elena! Christian thinks he understands women, but he is just an amateur when it comes to a bitch like her. As far as she is concerned, Christian will always be hers when she wants him, because of their history, and some silly little girl that he's infatuated with is not going to change that!

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  36. Thanks for the quick post. Loving the way you write

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  37. Loved this chapter - I usually dislike Elena as a character, but the way you've written her is a lot more mature than we get to see in Fifty Shades, its rather refreshing! I love that Christian was going to have a go at cybersex as a first - that made me laugh, its so not him! Brilliant update - looking forward to more :)

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  38. excellent chapter. really surprised to see it hit my in box this morning. loving christians pov. flynn was great getting him to see his true feelings and that his hart isnt stone. well done with bitch troll she really wants christian back. glad her plans dont work. well done cant wait for more soon

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  39. Another excellent chapter, but are we expecting anything less at this point? Of course not. I think you nailed the session with Flynn (I love Colin BTW and have always pictured him as Flynn). Flynn being reassuring and then planting the seeds of love and sacrifice brilliant. CG's self loathing is such a huge hurdle to overcome. So anxious to have your take on the 5 days of darkness, and how Christian deals with that. Thanks again for the new chapter.

    Kristen

    PS- Missing Ian. ;)

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  40. hi heather again loved this chapter you can almost feel the jealousy of the bitch troll thankyou christian i still need more xxxx

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  41. Oh my word, you have done it again! Even the picture of Elena was spot on in my mind. I had always pictured Ellen Barkin in this role...possibly a Sharon Stone, but I think that Ellen Barkin just has that evil look to her that so many of us have come to expect w/ Elena. Also I don't want to seem like a dunce, but is that Alexis Bledel in the picture you have put up for Ana? I had always thought she wouldn't look good in this role because I could only think of her as Rory from "Gilmore Girls", even though I've seen her in racier roles. She actually looks really good in this role the more I think about it. It even looks like she has a gray or grayish/purple halter dress on, that is so great. Before I had kind of pictured Lucy Hale from "Pretty Little Liars" as Ana. To be honest though I really don't care who they cast in any of the roles as long as they have that amazing connection that Christian/Ana have. It is there the whole way through the trilogy and if they aren't amazing and blowing our minds then it won't be as good. Also, holy cow I loved that you put Colin Firth in as John Flynn. He would be remarkable in that role. He can play funny or serious so well.

    I was so impressed with this chapter. I really liked how you were able to show just how insecure Christian is with Ana in general. How he is so worried about her saying no to him and running away. I thought that Dr. Flynn has great things to say on his part. It was perfect when he told Christian he was in love with her. Even though I hate the character of Elena with such a fierce passion I must say that I totally loved how you wrote her. It made me hate her even more. It is so obvious for us women to spot when another woman is jealous. Just like we were able to see in the books, you were able to provide for us here. I still don't get how guys can be so blind as not to see when a woman is trying to manipulate them for their own will. It just blows my mind. You did an amazing job of that here.

    Thanks so much for the PERFECT chapter!! I loved it w/ all of my heart! :)

    XOXO,
    Ang

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      It was really great fun writing Elena - I have met women just like her. She thinks she basically owns Christian, and he is blind to her manipulative ways - for now anyway. But of course Ana knows instinctively what a bitch she is :)
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  42. AWESOME, you are so great at writing Christian can't wait for more

    ~AnNaLeEmObRiEn

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  43. Another brilliant chapter!! Oh that Elena, I can't stand her! You can tell she has a thing for Christian still. Anyways, I'm glad you are featuring pictures of different actors for Christian, not just Ian Somerhalder. Alexis Bledel has the Ana physical features unfortunately her baby voice is annoying.

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  44. Thanks for yet another pleasurable afternoon!!!!Looking forward for more!!!
    Joyce

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  45. Thanks for posting a new chapter so quickly! It was an emotional one, and very well-written as always. Elena is completely evil. It makes me wonder about her own background, and how someone cold be so cold and calculating. I hope you write Christian's POV for all three books!! :-)
    Thanks for what you've written so far,
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  46. I could see this early on that he loved her and that he just hadn't realised it yet! So thank you for getting it so right with Dr Flynn ! Xx

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  47. Great chapter!! Colin Firth is exactly right for Dr. Flynn. Your excellent description of Elena just shows how very opposite she is from Ana. That is why Elena will see Ana as a threat. She won't want Christian to be soft on Ana because that will challenge everything Elena taught him and believes in. Elena will hate to learn that Christian can fall in love and that he could give up some of his control to someone else. I loved hearing about Christian's training. Would love to read more of how Christian felt as Elena molded him. The choice of picture for Elena was so perfect. Now I can't wait for the next chapter.

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  48. More than fair. :) Thanks.
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  49. Wow another amazing chapter! Can't wait for the next one! Love your writing! Keep up the good work xx

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  50. I was excited to get the email update today, I thought I would have to wait until the weekend! I loved this chapter! Full of emotion! The Dr. Flynn session was great, and his obsession with keeping ana safe is cute! And I always hated that bitch troll!

    Please keep the chapters coming! :)

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  51. Wow, just finished all the chapters! Love your writing of Christian. This a really good fix for my obsession ... Or maybe its bad, ha! How often do u post a chapter? More please!!! Thx for writing. Xx

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    1. Hi there. Glad you're enjoying my blog. I aim to update at least once a week, but hopefully twice, depending on what real life throws my way. So in an ideal week, I'll update at the weekend, and then midweek. That's the plan anyway :)

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    2. Great thx! Oh, look at Anna Kendrick for anastatia's role. For some reason I envision her. X

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  52. i prefer Lucy Hale or Mila Kunis(mp) for Anastasia. i dont think Alexis is pretty enough, plus she looks like 16.
    anyways, luv ur writing, Bitch Troll wants him to go , thinking Ana would feel over whelmed and leave him

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  53. Thanks so much for clarifying Christian's POV. I thought that I had an idea what he was thinking but it's so much better the way you clarify things. Colin Firth will be an excellent Dr Flynn even though he will always be my Darcy. I can't wait for the next chapter.

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  54. Amazing once again! Loved it! And I love Flynn and Christian interacting! Even reading with Elema, makes
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    Up the great work and thank you!!

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  55. Love it, love it, love it once again. I really enjoyed this chapter and thought you were spot on with the pics of Dr. Flynn, Ana and Elena in my mind. I tried to occupy my time with reading other interpretations from The Writer's Coffee Shop and none of them hold a candle to your interpretation. You seem to know Christian as well as E.L. James would and I enjoy reading this. Keep the story coming and I will keep reading and passing it on to my friends. Can't wait for the next chapter.

    Brooke

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  56. Amazing once again! Loved
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    reading about Elena, even though it makes
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    nailed it and it's phenomenal!
    Can't wait to read more!! Keep
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  57. ~ Alicia from ME ~July 12, 2012 at 4:06 AM

    <3~ I just started reading your blog & it took me no time at all to get thru ALL of the chapters you've written so far!!! They ate without a doubt fantastic, I've loved every moment that you've descried in Christian's POV, you're an excellent writer, & I cannot wait to see a new chapter soon!!! Thanx for writing this for us die hard FSOG fans who have wanted to read Christian's POV every since it was dangled in front of us at the end of FREED!!! I'm itching to go & read the FSOG trilogy again, but... I'm really trying not to since I've read it 6 times already!!! So, I will wait in anticipation for another great new chapter!!! Thanx again!!! ~<3

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      Anyway, thanks for your support, it means a lot to me :)

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  58. Thank you for (re)writing Fifty Shades from Christian's point of view. I think you are doing a better job than E.L. James. You write better. I hope you keep writing...

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  59. Another fantastic chpt! Wow--Fifty Shades of f@#!'ed up is about right because Ana would've run screaming for the hills (or Alaska) if she had known about all the surveillance work done by Christian's security team during her interviews & trip to Georgia!!! I just love the pics of Flynn & Ana--I always thought Alexis Bledel was perfect for this role. Bella Heathcote also has gorgeous blue eyes but I don't know if she has enough moxie to take on Ana's grittier scenes. Colin Firth as Dr. Flynn is just brilliant! I don't think I'd be happy tho with any actress they cast as Elena--that bitch troll just makes me froth at the mouth! Ha!! Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful imagination & mad writing skills with us! I am love, love, loving your blog and, as always, am waiting with bated breath for your next update --- Wendy

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  60. wow, another amazing chapter. i totally believe christian had her under surveillance, with his obsessive/possessive control freak ways how could he not? especially when she left the state and went to georgia. i love how you had him comment on her outfits and i totally believe he would get pissed that she was wearing these things because christian tends to flip when another guy breaths on her hard lol

    i love the meeting with dr flynn and i couldnt picture him in my mind so colin is absolutely perfect. i love how he sees christian has fallen in love with her already. you can tell he cares and i cant wait to see how you have flynn deal with the breakup, christian might be so distraught flynn might think to have him committed lol

    lastly, loved how you wrote elena. elen barkin is a stunning woman and can play ice cold. i couldnt stand her and i always thought she sent christian down there to sabatoge them, she thought ana was going run for the hills but ana proved to her she was tougher than she looked. i know you write from his pov but i would love to see you write elenas pov of ana during the confrontation at the party.i always thought she underestimated ana. she was so nasty and manipulative and like ana said to be so smart christian was obtuse not to see it. please keep them coming, your a great writer :)

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    2. yes it really is great fun. thanks again for writing this, your a great writer. i cant wait for how you deal with the break up. christian said he was to pieces during it but he was vague on specifics. with how he's acting with this trip i think he will be devastated. i saw on another site that said an outtake from MOTUS said that after bella left he was found sleep huddled in the kitchen by mrs jones and wasnt eating properly and was forced to eat her food because he didnt want to waste it. the breakup from his point of view should be great to see and sad to read. anticipating your trip to georgia chapt :)

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  61. omg, i didnt even realize how far Christian stalker tendencies went, when she was in Georgia. Control Freak gone mad! i love him!
    U r blessed with great writing ability, keep it up, i look forward to each chapter like air to breathe.
    wish this was a book, so i could read to the end...........

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    2. When I was reading FSOG I was wondering if he was watching her or had someone watching for him. I am really pleased that it was added from Christians POV. It shows your wonderful talent in writing. Great job please continue to feed our addiction I am holing my breath in anticipation for the next chapter. Again my thanks to you and my appreciation for your work ;) Laters Marcia.

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  62. WOW that was amazing, at first I wasnt sure how well you were going to write the dinner with the Bitch Troll, but, well done, I bow down to you, the session with Flynn was amazing, for him to say LOVE, and Christian to say basicly WTF, no its not your an idiot, that was good, and will come in very strong after the break-up, if you get what i mean.

    Thank you
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  63. Absolutely loved all 22 chapters, read them all in one day and now will be lost until the next one!! Keep up the good work :-) and thanks soooo much

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  64. O my days I'm lost I need a gray fix :( I just love how you have wrote it through his eyes I can't wate for more xxx

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  65. Love It, Im just so hooked, that it's so hard to wait for the next chapter..

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  66. I love that you have Henry Cavill as Christian and Alexis as Ana, they're my picks!!! And your interpretation of Christian Perspectives is Perfect!!!

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  67. Another great chapter! Loved your picks for Dr. Flynn and Elena. However I think I'm odd man out on Anastasia I pictured Zooey Deschanel. Can't wait to read more!

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  68. I might be the only one, but whenever I think of Ana I picture Miranda Kerr. I don't even know if she's an actual actress! That's just how I envision her to look. But Alexis is beautiful, as well! Keep the chapters coming! I'm drooling over Christian's POV! P.S.- Ian ALL the way ;)

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  69. I can't wait for more! If you're looking for another blue eyed beauty, check out Alexandra Daddario. She may not fit the small and frail description, but those eyes! I like Colin Firth, Henry Cavill and I think that Charlize Theron would play a great Mrs. Robinson. Ellen Barkin just isn't gorgeous enough.

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  70. Omg seriously, I need the next chapter! The waiting is killing me!! I'm glad I came across this. You write Christian's POV exactly how I thought it would be. You are really talented, believe me!

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  71. Another great chapter and I can't wait for the next! I don't see Ellen Barkin as Elena. I know people think she is sexy but she reads to old for me. I envision Kim Cattral as Elena. She is sexy and appeals to younger men still. I think she would nail that role.

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  72. oh I'm loving this. can't get enough lol when will the next chapter be up

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  73. Wonderful chapter with Flynn and Ms. Robinson! Could I suggest spacing the lines out more to make the font easier to read (especially the paragraphs)?

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  74. Great chapter! I can't wait to see Ana's reaction to Christian through his eyes!!

    Courtney

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  75. I don't know how difficult it is to sit down and try to write this story but seriously I practically am DYING waiting for each new chapter release!! LOL. You are such an amazing writer and the way you capture Christian's perspective is exactly how I imagined it being. I can't help but read the new chapter as soon as i get the email notification..even if I'm setting myself up for misery having to wait for the next one. I read all three books within 3 days and I literally could not put them down! Im finding myself feeling the same exact way when I read your chapters! You really do have a gift for writing and have me (and every other reader on here) checking their email every single hour! I LITERALLY CAN NOT WAIT for the next couple chapters. This is right where the story starts to get extremely intense and emotional and even though I know exactly what happens, Im finding myself so curious and anxious to see how you illuminate Christian Grey's insight throughout it all. Impatiently waiting patiently for the next chapter! LOL

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      Thanks for your great support - that's what makes it worth the effort. :)

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  76. Fist off...the pictures are perfect. Colin Firth as Dr. Flynn, Ellen Barkin as Elena...I can totally see that. Not liking your Ana though...not sure why.

    I loved this chapter...it was cool to read Christian's dinner with Elena...she's a manipulative biotch! She is undermining his relationship with Ana with her advice...and he doesn't even see it! Can't wait for more!

    Krystyne

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    1. Hi Kystyne. I used the picture of Alexis Bledel because of her big blue eyes, but that's not to say I think she is definitely the best actress for the role. People here have kindly made other suggestions, so I'll be taking a look at some of them as well. But for me, an actress with brown eyes would be a no no. I don't think coloured contacts would work to make brown eyes the right type of blue.
      Thanks for your great support of my blog, it helps keep me going :)

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  77. Such a good chapter. Although I would really love to know what is REALLY going on in "Mrs. Robinsons" head!!!! I think I like the idea of Lucy Hale as Ana. They are saying its a possibility for angelina jolie to play Elana. I can't wait for the next chapter. And the crazy hotel scene!

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  78. More More, we want more! I need to know more of his side of the story!

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  79. Another great chapter! I check everyday. You are still the best "Christian" out there. Is it too much to ask for all 3 book ;) Keep it up, you're a great writer. Thanks for the story

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  80. Please Please Please hurry and write the next chapter, the suspense is killing me!!!!!!! I am sooooo glad I found your blog, it's is my new favorite!!!!!!!! You give us an amazing story of Christian and I'm so excited to read more if your chapters, please keep them coming.

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  81. Always leaving us hungry for more:)Can't wait til the next chapter!! Finding myself checking daily to see if anything new has been posted. All's I can say is thank you thank you!!

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    1. Lol that's so funny cause I am too. Very addictive

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  82. I've just finished the trilogy and found this blog!!! It's incredible how similar the writing is- i've read all of the chapters on here in one sitting- I can't wait for the next one! I'm so glad that i'm still going to be able to get my Fifty Shades Fix!!

    I've even subscribed and added the site to my favourites :D

    Well done and keep it up! I depend on you! :)

    Laters, baby

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  83. What can I say?
    Oh Yeah...

    I NEED ANOTHER CHAPTER NOW!

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  84. i only just found this web site and im thrilled to be reading Christians thoughts awesome reading.........ive read all 22 chapters and eagerly awaite for more

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  85. one more thing can some one post these pages or how to get to these pages on the fifty grey obbsessed page, there is some interest in these chapters im hopeless at re directing ect i just stumbbled on this page myself cheers mel

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    1. Hi there. Maybe just post this link on there:

      http://christiangrey50shades.blogspot.co.uk

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  86. What about Emilia Clarke as Ana. Sharon Stone as the troll.

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  87. How about Kat Dennings for Ana. I think she's stunning, and she is what I pictured when I first read Bella except the eye color.

    http://www.imdb.com/media/rm4161570304/nm0993507

    She's in the TV show Two Broke Girls, but she has made some movies. I think she is stunningly beautiful, but she has normal girl qualities because she has a woman's figure, curvy, like men like.

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    1. Hi there - I'll add her to the list of possibilities!

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  88. I LOVE reading the chapters you've created! I've been having withdrawals from 50 Shades of Grey and have already re-read them 4 times. This is definitely helping. I can't wait for you to post more chapters, hopefully soon! =)

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  89. So glad to have found your blog. Great job! Can't wait for your original stuff.

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    1. Hi there. Glad you found your way here. I'm itching to get on with my own work too, so watch this space :)

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  90. I have caught up now, and am pining for more!!!! haha

    I can not wait for the next instalments, your a victim of your own success......! hehe

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    1. Hi there - yes, I certainly never imagined this level of interest in my FF writing - who knew eh?

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  91. I've read your 22 chapters and all I can say is that you are amazing!! You have given me exactly what I've been needing since I finished reading the FSOG Trilogy (for the third time, I might add)... Christian Grey's POV!!! You have gotten into his head and expressed his hopes and dreams and fears and of course his obsession with Ana!! You are truly talented and I look forward to reading whatever else you have to offer us!!!! Thank you so much!!!

    Josie

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    1. Hi Josie. Glad to hear that you are enjoying my little blog. It's scary being inside Mr Grey's head as much as I am, but it's a necessary evil in order to carry on writing!

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  92. Patiently waiting for chapter 23...I keep checking for updates!!! I need my Christian and Ana fix :) And thanks again for writing this awesome story. You are brilliant!

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    1. Hi Larisa. Chapter 23 now ready for viewing :)Thanks for your support, I really appreciate it.

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  93. Not so patiently waiting. :-( I only found this on Friday night, a much needed read after I finished reading trilogy for the 4th time :-) obsessed much I know, and I read your chapters in 2 days along with the Grace Treveleyn-Grey chapter. Amazing !!!! You recaptured the characters completely whilst keeping true to the novels....and giving other characters perspectives on things. Very much eagerly awaiting the next ones to come! I think Matt Damon definately as Taylor, and I love Colin Firth as the good Dr. Flynn. I kinds like the idea of Ryan Gosling as Christian, still not sure for other characters but I think it would also see Taylor's take on the story being ever present in all things security based on keeping Christians life private.... Just a thought :-). Keep up the amazingly talented work!! :-)

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    1. Hi there. You'll be pleased to know that chapter 23 has now been posted to feed your obsession. I'm really liking the idea of Matt Damon as Taylor, I must say :)

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  94. I truly had a hard time trying to find the right words to express my thanks and appreciation to you for your most wonderful blog and the chapters so far. I fell in love with your writing, your creativeness and passion for your work. Your talent is incredible and definitely gets better and better with every chapter. Honestly I just can´t wait to read the next chapter(s) and I´m grateful I found you and your blog!

    Keep going on!

    Andrea

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    1. Hi Andrea. Thank you for your incredible support. Folk like you are what inspires me to keep going. That and the fact that Mr Grey refuses to leave my head!

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  95. That bitch troll think she could scare Anna away with her seemingly "supportive" way.
    I pictured Jessica Tuck from True Blood as Elena, Clive Owen as Flynn, Bella Heathcote as Anna, and Henry Cavill as Christian

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  96. Loved it! Omg such a good chapter! Keep it up. Your doing an amazing job at writing Chritian's perspective and thoughts. Loved the conversation with Dr. Flynn and that bitch troll of Elena. :)

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  97. Love it! You are doing an amzing job at writting Christian's persepective and thoughts. Loved the conversation between Dr. Flynn and that bitch troll of Elena.Keep it up. Fanastic job. :)

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    1. Thanks Brenda. It's fun for me to write Dr. Flynn and Elena, so I'm glad you enjoyed them.

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  98. Loved the chapter and I love Colin firth as dr Flynn. But I have to say the dinner with Elena made me dislike her even more then I already did. I can't wait to read the next chapter I just can't get enough of Christians side of the story!

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  99. Thought this chapter was brill. I loved the conversation between Christian and Dr Flyn. I gota agree with Ashley ^ I didn't like Elena anyway but now dislike her even more. Could you imagine Ana is Mrs Robinson tried to train into a sub lmao xx

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  100. I didnt think Elena would thake Christian being in love with a virgin easily, thanks for this! I was looking forward to this chapter!

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  101. Thank you for posting my Christian at the top of chapter 22. I'm really enjoying your writing and look forward to more!

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  102. Fucking fantastic!!! I lOVED this chapter! ** BEST chapter ** bravo! Thank you so much for filling in all the piece in all

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    1. It wouldn't let me finish. Ipad type freeze or something : - / AnywAys...thank you for filling in all the pieces in all the right ways. Your writing is amazing!

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  103. I don't like Alexis as Ana. Maybe because I can still see her playing the part in Gilmore Girls but she's not what I would like Ana to look like. Ana is supposed to be extremely beautiful, tall, great figure, blue eyes and very intriguing.

    I love that you are writing Christian's feelings about the relationship with Ana, what part Elena has in Christian making his decision to go see her in Georgia. Everything about the story is so much more intensified knowing what is going on in Christian's head. I just love it. Thank you.

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  104. Ew. You really paint Mrs Robinson as an interfering old bat. She still wants to run Christian. Probably a pretty good portrait. I thought that the original books were too lenient about her good will.

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  105. Rereading your series and on a humorous note: I am a No. 5 girl but I might have to rethink my fragrance choice now that the B!tch Troll has it as her signature scent. Every time I dress, I will forever ge reminded of Elena :(

    Bethann

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  106. Absolutely brilliant! Thank you, thank you for sharing your in sight and talent. I have enjoyed all the chapters so far...but this one is one of many I have been waiting for to see Elena and what she is capable of in controlling Christian.

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  107. Magnifique!

    Fleur50

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  108. "I feel even more bereft now, knowing she’s actually left, gone, flown away to the other side of the continent. I have this horrid empty feeling in my chest. It's just indigestion, Grey."

    This is probably the best couple of lines I've read.... I laughed at "It's just indigestion, Grey".... Christian is fighting his feelings so much! Great insight! :)

    I am thoroughly enjoying your take on Christian! His thoughts/POV fits perfectly with FSoG! You have a talent for writing! Thanks for taking the time to further my obsession with Mr. Grey~haha

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    1. “Christian, you’re falling in love! You're falling head over heels in love with Anastasia,” John declares, with a broad grin on his face.

      I loved THIS line too...I had a huge smile on my face as I read John's declaration. :-D

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  109. Thanks to John who put the idea of love in Christian's head. Falling in love. Oh sweet. Too bad Christian did not know it yet.
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  110. I love all the great observations that "Dr. Flynn" has been making Christian think about...makes me think perhaps you have some experience with counseling/psychology/psychiatry? I really liked the comment he made about SFBT a few chapters back...that happened to be my favorite counseling theory back in college!

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  111. Ahhhhhhhhh, that bitch!!! she is the opposite to a psicologist... You are a genious, really, you really got into christian´s skin... absolutely brilliant!!! Why don´t I get to have a patient like him?... can´t wait to keep on reading!!! Thank you so much

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  112. only found your blog the other day by accident and a happy acident it is :). Really enjoying reading Christian POV. Cant wait to read more :)

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  113. Couldn't leave a comment yesterday for some reason. It said an error had occurred. Let's try again.

    As I said in another blog that has CPOV, I really don't like the "Bitch Troll". A good thing Christian will see her true colors.

    It's quite a coincidence that you also have Colin Firth as Flynn. He's a good choice. But who'll play him in the second movie, if he will even exist in the movie world....

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