18 July 2012

Chapter 24 - How It All Began And More


We sit in the deep, warm, soothing bath, just looking at each other. My past relationship with Elena is not a subject I really want to discuss with Anastasia, but it seems that she can be every bit as tenacious as her friend Miss Kavanagh. 

I realize that she’s not going to give up on this until I give her some more information.

I think back to when I was that angry fifteen year old young man. I was an unapproachable loner, with no friends. My body was teeming with hormones, as well as anger, frustration, resentment, and confusion. I had very strong urges and needs, but I couldn’t bear to be touched by anyone, so sex was out of the question.

YOUNG CHRISTIAN

My parents insisted I had some counseling with some asshole therapist, but that was no help whatsoever, and I only went to the appointments to keep them happy. 

I found that drinking helped to numb things, but it also meant that I lost what little control I had, so I got into lots of fights. Really bad fights. I even toyed with the idea of drugs providing me with an escape from my turmoil. I was only a step or two away from descending onto the same path to hell as my birthmother.

And then Elena took control of me.

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After Elena slapped my face and then kissed me that first time, I didn't know what to expect when I went round to her house the next day to carry on with the work in her yard. When I got there, she was nowhere to be seen, but she’d left me a note.

Christian.
You have five minutes. Come upstairs. First door on the right. Take all your clothes off and leave them in a neat pile by the door. Knock on the door, then enter the room and kneel in front of me. Do not speak unless I instruct you to do so.
Mistress Elena.

I read the note several times over, my pulse racing, my hand shaking. What should I do? Leave, run for the hills, never to return? Hell no, this was the most exciting thing ever to have happened to me, so I quickly did as she bid.

My eyes nearly popped out of my head when I entered the room, stark naked, and saw Elena wearing a black leather corset, a short black leather skirt, a garter belt with black net stockings, and black leather stiletto boots. She was lovingly fingering a cane that she held in her hand.

MISTRESS ELENA

I eagerly scurried over to kneel down in front of her. She circled round, inspecting me, then clipped a black leather studded collar around my neck. It had a chain, which she tugged so hard that my head  jerked back.

“Eyes down,” she snapped.

“Err… yes, of course…” I mumbled.

I felt a sharp slap on my cheek.

“Do not speak unless I give you permission. Is that understood?” she instructed me coldly. This time I kept quiet. I didn't have her permission.

“You may speak.”

“Yes, I understand.”

Another slap on my cheek.

“You will address me as Mistress Elena. You may speak, but only to answer my questions.”

“Yes, Mistress Elena. I understand.”

“Better. Now, do you like what you see? You may look at me.”

“Yes, Mistress Elena. I like what I see very much.”

She smiled a cool smile at me.

“Yes, I thought you might. Tell me, what would you like to do?”

Well, the answer to that was obvious, wasn’t it?

“Please Mistress Elena, I’d really like to fuck you,” I said. 

That’s what this was all about, right? Clearly she wasn’t getting it from her old man, so she wanted me to bang her.

Another slap on my cheek.

“Dear, dear, next time I’m going to have to use my cane if you keep getting things wrong, Christian. Think carefully, and try again. What would you like to do?”

I wracked my brains. Then it dawned on me.

“Whatever it is that will please you most, Mistress Elena.”

“You are a fast learner, Christian. Yes, that’s it exactly. You will do whatever I tell you to. You will behave in the manner that I deem appropriate at all times. If you please me, you will earn a reward. If you displease me, you will earn a punishment.”

She walked behind me, and all of a sudden I felt her cane cut across my back. I yelped and flinched. Shit! That fucking hurt.

“That is just a little taste of the punishment I will give you if I find out that you have been taking drugs, drinking alcohol of any type, or getting into any kind of trouble at all. And trust me, I will find out. You will become my whipping boy. Do you understand?”

“Y... yes, Mistress Elena,” I gasped.

Then I suddenly felt her fingers around my cock, which had been standing to attention ever since I’d entered the room. She squeezed me, then slowly and enticingly massaged my length. I groaned loudly, and nearly came right there on the spot, it felt so good.

“But if you are a good boy and please me, then your reward will be unimaginable pleasure. Pleasure in ways that you would not have dreamed were even possible,” she leaned down and whispered in my ear.

“Please, Mistress Elena. I only want to please you,” I begged, as she continued to stroke my throbbing, aching cock. Then she suddenly withdrew her hand. 

“That’s enough of that. You haven't earned the right to come yet. And you can only come if I give you permission,” she stated coldly, as I whimpered in frustration.

“But… but I really need…” I started to protest, then jerked in shock as her cane cut across my back again.

“Do not dare to argue or defy me, Christian. You are an instrument of my will. I will begin by instructing you in how I wish you to pleasure me, how you can earn the right to come, should I decide to let you.”

~~~

And that was how it had all started with Elena. She saved me. She brought me into line. I didn't drink any more, I steered clear of drugs, and knuckled down to work hard at my studies, because that was what Mistress Elena told me I had to do. 

And Elena knew from my mom about the issues I had with being touched, so she only touched me in a sexual manner, which I was fine with. It wasn't a love affair. But for the incredible carnal rewards I earned when I pleased her, I’d have done anything she told me, anything at all. I lost all my inhibitions, as Elena taught me what my body was capable of, as well as what a woman’s body was capable of.

And as for the very harsh punishments she frequently gave me for the most minor misdemeanors – even they felt good, and taught me self-control. I discovered that pain increased my sexual pleasure, taking things to a higher, much more intense level for me. And I understood that I deserved the punishments, and somehow they helped to balance out the bad shit in my head.

~~~

I come back to the present, and realize Anastasia is still waiting for me to say something.

So how to explain all of this to her? She doesn't need to hear all the gory details. Now that I’ve discovered she is quite the little green eyed monster, that would only ramp up her jealousy. She is a very cute green eyed monster I have to say, and I find it sexy as hell that she feels that way about me. She wants me to be her man, and hers only. I totally get that now. And I like it very much. She is possessive of me. No one’s been that way with me. Because you’ve always kept the others at a distance, you never let any of the others be possessive of you, Grey. Only Elena, and that was just her exerting her control over me as my Dominatrix Mistress.

“I would probably have gone the way of my birth-mother, had it not been for Mrs. Robinson,” I start to explain. Ana blinks at me in disbelief. “She loved me in a way that I found… acceptable.” Not really love as such though, was it?

“Acceptable?” Ana whispers back.

“Yes. She distracted me from the destructive path I found myself following. It’s very hard to grow up in a perfect family when you’re not perfect,” I try to explain. My family all have pure, good hearts. Not an evil, maggot infested one like mine. My dearest, wonderful Mom tried her best to fix me, but it’s just not possible.

“Does she still love you?”

“I don’t think so, not like that.” I frown as I try to make her understand that Elena never actually ‘loved’ me. It was just a physical, sexual affair between us. “I keep telling you it was a long time ago. It’s in the past. I couldn't change it even if I wanted to, which I don’t. She saved me from myself. I’ve never discussed this with anyone. Except Dr. Flynn, of course. And the only reason I'm talking about this now, to you, is because I want you to trust me.”

Christ, this is hard. I wouldn’t put myself through this for anyone but Anastasia, I hope she realizes.

“I do trust you, but I want to know you better, and whenever I try to talk to you, you distract me. That’ll be all the fucking. Best type of distraction I know .There’s so much I want to know.”

Will she never give up with all this shit! I’ve opened up to her more than I ever have to anyone else, and it’s still not enough. I don't do heart to heart. Not my style.

“Oh for pity’s sake, Anastasia. What do you want to know? What do I have to do?”

 I’m trying hard not to lose my temper, but I’m really not used to this type of inquisition.

“I’m just trying to understand; you’re such an enigma. Unlike anyone I’ve met before. I’m glad you’re telling me what I want to know,” Ana pleads with me, and then completely disarms me when she comes over and cuddles up to me. “Please don't be angry with me.”

How can I be angry with her? I’ve never met anyone like her either. But I’m just not used to opening up to anyone – except Flynn, and of course Elena, which Ana doesn’t like. But it’s true; Elena’s been a part of my life for so long that I can talk to her about anything. Including Anastasia. I need her advice about this unknown territory, because she alone totally understands my needs, she knows me better than anyone, including my parents, who were of course blissfully unaware of our relationship. I just need Ana to understand that there is no longer any sexual or romantic connection between Elena and me, but I’m growing tired of trying to convince her, and I feel my control beginning to slip.

“Are you done?” I ask her. Because I sure as hell am.

“For now,” she finally accepts.

So I can relax. I think I’ve been more than accommodating to her requests. But seeing as we’ve been getting down to the serious shit, I think it only fair she spills her hidden thoughts.

“You haven’t responded to my email,” I point out.

She flushes and squirms. See, not so great to have people delving into your head is it, Miss Steele?

I lean down to kiss her, and I know that we could easily end up being distracted so she’d avoid my questions. But I really need to know how she feels. I hate all this uncertainty; it’s not how I usually operate.

“What do you want to know?” she sighs, clearly uncomfortable with having the spotlight turned on her. Touché, Miss Steele.

“Well, how you feel about our would-be arrangement, for starters.”

And that’s when she confesses to me that she thinks she’ll struggle to be my sub for any length of time.

“I can’t spend a whole weekend of being someone I'm not.”

 I laugh, because I’ve already figured this out for myself, and you know what? I think I’d be bored if she fitted into the perfect submissive role, all of the time. Been there, done that, many times over. Time for something new.

“You’re not a great submissive,” I admit, as I gently kiss her.

“Maybe I don't have a good teacher,” she responds, as she laughs back at me. And her laughter is such a great sound, that I can’t be cross at her for this come back.

“Maybe. Perhaps I should be stricter with you. Was it that bad when I spanked you the first time?”  I recall how distraught she was afterwards, and yet how sexually aroused she’d been at the time. Has she figured this out for herself? Has she come to terms with the fact that it was actually a fucking amazing experience we shared?

“No, not really,” she whispers. Yes! She realizes it wasn't that bad. She’s accepting it.

“It’s more the idea of it?” I suggest, hopeful that we’re making progress. “Feeling pleasure when one isn’t supposed to? That takes a while to get your head around. You can always safe word, Anastasia, don't forget that. And as long as you follow the rules, which fulfill a deep need in me for control and to keep you safe, then perhaps we can find a way forward. Controlling you satisfies a need in me that wasn't met in my formative years.” Blame the crack whore. And her pimp. 

“So it’s a form of therapy?” she suggests.

“I’ve not thought of it like that, but yes, I suppose it is.” She actually gets this.

“But, here’s the thing – one moment you say ‘don't defy me’, the next you say you like to be challenged. That’s a very fine line to tread successfully, and I'm tied up in knots here,” she argues.

 “I like you tied up in knots,” I say. And I do. I picture her in my playroom, tightly bound, and preferably gagged, at my mercy, trusting me to take control. Perfect. Can't fucking wait to get her back in my playroom.

“That’s not what I meant,” she exclaims, as she splashes me.

And that’s it. Enough talking. I grab her and pull her onto my lap, holding her head with both hands so that I can possess her with a deep kiss. Ana moans and tightly knots her fingers in my hair to claim me too. 

As always, it seems that we’re incredibly well matched in our desire. I shift her so that she is tantalizingly straddling me, taking her hands and holding them tightly behind her back, just in case she feels the urge to touch me. I can feel her wonderful breasts brushing against my chest, which I find very arousing too.

“I’m going to have you now. Ready?” I whisper, as I position her just above my erect cock.

“Yes,” she whispers back, staring intently at me.

So I slowly ease her down onto me, watching her wide eyed reaction as I totally fill her. She takes me in deeply, as far as I can go. This might be vanilla, but it is mind blowingly, fuckingly, amazingly good vanilla. With no condom, I savor every last little sensation of her velvety lushness, as I flex my hips to push her to the limit of what she can take from me. 

We pause, totally and completely merged as one. I’m buried so deeply within her that we couldn’t possibly be any closer than we are right now. We fit so tightly and perfectly together that it seems as if we are made for each other. She gasps and leans forward to rest her head against mine. I know she feels just the same as me.

I trust her not to touch me when she pleads for me to let her hands go. She uses the bath ledge to slowly ease herself up and down on me as I watch her. It’s so erotic watching her pleasuring herself on me, using me, riding me, our wet slippery bodies moving against each other. 

She leans down to kiss me, and I close my eyes as she runs her fingers through my hair, tipping my head back so she can deepen the kiss, our tongues tangling as she starts riding me faster. I grab her hips to help increase the pace, working together to maximize our pleasure, kissing, fucking, riding, grinding together. 

Our passion starts exploding around us, water sloshing, orgasmic climaxes building, until finally she screams out as she flies over the edge to her release.

“That’s right, baby,” I groan, as I follow her to my release, clasping her tightly to me. “Ana, baby!”

And I feel the connection with her right in the very depths of my being, as I’ve never experienced it with anyone before.
~~~

As we lay together in bed afterwards, I feel at peace. We talk. About silly things like favorite films. She looks gorgeous and beautiful and sweet. I’m so glad I flew all this way to see her. It was totally the right thing to do. And she is clearly happy to see me. 

Then she starts probing into my past, and we start treading on the dangerous ground of how many women I’ve had sex with. Sixteen previous submissives. Of course it’s a lot compared to her, my sweet little virgin. But she is without question, the absolute, the very best woman I’ve ever had sex with.

“So I am number seventeen,” she states.

“Seventeen?”

Then I realize. She thinks I’ve only fucked seventeen women in total, including her. No shit! Come on – only seventeen?

“Not exactly.” I suppress a smile at her shocked expression. What did she expect? You don't build up to my level of expertise unless you’ve fucked a lot of different women in a lot of different ways. I’ve tried just about every possible thing, because you have to experiment to find out what you enjoy – and what you don't. That’s how you work out your hard limits as well as the soft ones. Always safe sex though. 

But Anastasia’s was the first virginity I’ve ever taken, and she was my first vanilla conquest. Which I guess is what usually happens first for most people, before all the kinky stuff. So I've done it all back to front. That’s cool. I have no regrets. But now she wants to know exactly how many women I’ve had – hell I don’t know, I didn't keep records. Well, apart from the photos, but there was a good reason for that.

“Tens. We’re in the tens, for pity’s sake,” I protest, when she starts talking about ‘thousands’. I can't help smiling at the thought of fucking thousands of women. Her reaction is so funny and sweet and innocent, so I decide to shock her even more as I kiss the tip of her nose.

“They were all submissives. Submissives in training, when I was training. There are places in and around Seattle that one can go and practice. Learn to do what I do.”

She blinks in shock.

“Yep, I’ve paid for sex, Anastasia.”

I haven't paid for sex in a very long time though. But in those early days, I used to go to BDSM clubs that Elena picked out and recommended for me, once it became apparent that I’d outgrown being her bad boy slave, her pet, her submissive. Once we’d figured out my true nature, it was obvious to Elena that my need to exert control over every aspect of my life, which was making me so successful in the business world, also made me a natural Dominant in my private life.  

That was why she set about using her expert tutelage to ensure I became a highly skilled and sought after Dom, because Elena always insisted that I should excel at whatever I did. If I was going to be a Dominant, then I should be the best possible Master any sub could wish for, she told me.

So I have Elena to thank for the fact that these days, I can have the pick of virtually any submissive I want. But I only want Anastasia. Who ironically, we’ve just agreed, is not a great submissive at all.

I can see that I’ve shocked Ana, as she mutters that paying for sex is nothing to be proud of. And she’s cross because she thinks that she can't shock me.

So I tell her all the things she’s done that have shocked me.
  • She wore my underwear.  No one’s ever done that before, and it was so cheeky and sexy of her. I fucking loved it. And because of that, I couldn’t resist putting a pair of my boxers out for her to wear today, when I realized she didn't have any clean panties with her. I fucking love the thought of her perfect ass being encased in my underwear.

  • She didn’t wear her panties to meet my parents. I would never have dreamed of her doing something like that when I first met her. Shit, I had a hard on all night because she was being such a naughty, slutty girl. I fucking loved it, because only I knew about her lack of underwear. She did that just for me.

  • The biggest shock of my life was when she told me she was a virgin. I never expected that, ever. And she gave her precious gift of virginity to me. No other man has been where I’ve been, experienced what I have with her. And they never will. And that makes her totally and utterly mine. I think that’s why I’m so captivated and beguiled by her, because what we have between us is so unique and special.

  • She let me work her over with a riding crop. No wonder she confuses me, as it turns out that she really liked that experience, and shyly suggests that she may let me do it to her again in the Red Room of Pain, as she calls it, this weekend. Oh yes please Miss Steele. I can’t wait to get you in there again.

  • I’m surprised that I like her using my name, after years of insisting that my subs must address me as Sir, or eventually Master, if they please me enough to earn that right. But none of them have used my first name. Ever.
I'm actually finding all this talking we're doing is pretty good. I feel relaxed and at ease with her.

So I can’t resist dropping a hint about my plans for more with her.

“I want to do something tomorrow.”

“What?”

“A surprise. For you.” I murmur quietly, because I can see that she is really sleepy as she stifles a yawn. I kiss her gently on her lips.

“Sleep,” I tell her, but she’s already drifting off, a smile on her face.

And I’m happy, because I’ve made her happy. It feels really good, so I hope my surprise tomorrow makes her even happier.


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I think today has been the best day of my entire existence. I took Anastasia soaring. I've never taken anyone up with me before; it’s always been my own private world where I can just totally escape everything for a while, to soar free as a bird in the wide open sky. I wanted to share this world with Ana, because I just knew she’d love it too. And she did.

It all had to be arranged with the Brunswick Soaring Association at the last minute, so Taylor did well to pull it together. Benson, the British tow-pilot, seemed a competent guy. I’d use him again, especially as he’s of the same opinion as myself about the Blanik L-23 being the better machine than the L-13.

Taylor seemed pleased to see Anastasia at the airfield this morning. I actually saw him crack a smile and whisper something to her. What was that all about? He's always shied away from any kind of personal contact with my previous subs, unless it was essential for making practical arrangements. Is he getting soft in his old age or something? Must be this fucking Georgia heat getting to him. 

I was so proud of how Ana handled everything. She didn’t go all girly and soppy and scared about going up in the glider, like most females would. She was just totally up for it. That’s my girl. That’s my girlfriend, actually. Of course, I wouldn't be happy about Ana going soaring with anyone else, but I'm an expert pilot, so she was in good hands.

The light was every bit as extraordinary as I’d hoped. Dawn truly is a magical time of day, because the light is diffuse, melting into so many different hues of soft colors. It was totally amazing, and worth waking up a very grumpy Anastasia for. She is so not a morning person, but she was okay once she’d woken up a bit more.

I loved how Ana squealed when I rolled the glider, then laughed out loud at the weirdness of being upside down. Best sound in the whole wide world. I love hearing her laugh, and I like that I made her happy. 


I let her take control of the glider – I knew she couldn’t do any harm as I still had the joystick in my hand. But at least she was prepared to have a go. That’s what I admire about her – on first impression, she just looks like a weak little girl, but she really isn’t. 

She’s brave and adventurous, and I'm guessing she would love sailing too, just as I do, so I want to do that with her as well, just as soon as I can fit it in. See Grey, there’s lots of more you can give her. And it’s actually fun to share. Fun if it’s sharing with Ana anyway.

All too soon it was time to land, and we were back on the ground.
But I felt exhilarated, totally on a high, and I saw that Ana felt just the same. I couldn’t help myself; once we were out of the plane, I had to take her in my arms and kiss her to show her how happy I was that she was with me, that she had shared my love of soaring on this beautiful morning.

“Was it more?” I asked her breathlessly. Because if that wasn’t more, I couldn't imagine what would be.

“Much more,” she whispered, with a huge, excited grin plastered all over her face. And so I knew she loved it just as much as I did.
I took her to IHOP for breakfast on the way back, which I think surprised her, as it’s not my usual kind of place. But we used to love going there with my dad when Mom was away, it was a guilty family secret, and I still have good memories associated with it. 

And they do make the best pancakes in the world.


As we sat there together, that strong sexual magnetism between us hummed louder than ever, and we both really wanted to fuck, it wasn’t just me. But that had to wait; instead we settled for buttermilk pancakes, which I was pleased to see she quickly devoured because she had such a good appetite – for food as well as sex.

We discussed our relationship. I told her I still want her to be my submissive in my playroom, and that I will still punish her if she digresses from the rules. But otherwise, I told her I'm  happy to discuss whatever it is that she wants from me, and that I’m really trying to compromise for her.

Ana told me she wants to sleep with me, in my bed. Strange thing is, it turns out that I sleep very well when she’s in my bed, and I miss her really badly when she’s not there. So hell yes, I was more than happy to agree to this. In fact I think I’ll be the one insisting on it from now on as part of our agreement.

“I was frightened that you’d leave me if I didn't agree to all of it,” she whispered, as she turned those amazing blue eyes of hers up at me. They just melt me - how could she possibly think I could walk away from her when she looks at me like that?

“I’m not going anywhere, Anastasia,” I reassured her.

“I love that you want more,” she murmured shyly. She is so sweet. So fucking sweet and lovely.

“I know,” I grinned at her. I love that she talks in her sleep. It’s like having a secret hotline into her subconscious.

“How do you know?” she demanded.

“Trust me. I just do.” I refused to say any more, because she might deny it all and spoil it. I want her to be brave enough to say what she said in her sleep, out loud, to my face, when she’s wide awake.

More, Christian, I want more of youStayplease don't leave me, please stay with me Christian. I want more. I won’t leave, don't ever leave me. More.’

Her words were all jumbled up last night, but the meaning was clear. She feels the same way about me as I do about her. She is as compelled as I am. My spell to bind her to me must have worked after all. I was fucking thrilled by her words, because you don't lie in your sleep. This was her true self speaking.  

But now that we’re back down to earth, the real world has kicked in again. I have meetings to attend. And I’ve been informed that SIP are about to make Ana a job offer, so my acquisition of that company is going ahead. Ros has it pretty much under control, but I want to personally oversee all the details. I don't want any last minute fuck ups for this particularly important deal.

So I drop Ana back at her mom’s place, promising to see her that evening.

Then my happy bubble is burst, as some bad shit hits the fan. My past rears its ugly head and comes back to bite me on the ass. Hard.

 I get news that means I have no option but to drop everything and return to Seattle.  

I don’t own any of the Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters therein. They belong to E L James. I’m just borrowing them for fun and not for profit. Please refer to the Legal’s page for further details. This work is not to be copied or reproduced in any way without permission. 




234 comments:

  1. Ohhh s$!t! That was fabulous. I loved the insight into his and Elena's arrangement. You could feel all of his emotions so clearly. Thanks again for your excellent writing. Late for a plane now! Laters.
    Kirsten

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    1. Oh Kirsten, hope you got your plane ok! I just felt we needed to understand why Christian is always so adamant that Elena was a force for good in his life when he was younger. If she stopped him from doing drugs, drinking and also made him study hard, I guess we can see where he's coming from.
      TTFN

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    2. Made my flight during the final boarding call. :) Arrived safe and sound in NYC. I have to say I was wary of this chapter after you left us with the little cliff hanger, I knew Elena was going to be around in the next chapter, and we all know we hate her. But I finally was not annoyed reading about her. It is now so clear how and why Christian views Elena the way he does. The gliding I could see him doing because while dangerous, he is in control so he doesn't doubt that they will be fine. The next chapter can be all you with him back in Seattle handling the situation so I am anxious to see what comes next. Then I'll break out my tissues next week for the impending darkness. Thanks again for sharing your talent and imagination. Kirsten

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    3. Glad you made the flight. Enjoy NYC.

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  2. Love your writing so much, I am addicted. Loved how you wrote about Christian and Elena early times. Including the bath sex scene It really feels like I am reading Fifty shades of Grey again. Surely EL James hasn't contacted you yet regarding Christian's POV. I hope so because you should be rewarded for your great writing. As always look forward to the next chapter and cannot wait when Ana leaves him after he belts her. So addicted..............Thank you for keeping this beautiful love story alive. Sigrid xxx

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    1. Hi Sigrid. I think ELJ must be far too busy to notice my little blog, and anyway they are still her characters that I'm just borrowing and having fun with.
      Thanks for reading and commenting :)

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  3. OMG you never disappoint, love this chapter talking about Elena great insight into their relationship well done once again, cant wait for more...Chez

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    1. Hi Chez. Have to admit that I kind of understood Elena a lot more once I'd written this chapter, and can maybe see why she thinks she made him what he is today as she stopped him drinking and doing drugs.

      She's still a bitch though.

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    2. I loved hearing more on Christian's POV.. Thank you so much for this! I do hope you do more chapters! Loved Grace's POV as well! I love Shades but having different understandings of Christian's life just makes the whole experience of Shades so much... More? Thank you again!!

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  4. Holy Crap!!!! I love how you tied it all in and kept us deep seeded in his head with thoughts. Perfectly done!!! You can't write fast enough for how bad I want to continue reading the story line though his POV. Keep up the great work.

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    1. Hi Georgiana. How's NYC these days? Just think - at least you have something to look forward to at the moment. Once I finish writing, what then eh?

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  5. As ever you never disappoint. Great chapter I am now on the edge of my seat waiting for the next chapter. Thank you, Laters ;) Marcia

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  6. Another great chapter, keeping us enthralled with Mr Grey's antics.
    N-Boston

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    1. Well Mr Grey is rather enthralling, isn't he?

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  7. Another WONDERFUL chapter! I am looking forward to see where you take the next 2 books as you mentioned you may digress from the original storyline...
    Also looking forward to reading your own material one day!
    Sal :)

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  8. Seriously addicted to your blog I look forward to it each morning and hope that there's more to come I can't wait to see his point of view when they get back to Seattle. Laters Brandae

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  9. Christen; You always say "We aim to please", and once again you did not disappoint! This chapter was Outstanding to say the least. I as well as everyone else will patiently wait for the next chapter, even though I find myself biting my lip thinking of what your POV will be next. Have a fantastic day as you have just made my day with this new chapter.
    ~Hugs Joanne T.

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  10. I adore your blog, you are a fantastic writer,we all know what is going to happen next but to read it from Christian's POV is going to be..........so much more :-) please update soon

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  11. You're awesome, keep up the great writing :-) Emily

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  12. Good morning from Boston,
    What a great way to start the day. You showed up early for our morning tea as you promissed. Thank you. You must you that I and all your fans love you.
    You did it again! I love Christian even more now. Simply amazing.
    I cant wait to read your own book. Sooner rather than later. If you are this good as writing this I think you are much better with your own story bescause it would be you and you only in your own world.
    Ok its sounded creepy now. I'm your own stalker! Hope you dont mind and get use to it. You have a lot of stalkers surround you.
    Again, thank you so much for making me and many fans of yours happy.
    Kim

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      I am really itching to get on with my own book, it's all going round in my head, along with Mr Grey of course. So many stories, so little time to get them all written. Sigh.

      But thanks for all your great support, it really means a lot to me.

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    2. Guest what: We got thunder storm and hail as big as golf balls this afternoon. So guest what I did to pass time: I reread your chapters. The world was falling apart but I kept on reading.
      I want to read your own book when you ready to share. In mean time please keep Mr Grey alive.
      thanks
      Kim

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  13. OMG!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE this chapter! Especially the "how everything started with Elena" scene in the beginning! Stunning, amazing, inspiring! I ♥ your blog and can´t wait for the next chapter!!

    Andrea ♥

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      I just felt we needed to understand what a huge difference Elena made to Christian at that time in his life, and why he is still influenced by her so many years later. Of course, its obvious why Elena doesn't really want to let her good-looking millionaire protege go.

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  14. As always...you NEVER disappoint. Love it! Love it! Love it.

    -Sammie

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  15. Loved the point form, and that you documented the first Elena encounter. I always thought it odd that they went gliding, since he's so obsessive about her safety. I love that he's slowly crumbling, and that he just melts when he looks at her.

    Awesome adverb you coined: fuckingly!

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      And as for 'fuckingly' - well it just popped into my head from lord alone knows where!

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  16. Absolutely amazing! Loved this chapter..,excited to read more!!

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  17. Really enjoyed this one. :) Thank you, thank you! Looking forward to the part where Ana leaves Christian. Excited to know your take on that. :)

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  18. Oh how I LOVE a happy Christian!!! This chapter was phenomenal! Made my day. Thank you so much. I can't wait for "more!" Looking forward to the break up and then hopefully we will quickly move to Christian and Ana reuniting. I can't take them apart, it's so sad. I went into a deep depression when I read the breakup in the books. I felt like it was happening to me!

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      I always say that you have to have the low spots in your life to appreciate the highs, and I think that is especially true for Christian and Ana.

      Thanks for reading :)

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  19. Thank you for all your hard work on this! And thank you for posting so often, and so reliably! Some people might complain because they want to read more, but I think you're doing wonderfully! I look forward to "more"!

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  20. Loved, loved, loved this chapter! I especially loved how you incorporated "Mrs. Robinson's (aka Troll Bitch) and Christian's first sexual encounter. As much as I hate the woman, she is probably the reason why Christian is the way he is!!! Look at me talking about them like they are real!!
    Anyhow, I want you to know that you are an amazing writer!!! You never dissappoint!! If I didn't know better i woul say you are E.L. James!! I look forward to the next chapters and with any luck on our part, you will dazzle us all with continuing to write Christian's POV for the other 2 books as well!!
    Keep it up... You have many fans who look forward to you pleasing us with your words!!! Thank you!!!
    Josie

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      Yes, I felt we needed to understand more about Elena's influence on Christian, and much as I hate her, there were some positive things about their relationship I have to concede.

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  21. col anderson . love the jason taylor info, as the sideine to rest of the characters,please keep them involved.

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  22. Loved this chapter! A turning point in their relationship for sure. Thank you! !!!

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  23. that was a gd 1 . again wait,n 4 the next xxx

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  24. OMG!!! Amazing and fabolous!!! Loved it!!! Are you mixing the books together? Isn't Leila book 2?
    I also love hearing about Taylor and Elena and all the extras! So amazing!

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  25. Never mind. It's not, I had a brain fart. Lol. Again, amazing and I can't wait to read more and more on tid bits into all the characters heads!:-)

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  26. Love it very much. Great chapter. Can't wait until the next. Keep up the good work. Very interesting inside of Christian's and Elena's start. Would not mind to read more about it.

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  27. What a great chapter! I like the insight on how Christian's relationship with Elena began. The visual on Mistress Elena alone...I actually pictured Charlize Theron in her evil stepmother witch mode from that Snow White movie. Anyways, we are going to the last part of the first book. I really want to know what went on his mind during that time and why he let her go.

    Can't wait for your next chapter!

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  28. You made my day!Cant wait for the next chapter:) Please continue!!! Love it:)

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  29. This is my more....more more chapters, please?
    I find myself rereading previous chapters as new ones are posted..I love it!!!!
    Thank you;)
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  30. Love these chapters. you just capture christian so well. Always look forward to reading more. Thank you

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  32. great chapter loving seeing into his relationship with elena and how excited he is taking ana soaring. cant wait for more soon

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  33. "I want more, much more." I so do I. And so do others. Wow! Christian and Elena's early relationship, cool! I can just see the bad boy accepting control. I'm not sorry to say but this is soo better than the book! Can't wait until chapters 25+... and Grace. Maybe Mia too? Your take on this story is excellent as always. Thank you. You make me... Fifty Shades of Happy!

    Nan ;)

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  34. Wow! Just wow!!! Loved it! :)

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  35. Keep going.... You are amazing! Thank you, thank you !!!

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  36. Awesome!!! Can't wait for the next one!!!

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  37. Another brilliant chapter! Thank you so much again for writing all of this for us, when I see that there's more I put my calls on hold and get it on with Cristian for half an hour - perfect!!
    Natalie x

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  38. WOW really found my self deep in the story , I love how you bring more to the story than just heraing what ana thought . Christian sounds so sexy but damaged by his past. Cant wait to read more
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  39. Ah Christian's loving how Ana is with him - thats so awesome - cute section about his feelings on how's she done things that surprise him, that was a great touch! Oh and Matt Damon as Taylor - awesome choice! Excellent chapter :)

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  40. Oh My God!!!! Amazing chapter!!!! I just love it!!!! Getting into Christians mind is brilliant and you do it sooooo well!!!! I cannot wait till the next chapter, waiting very impatiently!!!! x

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  41. So this is where the "dun dun dunnn" fits. lol. that was an amazing chapter! Next chapter is going to be great and i cant wait. thank you for writing CG's pov like a true pro :D

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  42. OMG!!! i so wish this was a book.... U .R. AMAZING!!! u give EL James a run for her money.
    Love how u incooperated his early years with Elena, right there....lovely. ur story is like my personal brand of heroine...haha

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  43. I just loved the tub scene,that was FANTASTIC!!The IHOP was done as if it was EL James writing.
    Thanks you, also the fast post. Please keep up the Great work. We love this story.
    Cyn ;)

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  44. That was great! I got the email that a new chapter had been posted while I was sitting in a meeting not paying attention and well a great big smile spread across my face. I know the people in that meeting thought I was crazy. And of course as a new chapter is posted I have to read it right away, so I was definitely late for my next meeting. I am officially obsessed with CG and your interpretation.

    Thanks for adding that piece about what Ana said in her sleep, I was always curious and I just couldn't think of what I thought she would say. I thought maybe she said something about loving Christian, but what you put makes much more sense. Thanks for the new chapter and please, please, please keep them coming.

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    2. Lol :D you might be right about that budget. But as long as I get my 'fifty' fix, all is right in the world. You're our pusher, I hope your ok with that. I am so obsessed I have others reading this and we discuss it like a book club. I guess that would make us a blog club. Can't wait until the next chapter!

      I'm also stocking up on tissue for that break-up chapter. I always wondered what was going through CG's mind. I'm sure your imagination will conjure up something amazing.

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  45. OMG!! That was simply Amazing!!!! Thank you soo much, you are a wonderful writer!!! I am in AWE of you!!! Can't wait for the next chapter!!!!!

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  46. Well done! So generous as always, too. Did you feel like you could go on with telling about Christian as Elena's sub? I didn't want that part to end, it makes me curious. Happy writing! xo

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  47. This is great!!!!! More please!!!! I hope you do books 2 & 3 as well!

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  48. First time to comment and I absolutely love your writing. This chapter seemed to be paced much faster than your previous ones. I would have love to see how you would have written the part of Ana's mom inviting him to dinner and leading into the actual conversation that was had when he found out about Leila. What I enjoy most about your writing is the dialogue that we hear from Christian's POV that we don't see in the original books. I can't wait for the next one!

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  49. I loved it. I only have one problem and thatvisbou fit write fad enough. I check your sight daily to see if you have written anything. You are a great writer and I can not wait to read more.

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  50. this my first comment and omg!! thank you for writing fifty shades from Christians point of view....I am absolutely hooked and cant wait for the next chapter!! x

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  51. I'm at work and having read this chapter is making me late for surgery---that's how addictive this is! Christian's flashback was genius! And their BREAK UP is coming up soon!!!!

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  52. Loved this chapter, and just like the books I feel the story is going way, way too fast. I would be curious to read more from your perspective on the inner turmoil Christian always seemed to be going through. I often wondered what certain parts of the book meant and felt there was so much "more" to the story. The books left so many crumbs to entice.

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  53. Loved this chapter!! You write so well and I love how you really capture Christian's thinking and everything. Great job and I can't wait for the next chapter! =)

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  54. OMG...absolutely love your writing from Christians pov. You have me hooked! Keep writing...CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER!!!!
    Thank you!
    Lori x

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  55. Another FANTASTIC chapter! Thank you for taking the time to write Christian's POV! Looking forward to the next one!
    Alison

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  56. LOVE this chapter!!! You have done an amazing job with this story....it is as if EL had written it herself....I can't wait to see the next chapter :) Thank you!!!

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  57. Another great one! Thx! More please ... You can't write these fast enough, ha! Xxx

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  58. I'm not sure where my post went. I hit the publish button and it vanished, but it never showed up. I'll do another one just in case you don't get it!

    I loved this chapter so much that when I didn't have time to finish it before taking my nieces to the movies I actually sat in the back row of the theater and read it on my phone. Luckily no one could see the light from the screen ;P

    There are so many things that made me want to do a happy dance. Such as when Christian took Ana soaring. The way you described how happy they were just made me feel like my heart was smiling as big as my face. I also adored the list he gave her of the things she had done to shock him. It was just so special I thought. I was so happy that Christian was able to finally realize just how much she cared for him and that it was as much as he does for her. And I must admit, even though I despise her, I liked Christian's memories of his time w/ Elena. If only he could have been of age it would have been epic, but alas you couldn't do anything about the age part. Oh and the pictures that you chose for this chapter...talk about swoon.

    Thanks for the magnificent chapter. I truly loved it!

    XOXO,
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      I'm guessing that the film you took your nieces to see wasn't one that was of great interest to you!

      Writing this chapter helped me greatly to understand how Elena fits into Christians life I found.

      Thanks for the email too :)

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  59. This blog is so amazing. I look forward to it. Such an exceptional writer.

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  60. I love it.

    Why did Leila have to go a burst the Christian Ana bubble?
    But it's all for a good reason.

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  61. I have one word.... INTOXICATING!
    OK, a couple more words.... insightfully brilliant! Thank you! I can wait to see how you finish up this book and start the second one! I'm hanging onto every word and I can't wait for the next chapter! I'm sure I will enjoy your original book as well! Please keep writing this too I can't stop reading its feeding my addiction!

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  62. Another amazing chapter! Thank you! So loving your writing and perspective. I am DESPERATE for you to get to the break up and reconciliation at the end of book 1/beginning of book 2....they are my favorite parts of the trilogy and I literally cannot wait to see it through Chtristian's eyes! You never disappoint!! Melissa

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  63. once again another excellent chapter. i loved the list of things she did to shock him, that was cute. its funny that you showed how he would get annoyed at her questioning his past and he says he cant change it. do you think he would have been so understanding if she had one? lol he's so happy shes completely "his" that i really dont know what his reaction would have been.probably safer for all involved that she didnt lol. everything was going so well, i cant wait to see how you write the breakup. i cant wait to see it from his view, i always thought he probably fell apart. i cant wait for more :)

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  64. I just wanted to say that I am as obsessed with you blog as I am the books that i'm reading for a 7th time right now. I tried reading someone else's blog from christians POV but they kept taking things from the book word for word instead of saying what he was actually thinking like you do. I truely think you write very similar to how I think she will write Christians POV. I guess thats why i love your blog so much. when my husband finishes reading the books I told him about your blog cause he has said he would love to read it from Christians POV and he said if it even goes as far back as to when he was Elenas sub and harvard and then becoming a DOM it would probably fill in alot of the blanks. One person had Mrs. Jones, and Taylors POV's which i found pretty interesting and not too badly written. But I check every day or two to see if you have added new chapters as I just cant get enough and want to read more and more. You are doing a fantastic job keep up the amazing work.

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    1. Hi there. I haven't read any other Christian pov stories as I want to keep my head straight on my own version, so I can't really comment on that. I'm sure some people prefer the other blogs version, and that's fair enough. But I'm glad that you're here, reading my blog!
      I haven't come across many men reading Fifty Shades, so it's interesting hearing your hubby's views. Sounds like he'd enjoy red red red's blog, because she has written about Harvard and Elena, as well as Taylor's pov.
      Thanks for your interesting feedback.

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  65. Please, do tell me that you will write from Christans POV for all 3 books? HAHA you do an amazing job and I can not wait to read more and more and more. I'm totally addicted to your blog now and can't wait for the next chapter. Great work :)

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  66. Hi from Australia, Im also addicted to your blog and cant wait for the next chapter. Please keep writing from Christians POV for all 3 books. MOVE OVER E.L. JAMES, YOU HAVE COMPETITION!!

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      She has inspired me to start writing my own original story, so I'll see how that goes.
      Thank you so much for your kind words anyway :)

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  67. Bloody brilliant, cant wait until the next chapter. Sare x

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  68. Im so glad I found your page after reading the trilogy in 4 days I was longing for more. Im so in love with your work.. You are amazing at what you do. Thanks for continuing the book.. Cant wait for the next chapter..

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  69. and yes I agree with your other followers please continue til the end..

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  70. I love your ff! I feel like christian is actually speaking. I'm so glad I found your blog! Please don't stop writing I would miss your stories! Thank you for this blog!Good luck with your own book as well. You'll have to let us know when your published!

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  71. OMG....I need more, please keep going...Tash (Uk)

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  72. I love this!! I really do love your writing from his point of view, I've not found many that are as good as yours and I hope that you keep it for a long time to come, I shall look forward to more as and when. It's clear to me that you take a lot of time and effort to get it right and I am sure others would agree that it shows!

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  73. Thanks so much for adding the insight into Elena and Christian's relationship. I am so glad everyone else liked it, too. It does make sense that the only way to change his behavior at that time in his life was through sex. It is rather the ultimate reinforcement. A basic need that he needed and didn't know how to get. You did a great job interjecting that into this chapter. Once again --great job!

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  74. Again great writing skills, giving us more insure into his life with Elena and there connection. It's just great to get all his thoughts on everything!!!
    Again impatiently awaiting more more more !!!
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    Leissa [australia]

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  75. Another great chapter! I liked how you explained his relationship with Elena. Excellent as always! Can't wait for more

    Krysytne

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  76. You know whatever actor gets the role of Christian has had all his work done for him in your writing. He should come here and read the story. He would do amazing if he did!

    Krystyne

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  77. Please keep writing, you are doing an amazing job! Can't wait to read more, very excited.

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  78. Oh my goodness love how you leave us always wanting more well done
    Mistaken4u23

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  79. Oh Sir you never fail to amaze me. Please keep these chapters coming *giggles to herself* Squirming waiting for the next chapter.

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  80. absolutely awesome! he may be 50 shades of f'd up (and he most definitely is), but your portrayal of him puts a totally different spin on him. i really feel so sorry for him!! i think we all need a christian grey in our lives. men say women don't come with handbooks, this is that handbook!! it should be mandatory reading for all men!! love, love, love it!
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  81. Another wonderful insight into Christian! I am addicted just as your other followers. I was debating whether to blog because once I do it's admission and no longer part of obscurity. Thanks for the chapters. I'll be waiting patiently for the next.

    MissisCT

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  82. When are you going to do next chapter? It has been almost two days... :(

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    1. Oh my, having to wait several days for a new chapter - how disgraceful! I'm working on it, and all good things come to those that wait!

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  83. I love this....thank you!!! Put me on your email list for any of of your stuff!! Truebloodfangbanger@yahoo.com


    Karen Holloway
    Tennessee

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    1. Hi Karen. You've been added, you'll need to confirm the verification email. Also, check your spam to make sure it doesn't end up in there. If it does, you'll need to adjust your settings to unspam it.
      Thanks for your interest.

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  84. Great chapter. I say this every time but I get so excited seeing an update!

    Courtney

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  85. LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS! Can't get enough! Please keep going! :)

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  86. Great writing! can't wait for the next chapter!

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    1. Hi Rosebud. What a pretty name. Working on the next chapter :)

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  87. Most definitely enjoyed reading this. I have also really liked the story from Mom's pov. Please keep writing.

    Rebecca
    Georgia

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    1. Hi Rebecca in Georgia. I'll keep writing as ling as folk want to keep reading :)

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  88. as much as i hate to admit this... i now realize what an important role elana played in christian's life.. truth be said if it weren't for her he probably wouldn't be who he is today.. oh that pained me to write but i had to admit it to myself.. guess it's all part of the therapy lol !!
    you are one fantastic writer & i deeply appreciate your work.. feeds my fsaog obsession !!! love reading about his mom's pov as well !! look forwrad to your next chapter.. oh & of course we're all waiting for the breakup chapter.. i'm sure we'll all need a box of tissues??

    jackie o.

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    1. Hi Jackie. I know what you mean about Elena - writing this chapter really helped me to understand why Christian always insists she was a force for good.

      Oh, and I think we're all going to need a huge box of tissues for the break up chapter aren't we?

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  89. After reading through the trilogy once in only four days I knew there would be fic out there. Your story though has been absolutely brilliant! I wanted more of Christian's POV as many others did with that tease at the end of the last book and you have done such an amazing job. I'm almost curious enough to think you ARE the author herself ;) it has only taken me two and half nights to get through your chapters and I can't wait for more!!!
    I hope I can be added to your list for email updates. Linzbnl at gmail

    Thank you so much for your amazing talented writing!!!!!! Xx

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  90. Hi Linz. Glad you've enjoyed my blog.

    Either add your details to the 'Follow by email' box on the left of the blog, or if there is a problem doing that, email me direct : christiangrey50shades@gmail.com , and I'll manually add you.
    Thanks for your interest :)

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  91. What an amazing in sight to Christian. I hope you are just leaving it there and you are going to be writting more.

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  92. opps i hope your not just leaving it there lol

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  93. Wonderful!!! Love love love it!! Can't wait to read more!!!!

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    1. Hi Darla. Working on more at the moment, hopefully not too much longer to wait.

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  94. Can't wait for Chapter 25!!!

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  95. Desperately waiting for chapter 2 :-/
    Leissa (aust)

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  96. (25) leissa :-)

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  97. thank you so much for sharing your talent to all of us.. you are unquestionably BRILLIANT and AMAZING!! can't wait for the next chapter.. hope you'll finish all 3 books! ;) again, THANK YOU, THANK YOU SO MUCH!! :)
    -michelle

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  99. cant wait for the next chapter i keep coming back 2-3 times a day to see if its been posted :)

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  100. I'm not sure why but whenever I picture Christian, I picture Bryan Greenberg.

    By the way, I love this fic! Keep up the good work!

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  101. Can't wait for the next chapter! You really have a beat on him and the chapters you have written are an excellent extension for those of us wanting "more!"

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  102. This was awesome!!!! I found myself smiling and giggling as I read it!

    So delicious! More, please . . .

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  103. As much as I LOVE your story I was so disappointed you didn't let us know Christian's reaction when Ana said she loved him in her sleep, because if I recall corectly, she did. Exept for that I can't stop reading this and I'm so sad I have only one chapter left. I kope you'll update and continue writing... it's the best Fifty Shades fix I can't get exept fot the actual book that I have read 3 times alredy. thank you.

    [Sorry for any English mistakes, it's not my first language],
    Tal.

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