08 July 2012

Chapter 21 - Parting is Such Sweet Sorrow


As has become usual when I sleep with Anastasia, I don't have any nightmares and I sleep really well, although when I wake up in the morning it’s still quite early. That’s just my natural sleep pattern I guess. 

My leg is hooked around hers, my arm is round her waist, and my head is next to hers. I gently kiss the top of her head, but she doesn’t wake. Of course I have an erection, and I consider putting it to good use to wake her in the best way known to man, but I reluctantly decide against it because she needs her sleep. It was pretty late last night by the time I finally let her get some rest. Don’t wear her out Grey. She’s not just some new toy.

She murmurs as I extricate myself from her, and starts mumbling. I hear a few words. I think I catch ‘Christian’, and ‘silver balls’, which makes me smile, but when I hear ‘crack whore’ and ‘dead mommy’, I’m not happy. This is just what I didn’t want; my sick shit going round in her head. I lean down to kiss her cheek, and she smiles in her sleep. Better.

I call Taylor and instruct him that I’m heading down to the gym for a quick session, so I want him to stay behind to monitor the apartment as Ana will be there alone while I'm gone. And it’s because I feel so protective of her that I instruct Taylor to meet me in my study once I’ve returned and taken a quick shower. I want an update on the instructions I gave him last night.

Anastasia is still sleeping deeply after I’ve returned and showered. Clearly, she is not a morning person. I sit on the edge of the bed to study her, watching the steady rise and fall of her chest as she breathes. She looks so young and innocent lying there, her chestnut hair spread out over the pillow.

  Looks can be deceiving though, because now that I’ve taken her virginity and awoken her sexuality, she’s quickly becoming increasingly bold and adventurous. It makes me hopeful that my plans to train her to be a really good sub can become a reality, and I can’t wait to get her in my playroom again. Last night’s scene in my bedroom was nothing like I’d normally play with a sub, but I have to say I really enjoyed ‘making love’ with Anastasia after some kinky playing around. Compromise – yeah, I can do that.

Of course I can’t deny that I’ve always really enjoyed fucking each and every one of my fifteen previous subs. On the whole, I’ve always been pleased with my selections, they were all pretty good girls, but with Ana there’s just this extra connection between us that takes fucking to a higher, more intense level. All previous fifteen would do absolutely anything I wanted, subject to the contractually agreed hard limits, and I can't deny that’s still what I really want from Ana. It’s just a deep seated need in me, part of who I am, the caning, the whipping, the hard shit that I love to deal out, to punish them with. But I can be patient. For her I must be.

I make my way to my study, where I see Taylor waiting for me.
“What’s the status re the covert protective surveillance I ordered for Miss Steele? What have you and Welch put in place so far?”

“Well sir, coverage of the mark - Miss Steele - was already in place with regard to Seattle, so that remains active for today. For the new location in Georgia, we’ve completed the reconnaissance and threat assessment as far as we’ve been able within the tight time scale, and have assessed that any risk to her is very low indeed. Her mother and her stepfather have come up clean, nice neighborhood, nothing to raise any concerns. So a covert security presence consisting of one Close Protection Operative should be sufficient while she’s there.

“No, I want two operatives, twenty four-seven.” I insist, and see a pained expression cross Taylor’s face. I realize that means employing four CPOs in total, and I know its short notice, but I don't give a fuck. “I don't want the operative losing her when he takes a leak or something. And I want full photographic reports on all activity updated to me hourly.”

“Very good, sir.”

“I want to know exactly where she is, and who she’s with, from the moment she leaves this apartment later today, is that understood?”

“Yes, sir.”

“And Miss Steele is not to be made aware of the surveillance unless it becomes necessary for her security and protection. That has been made crystal clear? I don't want her to be worried unnecessarily.”

“Yes, of course, sir. However, I must point out that a higher level of protection would be possible if this were not a covert operation. The CPO has to keep his distance to remain undetected.”

“I understand, but that’s what they’ve got to work with.”

Anastasia has no clue about the risks associated with being my girlfriend. The press are going to have a field day once we’re seen out and about together, and it’ll mean she’ll be at risk from kidnappers and other sick weirdoes. So I’m taking no chances. That’s the official reason for ordering the surveillance anyway. Control freak slash stalker more like.

“Do you have any flight details as yet, sir?”

“I’ll be offering Miss Steele use of my private jet, so I’ll apprise you of the details once her itinerary is firmed up.”

“Very good, sir. Will that be all?”

“For now, Taylor.” He hurries off to pull together my demands.

I’ve decided to spend the morning with Anastasia before she leaves, so I ring Andrea and instruct her to rearrange my schedule. Then I get her to put me through to Ros, so I can go through everything I want her to cover for me. There’s nothing she can’t handle. 

As I ask her to put me back to Andrea for a couple more things, I look up to see a beautiful sight. Anastasia is standing in the doorway, wearing one of my shirts, which is only just long enough to be decent. She looks so natural and beautiful, and as she smiles her gorgeous smile at me, I find myself helplessly smiling back at her. So we’re both standing there like a couple of idiots with big grins on our faces, as I carry on my phone conversation.




“Clear my schedule this morning, but get Bill to call me. I’ll be in at two. I need to talk to Marco this afternoon, that will need at least half an hour… Schedule Barney and his team in after Marco or maybe tomorrow, and find time for me to see Claude every day this week… Tell him wait… Oh… No, I don’t want publicity for Darfur… tell Sam to deal with it… No…Which event?... That’s next Saturday?... Hold on.”

 “When will you be back from Georgia?” I ask. With Anastasia away I'm going to need to kick the shit out of Claude every day to relieve some of my tension.

“Friday.”

“I’ll need an extra ticket because I have a date.” I think Andrea nearly drops the phone in shock, and asks incredulously if I just said I had a date.  “Yes Andrea, that’s what I said, a date, Miss Anastasia Steele will accompany me. That’s all.”  I hang up. Yep, I’ve decided I’m going to go public with this whole ‘girlfriend’ thing.

“Good morning Miss Steele.”

“Mr. Grey.”

I walk round to stand in front of her. She looks so sweet and fresh faced that I can't help touching her, stroking her soft cheek with the back of my fingers, because I crave some contact with her.

“I didn't want to wake you, you looked so peaceful. Did you sleep well?”

“I am very well rested, thank you. I just came to say hi before I had a shower.”

She gazes up at me with those beautiful big powder blue eyes of hers, and I’m powerless. I’m totally under her spell, unable to tear myself away.

As I lean down and gently kiss her, something ignites in her. She throws her arms around my neck, twists her fingers in my hair and pulls me down to kiss me back with a ferocious passion. This takes me by surprise, but I’m soon responding with equal passion. My hands run down to cup her gorgeous ass, and all I want to do is take her. But I manage to control myself and pull back.

“Well, sleep seems to agree with you, I suggest you go and have your shower, or shall I lay you across my desk now?” I tease her.

“I choose the desk,” she whispers, her eyes full of seductive promise. Fucking hell, she means it too.

“You’ve really got a taste for this, haven’t you, Miss Steele? You’re becoming insatiable.” My own personal little nymphomaniac. What a delightful thought.

“I’ve only got a taste for you.” Her voice is deep with desire. Desire for me. She is mine. She belongs to me.

”Damn right, only me,” I growl at her, as I sweep all the paperwork from my desk, pick her up and quickly lay her across it. She wants me to fuck her here? Fine by me. I’m only too happy to give her exactly what she wants. I am so up for this now.

“You want it, you got it, baby,” I promise. Until she’s on the pill, I'm making sure I always have a condom in my pocket. So now I produce it, undo my pants and sheath up. Hell, I’m happy to give her a spontaneous ‘take me now’ fuck.

“I sure hope you’re ready.” No foreplay, no preamble, this is going to be a simple hard fuck. And all her idea.

I hold her wrists by her side, push her knees apart with my legs, then drive straight in. She groans loudly with pleasure. No question, she really wants me.

“Christ, Ana. You’re so ready,” I whisper in awe. This connection, this attraction between us is so strong, it seems we only have to be in the same room as each other, to look at each other, and we’re both instantly ready to fuck. We need each other so badly; there’s only one possible solution to satisfy this insane craving.

She wraps her legs around my waist to entrap me, every bit as desperate for this as I am. It inflames me to take her in a simple, raw, primeval coupling. We’re perfectly matched as we climb together towards our climax, stroking, thrusting, pushing, faster, harder. I can feel her trembling and quickening…

“Come on, baby, give it up for me,” I beg her, as I know I can’t hold on any longer.

She cries out and I feel her magically spasm and tighten around my cock. So that’s it. One final hard thrust and I’m soundlessly flying high right over the edge to join her, before I collapse, panting like I’ve just completed a 6k run in record time.  Fucking hell. So fucking good, out of the blue, from nowhere.

“What the hell are you doing to me?” I murmur as I catch my breath, nuzzling her neck and breathing in her delicious scent. “You completely beguile me, Ana. You weave some powerful magic.”

When I let go of her wrists, she reaches up to run her fingers through my hair. She seems to like playing with my hair, and I seem to like her doing it. Who knew? She tightens her legs around my waist to stop me from withdrawing from her.

“I’m the one beguiled,” she whispers.

I’m frightened by the intensity of my feelings as I look at her. What the fuck is happening to me? I hold her head and look deep into her eyes, trying to cast my own spell on her, to bind her to me.

“You. Are. Mine. Do you understand?” I try and command her to stay with me.

“Yes, yours,” she whispers back, staring into my eyes.

“Are you sure you have to go to Georgia?” Just stay with me, please, don't go.

But she nods. My spell has no effect on her. I’m losing her. She can't feel as strongly as I do or she wouldn’t go. I take a deep breath to gather myself as I quickly withdraw from her, causing her to wince.

“Are you sore?”

“A little.”

“I like you sore. Reminds you where I’ve been, and only me.” 

 I grab her chin and roughly kiss her before I stand up and then hold out my hand to her. Every time you sit down tomorrow, you’ll think about me fucking you. I like that thought.

“Always prepared,” she murmurs, as she looks at the condom packet while I’m re-doing my fly.

“A man can hope, Anastasia, dream even, and sometimes his dreams come true.” But you’re still going to Georgia.

I shouldn’t be feeling or acting like this. Practically begging her not to go away. I'm the one in charge. I need to take control of myself. Get things back on an even keel. Remember the definition of a Dominant, Grey?

“So, on your desk, that’s been a dream?” she asks me with a cheeky smile.

Oh trust me Miss Steele, I love desk sex. Always have. Always will. I’ve made that dream come true many times over. There’s nothing better than a quick hard fuck on the desk for relieving tension when I've been working hard.

I can see Anastasia has worked this out for herself. That might have been her first desk sex, but it certainly wasn’t mine.  She frowns and stands up to go.

“I’d better go and take a shower.”

Yes, and I’d better stop acting like a complete teenager and finish organizing my revised schedule for today.

“I’ve got a couple more calls to make. I’ll join you for breakfast once you’re out of the shower. I think Mrs Jones has laundered your clothes from yesterday. They’re in the closet.”

She looks surprised, and I realize she’s not used to having staff sorting things like this out for her. If it were left to her, her clothes would probably still be in a heap on the floor from last night. But that’s all part of Gail’s job, and she is very efficient.

Ana’s standing there frowning.

“What?”

“What’s wrong?” she asks.

“What do you mean?”

“Well… you’re being more weird than usual.”

“You find me weird?” This makes me smile. Trust me, you haven't even begun to see weird yet.

“Sometimes,” she blushes.

“As ever, I’m surprised by you, Miss Steele.” So shy and yet... so bold.

“Surprised how?”

“Let’s just say that was an unexpected treat.”

“We aim to please, Mr. Grey.”

“And please me you do,” I say. But don't think you can keep taking control like that. That’s not how I do things. “I thought you were going to have a shower?”

“Yes… um, I’ll see you in a moment.” She hurries out of my office.

I make several more calls before I head towards the kitchen for breakfast. I’m just in time to hear Anastasia telling Mrs. Jones that she doesn’t want any breakfast. This makes me mad. She will have breakfast.

“Of course you’ll have something to eat. She likes pancakes, bacon and eggs, Mrs. Jones.” I remember that’s what she had before.

“Yes, Mr Grey. What would you like, sir?”

“Omelet, please, and some fruit.” I point Ana to the bar stool. “Sit” You're not going anywhere until you’ve eaten a decent breakfast.

As Mrs. Jones busies herself with preparing the food, I sit next to Ana and ask about her travel plans.

“Have you bought your air ticket?”

“No, I’ll buy it when I get home – over the Internet.”

“Do you have the money?” I know it’s going to leave her short with the pitiful amount she has in her bank account.

“Yes,” she says in a very condescending and impolite manner, which I find rude and don't like one bit.

“Yes, I do, thank you.” She quickly amends her tone when she sees the look I shoot her. That’s more like it.

“I have a jet. It’s not scheduled to be used for three days; it’s at your disposal.” Then I can control how long you’ll be away. You’ll be back Wednesday rather than Friday.  I’m not sure I can manage any longer than that.

She just stares at me in disbelief.

“We’ve already made serious misuse of your company’s aviation fleet. I wouldn’t want to do it again.”

“It’s my company, it’s my jet.” That’s what it’s for. And then I’ll know where you are and that you’re safe. Control freak? You bet.

“Thank you for the offer. But I’d be happier taking a scheduled flight,” she states. I weigh up whether I can insist, what more I can do to persuade her to take up my offer. Regretfully, I realize there is nothing.

“As you wish. Do you have much preparation to do for your interview?”

“No.”

“Good. You’re still not going to tell me which publishing houses?”

“No.”

“I am a man of means, Miss Steele.” You really have no idea of just exactly what means I have at my disposal.

“I am fully aware of that, Mr. Grey. Are you going to track my phone?” Don’t be stupid, of course I am. Well, Welch will be and reporting back to me.

“Actually, I’ll be quite busy this afternoon, so I’ll have to get someone else to do it.” I’m smiling, because I’m actually telling the truth here.

“If you can spare someone to do that, you’re obviously overstaffed.” Oh there is nothing more important to me than knowing your whereabouts, Miss Steele. Top priority.

“I’ll send an email to the head of human resources and have her look at our head count.” Yes, and instruct her to take on more staff if necessary.

Mrs. Jones serves up our breakfast. I’m pleased to see that Anastasia eats all of hers, despite claiming not to want anything. I hope her mother will ensure she eats well while she is visiting. That’s what moms do, don’t they?

Having completed her duties, Mrs Jones discreetly leaves us alone, and I can see Anastasia visibly relax. I’m so used to having staff around, I hardly notice their presence any more, but I think Ana feels intimidated at times. She’ll get used to it. If she stays around long enough.

She’s looking at me.

“What is it Anastasia?”

“You know, you never did tell me why you don’t like to be touched.”

Not this again. I can’t tell her any more than I already have. I can't talk about that shit. What the bastard…. She has no right to ask me that.

“I’ve told you more than I’ve ever told anybody.” Just shut this down for Christ’s sake.

I can see Ana digesting this. She shakes her head slightly, as I think maybe she realizes she’s overstepped the mark. 

I change the subject.

“Will you think about our arrangement while you’re away?” And come to the right decision?

“Yes.”

“Will you miss me?” I want you to miss me so much that you’ll come back early. Yeah, come crawling back early, desperate and begging to see me. I wish.

“Yes.”

“I’ll miss you too. More than you know,” I confess, as I stroke her cheek and then kiss her softly. How am I going to manage without a fix of Ana whenever I need it? I don't understand why, but she seems to calm me and make me feel more complete somehow.

When it’s time for her to leave to go home and get ready for her interviews, I escort her all the way down to the car park, unwilling to let her go. I hate feeling like this. She insists that Kate will take her to the airport. I insist she takes her cell and MacBook away with her, and to make sure she has the chargers too. It’s essential for me to have as many forms of communication open to her as possible.

I watch her drive away, then pull myself together, knowing I have a very busy afternoon ahead of me, having played hooky this morning. But before I head on into the office, I update Taylor.

“Miss Steele declined the use of the company jet, so she’s taking a scheduled flight. Co-ordinate with Welch; whatever flight she’s booked on, I want her upgraded to first class.”

“Very good sir.”

“And book the seat next to her as well; I don't want her bothered by some drunken fucker sat next to her.” Or some fucking dick who comes on to her, or tries to touch her.

“As you wish, sir. And once we’ve got the landing time, I’ll coordinate with the Georgia operatives, and they’ll take it from there,” he assures me.

“And you’ve arranged for two operatives at all times, as I specified?”

“Yes, we struck lucky and managed to get a female operative for one of the extra CPOs. Makes good sense, a couple will be less conspicuous, and the female can monitor Miss Steele more effectively with regard to rest rooms, changing rooms, those kind of situations.”

“Yeah, as long as the female is up to the task.” Women can be so fucking hormonal and unpredictable, as well as being physically weaker.

“Wouldn’t have taken her on otherwise, sir. She’s ex-marine, comes highly recommended,” Taylor replies brusquely. Clearly I’ve offended him by questioning his professional judgment. Point taken. But still, a woman?

I head into the office for the afternoon. And what is it with everyone today? They are all so fucking inefficient and irritating. Andrea asks me yet again to confirm that I said I have a date with Miss Anastasia Steele for the function on Saturday. 

What is her problem? Is she deaf or just plain stupid? Olivia is her usual annoying, clumsy self, as she practically trips over in her eagerness to bring me some files I need. Remind me again why I employ her?




And when I don't receive an update from the Seattle surveillance team on Anastasia's whereabouts, I go apeshit at both Taylor and Welch, because it’s their job to ensure my instructions are followed to the letter. I said hourly updates, not just when the CPO feels like it. 

Even if there is no change, nothing to report, I need to know that. Barney’s no better; by late afternoon he still hasn’t come up with any feedback from Anastasia’s interviews. I seem to be surrounded by mindless fucking idiots today.

About the only thing to brighten my afternoon is a call from Elena.

“Hello, Christian darling. Long-time no speak. How are things?” 

No mistaking that sultry voice. Part of me is instantly taken back to being her collar-wearing sub, obeying her every command, feeling the sting of her cane on my back if I dared to disobey her in the slightest way.

“Elena. Oh you know, usual crap. To what do I owe this pleasure?”

“I have all the latest accounts and figures for the salon chain following the re-furb and expansion. I know I could just forward them to your accounts guy, but I’d really appreciate it if you could cast your experienced eye over them and give me your opinion, see if you think we’re headed in the right direction. So I wondered if we could do dinner sometime soon and catch up?”

“Yeah, actually Elena, it would be useful to see you. I’m free tomorrow evening as it happens. Is that any good for you?” 

At least this will use up one of my empty evenings, keep me occupied and stop me brooding too much.

“My goodness Christian, you’re usually booked up solid at least three weeks in advance. Yes, tomorrow evening works for me.”

“Fine. I’ll book a table at my club, for eight as usual. See you then.” A private room at my club will mean that we can talk and not be overheard. This is good timing. I can talk to her about all this confusing shit in my head, get her opinion. 

There really isn’t anyone else with whom I can discuss the problems and conflicts that are involved in training Anastasia to be my new submissive. No one else truly understands the stark reality of my needs the way that Elena does.

We hang up, neither of us bothering with further small talk. Elena is good like that.

Rather than returning to the empty apartment, I work on late into the evening, going over the details for the acquisition of whichever publishing house I’m going to be taking over once I get news about job offers for Anastasia. 

This means everyone else stays on and works late too. And no, I don’t feel guilty when I hear Andrea on the phone cancelling her date to the theatre, or Taylor letting Mrs. Jones know that he’s getting food sent to the office so we can carry on working. It’s all part of their job. That’s what they’re paid for. I never promised anyone nine till five hours did I?

Tomorrow I have a session with Claude in the morning, Flynn in the afternoon, and then dinner with Elena in the evening. Hopefully all this will help keep me on the right side of sanity while Ana is so far away from me. 

Because I’m struggling. Really struggling, and it’s only the first day, and she’s not even flown out yet. 

What the fuck is wrong with me?




I don’t own any of the Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters therein. They belong to E L James. I’m just borrowing them for fun and not for profit. Please refer to the Legal’s page for further details. This work is not to be copied or reproduced in any way without permission. 




118 comments:

  1. I love how you write Christian! And as always I can't wait for the next chapter!!
    angelicaamy

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  2. Thank you! Thank you! Very excited about this. :)

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    1. Again, a wonderful chapter. I love how you give new perspective as to why Christian acts the way he does and the additional details you give like the Ana's protection when she goes to Georgia. You are really very talented and thank you for sharing it with us. :) Excited for the next chapter.

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    2. Again, a very wonderful chapter. I love how you give a new perspective as to why Christian acts the way he does like his stalker tendencies. And I also love how you give additional details in the story (Christian asking for operatives for Ana's protection, his interaction with Taylor, his work, etc.). It feels as if it is really part of the original story. You are one talented writer, and thank you for sharing it with us. :) Excited for the next chapter. :) xxx

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  3. Excellent chapter as usual. You really get in Christian's head. Am looking forward to the next chapter.(and every one after that!) Bravo! One of my favorite writers.

    Nan :D

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  4. As usual excellent writing. You have captured Christian (and his stalking abilities) brilliantly. This scene was one of the most difficult for me to get through trying to figure out all of his emotions while she was leaving. I know these are characters in a book, but I want to be able to understand where they are coming from, and the thoughts behind their actions, and now it's all crystal clear. Looking forward to Flynn and Elena. Thanks. Kir

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    1. Also wanted to thank you for adding the beginning of the noctural admissions. You've not left any stone unturned.

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  5. Big fan in Washington DCJuly 8, 2012 at 3:13 PM

    Yes, I had to drop everything when I received your email about another chapter is ready! Great way to start my Sunday morning. Again, another fantastic read! Looking forward to the dinner with Elena, the Georgia trip...and much more. Have a great week! xoxo

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  6. Great job, as always! I have been eagerly awaiting this chapter and MORE! Cant wait to get into his dinner with Elena. You really capture his feelings very well. Also, thank you for including Matt Bomer pic at the beginning of Ch 21...he had been my pick for CG since I began reading FSOG! Love your work keep em coming! :)

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  7. Thanks so much!!!!I'm in 7th heaven when I saw this...Thank you thank you thank you!!!Go on, please;)
    Joyce

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  8. Woohoo new chapter! Loved this one and all Christian's stalking ways - nothing stops him from checking up on Ms Steele! Can't wait for the next one with dinner with Elena. One tiny thing though - I don't seem to be getting an email when you update, don't know if others are having any problems or just me? :(

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    1. Hi Laura Louise. Email me directly at christiangrey50shades@gmail.com and I will make sure that your address is on the subscribers list. I can then also check to make sure it hasn't bounced back as a few are - usually due to the settings people have for receiving unknown emails. Otherwise the alert I've set up seems to be working OK for most people now :)

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    2. Just an thought.. I discovered my update emails are going directly into my spam inbox. Might be an idea to check there.

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  9. Wonderful,wonderful!! Read it twice to savor the beautifully written words! You have created an entirely new thought process for all of that are your fans. We certainly have so much MORE in our heads with connecting the two points of view. Thank you, hope to hear from you soon, Big hug!!! Liz

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    1. Another brilliant chapter! I cannot wait for the Flynn and Elena sessions!

      Are you sure you're not E.L James?

      and THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR POSTING MATT BOMER'S PIC =D He is how I pictured Christian Grey.

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  10. Thank you, thank you, thank you! That was great to continue to get me Christian Grey fix. I can't wait to get more. I am just as fascinated with your writing from CG's point of view as I was reading the entire trilogy. You have me and others enraptured. Please keep it coming. -Brooke :D

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  11. Love it! Please keep the chapters coming!

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  12. Ahhh a new chapter. Each one is like a little gift from heaven. Whenever I see a new chapter posted, I drop everything to read it. Your story is at the top of my priority list.

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  13. just about 2 read the chapter but thought ide comment on the sexy pic at the top!! 1 of the 2 men im routin 4 2 play master grey!! :) xx

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  14. Fantastic - control freak / stalker Christian is even sexier when you're in his mind! I love the way he feels about Ana - makes me want to read even more. I read your chapters in line with those in Fifty Shades and its fab to read both sides of the story. Great work and I look forward to more :)

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  15. FINALLY!!!! a new chapter. I had only discovered your wonderful story only a few days before you went on vacation and I have been so anixous to read some more. THANKS for posting this today. I am looking forward to checking in to read the rest of the story. Your interpetation of Christian is wonderful, if not a bit more crass, than I would have thought, but I still love getting into his mind...Men think so dirferently than women. Thanks again. I will be checking back soon for more Grey!!! I am ashame to admit that I just cannot get enough of him.

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  16. Brilliant!!! You just made my weekend with this update! Does he really need to have dinner with that bitch troll (just kidding). I hope you update soon!

    Btw, thanks for that very delicious Matt Bomer!!! He's definitely my Christian Grey! <3

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  17. omg............love love. r u sure u not E L James. this is exactly like the book from Christian POV, every details is in tact. U sure r good at this. Great job. Next chapter please...........
    seriously u need to publish a book, u r good!

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    1. Thanks - I am now working on a book of my own original work too:)

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    2. You should write your own book and your fans would support you.
      Now tell us what you think/feel about this little fame that your loyal fan give you? Over 111,000s hit on your blog in less than a month? Wow.
      Kim

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    3. Hi Kim. I truly cannot believe the level of interest in my little blog and my writing. I've always written for my own pleasure, just because I love doing it, and because I have all sorts of stories going round in my head. I never thought anyone else would be that interested in my writing, so all this has taken me completely by surprise. But it has given me the confidence to seriously start writing my own original story now. What will happen next - I have no idea, but I'm having a blast anyway!
      Thanks for your interest :)

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  18. Love your writing! Looking forward to the next chapter to get my Fifty fix! :-)

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  19. It is great to know what is going on in Christian's head and how he is feeling. I love knowing the relationships he has with the people around him. We didn't get this insight in the original trilogy. Can't wait to read about his dinner with Elena and a session with the good Dr. I also love the detail to the security he provides---very interesting.

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  20. Love how you still have Christian not knowing what the ____ is wrong with him! Thanks for this chapter. It made my day!

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  21. Am really enjoying the re-write from Christian's POV! Can't wait to read the next installments!! As for MY Christian..How about Chris Pine?? LOVE him! Thanks so much for all the fun! This has become my summer fling!

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    1. Chris Pine is very nice too, I have to say :)

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  22. wow!!! thats was brill, i loved it, cant wait 2 read the next chapter and the dinner wiv elena!! lol altho i didnt get an email saying this chapter was up!! xxx

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  23. Hi Gem - Email me directly at christiangrey50shades@gmail.com and I will make sure that your address is on the subscribers list. I can then also check to make sure it hasn't bounced back as a few are - usually due to the settings people have for receiving unknown emails. Otherwise the alert I've set up seems to be working OK for most people now :)

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  24. What a great chapter! Thanks for updating and making my morning start in a good way! That picture of Matt Bomer made me smile! Damn, he's sooo sexy hot! :) OK, I need to stop drooling and say oh that Christian...he is taking being a stalker to a whole new level.

    I can't wait for this dinner with Elena. I really don't understand his "friendship" with her and why he trusts her opinion.

    Looking forward to your next post! :)

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  25. LOVING THIS BLOG - PLEASE UPDATE SOON

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  26. Oh My God!!! I've just screamed at my laptop for not having any more for me to read!!! Its soooooooo brilliant!!!! Please more soon!!!! Gosh i love how you write Christian, i just can't help shouting at him that he's in love!!!! Wake up Man!!!!! x

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  27. love this blog, love your writing, love CGs POV & love all the Ian pics!!

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  28. Another brilliant chapter! Your story is quickly becoming an addiction - I love your writing style and your plot ideas; they add an exciting, new & fresh layer To place over the original story to give it depth and makes me look at the trilogy as a whole with new interest and perspective. Really, I think I view the story in a completely different light, seeing through Christian's eyes. Well done- I will be waiting with bated breath for the next chapter! Cheers, Adrena

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  29. I need to take a moment to thank you for doing this. These really keep me going. I love it! I am very much looking forward to the next chapter and all its juiciness. Keep up the great work!

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  30. Love the chapter.. I needed my Christian Grey fix. Can't wait for the next chapter. I hope you continue all 3 books your a great writer. This must take time from your personal life so Thank You for giving us our Christian Grey fix. :).

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    1. Hi Smitten. Thanks for appreciating the time it takes me to write the blog - at times it seems to take over everything! But I absolutely love doing it, and I'm totally thrilled that people seem to love reading it just as much :)

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  31. Thanks for another fantastic chapter!

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  32. thanks so much for another wonderful chapter. i had checked before i went to church and did not see it. what a pleasant surprise when i returned home. i got the first email letting me know, but have not botten anymore notifications. it's fine because i check periodically on my own. keep it coming as we are enjoying ourselves!!

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  33. Wow, this was yet another sinfully delicious chapter! I also noticed how so many people loved the addition of the Matt Bomer picture at the top. I must admit though that even though he is my second choice I still scrolled over to the side to get my Ian fix ;)

    I really enjoyed the back story that you have created w/ Christian having a whole security team following Ana's every move both physically and electronically. It was great because it showed he has no bounds nor qualms when it comes to keeping those he cares for safe. Or more so that he has no qualms as to how far he will go to keep people away from what he deems as "his". I had to laugh at the part when he thought "Don’t wear her out Grey. She’s not just some new toy."

    Thanks for another brilliant chapter. You continue to amaze and inspire me with your work. It is so on par with EL James' work that it makes this even more fun to read. Thanks again.

    XOXO,
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    1. Hi Ang. Matt is a very handsome guy, but it still felt odd to use his picture rather than Ian's I must say - I almost felt disloyal somehow, and he remains my firm personal favourite - each to their own. But it only seems fair to use a few more of the other contenders as well. So much eye candy eh?
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    2. I think Ian is a good choice for the role of Christian...but he's in his 30's these days...and I am not sure his acting skills are up to it. I know that is terrible to say...but the way he plays Daimon, things about it bother me. He has this tendency to kind of roll his eyes or bug out his eyes to make a point...and it's not the kind of acting I see for Christian. Honestly, no one is going to live up to what is in my head...but not sure about Ian.

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    3. Hi Christine. All I can say is - each to their own. It's impossible to please everyone, so maybe it will be best if they cast an unknown for the film. But for me personally, when I'm writing and need to picture Christian, Ian's face is pretty much perfect, and his body is hot too... But if he doesn't do it for you, just ignore the pictures of him I've used!

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  34. Love the chapters! Looking forward to the next especially when Ana leaves him. I would love to know his thoughts

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  35. What a treat to see a picture of Matt Bomer! Thanks for that! I cannot get enough of Christian! You have such a talent, I'll never get tired of saying it to you! you have done an excellent job on describing the control freak he is! I can't wait until the next chapter! :-)

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  36. Another fantastic chapter, you never disappoint. Can't wait for the next chapter!

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  37. Great chapter... I love reading Christian's POV.. Can't wait for more!!!

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  38. Really good chapter. You do an amazing job at chapturing Christin's character. Its a good thing I found your blog I was getting worried that I couldn't find your story on fanfiction. But anyways keep up the fanastic job that you are doing. Can't wait for your next chapter.

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  39. Oh please, please, please tell me you are doing the next chapter and it will be posted soon. I came across your blog on a Facebook page call Fifty shades obsessed and I have read all of your chapters today. You are a very gifted writer and your take on Christians POV has been what I have been waiting for, for a long time. For lack of a better word you NAILED it!! Please do not stop !! Thank you, thank you, Your very new faithful fan ! ;) Laters Marcia.

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    1. Hi Marcia - welcome to my blog. Hoping to update with chapter 22 later in the week. I usually aim to update about twice a week, depending on what real life throws my way!

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  40. I caaant wait for the next chapter!! you know in lots of ways im starting to think that this pov is better. you dont even repeat certain things unless its quotea which is understandable to be taken from the book. but as foe CG's thoughts, that's all your writing and i must say you are doing a really really good job! ive said this before that i love your writing but this is like reading THE book on CG's pov for real! i love it. keep it up!

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  41. I always check your site for a new update every weekend and you do not disappoint one bit. Imagine my surprise when I saw Matt Bomer at the top of the chapter! Wowza! He is definitely Christian Grey to a tee! Your writing is on point everytime! Can't wait for MORE!!!

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  42. fantastic is all i can say. i need to meet my christian grey and soon :0) thank you xxx

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  43. I am loving this story. You write wonderfully, staying true to both the characters and style of E L James. Sure you're not her? Great chapter as always! Looking forward to my next CG fix. Oh, and Ian is Christian Grey. Haha This guy's ok, too, I guess. ;-)

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    1. Hi Belle Grey. I think it's no secret that I picture Ian's face when I'm writing Christian, but there are a lot of great looking guys out there too aren't there?

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  44. OMG I am LOVING reading this from Christian's point of view.. I am loving every second.. Seriously cannot wait for the next installment.... I seriously CANNOT get enough of Christian and need my fix constantly.

    You write this blog amazingly and I eagerly await the next installment!!!

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  45. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! when's the next chapter coming out???!!!! I'm itching for more!!

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  46. AMAZING!!!! love love love love it!!!!!! I need more!! LOL. Do you plan on doing the other books also? ? ? Keep up the amazing work!!!

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    1. Hi Samantha. I'm not sure quite how far I'm taking this, I don't want to just exactly repeat the books without bringing something more to it. But I have several thoughts about where to take this, so watch this space.

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    2. Please, please, please do all three books! It would be fantastic to know Christians POV for all the twists and turns in the other two books! Keep up the FANTASTIC work! x

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  47. Wow,,,another great chaper!! Can't wait for the next...

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  48. This is really great. OMG, I had total 50 Shades withdrawal after finishing the books, then found myself searching the net for anything I could find just to get more information. I found this link and started readin...read all 21 chapters in one day. This is totally what I was looking for and craving. I love your writing and love reading Christian's POV. Thank you for taking the time to write this for us die hard fans. Now to wait for the next chapter.... let the Christian grey POV withdrawal start....can't wait for the next chapter.

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  49. OMG I need more so much more, CG's side of the story is quite entreeging

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    1. thankyou cRLA FOR SHOWING ME THIS STORY AGAIN, LOVE YOU!!!

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  50. this was such a great chapter. last chpt i joked that ana didnt know the extent of christians possessive/obsessive ways and his stalking tendancies and you said we would see when she left for georgia, you weren't kidding lol. i so believe christian would hire a 24 hour security detail and he would so say its because of weirdos and press when really its because he's a uber control freak! if he's this bad now, i cant wait to see how you write him when she is actually in georgia.if he's this bad with a trip i cant wait to see how you cover the breakup, keep up the good work.

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  51. excellent chapter! last chapter i said ana didnt know the extent of christian's possessive/obsesive ways and his stalker tendancies and you said we would see next chpt, you werent kidding! i so see christian hiring 24 security and saying its because he wants to protect her from weirdos when really its because he's an uber control freak lol. he seems like like he is coming apart and she hasnt even left yet, i cant wait to see how you write him when she is actually in georgia and i cant wait to see how you cover the breakup, the poor guy might temp. lose it. you really portray his need for her quite well, i look forward to your next chapter.

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    1. lol sorry for the double post, my computer was acting up. i didnt see my first comment published at first. take it as a compliment i rarely comment on stories but i wanted to make sure you knew how much i was enjoying yours :)

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    2. Hi KC, no worries about the double post, and I appreciate your taking the time to comment :)

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  52. I'm really loving this chapter shows how very bad Christian is but in another sense so very very good, keep writing love love it

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  53. Oh my!!! You are doing a fantastic job here!! Cant wait for more!!

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  54. Congrats, this blog has really take off! Quite the testimony to your writing abilities. You have raised the bar for FSOG fan fiction. You have really brought so much to the story, and so much depth to Fifty. Anxious to see you tap into Flynn and Elena, and then of course control freak/stalker/love sick CG, especially once the Leila situation arises. Also looking forward to where you will go with your writing from there. Thanks for the more.....
    Kristen

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    1. Hi Kristen. I think my little blog has a life all of its own now!Crazy, but I love the amazing support it's receiving from Christian fans all around the world. I'm busy writing chapter 22 at the moment, and I promise there is lots of Flynn and Elena content in it :)

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  55. OH WOW!!!! I have read all 21 chapters and im NEEDING more!!! LOL You are doing a great job!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!!! :)

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  56. Officially ADDICTED!
    -Christina

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  57. I always suspected he bought the seat next to her on the plane so no other man could talk to her. I love how you catch every detail from the book so perfectly!

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    1. Hi Jennifer. I think we can safely assume that each time Ana has a vague suspicion that Mr Grey might be acting in a stalking or controlling manner behind her back, he most certainly is, with more besides! Trouble is, with all the money and power he has, he can act how he wants and no one ever says no to stop him. That's my take anyhow.

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  58. Loving your take on this story from Christian's perspective...Just Fabulous! Can't wait for more - I am definitely hooked! Thanks for sharing this!

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  59. Every time i see a new chapter i get so excited!!! FINALLY! thank you so much for writing Christians POV. It is truly appreciated and def LOVED

    xoxo
    jackie

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  60. Another amazing chapter!! Bravo and thanks!! I adore how he has fallen for her and can't bear the thought of being away from her for just a few days. You tell it so well - I can't get enough!!

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  61. I know what is wrong with you Christian. You're in love! Can't wait for more...love this story so much!

    Krystyne

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  62. When can we look for another great chapter??

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    1. Hi Mary. I'm working on chapter 22 at the moment. It's going really well, and so should be ready to post later in the week.

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  63. As always, great chapter. I so love reading this story. Can't wait for MORE :)

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  64. Once again awesome job!

    **Nancy**

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  65. Thank you so much for this, I found your blog today and am loving it. I was desperate for more of 50 shades from Christian's POV and your writing is excellent. Please carry on, can't wait for the next installment.

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  66. Awww you've made my day!!!!
    I've just spent my entire "Working from home day" catching up with my beloved Mr grey! Right - time for a cold shower and to do some real work!!
    Many many thanks
    Natalie

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    1. Hi Natalie. I do hope Mr Grey hasn't got you into trouble :)

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    2. I work for my husband so it's all good ;0)

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  67. Thank you for your reply! Of course you should bring you own to them and you certainly do! I am just in love with your story and can't imagine it ending at this one. I really
    Hope you do your spin of the other two. You are amazingly talented and capture Christian and his thoughts and the little details left out! Love it! Thank you, thank you!<3.

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  68. Cannot wait for the next chapter !! i look at my emails way too many times now to see an alert for the next amazing story !! he's so in love with her, it'll be so damn exciting when he finally realizes it himself...

    thank you so very much for christian's pov !!!
    jackie :)

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  69. I so can't wait for the next chapter!! It's like I don't want the story to end! Thank you very much!

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  70. Kudos again for ur amazing writing skills!!! I only stopped reading to sleep and go to work... I am now caught up and eagerly waiting for the next chapter... I am going to share this wonderful blog you have put together for us to enjoy with others so they can enjoy as well... Absolutely loved everything you've written so far.
    Cissi

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  71. You are an amazing writer. Enjoying this soo much. Its amazing how every one that has read the books is thinking what it would be like from Christians point of view yet you actually bring that to life. Amazing!!! Can't wait for the next chapter.
    Cindy

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  72. Have enjoyed all 21 chapters of Christian's POV so much, you write him perfectly and it's so good to have an insight into what he thinks and feels. I am totally addicted just like I was the books. I don't know what to do with myself now as I stumbled across your blog straigh after finishing the books yesterday and then read all chapters last night and today. I can't wait for Christian's trip to Georgia. Great work :) Thankyou so much for sharing, E

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  73. Simply amazing! Couldnt stop reading just like the books! I cant express how well you write! You completely nailed it in my opinion! The way you write Christians POV is point on! Im passing your site on to all my girlfriends! They are thrilled to start reading! Cant wait for the next chapter!
    Tess :)

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  74. heather again another fab chapter loving it still want more much more xxx

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  75. I am ashamed to admit it, but like many others, I felt empty, lost, almost devastated when I finished the trilogy. I even read it a second time. Then I found your blog, along with a couple others. I had actually never heard of fan fiction before. Yours is wonderful! Please keep up the good work! It is a "fix" for those of us who wanted "more"!!! THANKS!!!
    Susan R. L.

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  76. Love your take on CG's POV.....I am seriously obsessed...read the trio 4 times and is currently on my 5th re-read.....I can seriously say I can relate to a druggie waiting for their next fix...my drug of choice....FSoG...and your blog...keep them coming...please!!!!

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  77. Absolutely loved the chapters from Christian's pov.. I don't usually get obsessed with the books that I read.. However, I love Fifty, telling the story of the highs and lows of Christian's and Ana's relationship..Thank you ;)

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  78. When's the next one coming??? Great job, thanks soooo much!!

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  79. i can only say thankyou because i have now run out of words to discribe how i fell about your wonderful writing so thankyou.

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  80. christian is am arse in this chapter...very demanding...cold hearted...and yes very control freakish......great chapter....YOU ARE AWESOME

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  81. is it too hard to write just one chapter? you really get into the character's mind!!! I wish u could at least upload 2 chapters, hahahahahha I think I'm asking for too much xD

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  82. wow, j'adore la façon d'être de Christian.

    Fleur50

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  83. Doesnt matter how many time I read your blog I loved it.
    Kim

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  84. Never mind the last part of my previous comment, I am sooooooo glad I found many more chapters to read!! Yippee!!

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  85. Hopefully Flynn will shed some light into "what's wrong with me". Somehow I'm glad it's Flynn first and then Elena. But then again, he'll probably go and see Elena being as confused as ever.

    Shame I have work tomorrow or I would stay up late and read...

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