26 August 2012

Chapter 32 - The Pissing Contest



I’m discretely tucked away in the corner of the bar that Anastasia told me in her email that they were heading for after work. It’s just across the street from her office, so I’ve stood down her security detail for the weekend, as she’ll be with me the entire time.  

She found it amusing that this place is called Fifty’s, and I suppose I can see the ironic humor in that. It’s a big place, and although they’ve tried to inject some character into it with some baseball themed memorabilia festooning the walls, it’s still pretty soulless.

I arrived ahead of Ana, so I see her make her way in and head towards a group of people that’s already congregated at the bar – three guys and three girls. If Ana had seen me, it wouldn't really have been a problem, as she invited me to meet her here, but luckily she was too preoccupied to spot me. Yeah okay, so I have stalker/spying issues. I'll get to find out what I need to know though. 

I’m curious - I want to see this Hyde fucker in action for myself before I make my presence known. I want to see how he acts around Ana. You can tell a lot from a person’s attitude and body language, and I'm a pretty expert reader. I’d already worked out that was the group from her office, because I recognized Hyde from the background check pictures. In the flesh he looks just as mean faced a piece of shit as he did in them.

They’ve all come straight from work, but are dressed very casually in jeans, loud patterned casual shirts, and trashy, hippy skirts for the ladies. Hyde is wearing jeans and a black shirt. He’s probably got a tattoo somewhere – he looks the type. 

It must be dress down Friday at SIP.  This is not something I subscribe to at Grey Enterprises. Sloppy dress standards lead to sloppy work ethics in my opinion, and I'm not prepared for my staff to compromise on productivity just because it happens to be Friday. It’s just another working day as far as I'm concerned. My employees have the whole fucking weekend to unwind and socialize, so they shouldn’t expect to do it on my time. 

Every Grey Enterprises employee is expected to adhere to the appropriate dress code for their role at all times during their contracted hours of work. If they find this unacceptable, they know where the door is. Funnily enough, since I pay well above the standard rate, with an excellent benefits package included, very few of my staff seem to have an issue with this.

I’ve already decided that once I’ve taken over SIP, there will need to be some changes to work practices, although whilst we’ve been negotiating the Heads of Agreement prelim contract, the management has been arguing that things are different in publishing, that they need a more relaxed and convivial atmosphere in order to encourage the creativeness of their authors and editors. 

I’m not convinced. It’s still a business, so the same efficiency principals should apply, regardless.  News of my takeover has been embargoed for four weeks, to give the management a chance to make some changes. The whole place is very badly organized and run, and needs a complete overhaul. 

Their security is appalling, both in the building and in their computer systems. Taylor and Welch accessed all areas of the building with ease, and Barney rifled through all their internal systems with no problems at all. Very shabby indeed, and not what I expect of any company that I own, let alone one where Anastasia is working.

As I look over, I see that Ana is wearing those tight skinny jeans that show off her long slim legs and pretty ass to perfection, along with the pale blue shirt I instructed Taylor to get for her in Portland, when it was necessary for her vomit bespattered clothing to be replaced. Clearly she likes this shirt, because she has chosen to wear it a couple of times now, and I'm pleased because the color really suits her, as I thought it would. She looks beautiful, as always. How can any man not be attracted to her?

I see Jack hand Ana a bottle of Bud, but then he turns away from her, to continue talking to one of the other women. Good. Ana talks to one of the other women for a while, so I start to relax a little. They talk together for quite a while, and I frown as I notice Ana start on her third beer already. She’s such a lightweight, she really needs to be careful about her alcohol intake. That’s when bastards like Hyde can take advantage of her.  Has she learnt nothing from the episode with José fucking Rodrigues? It’s a good job I'm here to look after her.  

It’s not until a couple of the girls leave, that Jack moves in on Ana. He’s just been biding his time, waiting for the right moment. As he talks to her, he stands very close, and leans right in towards her, invading her personal space. I can tell he’s making her feel uncomfortable, because I see her trying to back away, but the clever fucker has her trapped against the bar, so she can’t.  I was right about him. He wants her. He wants what is mine and now he’s overstepped the mark. Time for me to show my face and get him to back off, if he knows what’s good for him.

I casually walk up and drape my arm possessively around Anastasia’s shoulder. I’m staking my claim. I’m telling Hyde that she is mine. As I feel her relax against me, I sense that she’s glad I'm here, so I know I’m right that he makes her feel uncomfortable. Don’t worry baby, I’m here for you. Always.

“Hello, baby,” I murmur, as I kiss her hair. I look Hyde straight in the eye. Back off asshole. My property. She’s taken.

I pull Ana closer to my side, and then lean down to kiss her as I smile. Mine, not yours, you presumptuous fucker. Ana smiles back, clearly happy to see me too. 



Jack begrudgingly moves away from her a little bit. Message received loud and clear.

“Jack, this is Christian. Christian, Jack,” Ana introduces us rather uncomfortably. She can’t have failed to pick up the tension between us, because you can almost taste it. But I'm the Dominant Alpha Male here, make no mistake. And if necessary, I will prove it to him. No other male should be sniffing round my woman.

“I’m the boyfriend,” I say, as we shake hands while sizing each other up. He’d do well to heed the unspoken warning I'm sending him. I’m her boyfriend, not him. I’ve learned to control my feelings, to show a calm and civilized face to the world, but make no mistake, I’ll take him down if necessary, no problem.

But Hyde stares right back at me.



“I’m the boss. Ana did mention an ex-boyfriend,” he replies.

 So he’s issuing a challenge is he? He thinks he can steal her away from me, and he’s flaunting the fact that he gets to control her at work. He’d obviously love to control her outside work too. Arrogant fucker.

“Well, no longer ex. Come on, baby, time to go.” She comes with me.  I control her, not you.

“Please, stay and join us for a drink,” Hyde says, looking at Ana. He’s pulling his ‘I’m your boss' card, trying to make her feel guilty, so she’ll defy me and obey him. Not going to work, shit face.

“We have plans. Another time, perhaps. Come.” I take Ana’s hand. She does what I tell her. She is mine to control, not yours. Back off, low life sleazeball.

“See you Monday,” Ana smiles at Jack, before she dutifully follows me to leave. See? Mine.

I’m rewarded by the seriously pissed look on Jack’s face. He got the message alright, but I don’t think this contest is over yet. That was just round one.
~~~

“Why did that feel like a pissing contest?” Ana queries, as I hold the car door open for her. Yep, no surprises she picked up on that.

“Because it was,” I smile. And I won.

As I get in the car on my side, I see Taylor smiling in response to Ana’s greeting to him. He doesn’t normally do ‘smiling’, so I'm a little surprised. I hope he isn’t getting soft in his old age. 

Today has really dragged, because I’ve been so impatient about seeing Anastasia. I think it was the same for her - around four in the afternoon, she emailed me saying she was bored. I had to warn her that her emails were monitored, so she must be careful what she puts in them. I’d not be impressed if a new member of my staff said they were bored, but then I keep my employees very busy, as Anastasia would have found out if she had come to work for me. Well, she will be now.

 It was hard to sleep last night, but not, for once, because I was tormented by bad dreams, but because I couldn’t stop thinking about Ana. She liked the iPad, and the songs and the British Library App. In fact she said she loved it all in the email she sent me. And she said she loved me. That was the best bit. I still can’t quite believe that’s true and that she’s giving me another chance, but I'm incredibly relieved that she is. It’s more than you deserve, Grey.

So as we sit in the back of the car together now, I take her hand and kiss her knuckles.

“Hi,” I say, breathing in the sexual magnetism between us. It’s taking a lot of self-control not to start kissing her, because if I did, I probably wouldn’t be able to stop myself from taking her right here in the car, which could be fun, but Taylor might be somewhat shocked if I did. Even he has his limits of what he can ignore, and in any case, I’ve never been a sexual exhibitionist. 

Training as a Dominant meant acting out scenes in front of other Doms for coaching purposes, and you can’t be shy or inhibited, or get embarrassed easily if you want to be a Dom. But that's how I know that performing to an audience really isn’t my thing, and neither is group sex, which I also tried but found it didn’t do it for me either. 

 Elena, on the other hand, isn’t at all averse to either performing or watching scenes, and no doubt this was a factor in her offering to help train Anastasia to be my submissive, as she has with others in the past. She might have hoped she’d get to watch us, to give her critique, but that would never have happened. 

I get the impression that maybe she’s bored with Isaac, her current sub, and is looking for a new source of amusement.  Maybe that’s why she’s been taking such an interest in my affairs, and why she keeps ringing me, even though I've not been taking her calls.  

I would never have even considered taking up her offer to go down that route with Ana, and I know Ana would never have agreed to it anyhow.  I’m never sharing Ana in any way, with anyone. She is mine, all mine, for my eyes only. Now we’re back together, we'll work things out between us in our own way, with no interference from outside sources. My priority is giving her what she needs from me, then balancing that out with what I need from her.

“Hi,” Ana whispers back in that sexy, needy voice of hers, as she looks at me with eyes that are begging me to fuck her as soon as we can possibly get on to it. So well matched.

“What would you like to do this evening?” Stupid question. Begins with F and ends in K.

“I thought you said we had plans.” Trust me I do, baby.

“Oh, I know what I’d like to do, Anastasia. I’m asking you what you want to do.” I’d really love to hear you talk dirty.

She just gives me a wicked, salacious smile.

“I see. So… begging it is, then. Do you want to beg at my place or yours?” I return her smile with a matching one.

“I think you’re being very presumptuous, Mr. Grey. But by way of a change, we could go to my apartment.” She wickedly bites her lip as she says this, knowing full well the effect it has on me.

“Taylor, Miss Steele’s, please.”

“Sir,” he confirms, as he pulls out into the traffic.

“So how has your day been?” I ask. As long as mine?

“Good. Yours?”

“Good, thank you.” But it’s just got even better, now I'm with you.

We’re smiling at each other, just happy to be together.

“You look lovely,” I tell her, as I kiss her hand again.  I like her soft, sweet little hands.

“As do you,” she replies, as she brushes my cheek with her fingertips.  It seems we just need to touch each other, we both crave skin on skin contact.

But I need to know something from her.  Jack Hyde.  I’ve already looked into getting rid of him from SIP, but I’ve been warned that as his contract of employment doesn’t include any kind of an ‘at will’ clause, I can’t just fire him, as I would be able to under the type of contract I give to my Grey Enterprise employees. 

I have to have legitimate grounds to sack him, unless I want to pave the way for him to sue for wrongful dismissal. As I don’t want to give him that satisfaction, or for him to make a single penny out of my actions, I have to wait for him to step out of line in some way, before I can fire him. 

“Your boss, Jack Hyde, is he good at his job?”

“Why? This isn't about your pissing contest?” Ana asks suspiciously.

“That man wants into your panties, Anastasia.” She is so naïve and trusting, which makes her vulnerable.

“Well, he can want all he likes… why are we even having this conversation? You know I have no interest in him whatsoever. He’s just my boss.” She really has no clue, has she?

“That’s the point. He wants what’s mine. I need to know if he’s good at his job.” I’m looking for any reason, any reason at all, so I can get shot of him.

“I think so,” she shrugs. Shame.

“Well, he’d better leave you alone, or he’ll find himself on his ass on the sidewalk.” He’d better not touch so much as one hair on your head.

“Oh, Christian, what are you talking about? He hasn’t done anything wrong.”  She doesn't sound too convincing, so I’m sure he makes her feel uncomfortable, even if she hasn’t really worked out why yet. But I know why. He wants to fuck her, of course.

“He makes one move, you tell me. It’s called gross moral turpitude – or sexual harassment.” I really don’t want to wait until he does anything more than breathe heavily on her.

“It was just a drink after work,” she protests. But that’s how it all starts. Seemingly innocent, out for a few drinks, he gets her drunk, then he makes his move. She has no clue about these things. I love her innocence, but it makes her so fucking vulnerable. So that means I have to be extra vigilant for her.

“I mean it. One move, and he’s out.” I hope she realizes how serious I am, and I really hope she will tell me if he does anything, in any way, to upset her. The covert surveillance team are going to be watching him as best they can, but even so, it is difficult to monitor him all the time from a distance.

“You don’t have that kind of power,” she says, as she starts to roll her eyes. Then she suddenly works it out. “Do you, Christian?”

I smile at her, but say nothing. I knew this was going to be fucking awkward.

“You’re buying the company,” she whispers. And she looks horrified. Completely and utterly horrified.

I thought she might be a bit difficult about this, but I didn’t expect her to react quite so negatively. Crap.

“Not exactly.” Maybe she’ll drop this?

“You’ve bought it. SIP. Already.”  Nope, she’s not going to drop it.

“Possibly.” I tentatively admit. It is still going through the legal process….

“You have or you haven’t?” She’s not letting me be evasive. Best come clean.

“Have.” The shit’s about to hit the fan, Grey.

“Why?” she demands, clearly appalled at the idea. Oh work it out for goodness sake. Why on earth wouldn’t I?

“Because I can, Anastasia. I need you safe.” Number one priority.

“But you said you wouldn’t interfere in my career!”  True, and I haven’t. Yet.

“And I won’t.” Unless your safety is compromised.

She snatches her hand out of mine. Uh-oh.

“Christian…” Words seem to fail her. Not such a bad thing.

“Are you mad at me?” No one ever gets mad at me. This is a whole new experience. Novel.

“Yes. Of course I'm mad at you. I mean, what kind of responsible business executive makes decisions based on who they are currently fucking?”  

Oh, yes, Miss Steele is mad at me. Seething mad. I don’t know what to say, so I say nothing.

We soon arrive at her apartment after an uncomfortable silence between us.  She’s so eager to get out she doesn’t even wait for the door to be opened for her.

“I think you’d better wait here,” I tell Taylor. Fuck.  How did this blow up so quickly? I’m not sure she’s even going to let me come in with her now, because clearly she is furious with me. 

I haven’t a clue how to handle this, but I'm guessing it’s best to try to remain calm and reasonable. I'm sure that’s what Flynn would advise. And he was so pleased at how things were going between us, when I spoke to him earlier today to update him.  Now it’s all fucked up again.

As usual, she is struggling to find her keys in her purse, so at least she hasn’t had a chance to rush in and slam the door in my face.

“Anastasia.” I calmly try to get her attention, but when she looks at me, I see she is still so white hot with anger that she can’t speak. Shit.

“First, I haven’t fucked you for a while – a long while, it feels – and second, I wanted to get into publishing. Of the four companies in Seattle, SIP is the most profitable, but it’s on the cusp and it’s going to stagnate – it needs to branch out.” 

This, at least, is all true, although I’ve only wanted to get into publishing since I found out that was the area Ana was going to work in. But business is business. It’s good to diversify. It might be a new avenue for me to explore, but bottom line is that SIP is a good investment.

She stares at me, her eyes now a very intense blue, thanks to the anger that is surging through her. I’ve never seen her like this before, but fuck me, she looks sexy as hell.  Little Miss Steele, all fiery and angry.

“So you’re my boss now,” she snaps. Yes, I most certainly am, in more ways than one.

“Technically, I’m your boss’s boss’s boss.” But your boss always.

“And, technically, it’s gross moral turpitude – the fact that I am fucking my boss’s boss’s boss.” Call it what you will, baby.

“At the moment, you’re arguing with him,” I point out. Technically speaking, that is. I’d far rather we were enacting the fucking you were talking about.

“That’s because he’s such an arse,” she hisses.

An arse? Did she just call me an arse? Really? No one’s ever called me an arse before. No one’s ever dared. Another first, Miss Steele. That’s really quite a funny first.  I can feel a smile twitching at the corner of my mouth. Always unpredictable and never boring, that’s my feisty girl.

“An arse?”

“Yes.” I think she’s finally calming down a bit. Perhaps she’s got it out of her system now. Rant over?

“An arse?” I’m trying not to laugh at her now, but fuck me, it is kind of funny. There’s no one else like Anastasia. I’ve never met anyone like her before, who speaks to me the way she does and can get away with it. Because she’s only speaking the truth. You are an arse, aren’t you, Grey? She’s just telling you how it really is.

“Don’t make me laugh when I am mad at you,” she yells, but it’s no good, she ends up laughing too as I grin at her, and I think the worst of her snit has passed.

“Just because I have a stupid damn grin on my face doesn’t mean I'm not mad as hell at you.” She tries to act like she’s still mad, but since she’s giggling like a silly school girl, I think she’s fighting a losing battle.

I don’t risk kissing her yet, I just lean in and nuzzle her hair. She smells sweet and sexy all mingled in together. I don’t know how that’s possible, but that’s Ana all over. Sweet and innocent, yet defiant and sexy. Totally irresistible.

“As ever, Miss Steele, you are unexpected. So are you going to invite me in, or am I to be sent packing for exercising my democratic right as an American citizen, entrepreneur and consumer to purchase whatever I damn well please?”

“Have you spoken to Dr. Flynn about this?”

Oh yes, baby, he knows everything about me. All the sickest of the sick shit.

“Are you going to let me in or not, Anastasia?”

Finally she relents enough to smile and open the door, so I wave at Taylor to let him know he’s good to go. He’ll be back later on dropping off Ana’s Audi ready for her to start using again, so she won’t need to take the bus to work next week. 

 Thankfully she accepted my other gifts back with good grace, so hopefully the car will not be an issue either, when I give her the keys back.

~~~

It’s a decent enough place, the apartment that Kate’s parents' bought for her. I’m happy that it seems pretty secure with proper locks, so at least Ana should be safe enough here, especially as it’s in an okay area. 

When Elliot helped the girls move, he thought it was a pretty cool place, and I can see why. Of course, if he’d said it was a dump, I’d have taken action, but as I know he has very high standards about these things - he has a very nice apartment of his own - I felt reassured.  I remember he also commented on how few clothes and possessions Ana had in comparison to Kate, which is something I intend to rectify. But for now, I have other things on my mind.

“What would you like to do, Anastasia? I know what I want to do.” It feels like forever since we’ve been alone together. Just being in the same room means I have a rock hard erection already. I've got her backed up against the concrete kitchen island, and I could take her right now, but I want her to tell me what she wants. I know it’s the same as what I want. For me to be inside her. Now.

“I’m still mad at you.” She’s not given up yet, but she’s cooling down. My little wild cat. I’d maybe like to see that side of her in the bedroom…

“I know.” I smile my best winning smile at her as my apology. I’m sorry she’s upset; but I'm not sorry I bought SIP.

“Would you like something to eat?” she asks. Oh, baby, I have a huge appetite that needs satisfying.

“Yes. You,” I murmur. “Have you eaten today?”

“I had a sandwich at lunch.”

“You need to eat.” No proper breakfast, just a sandwich for lunch – this won’t do. She needs a proper meal.

“I’m really not hungry right now… for food.” Me neither, baby.

“What are you hungry for, Miss Steele?” As if I didn’t know.
“I think you know, Mr. Grey.” Sure do.

I’m teasing her because I want her to spell out to me exactly what she wants me to do to her. I want her to learn to communicate her wishes to me, not just do what she thinks I want her to. 

But it’s hard. I’m used to issuing commands, and now I have to hold back. It’s a good thing I've had years of practicing self-control and denial. It’s all going well, until she reaches up to touch me and I instinctively recoil. I just can’t let her touch me like that, in the way she wants. 

 Ana looks puzzled, as well as put out.

“Sometimes you don’t mind. Perhaps I should find a marker pen, and we could map out the no-go areas,” she suggests, which is not such a bad idea actually, and something to think about.

“Have you been taking your pill?”  I have a nasty suspicion she’ll have forgotten all about it.

“No,” she confesses, as her face falls. Shit. As I thought. Back to condoms. That’s why I brought some with me.

“I see. Come, let’s have something to eat.” I don’t want her fainting through lack of sustenance.

She protests, but we both need to eat. And anticipation is the key to seduction. But it’s tricky, as I discover there's no food in the apartment.

“You have no food here?” This makes me so angry. She is so neglectful of herself. It’s no wonder her tight jeans are not as tight as they used to be. She needs looking after, however much she may protest that she doesn’t. She needs me to take care of her.

“Let’s go shopping, then.”

~~~

I don’t ever do grocery shopping or cooking, so wandering around Ernie’s Supermarket is another new experience for me. I employ other people to shop and cook for me, principally Mrs. Jones. 

I also have housekeepers at my other residences in New York and Aspen.  The New York apartment is for my use on the business trips I make there several times a year, and my place in Aspen is for pleasure and relaxation, although I haven’t made much use of it since I bought it, as I don't really take vacations. In fact, I think Elliot has used it more than I have since he completed the refurbishments on it.

Ana seems to know her way around the supermarket, and sets about picking out what she needs, as I trail behind her carrying the shopping basket.  My food just appears in front of me, so I've no idea what ingredients are required to produce a decent meal. I’m happy to go with whatever Ana wants to cook, and when she says a stir fry will be quick, I know where she’s coming from. I can’t wait to get her naked either. But first things first; she is going to need some energy to be able to keep up with me.

The supermarket store is a somewhat curious experience.  I’m not keen on all the rude, noisy brats running around the aisles. I glare at the obese, gum chewing woman in the nasty cheap sweat pants, who I assume is meant to be keeping them under control, and she just glares right back at me. Ana tugs my arm to distract me before I can say anything, and I let myself be led away. Jeez, I'm glad I don’t have to come to places like this more often.  

“Do you have anything to drink?” I inquire, doubting very much she’ll have anything worth drinking at her apartment, seeing as she had no food. I'm not driving tonight, so I can relax and allow myself to indulge in a drink or two.

“Beer… I think.” As I thought.  

“I’ll get some wine.” But when I check the supermarket shelves, there’s nothing but cheap, nasty shit. Maybe we should just have gone to my place, but we’re here now, so I guess I just have to go along with it. It makes a change anyway, and at least it means I get to see her apartment.

“There’s a good liquor store next door,” Ana informs me, when she sees me return scowling and empty handed. So I make my way there and manage to find a half decent bottle of Pinot Grigio.

I carry the grocery bags back to the apartment as Ana leads the way.

“You look very – domestic.” Ana seems amused by this.

“No one has ever accused me of that before.” Actually, I’ve been much too busy becoming a billionaire to bother with anything domestic. I get other people to do all that crap.

I get the bottle of wine out and we have to search for a corkscrew, as Ana is still unsure where things are kept in this apartment. Obviously she’s not done much cooking for herself. Good job I'm here.

“What are you thinking about?” She’s very quiet, and I need to know what’s going through her mind. This is the trouble; I have no idea a lot of the time.

“How little I know you, really.” Is that what she thinks? But I've told her more about myself than I've told anyone else, ever.

“You know me better than anyone.”

“I don’t think that’s true.” Honestly, baby, it really is. Even Elena. That’s who you’re thinking of, isn't it? But we only ever really talk about my needs, rather than my feelings.

“It is, Anastasia. I am a very, very private person.” Not even my family are privy to some of the things I've told you.

“Cheers,” I say as I hand her a glass of white wine.  “Can I help with that?”

She’s busying herself with all the food preparations, and I feel a bit like a spare part.

“No, it’s fine… sit.”

“I’d like to help.” Sharing new experiences. That’s what Flynn suggested.  I should start here, shouldn’t I? Perhaps I could get some plates out or something.

“You can chop the vegetables.” Shit. How do I do that?

“I don’t cook.” She hands me a knife. So what exactly are you asking me to do?

“I imagine you don’t need to,” she says, as she places a chopping board and some red peppers in front of me. What the fuck am I meant to do with these?

“You’ve never chopped a vegetable?” She sounds incredulous. Why keep a dog and bark yourself? I have staff who do all that shit.

“No. Are you smirking at me?” She seems to find my lack of culinary skills amusing. I’ve been kinda busy empire building, you know?

“It appears this is something that I can do and you can’t. Let’s face it, Christian, I think this is a first. Here, I’ll show you.”

She brushes up against me, and I get an immediate thrill from the sexual tension buzzing through me. I step back. I could just take her here on the floor, right now. You’re playing hard to get, remember? She has to tell you what she wants you to do.

“Like this.” She slices the red pepper and removes the seeds in a very professional and practiced manner. She makes it look easy.

“Looks simple enough.”

“You shouldn’t have any trouble with it,” she says sarcastically. What am I, like five years old or something?

I start carefully chopping.  So okay, I’m not as fast as she is, but if a job’s worth doing…

Ana prepares the chicken and then starts gathering up the rest of the ingredients ready to cook them in the wok. But she keeps brushing up against me, teasing me and enticing me. She knows how desperate I am to have her, and now she’s getting me back for playing hard to get.

“I know what you’re doing, Anastasia,” I murmur, as I continue to work on the pepper, which I’m finding very tricky to chop. She made it look so easy too.

“I think it’s called cooking,” she replies cheekily, as she bats her eyelashes at me. 

She joins me to chop up some more ingredients, but she keeps on with all the little body contacts. She’s driving me crazy with need, and she knows it.  Finally when she brushes her gorgeous, sexy rear up against me, I’m nearly at breaking point. One more like that…

“If you do that again, Anastasia, I am going to take you on the kitchen floor,” I growl. I am trying so hard to stay in control, and here she is, taunting me.

“You’ll have to beg me first.”

“Is that a challenge?”

“Maybe.”

I go over and switch the gas off, leaning past her to do so. The heat between us is enough to cook the fucking dinner.

“I think we’ll eat later. Put the chicken in the fridge.” I can’t wait any longer.

She complies, and I see her hand is shaking.  I move so I'm standing right next to her. She wants to play sexy games, hmm?

“So you’re going to beg?” she whispers defiantly.

“No, Anastasia, no begging.” Not from me, anyway.

The atmosphere between us is tangible, electric, full of unresolved tension of the most intense sexual kind.

I grab her hips to pull her to me. Her hands reach up into my hair as my lips hungrily seek hers. I push her up against the fridge which rattles in protest. Our tongues twist and dance together. She moans when I grab her hair and pull her head back so I can totally possess her mouth. Our kiss is desperate and primal, full of need and longing.  It has been so long, too long. 

I need her. She needs me. We can’t resist any longer. We need to fuck. We have to fuck.

“What do you want, Anastasia?” I manage to utter, trying to keep to my plan that she must instruct me, communicate her needs to me.

“You.”

“Where?”

“Bed.”

I scoop her up into my arms and head straight for her bedroom. I set her down, put on the bedside lamp and close the curtains. I don’t intend to provide a free porn show for the neighborhood.

“Now what?”

“Make love to me.”

“How? You have got to tell me, baby.”

“Undress me.”

That’s a good start. I pull her towards me by hooking my finger in her blouse, so that my finger tip is just brushing the top of her breasts. I stare into her eyes, as I slowly unbutton her shirt. She is breathless with need, as am I.

“Good girl.” She tentatively holds onto my arms to steady herself, and I see the questioning look in her eyes – am I going to flip at her touch again? But my arms are a safe area, so no problem this time. I see her relax as she realizes this. I pull the shirt down over her shoulders. She looks so beautiful with her perfect breasts showcased in her lacy bra.  Mine. All for me.

Next, I reach down to undo the button of her jeans, and pull down the zip.

“Tell me what you want, Anastasia.”

“Kiss me from here to here,” she whispers, as she trails her finger from the base of her ear down to her throat. My pleasure, baby.

I sweep her hair to one side, as I bend down to comply with her wishes. She feels and smells so damn good. Soft, silky and warm. So tempting and arousing.

“My jeans and panties,” she murmurs next.

I smile, as I drop to my knees in front of her. I hook my thumbs into her jeans to pull them down, along with her panties. She steps out of her clothes and her shoes. Now she is standing there in front of me, wearing just her bra.

“What now Anastasia?” I ask, while I’m still kneeling in front of her.

“Kiss me,” she whispers shyly, as she looks down at me.

“Where?” Spell it out for me, baby.

“You know where.” Of course I do, but tell me anyway.

“Where?” She has to instruct me.

She points to the apex of her thighs, highly embarrassed, but she’s done it. I grin up at her with delight.

“Oh, with pleasure,” I chuckle. I gently expose her clitoris with my fingers, then employ my tongue to expertly work at caressing her sweet spot, making her groan loudly as she clenches at my hair. I work her into a frenzy of need, as I swirl and tease her lovingly with the tip of my tongue, until I know she is teetering on the edge of her climax. I want her begging me to fuck her.

“Christian, please,” she moans, as I feel her legs start to tremble.

“Please what, Anastasia?”

“Make love to me.” 

You have to be more specific, baby.

“I am,” I murmur as I blow gently against her.

“No. I want you inside me.”

“Are you sure?”

“Please.”

I carry on, and she moans loudly  again. Beg me, baby.

“Christian… please.” That’ll do.

I stand up.

“Well?” 

Look at me. What’s wrong here?

“Well what?” she pants at me. Her brain’s not in gear.

“I’m still dressed.”  Obvious, isn’t it?

She looks at me in confusion. Then she reaches for my shirt, but I back away, in case she tries to touch me. Then she realizes I want her to undo my jeans.

Now it’s her turn to drop to her knees. She fumbles to undo my jeans and then yanks them down along with my boxers. I quickly step out of them, along with my socks. 

My cock has sprung free, more than ready for action. She doesn’t disappoint.  As she looks up at me through her lashes, she takes hold of my cock and squeezes tightly, pushing her hand back along my length, stroking me exactly the way I showed her I like it done. 

She looks so fucking sexy as she does it, and I groan with the immense pleasure she’s giving me. Then she takes my cock in her mouth to slowly lick me, twirling her tongue around my sensitive tip, before she suddenly sucks me hard. I nearly come straight away.

“Ahh. Ana… whoa, gently.”

I hold her head as she takes me deeper into her soft, warm mouth, sucking me really hard, as she gently cups my balls. It feels fantastic.

“Fuck,” I hiss loudly. I can’t last long like this.

She does it again, but now she uses her tongue in an expert way. Has she been taking secret lessons at the submissive training school, where they give detailed anatomy lessons to improve fellatio skills? How does she know to hit the most sensitive part of my cock with the tip of her tongue in that way? It’s fucking amazing. Then she tips her head back, so that she can suck me in even deeper, and I feel the end of my cock hit the back of her throat, which is a seriously advanced technique. Is she some sort of a natural genius at giving head or something?

“Ana, that’s enough. No more. I do not want to come in your mouth”

But she won’t stop. She sucks me hard again and swirls her tongue around to very nearly drive me over the edge. Pay back time. Now she wants you to beg, Grey. You’ve created a monster. A sexy little beast of a monster. And she’s all yours. No more games. Just get on and fuck her.

So I bend down to grab her by the shoulders, and toss her onto the bed. I tear my shirt off, then get the condom from my jeans.  We’re both panting with sheer desperation to get what we both need.

“Take your bra off. Lie down, I want to look at you.”  I thought I’d never get to see her like this again when we broke up. So this is really sweet for me to look at her beautiful body. 
Perfect. She’s just perfect.

She gazes up at me as I roll on the condom.

“You are a fine sight, Anastasia Steele,” I tell her as I slowly position myself over her, kissing her breasts and nipples as I make my way up her body. She is so aroused that she groans and writhes beneath me. I tease her for a while longer, savoring each nipple as I kiss and suck her. 

“Christian, please.”

“Please what?” Spell it out again, baby.

“I want you inside me.”

“Do you now?” I think I can manage that.

“Please.”

I push her legs apart with mine, all the while looking straight into her beautiful eyes. I take my time, as I slowly sink into her, relishing the exquisiteness of her lush tightness stretching to engulf my cock.  

She closes her eyes and groans with pleasure, as she tilts her hips up to welcome me, encouraging me to fill her completely. 

This is heaven, pure and utter heaven. 

Her fingers are in my hair again, knotting and pulling, as I slowly pull out and then slide back in again. Bliss, total bliss.

“Faster, Christian, faster…please.”

Yes! She is telling me what she wants. This is good, really good. And baby, I am more than happy to give you what you need.

I kiss her deeply as I start to move faster and harder, pushing us both onwards and upwards towards our release. Neither of us can wait, we are both close, so very close now, and I feel her starting to tense and quicken.

“Come on, baby, give it to me.”

She screams. I call her name. We both fly over the edge to shatter into intense and magnificent orgasms, riding it out as she pulses and contracts around me, while I explode deep inside her.  

Perfect, coordinated timing. We are so fucking good together. Perfectly  matched.

Finally I withdraw and collapse on top of her, as we both lie there breathless and trying to recover our shattered senses. Fucking amazing and brilliant vanilla sex. I can live with this. This I can do.

I gently kiss her.

“I’ve missed this.”

“Me too,” she whispers.

I take hold of her face to kiss her hard, a deep passionate kiss to compel her, so she understands.  Now that I’ve got her back, I’m never letting her go again, ever. 

“Don’t leave me again,” I plead, looking into those amazing eyes of hers, trying to reach into her soul, the way that she reaches into mine.

“Okay,” she whispers back, as she bestows one of her wonderful smiles on me. It bedazzles me with its sheer beauty and sincerity. She understands. She feels what I feel. She isn’t going anywhere. I smile back at her in relief and joy. 

Maybe it was almost worth hitting rock bottom to experience the elation that is sweeping through me. Right now, this is as good as life gets. Here with Anastasia, giving herself freely and joyously to me. This is how it’s meant to be. She is for you. 

And suddenly I'm starving hungry.

“Come cook me some food, wench. I’m famished,” I order, as I sit up in bed pulling her up with me.

“Wench?” she laughs at me.

“Wench. Food, now, please.”

“Since you ask so nicely, sire, I’ll get right on to it.”

As she gets out of bed, I see there’s something under her pillow. I reach over to retrieve it. It’s a deflated balloon, the one I sent her, the helicopter one.

“That’s my balloon,” she says possessively, as she puts her robe on.

“In your bed?”

“Yes. It’s been keeping me company.” She’s blushing. Aw… sweet.

“Lucky Charlie Tango,” I murmur in surprise. All the time we were apart and I thought she’d stopped caring, she’s been sleeping with the balloon I sent under her pillow?

My balloon,” she repeats, as she heads out towards the kitchen.

So she’s just as stupid and sentimental as I am, because I have the model glider she gave me on my desk, right next to me. 

I have another silly smile on my face now. 

Anastasia must really care or she wouldn’t keep a stupid deflated old balloon under her pillow, would she? 


I don’t own any of the Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters therein. They belong to E L James. I’m just borrowing them for fun and not for profit. Please refer to the Legal’s page for further details. This work is not to be copied or reproduced in any way without permission. 



192 comments:

  1. Omg.......Great writing ! U aim to please alll the time.
    If i tell u how excited i get when i log on and see that u post a new chapter, i jump and scream Yes!!!!!!
    its amazing how much u r in Christian's head, his thoughts exactly. Amazing writing

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  2. Another amazing chapter! But aren't they all? You are truly amazing! I loved reading domestic Christian and I always wanted to read his thoughts on the Vharlie Tabgo balloon!:-)thank you! Simply phenomenol writing!:-)

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    1. Thanks. I think it's significant that despite all his wealth, Christian is finding out that financial worth means nothing when it comes to sentimental items such as the model glider and the Charlie Tango balloon. It's the thought that counts :)

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    2. yea its nice that we dont have to gess wot hes thinking i hope ya dont miss the out scene that el james did where she f**ked him with her mouth would love wot he was thinking then !!! and the treasure map seen gonna be ace waiting patiently for more chapters !!!!!!!!

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  3. Keep it coming please!

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  4. You really do aim to please.

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  5. Awesome as usual. I am always so happy when there is a new chapter.

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  6. This was so awesome, but then again your writing is always awesome. I loved this chapter and am looking forward to the next one as usual. Please don't make us wait too long. Thank you again for some wonderful chapters. You're the best.

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  7. This made a good afternoon GREAT!!!! Thank you so much for sharing your talent with us! As ever you aimed to please & have succeed!!

    Andrea

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  8. What a great chapter. You are awesome ! I love your writing. You really brought out the intimacy of the moment. Wow Can't thank you enough for the honer. Hope the next chapter is soon.

    Nan :D

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  9. Awesome! Love ur writing and.I look forward to more. I was hoping u would be getting to the ice cream scene soon. It.is my favorite.Cant wait.

    Shannon

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    1. Well I like to spread the hot, steamy scenes out, and I think this chapter already had it's fair share of raunch!

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    2. I am so glad I found this blog!!!!!! I'm ADDICTED :D I read all 31 chapters over 2 nights & was SOOOOOO excited when I saw that this one was up! I can't get enough!!! I'll be reading them again & again in anticipation for the next installment...
      THANK YOU for giving us 'MORE'. It was something I craved after finishing the trilogy. I read them all 3 times in a row because I just didn't want it to be over... Your story from Christian's POV is great & I appreciate all your hard work!
      Now I shall wait, with restrained impatience, for the eagerly anticipated 33rd chapter!

      Jen

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  10. Another fascinating chapter. I looked last night for it and thought to myself,well maybe tomorrow. And here it is! I love your writing, you seem to understand Christian so well. I love the point of view you are giving.
    Excellent work! Anxiously awaiting the next chapter...

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  11. Yess, I have been waiting for this scene, and you wrote it like I saw in my mind. Thanks for sharing your amazing view of this story.

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  12. Another fabulous chapter! Your writing is phenomenal! Thanks so much!

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  13. Where is my husband, where is he!!!! Honey, to the bedroom, now, please!!! LOL Another masterful chapter, leading up to when Christian finally tells her he loves her. xo

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    1. I hope you found your husband, Veronica! No wonder men don't mind the Christian Grey effect eh;)

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  14. Oh yes! Charlize would be an amazing Mrs. Robinson! Love it!

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  15. Excellent writing!!! Take all the time you need to write, we don't want you to burn out early. ;)

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    1. Thanks Stephanie. It can be pretty tiring, and usually by the time I post a chapter, I'm sick to death of it because I've re read it so many times! But that passes :)

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    2. I've had my imagination completely drained while doing a "sailor moon" RPG 15 years ago. I was the oldest with a job, and they were still High School kids. They couldn't understand why I needed to recharge my imagination. I'll keeping running funny stuff by you to help on Facebook. ;) Now go have a diesel ;)

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  16. I really enjoyed this, thank you. Yes, Elena always wants something it seems. So glad to see Christian's intelligence shine through and see through her and to see him see through Hyde, too. Ana is in good hands. I always wish she could see that more but then again, not being able to touch Christian must be unsettling. Thank you!

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    1. Hi Joni. I can't help but see Elena as user of people. If she's being nice, or helpful, there has to be an ulterior motive. That's how I see her anyhow.

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    2. I totally agree with you about Elena! Dont like her one bit!

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  17. Too funny... Maybe she'll drop this.... Nope she is not going to drop it! I love the voice inside his head, such a smart ass! Great job on the reunion boink! Looking forward to yr creativity when we hear Christain talking to Elena at the salon! Can't wait to see him panic when Ana realizes where they are and who is there! So many good tags coming up, drawing the treasure map, second chance earnings, masked ball, silver balls, the shower at the Faimont and of course sailing! You got lotsf juicy bits to write about! Looking forward to your thoughts!


    Thank you

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    1. Hi Blondegirl3. Let's hope I have the stamina to cover all these wonderful moments eh?

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  18. I was so excited to see a new chapter. I laugh everytime he thinks about Jose. I love this chapter! Please keep them coming. Great job. Have you thought about writing your own books? If you do let us know. I would love to read it too. Thanks again!

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    1. You mean Jose fucking Rodriguez don't you? Ha ha!

      Yes I intend to write my own book. It's just time that's the problem. But I will get on to it :)

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  19. THANK YOU!!!! As always amazingly written!! Can't wait for more!! I can't wait to get home every day to check out the site!! Every chapter makes me smile! xx

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  20. Another amazing chapter!! You are very talented!! I look forward to your next chapter!! You capture Christian fantastically you fill in so many gaps, you are truly gifted in writing!!

    Zoe (from united kingdom)

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  21. What an amazing chapter!! U hav made my shitty Sunday eve brill thankyou cannot wait for the nxt one well done u x Kirsty x

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    1. Well Kirsty, shitty days can be ignored when you escape by reading can't they? Always works for me.

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  22. Omg absolutely amazing thank you

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  23. You have taken my mind off of my troubles and took me to a place and time that I long for. Amazing and Thank You!

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    1. Reading is the best form of escapism that I know :)

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  24. just brilliant - thank you so much

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  25. Brava! Amazing! Well worth the wait and more!!! Keep up the stupendous job...thank you!

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  26. Just when I think it couldn't get any better. It does! That was a hot chapter, but I expected that. I loved the inner monologue of Christian during the pissing contact. Still loving it. You are definitely feeding into my Christian Grey fixation. I LOVE IT!!!;D

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  27. Another great chapter! The hits just keep on coming. thanks once again.

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  28. Excellent. Can't wait to read more. Just wishing I hadn't started to read them until you had finished all the chapters cozy like Christian I'm not good with waiting! Thank you x

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  29. WOW that was hot! And I love the Miranda Kerr pic, she is how I pictured Ana. Please post another pic of Matt Bomer on your next chapter. How is your own book going by the way? Will it have hot sex scenes as well?

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    1. I get withdrawal symptoms when I don't use Ian's picture - it's his face I picture when I'm writing and that really helps me. That's just the way it is for me I'm afraid. But the other main contenders are all very good looking guys too, and I will be using other pics when they suit the story :)

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    2. dont ever stop using his picture! he is gorgeous in everyway possible and my perfect choice for christian, especially as christian seems to get naked alot haha ;) thankyou for your writing!!! you must feel so tired trying to do all this in such a short amount of time and going beyond our expectations but i really hope you never stop, ever! i just feel like locking you in a room with a laptop so you can do it 24/7/365. kind of obsessed:p thanks again, natalie x

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  30. Loved it! Looking forward to reading the next chapter!

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  31. Your doing such a great job, keeping Christian completely in character. Now that he's recovered his equilibrium, we get to see some of his less endearing qualities. He really is a control freak and all that stalking is far from healthy however he tries to justify it. Very hot writing. Charlie as Mrs Robinson? A bit young perhaps? But a very good actress.

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  32. Oh wow, brill, brill, brill chapter. The scene with the peppers was 1 of my favs in the books and I loved reading that Christian really had no idea wha he was doin. A very hot + steamy chapter but what done it for me was when he realised how sentamental Anastasia is and how much she loves him when he found lucky charlie tango x

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  33. Great work! Really enjoyed reading your take on Christian so far. I just stumbled upon this site yesterday. Cannot wait for more chapters, keep them coming, thank you!

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  34. Great chapter!!! This was one of my favorite scenes from all the books! Loved the pissing contest and him attempting to cook!!

    Great job on this chapter! Now with baited breath I wait for the next one!

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  35. So agree with Claire above. Cannot wait for next chapter.

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  36. You made a dreary rainy Sunday even better-loved this chapter,as I do them all!
    Brilliant!

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  37. Oh WOW another great chapter!!!

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  38. Love it... Made my Monday, waking up to the email that there was a new chapter... Wish it was longer tho'... Bring on 33, can't wait!!

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    1. Longer....that chapter was over 7,000 words I'll have you know! But I understand, everyone always wants 'more', don't they?

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  39. Are you getting tired of us telling you how awesome you are? The domestic Christian was my favorite. It showed he was really trying to be the new Christian that Ana wanted. I was always wondering why on earth Christian did not know about Leila meeting Ana after work. Well you explained it so well. I think this is a main reason why you follow your blog dutifully. You are a smart writer who willing to time to invest in this blog even you only do it for fun. Thanks for that.
    How is your book? Hope you have time to write.
    Kim

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    1. Thanks Kim. Finding time to write my own work is a bit of a struggle, but I'll get there :)

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  40. Sure, I'll piggy back with everyone else to say how much I LOVED your latest chapter! I don't know if I can convey enough how wonderfully you really keep with who Christian is as we have come to know him in the original books. I'm so smitten with this fictional guy, gah! lol - just wonderful job, love your work, keep it going - and hope you're having as much fun doing this as we are reading, cause man, it is truly a highlight to get your latest chapters! Looking forward to the next one!

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  41. Ahhhhh, fanfuckingtastic!!!! You're writing takes my breath away... I cant get enough! Thank you thank you thank you for sharing your talent with us!!!!!
    Eagerly awaiting more
    Laters Baby <3
    Leissa mc ( down under)

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  42. Oh! I have to add, I just KNEW Christian had staked out the Fifty's bar well before he got there, to check things out! I can't tell you how perfectly like him that was, and I pondered that to myself when I first read it (and the second time, lol) then I found you with his POV...on to the third go around shortly of the trilogy. Trying to savor it more every time, and next time I will alternate scenes along with what you've written, it will be a blast!

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    1. Well, Ana wondered where Christian was when she was in the bar for a while before he showed, and he's never late, so the obvious conclusion was that he was there the whole time sizing up the competition. He just stepped in the second he saw Jack getting up close and personal to Ana. That's how I saw it anyway :)

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  43. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you.....you made my day....I loved it. I loved the vege cutting scene lmao too funny and the pissing contest? Better from Christian's POV thanks again for the update please surprise us with ch.33 tonight lol PLEASE?.......ok maybe tomorrow? Pretty pleeaasseee????

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    1. My poor brain needs time to recharge after writing that rather steamy scene I'm afraid. It'll be a few days at least, and I also have a very busy schedule this week too, so it's back to delayed gratification.

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  44. Love, as always. We all knew how controlling Christian is in the FSOG books, but I love how you take his "stalking techniques/hidden agendas" to another level in order to protect her. When I read the books--it never, ever crossed my mind that he would go to that measure. I just assumed--in this case--he showed up at the bar, but you brilliantly came up with him already knowing and him watching the situation beforehand. Simply love your story. Thank you so much!

    Hugs,
    Carmen

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    1. Hugs right back to you, Carmen. You sound similar to Ana with things never crossing your mind - but with Mr Grey I think you need to always assume the control freak is in charge, then take it to an even creepier stalker level, and then you have him about right. He does because he can. That's the joy of being a billionaire. Screw any privacy laws!

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  45. writing is your gift!!! amazingly good!!! Fucking amazing and brilliant vanilla sex, that's want I need now... Yrene

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  46. Perfection! I know you only promised to get through the breakup and reconciliation but I really hope you are gointo keep writing through the trilogy. This has honestly been more interesting than the original!

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  47. LOVE IT... LOVE IT ... LOVE ..IT... YOUR THE BEST !!!

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  48. One of your best chapters. Thank you and please keep going.

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  49. Thank you for this great chapter. I always loved when they got back together please pot more sooner rather then later:)

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  50. Another great chapter! Really enjoyed this. I love it when I "see" Christian's possessiveness in action, haha. :)

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  51. You nailed it! Christian is still an arrogant stalker
    but he is starting to realize that Ana is his soul mate
    and she really does love him. Loved his reaction to
    Charlie Tango! Looking forward to the next scene
    where he asks her 'do you know hoe much you mean to me?"
    I always believed he was trying to tell her he loved her
    without actually saying it...yet. I know he must be thinking
    it though if he's thinking this is my soul mate. Book Two
    was by far my favorite of the trilogy. I love when
    Christian shows her how much she means to him.
    It's so sexy and romantic. Your doing an amazing job.
    Thank you for the gift of keeping this love story alive for us. I can't
    seek to let these characters go. Is it crazy that I've fallen for
    a fictional character?! I think about Christian all the time but I'm betting
    most of us here do!

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    1. Hi Susan. Formulating his feelings to accept that he is capable of love is a huge step forward for Christian, so he will struggle to actually vocalize that word for a while yet I think. But as you point out, he says and thinks it in so many alternate ways until he has to accept that he does actually LOVE Ana. As we know,eventually he tells her all the time that he loves her, but he's not there quite yet:)

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    2. Well written Susan.........lovin' your reply also CG :=) Ahhhhhhhhh on to the next one.........TY TY TY

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  52. Great chapter as ever,love ,love your writing. Thank you.

    CP

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  53. Thank you for creating these blogs... it would also be great if you could provide us with Leila's POV, too. That would be awesome. Well, you are awesome. - Dianne

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    1. Thanks Dianne. I think I have enough to keep me going for a while with this blog and Grace's one too. But Leila's would be a very interesting story for sure.

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  54. Okay, so I love you (but I'm in love with Christian more ;)), you are amazing, the perfect view into Christians twisted mind. I love it amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

    ~Annalee

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  55. Another great chapter! What a control freak...I alwyas had the feeling when reading this in 50 Shades Darker, that Christian was in the bar before he showed himself to Ana and Jack. I love reading what's in his head!

    Krystyne

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    1. Thanks Krystyne. Makes sense that Christian was in the bar, doesn't it? Glad you agree about that.

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  56. Thank you soooo much you don't disapoint !! Love it !
    Viola

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  57. You aim to please and you hit the mark on this.. Can't wait for more....

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  58. I have a huge stupid grin on my face, lol. This is ridiculously good! Loving me some CG POV! BRAVO!

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  59. This is such a HOT CHAPTER!! Also a nice long one too!! I look forward to the next one.. Thanks!!

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  60. Awww,Christian was so sweet and poignant. I felt his loneliness, and his relief. I also love his inner dialogue which is funny at times. I also love that Ana is no pushover, where Christian is concern. I love these two. Another great chapter. You're brilliant.

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    1. I think the fact that Ana is not a pushover is what keeps him interested isn't it? Glad you enjoyed it anyway :)

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  61. So love reading your chapters. Your take on Christian is perfect. It is the perfect compliment to Anastasia's story. Although I can't wait until the next chapter please take your time because you nail them each time. Thank you so much for making FSOG even hotter and better!

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  62. wow, amazing job as always. that chpt was all types of hot. it never even occured to me that he was in the bar watching everything unfold but i so believe it. i love how he is so unrepentent about being such an uber possessive/control freak. he seems quite proud of it actually. once again his inner dialogue is so him, his inner voice is quite funny but he is also such a arrogant ass and i love his justtification for all his stalking behavior lol. hes lucky anna is so innocent and naive about alot because if she truly knew the extent of his behavior at times she might have headed for the hills. hell, christian still would have found her LOL keep up the good work :)

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    1. Hi KC. No, Christian has no compunction whatsoever about being controlling and stalking Ana. He trusts his instincts for detecting trouble as he's rarely wrong, and for him this justifies his actions in protecting Ana. And he's right, she is too naive and trusting. She would have happily gone on the business trip to New York with Jack Hyde later on would't she, if Christian hadn't stepped in.

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  63. fantastic as usual ..hurry with the next chapter plz x

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  64. Thank you Thank you!!!!! I feel I have the whole story I have been addicted to this bolg for days but must admit I skipped to near the end of book 1 as I really wanted to know the other side & wow. (I will go back & read from the begining) Its is so how I thought it was like. Ur writing is awesome please, please keep going. Love it, love it. As I had a troubled childhood this side speaks to me on so many levels & u have got the torment so right. Its actually got me thinking about me & my thoughts & actions. Thanks again

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    1. Thanks Kirst. You'd be surprised at the number of people that have told me that reading about Christian's disturbed childhood has made them look again at their own issues. I guess we all push things to the back of our minds, but if it helps to get them out in the open to work through them rather than ignore them, that must be a good thing, right?
      I'm glad you are reading my blog anyhow :)

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  65. I love reading ur blog. Hanging for your next chapter ' plz keep writing . Xxx

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  66. Thank you for another great chapter! Shocked, yet told myself why was I shocked, that Christian was at Fiftys all the while. OF COURSE he was! Loved his reaction to being in the grocery store too - how funny! Don't we all wish we had someone else to do all the chores we hate for us? And making Ana tell him exactly what she wanted - when I read the book, I thought it was because he was just being dominant, but now (especially after reading your past chapters about the breakup) I really see it is because he needed to truly open her lines of communication. I'm always so excited to see a new post from you!

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    1. Hi Rhonda. Just think of the most extreme stalker scenario, put Christian in it, then a lot of the things that puzzle Ana make sense. She wondered why Christian took so long to come and meet her at the bar, didn't she? Yet he knew she was going to be with Jack, so the only logical explanation to me is that he was already there watching, and only made his presence known when he saw Jack getting up close and personal to Ana. Just the way my mind works I guess :)

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  67. I just love the fact that he loves Ana speaking up to him and not being completely intimidated by him. That's what makes life so much more alive for him. He's used to women doing what he says practically before he tells them. Ana has a mind of her own and is very strong willed. They make a great couple. Keep up the good work. Your chapters, as always are awesome.

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    1. Yep, Karen. He hadn't worked out how boring it was to have everyone say 'how high' whenever he said 'jump'. Appearances can be deceptive, as he found out with little Miss Steele when he thought she'd be a perfect submissive.

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  68. Wow that was a hot and steamy chapter! I am still breathing a little heavy! You are really good at what you do. I love your take on Christian's POV. It gives me some hopeful insight into my boyfriend's protectiveness. But he is no Christian! Keep the chapters coming. I am never disappointed. :)

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    1. Hope it wasn't too steamy for you! I think a lot of men's brains are still wired into 'man is the protector' mode. He knows what is going through the other guys minds, and he doesn't like it one bit. It can be very sweet and loving, if very annoying at times! But what would you rather, that he didn't care at all? I guess it's all about hitting the right balance.

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  69. " She is for you. Your pre-ordained soul mate. The one. She is the one." That she is, Mr. Grey! He's finally getting there - to the realization that he actually loves her. Loved the chapter, and I always wanted to know Christian's inner thoughts about the balloon... It's so sweet. Amazing chapter, superb writing - as always.

    Tal.

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  70. I loved the kiss and the post-coital tenderness from Christian. The sex scenes were smoking too. You really added something to the proceedings.

    I enjoyed that he thought it wasn't such a bad thing that she was so angry as to be rendered speechless.

    My favourite part was the pissing contest with Hyde.

    "Mine, not yours, you presumptuous fucker."

    I just love what was going through Christian's head as he was challenged as to who was *really* her boss, and who had the right to control her. Your writing is darkly humorous and truly delicious to read. I grin throughout. We all have thoughts we'd hate everyone to hear, but we get to see what Christian actually thinks and what he decides to say aloud. It's fascinating (e.g. He's not impressed that Ana's bored or with the ridiculous SIT casual Friday).

    I also liked the added part about dom training and Elena. An interesting dimension you added.

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    1. Hi there. You are so right - the thoughts in our minds are not necessarily very politically correct are they? And that's what makes it fun. Christian is outwardly seemingly civil to Jack Hyde, all the while hating his guts and feeling extremely jealous because he understands how Jack's brain works in a way that Ana just doesn't.

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  71. I was so happy to see an update last night! I read it as I was watching the last episode of The News Room - and that is one of my favorite shows. You are an amazing writer and have provided such a plausible Christian POV. I'd gladly pay for your books (but glad I don't have to). Looking forward to more - THANK YOU!

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    1. Hi Mary. Any writer is always thrilled when people actually want to read their work, so I'm glad you enjoyed the update. Would be nice one day to actually get paid to write I suppose!

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  72. HOT..... Thats all i have to say!

    I loved this chapter, it shows all the sides to Christian that i like. Dominant, Playful and of course Sex God!!!

    Thank you, you have brightened up my bank holiday monday

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  73. Fantastic! love it so much. Can't wait for next chapter!

    Thank you ...thank you...thank you...x x x

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  74. I love the exchange between Jake and CG. Puts me in the mind when my boyfriend and my ex-boyfriend showed up at my house lol. Men have a way of saying volumes with a few works. I laughed at him say he the one who controls Ana when in fact she got him on the hook. Great great great writing and as always Thank you!

    T

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    1. Yes, the men know exactly what's going on in each other's minds, so they don't need to say much do they?

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  75. I look forward to your chapters and look every day for an update. You are awesome. Love to read about the point of view of Christian, I read the FSOG trilogy 3 times and still can't get enough.

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  76. Omg¡¡¡¡ really love it¡¡ is amazing really amazing actually to see the way christian feels and think everything cant wait to see the next one...actually every time i read your chapters i really feel that is not enough.... need moreee Lol need to see what is gonna happened next and the odd things is that i already know that cause i been re-reading the series many times but cant help it you´re just amazing with your writing.

    Greetings from Mexico¡¡¡

    Móny :D

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  77. I always wondered what he thought about the balloon under her pillow. LOVE your story!

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  78. I get so excited when I see you’ve updated it’s ridiculous!! Loved this chapter as usual and I’m running out of amazing things to say about your writing without repeating myself. Again you made me see things that I didn’t see the first (or second, or third!!) time of reading the book – it never occurred to me that Christian would already be at the bar watching to see how Jack interacted with Ana but of course he would do that because, well, he’s Christian and it what he does. Loved the bit with the balloon - I always loved and found it really sweet that Ana slept with it under her pillow. Can’t wait for the next update!

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    1. Hi Laura Louise. I guess we all see different things in stories, don't we? I always thought Christian was lurking there somewhere in Fifty's when Ana got to her third beer and he still hadn't showed up, but then the minute he sees Jack getting close to Ana, he's suddenly there.

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  79. Thank you! Yet again you have written a brilliant chapter! I loved it! Love how Ana keeps Christian on his toes, and how he protects her even though she doesn't yet understand why!

    Thank you again! :)

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    1. Yes, that's just how Christian sees things I think - he isn't a pervert stalking her, he's simply protecting her because she is not very worldly wise.

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  80. So thrilled to see an update! I actually felt upset when he said he'd partaken in group sex and Elena had watched him having sex with the subs. It felt like deprivation too far! Loved the make up sex and his effort at domesticity!

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    1. Ah, you can't get all squeamish on me now! I think it's fair to assume that Christian has tried everything possible sexually at least once to establish what his hard and soft limits are. And to be a skilled Dominant, he'd have to be expertly trained in all the BDSM techniques to ensure he didn't permanently injure any of his subs, so practical lessons would be required. Elena was his Domme for many years, so who better, amongst others, to train him and his subs, although I imagine this was only when he was first setting out, and that in recent years he hasn't needed Elena's help because he knows what he's doing by now. He does at some point admit to Ana that he paid for sex when he was training too. He has been a thoroughly bad, dirty boy, I'm afraid. But now he's falling in love....

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  81. Love............love............. love it! Can't wait for the next chapter!

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  82. It just dawned on me that if Christian was already at the bar, that would explain how Leila was outside SIP and saw Ana. Perhaps she followed Christian to the bar across the street from SIP and recognized Ana when she walked out of SIP. Leila had originally gone there stalking/following Christian. I always wondered how Leila would have known where Ana worked when she'd just started her first day earlier that week. Keep it up--loving your viewpoint for Christian!

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    1. What a great thought about Leila!! That makes perfect sense!!

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  83. Havent been on for a few days, and what a surprise to see this chapter up, loved how Christian was at the bar waiting seeing what Hyde is like, I think deep down we all want a Christian, to be there keeping an eye on us all. cant wait for all the Leila commotion to start, well done another well written chapter
    Chez xx

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  84. This is absolutely amazing! I just found your site Saturday & have been reading straight through. Your writing is brilliant...i can't wait for the next chapter.

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  85. As usual, this was a fantastic chapter. My friends and I were all going through 50 withdrawals...That was until I found your site and now we're are all hooked!! Please don't stop writing, you're very talented.

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  86. While I love E.L. James..I realized after reading this that your work is far better.. but it has to be from his PoV . I just mean that Christian seems very well educated and worldly so it only makes sense the writing would be better. Thank you this really does seem to help get everyone threw the wait of the movies or the next book from E.L. ........I hope you know how great you are!!

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    1. I agree that Christian is more worldly wise, so his pov is more interesting imho.

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  87. Very well said from last person!!!

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  88. I hope E.L. James reads your work and PAYS you to write tor her!!!

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    1. Ha ha, that would be nice! But unlikely I fear :(

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  89. Your work is amazing. I can't wait to read more.

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  90. I am so glad I found this blog!!!!!! I'm ADDICTED :D I read all 31 chapters over 2 nights & was SOOOOOO excited when I saw that this one was up! I can't get enough!!! I'll be reading them again & again in anticipation for the next installment...
    THANK YOU for giving us 'MORE'. It was something I craved after finishing the trilogy. I read them all 3 times in a row because I just didn't want it to be over... Your story from Christian's POV is great & I appreciate all your hard work!
    Now I shall wait, with restrained impatience, for the eagerly anticipated 33rd chapter!

    Jen

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  91. Good work again.. Maybe e l James does read it she has time to reply to people on twitter she replied to my message and I skipped round the lounge like a 4 year old. Looking forward to the ice cream scene keep up the good work

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  92. Happy in Louisiana!

    Thanks for yet another greyt chapter. Very steamy I must say. Loved it! Also loved that you had Christian waiting and watching in the bar. Very Christian!!! Can't wait for the next chapter sir!

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  93. LOVE THESE!!!! Dieing for another chapter!! I hope you keep this going until the end of book 3. I love your writing and getting to hear christians pov you do an awesome job. keep it up can't wait until your next chapter!!! Thanks again

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  94. Another fantastic chapter - you are a brilliant writer
    looking forward to more

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  95. awesome chapter sir. I love it cant wait for the next one.

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  96. I cant get enough of these chapters....i squirm in my seat reading because your writing is amazing. The thing i loved MOST about the books was the ever changing Christian...how his love for her grows, how he grows and changes throughout the whole series. It isn't just about the sex, (although its amazing)its about the love story and to read it from his POV just makes me fall in love with him more and more...so amazing....

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  97. "Why keep a dog and bark yourself?"...Love it I'm addingthis one to my "quotes to use list"...As ever you do not disappoint...great chapter.

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  98. Thanks for posting, your CPOV is amazingly well written. So much so that I rather read this than the first 2 books again. I'm begging you to go all the way through the trilogy!
    Mel in Canada

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  99. Been stalking your blog hoping for an update. I live in the southern part of the U.S. along the Vulf Coast and we have been watching and waiting for Hurricane Isaac and I am climbing the walls. A little 50 Shades porn would be nice! I'll be checking back later, hoping......I feel like a stalker of Christian Grey proportions!!! It's epic!!!!!!!

    Bethann

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    1. Hi Bethann. Hope Hurricane Isaac passes you by without too many problems.

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  100. Totally in love with your chapters iv actually give up on my latest book to read this it's fantastic it would be amazing if you could do all 3 books :-)
    Well done I'm really enjoying this xxx

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  101. aloha. thank you for another great chapter! LOVE LOVE LOVE the picture of Ian!!!

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  102. Omg....I have just come across this and have read all 32 chapters today. Thank you so much I have thoroughly enjoyed it. It's just like reading the actual books. Well done. Now I need some sleep cause my eyes are a bit fuzzy from all the reading so until next chapter. Bye xx

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    1. A marathon read indeed. I know how you feel - my eyes get fuzzy when I've been writing too :)

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  103. I fucking loved it.read all the chapters and looking forward desperately for the next.
    i check it after every half an hour if you have uploaded.you are truly an awesome writer.
    when will you upload the next chapter?
    Best wishes..:)
    Aashima

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  104. I found this yesterday and only got to read a few chapters. I came back today and finished all the chapters and cannot wait for the next one! You are an amazing writer and I love what you have done with Christian's point of view. After reading the books so many times that I have lost count, this is what I needed. Keep up the great work! :)

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    1. Welcome to the blog, good to hear you're enjoying Christian's pov.

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  105. i cant wait to read more please post. this is amazing!!!!

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  106. I love your work!!!! I found your blog and am soooooo happy I did! I'm finally caught up on all the chapters and craving more. My favorite was when he had security detail on her in GA. I really didn't see that coming....complete stalker for sure!! Your really doing a great job and look forward to more chapters!!! Thanks so much!!!

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    1. That's our Mr Grey, stalker supreme! Glad you like the blog:)

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  107. Amazing in so many different ways! Can't explain the thrill the female population got from reading the books. Now my friends and I crowd around the laptop to read your blogs from Christians P.O.V. Very intense and I know from experience very difficult to keep the original tensions and feelings brought through from the original books by E.L James.. But with saying that I am very impressed by your work. Makes me think maybe your a 'ghost writer' for someone maybe.. Hmm.
    Anyway, looking forward to your next chapter, hope you don't keep us waiting and constantly checking your blog for too long.

    A. x

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  108. Love love it!! I can not wait for the next chapter
    Erin

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  109. More more more....please!!!!!!

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  110. Fantastic, need more too please...very glad I found this blog!! Cannot wait for the next chapters!!!!

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  111. I am going through withdrawls waiting for thenext chapter!!! Please, please, please, PLEASE writeall theway through the series!!! I think you are amazing for taking the time out of your life, out of your writing that you could (and should) get paid for, to write this blog for us Christian Grey addicts ;)

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    1. Have to keep going to give you addicts a fix I guess :)

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  112. A week!! Sniff..Sniff.. I'm just going back to bed I have read to many story's in FanFic that has me mad and upset. I neet some of your writing soon. Thanks for all you do! Hope all is well and we get you back soon. Love, Love, Love your work.

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    1. Sorry it's been a very busy week for me, but I have still been working on the next chapter. It will be up and running soon, I promise :)

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  113. I have read all 3 fifty shades books and loved them i was so addicted i read them all in 1week and was annoyed that i didnt space it out more and enjoy it more. then i found this blog and i love it just as much. i love the time in between too so your given a chance to think more about it. In the mean time to this i have just read "eighty days yellow" which is very filthy and "Bared to you" both inwhich i love but i have to admit, i enjoy your writing more then the other two books and as soon as i see you have written a new chapter i pt what im reading down to read it! Many thanks for writing in such a powerful way! - H

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    1. Thanks H - so you like an enforced rationing of your Fifty Shades fix - can you convince everyone else it's a good idea please!

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  114. its been a week now, am dying here, please update!!!! need my Christian Grey fix!!!!

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    1. Sorry to keep you waiting, but sometimes real life gets in the way! Shocking I know, but the new chapter is coming along nicely :)

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  115. its been a week now, am dying here, please update!!!! need my Christian Grey fix!!!!

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  116. brilliant chapter again you never dissapoint, i am really looking forward to the scene after the leila incident when Christian goes down on his knees i can see that being a real heart breaker x Mel

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  117. Your doing an amazing job! As much as I anticipate the new chapter, I'm patiently waiting! Your a very exceptional writer! Thank you SO much!

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  118. That was amazing! You have left me wanting "more"!!! I can not wait for the chapters too come!!!

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  119. Can't wait for the next chapter, I'm checking everyday I'm that excited.

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  120. I love love love ALL the chapters. I've read it over and over. I'm more in love with Christian and Ana. Keep up the AMAZING writing. Can't wait for the rest of the chapters.

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  121. Uh, I'm typing reviews on the wrong chapter, LOL

    Love Christian and Jack scenes, his possessiveness is so awesome.

    Didn't think about Christian was there at bar all along, watched all of them from a far when first reading the book, but yeah it's so control freak of him to analyze all of them before makes his move.

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  122. AMAZING!! You have captured E.L. James's Fifty Shades to perfection! I can't stop reading, Im up late at night and wake up early before work just to read more and more.

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  123. amazing writing im speechless just dont stop please.

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  124. I love all the pictures of Ian!!! I just simply love him!!! he is my perfect Christian Grey!!!!!! =)
    Beautiful chapter!!!!

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  125. who is the pic of for Jake Hyde? I have skimmed through the comments and don't see where anyone asked.

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  126. I'm really late finding this website -- and I'm loving it! Although I have to say that this was the only chapter where Christian sort of creeped me out when I read that he went to Fifty's to make sure Ana was OK by hiding in a booth out of sight. It made perfect sense that he did this -- because Christian has to know and control everything about Ana -- but I thought that she would be creeped out, too, if she knew that he was watching her. While Christian is an amazing character, he still can be creepy, exasperating, and an 'arse' in the words of Ana. Very well portrayed.

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  127. You know, at this point I can't really say which version of CPOV is better, yours or that other one I've (still have Freed to read, haven't gotten around to it yet) read. Like the others I was surprised that Christian already was at Fifty's but it does really make sense, considering his control freakery.

    And that other one actually goes beyond the books, so that's something I look forward to reading.

    Oh, and I'm thinking I'm gonna read your original stories too at some point.

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