30 June 2012

Chapter 20 - Balls


“Anastasia, I’ve told you. Fifty shades. I had a rough start in life – you don’t want that shit in your head. Why would you?”

She wanted us to make love not fuck. She wanted to touch me. I said no. She wants to know why, and she won’t let it drop.

“Because I want to know you better,” she says.

“You know me well enough,” I respond. Trust me, you don’t want to know the real me.

“How can you say that?” she asks me earnestly. She kneels up on the bed to sit and face me.

I roll my eyes at her in frustration. I don't like to talk about all of that shit. I spend most of my time trying not to think about it.

“You’re rolling your eyes. Last time I did that, I ended up over your knee,” she complains. Well I can do whatever I like, baby. That’s just the way it is.

“Oh, I’d like to put you there again.” Especially if you don't give up on this.

“Tell me and you can.”

“What?” You’re offering? But I thought…. didn’t you just say no earlier this evening?

“You heard me.”

“You’re bargaining with me?” I ask in disbelief.

 “Negotiating.”

“It doesn’t work that way, Anastasia.” That's topping from the bottom.

“Okay. Tell me, and I’ll roll my eyes at you.”

This makes me laugh.

“Always so keen and eager for information.” Well, who am I to refuse you?

I think about where we could go with this. This might well be a golden opportunity to push her limits a little further. Hell yeah, a bit of soft kinky. I’m up for that. And then she’ll be completely fucked out and too tired to ask any more of her stupid questions.

“Don’t go away.”

I disappear and make my way to my playroom. I’m thinking about which sex toy will best enhance the erotic spanking I’ve got planned. Something to show her how fucking amazing a spanking can be for a girl as well as a guy. Something suitable for a beginner. 

I don't think she’s ready for a nipple clamp chain yet, even though gently tugging on the chain with each spank is extremely arousing for a woman.  She’d find anal beads very pleasurable, but I know she’s hesitant about anal. 

Then I've got it - I know what will be perfect. They don't look scary in any way, so I'm sure she’ll be intrigued, as I doubt she’ll have a clue as to what they are.

I can see Anastasia is very curious when I return, but I don't let her see what I've brought back with me.

“When’s your first interview tomorrow?” I ask innocently, because I’m not supposed to know am I?  But of course I do. I’m just checking there’s been no change of plan for her first interview at two. I don't want to keep her up late if it’s been changed to earlier in the day. I’ll be fucking pissed if that’s the case and I haven't been informed.

“Two.”

No change. Perfect. So we can play tonight and she can have a lie in.

“Good.”

I can be her Dom anywhere I choose. So we’ll do a scene right here, in my bedroom. Why the fuck not? 

Spank Daddy time.

“Get off the bed. Stand over here,” I command, as I point beside the bed.

I’m pleased to see that she scrambles off the bed and hastily gets into position. She’s keen. Very keen. She’s got unresolved sexual tension that needs my attention. But I have to be sure that she’s up for playing a little scene.

“Trust me?” I ask. She has to trust that I know what I’m doing. And I do. I’m an expert in what I do. I'm a very experienced and highly skilled Dom.

She nods.

I hold out my hand to show her the silver Ben Wah orgasm balls I’ve selected. A centuries old design devised to increase a woman’s arousal. No pain, just stimulation. In her frustrated state, she should find them mind blowing, especially as she’s so fucking snug and tight. Just that thought has my cock twitching straight to attention.

“These are new,” I stress. With where I’m about to put them, I figure she needs to know that.

Ana looks puzzled. She hasn’t got a clue what they are. This is going to be so much fun. My eager little pupil.

“I am going to put these inside you, and then I’m going to spank you, not for punishment, but for your pleasure and mine.”

Yep, rock hard aching erection fully up now. I swallow hard and pause to see what her reaction is.

She’s staring at me wide eyed and shocked, but I think thrilled as well.

“Then we’ll fuck, and if you’re still awake, I’ll impart some information about my formative years. Agreed?” Plan is, you won’t be awake.

She nods her head excitedly. That’s my girl, always ready to try something new. And she’s going to fucking love this sexy teasing game.

“Good girl. Open your mouth... wider.”

She looks puzzled again, but does as she’s told. I gently put the balls in her mouth.

“They need lubrication. Suck,” I order. I watch her carefully and am satisfied that she’s finding this new experience exciting, not scary. In fact she starts squirming – she’s still feeling frustrated from not being allowed to come when we fucked in the boathouse.

“Keep still, Anastasia,” I warn her. I’m still in control; she must do as she is told.

“Stop.” I tug the balls from her mouth, then throw the duvet aside to sit on the edge of the bed.

“Come here,” I command. She stands in front of me.

“Now turn round, bend down, and grasp your ankles.”

Ana just blinks at me, and doesn’t move. Not good enough, Miss Steele.

“Don’t hesitate,” I warn her, putting the balls in my mouth to keep them warm.

She bends over as instructed. Her fantastic ass is perfectly positioned right in front of me, and that is one mighty fine view with her tiny lacy pale blue panties scantily covering the round fleshy expanse. Pert. Sexy. Fuckable. Her pale skin soft and smooth as I gently caress it. Mmm…it’s going to look even better when I’ve spanked it to a nice bright shade of pink. God, I love her delectable ass, fucking love it.



I move her panties to one side, run my finger up and down, then slip inside her. She’s wet. Soaking wet. I circle my finger inside her, once then twice. She moans and clenches her muscles around me, and it’s all I can do not to just take her right then and there. 

But that’s not how we’re playing this scene, so I take a few breaths to calm myself down. Control, Grey. Then I slowly insert the balls, slipping them in one after the other, pushing them deep inside her.

I straighten her panties, then lean forward to kiss her very beautiful bottom, resisting the urge to bite her there. Fucking hell, the things I want to do to her...

“Stand up.”

She’s a bit wobbly on her feet when she straightens up, so I hold  her to steady herself.

“You okay?”

“Yes,” she whispers in a pale pink little voice. Take it easy on her, Grey. She’s already served you very well today. Well, sexually anyhow. It’s just the defiance you’re going to have to work on.

“Turn around.”

She stands there, looking rather bemused as she adjusts to the sensation of the balls inside her.

“How does that feel?”

“Strange.”

“Strange good or strange bad?”

“Strange good,” she blushes.

“Good.” I thought you’d like them. They should work very well for you.

Now she needs to feel the full effect of the balls. She needs to move around.

“I want a glass of water. Go and fetch one for me please.”

She looks as me as if I'm crazy.

“And when you come back, I shall put you across my knee. Think about that, Anastasia.” Building up the anticipation. Not rushing things. Savoring each new sensation.

When she returns with my glass of water, she’s flushed and slightly out of breath. The balls are doing their job. Massaging her internally. Making her needy. Needy for my cock inside her. 

But not yet.

“Come. Stand beside me. Like last time.”

She sidles up to me, and I can see she’s trembling with excitement.

“Ask me,” I instruct her.

She looks puzzled. She doesn't understand. I want to hear her say the words.

“Ask me,” I repeat. After she refused to let me spank her earlier, now she must ask me.

“Ask me, Anastasia. I won’t say it again.” You are going to have to beg me if you want to get fucked.

I see it finally dawn on her what she must say.

“Spank me, please… Sir,” she whispers.

Yes. At last. I close my eyes as I thrill to her words. The words I needed to hear. She’s handing control over to me, to her Dominant.

I don't waste any more time. I reach up and grab her left hand to tug her over my knees, steadying her as she lands in my lap. I position her so her torso rests on the bed next to me. I gently start stroking her bottom to warm up her skin. God, it feels so fucking good. Then I tuck her loose unbraided hair behind her ear. But I can still grasp it to pull her head back.

“I want to see your face while I spank you, Anastasia,” I whisper, as I continue to caress her bottom.

I reach down between her fleshy cheeks to put pressure against her sweet little pussy, knowing this will increase the feeling of fullness from the balls inside her. She moans loudly. Yes, they are definitely working.

“This is for pleasure, Anastasia, mine and yours,” I whisper. 

Then slap, I hit the junction of her thighs, her bottom and her pussy. It’s the most wonderful sound on the fucking planet. This forces the balls forward inside her, which combined with the sting of my slap, is intensely arousing for her. The fact that she is helpless and under my control makes it all the more intense for her. 

I watch as she screws her face up to assimilate all the contradictory sensations. I caress her bottom again, over her panties. They are a barrier that softens my slap. When I take them off, the next slap will be that much sweeter on her skin, so we’re working up to that. 

That’s the key, to build up the pain gradually. This is just the very beginning, but this is how a sub is trained to work up to a caning. Simple steps, each one building up just a little bit more. Stimulating her body to produce a heady combination of adrenaline and endorphins that will give her an incredible rush. But tonight I’m only giving Anastasia a light erotic spanking. My anger has dissipated, so this spanking is not for punishment. This is a beginner’s gentle introduction to BDSM.

I hit her again, and she groans with pleasure. I alternate where I smack her. Left to right and then down. Caressing and kneading her soft, fleshy bottom in between each smack. She groans the loudest when it’s a downwards smack because that makes the balls shoot forward, just like the thrust of my cock inside her. Then I slowly peel her panties off, and she’s writhing - not because she wants me to stop, but because she wants, she needs, more. 

This lesson is going incredibly well; she is the perfect pupil. I start smacking again on her sensitized skin, building up to harder ones, and she is moaning so loudly that I know she’s nearly ready. That’s my responsibility, to observe her responses and judge how hard she needs me to spank her and for how long. That’s my role as her Dom, and after all my years of expertise and practice, I know exactly what she needs more than she does.

I am exhilarated and ecstatic to be in control of Anastasia this way. This is how it should be. Her enjoying my control, not fighting it. Understanding how much pleasure I'm giving her when I hit her. Understanding the immense pleasure it gives me.

"Good girl, Anastasia," I groan, knowing I can't hold on much longer myself now.

Two more hard spanks, then I suddenly grab the cord to jerk the balls out of her. She screams with pleasure. See how fucking amazing I can make it for you. I quickly sheath up and turn her over onto the bed, grab her hands above her head and then ease into her slowly. Oh baby, you feel so fucking good. She’s full of my cock now instead of silver balls, and she moans loudly. 

She asked me to make love to her tonight, so that’s what I do. I set a slow sensual tempo instead of my usual hard fuck. And it feels fucking wonderful. I feel every little bit of her silky velvety tightness as I stroke in, and then again as I withdraw. 

Backwards and forwards. In and out. Slowly, sensually. 

She’s so ready that her climax starts building almost immediately. I can feel her quivering, tensing and clenching until she quickly tips over the edge to an intense orgasm. As she clamps tightly around me, I give one last hard thrust, then still as I climax with her.

“Ana,” I moan as I collapse on her, our fingers still laced together above her head. We lay there stunned, panting and catching our breath together.

“I enjoyed that,” I whisper, as I kiss her tenderly. And I did. Very much indeed.

So I think we can make this peculiar arrangement between us work, because it’s still amazing between us, even if we don't fuck in my playroom every time. I can't lose sight of the fact that I still really want her in there, doing all my favorite hard shit, but I think we can find a way forward, a compromise. Fucking Ana is just amazing, so I’ll do it anywhere, anytime, any chance I get. 

And I can, because she's my girlfriend.

But for now, as her Dom, it is my responsibility to attend to her needs. I get some lotion to rub on her ass. Frankly it’s as much for my benefit as hers, because it is a pleasure, an honor, to massage her beautiful cheeks, which are now a glorious pink color  As she lies there on her front for me, I can see that she is very sleepy and tired. Good. Perhaps she will give up with the questions.

“Spill the beans, Grey,” she yawns at me. No such luck.

“Miss Steele, you know how to ruin a moment.”

“We had a deal.”

“How do you feel?” I ask, as I reluctantly finish massaging her ass.

“Short changed.” She’s not going to give up is she?

I slip into bed beside her, and pull her into my arms, being careful not to touch her sore behind. It’ll be fine by the morning, and she certainly doesn't seem upset this time after her spanking. As we spoon together, I kiss that little soft patch behind her ear that I find so enticing. She smells just as divine as ever.

“The woman who brought me into this world was a crack whore, Anastasia. Go to sleep.” There, I've kept my part of the bargain. Now I hope she’ll give up.

“Was?”

“She’s dead.”

“How long?”

I sigh, as I realize she just isn’t going to give up without a bit more information.

“She died when I was four. I don’t really remember her. Carrick has given me some details. I only remember certain things. Please go to sleep.” And that’s all I’m giving her. It’s more than I’ve ever told anyone apart from all the shrinks.

“Goodnight, Christian.”

“Goodnight, Ana.”


I don’t own any of the Fifty Shades Trilogy or the characters therein. They belong to E L James. I’m just borrowing them for fun and not for profit. Please refer to the Legal’s page for further details. This work is not to be copied or reproduced in any way without permission. 





166 comments:

  1. Very hot!! You write Christian's POV very well. Very believable and in character. Can't wait till the next chapter.

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    1. Hi there - working on the next chapter at the moment :)

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    2. I don't know if it's just that I'm an addict or what but that chapter seemed very short. ;) Looking forward to the next....glad to see your already working on it!! :)) ~ TLC

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    3. Cant wait to read the next chapter. I just read all 20 chapters the last two days..I got so caught up in them today that I realized I need to get up and cook dinner. Thanks for writing this so well. U are really talented...I really feel that its Christian Grey telling his story. I love it!!! Keep up the great work!!

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    4. I'm amazed by the way you capture James' writing. It's certainly helped me over the withdrawal symptoms I've suffered after reading the book several times. Anxiously awaiting the following chapters.

      Ellie

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  2. Awesome. You really are very talented. Love that you are so in tune to Christian's POV. I have not read one word in all 20 chapters that I have thought no Christian wouldn't do/say that. Can't wait for the next chapter, to see how he really feels when she goes to Georgia, and then of course dinner with the Bitch Troll. Thanks for sharing with all of us. Kirsten

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    1. Hi Kirsten. Thanks for your great comments. Not sure that my being so in tune with Christian's mind is such a good thing.....

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  3. another amazing chapter!!! I look forward to reading everything you write!! You know the characters so well. I am really enjoying reading the story from Christian's POV!! I can't wait for the next chapter!

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    1. Hi Claire. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment. I'm working on the next chapter at the moment. xxx

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  4. Whoa! Smokin' He still seems so set on his heavy punishments. I thought she was breaking him of that! You're doing great!

    Krystyne

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    1. Hi Krystyne. Well I don't think it's until they break up that Christian really decides he would rather do without the heavy stuff than lose Ana isn't it? That's his wake up call. xxx

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    1. Yay a new chapter! Like all the others I loved this chapter and can't wait to see what happens next with Ana going away and of course Christian meeting up with Mrs Robinson! Your doing really well keeping them in character and you always leave me eager for more. Looking foward to the next chapter already :)
      PS I had to delete my previous comment as I forgot to add a bit just in case you were wondering why I deleted something :)

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    2. Hi Laura Louise. Lots more good stuff to come isn't there? Working on the next chapter at the moment. xxx

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  6. Again, you never disappoint, amazing chapter (not to mention sexy and hot! :P) as always. Your writing is really really good, and you have a real grasp of Christian's mind. Looking forward with Christian's dinner with Elena and the part where he takes Ana to gliding/soaring. :) Thank you for this wonderful update. xxx

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    1. Hi bubblingpop. I did think about toning this chapter down a bit ...then I thought again. It's Fifty Shades, so sexy and hot is what it's all about! Thanks for your feedback. xxx

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  7. Oh my goodness, oh my goodness I loved this chapter so much! First off the pictures you chose for this where TO-HOT-TO-HANDLE. I love that first one of Ian, he is just to yummy for words. I think the part that I laughed the hardest at in this chapter was this:

    "I can be her Dom anywhere I choose. So we’ll do a scene right here, in my bedroom. Why the fuck not? Spank Daddy time."

    It just totally cracked me up, well the "Spank Daddy time" part. I could totally picture Christian all giddy and excited thinking that it in his head. Or even saying it out loud while he was walking back from the playroom or something like that. :D This whole chapter was just wonderful Sweetie! Thank you so much for bringing us this wonderful adventure. Also, I wanted to let you know that the email stuff is all sorted out and it notified me as soon as you uploaded, or rather I assume it did, lol.

    Thanks Again!

    XOXO,
    Ang

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    1. Hello my dear friend :) I have looked at the other contenders to play the part of Christian, truly I have. Some people think Ian isn't tall enough, and all I can say to that is 'camera angle'. I seriously considered putting up some pictures of Matt Bomer, until I found out he's openly gay. That ruins the image in my imagination I'm afraid. Ian's face is just perfect imho.
      And yes. Spank Daddy. Made me laugh out loud when I was writing it too!
      Glad the email alert worked - I've set it up myself now rather than rely on the blogger one. More work, but at least I know it gets through.
      TTFN xxx

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    2. Although Ian is good looking, I can't picture Ian with lighter hair... Have you seen White Collar and Magic Mike? I think Matt Bomer is a fantastic actor with an incredibly hot body whether he's wearing a suit or a thong =D

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    3. Ian is hot, but in my mind, is too closely tied to the character of Damon in the Vampire Diaries. I can't think of him as anyone else. I agree that Christian should be played by an unknown.

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    4. No offense but if you get to the nitty gritty of it the character of Christian and the character of Damon are VERY similar. Also if you need to see what Ian looks like w/ lighter hair look no further than when he was on Lost. It was much lighter, plus his hair is darkened for Vampire Diaries. Though I must admit that they only other actor that I've been able to see in the role is Matt Bomer. I just don't know if he would take this role on after reading the interview he did on the things he had to go through w/ women being all up on his junk. Or rather his junk having to be all up on a woman. Needless to say she started licking him. Also I found the interview funny because he said that when he got the call that he had gotten the movie he said his first immediate thought was "Are you sure you didn't mean to call the guy from Vampire Diaries?" Still Ian Somerhalder will always be my #1 pick.

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    5. My Christian Grey is Henry Cavill, Swoon!!!

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  8. Absolutely perfect! I loveeeed it! The thoughts in his mind are mind blowing!! You never disapoint! You aim to please!!! Very hotttt!

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    1. Hi lisalilac. Christian has a very dirty mind, but I'm reliably informed that is perfectly normal for most males....only what I've been told of course!

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  9. Another hot chapter! The way you write Christian's POV is exactly how I pictured in my mind when I read the books. You do such a fantastic job! I can't wait for the next update!

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    1. Hi Nicolle. I'm glad our minds seem to be on the same wave length. Working on the next chapter, but it does take time to get it right. xxx

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  10. OMG!!! This so good can't wait for the next chapter. Excited to read the Georgia chapter how he feels when she leaves & when he's at the hotel. When's the next chapter?

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    1. Hi Smitten. The next chapter is a work in progress at the moment, should be ready next week sometime, real life permitting xxx

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  11. As always...BRAVO! We can't thank you enough for taking time to write and share your story. I've told all my girlfriends about your blog and we're all addicted to it and have discussions about it. A perfect way to get the girls together to chat, giggle and discuss our favorite "man." Thanks again. We love you here in NYC!

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    1. Hi Lexi. I absolutely love the idea of you having girly get together to talk about Christian over there in NYC. Question is, would we all love him so much if he wasn't a billionaire? What if he were a shop assistant or a road sweeper, with no private jet, helicopter and boat? What do you think?

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    2. I would say that he wouldn't be a Dom... You have to be the Master of your universe (as he said) in order to be a Master of anyone else.... ;)
      Never the less it does help having all those things

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  12. Great! Ready for the next chapters. Please keep going.

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  13. yet another brilliant chapter!!! Christian is actually getting hotter as you write his words, i didn't think that was even possible!!!! You soooooo caught all the kinky fuckery just right!!!!! I can not wait for his georgia visit now!!!! I love seeing him slowly fall in love and not even realise it!!! Its adorable!!

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    1. Hi sazzy. Christian is the master of all kinky fuckery, isn't he? How wonderful to have a man who knows exactly how to press all the right buttons eh? Just a shame he also expects to be able to cane and whip you too :(

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  14. Can't wait till the next chapter!! You are doing an amazing job!!

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    1. Thanks Heather. Glad you are enjoying the blog ;0

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  15. Great to wake up this morning with a new chapter waiting on me!!! Excellent writing as always!!!

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    1. Hi there. Special weekend treat of a new chapter :)

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  16. My oh My!!!!!
    You have so much talent.....your writing is amazing!!! It's very realistic and I love hearing it from Christian's point of view.
    Over 49.000 page views..... You Go Girl

    The new chapter email update worked perfectly...what a wonderful way to start my Saturday!!!!!

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    1. Hi Suzanne. Glad the email alert worked for you :) I can't believe how many hits the blog is getting. Maybe something to do with the smutty content??

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  17. Absolutely love your writing. Could not believe my eyes when I came upon your story and then your site. Love EPOV. I agree, everything in his view is believable - you can feel it is him, it is exactly how he would react and talk. I get so excited when I receive an email with your updates. Thank you, you have made my day, month and probably year, if you keep writing. Happy writing and I will have many happy hours reading. Again, thank you, your writing is amazing.

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    1. Thank you so much for your support. I'll try to keep writing all the time people want to read it. xxx

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  18. Oh please hurry with the next chaptet! Im hooked so bad.

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    1. I'm trying! Chapter is in progress and should be up next week, subject to real life intervening. xxx

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  19. So good with Christian's perspective. Really enjoyed the chapter! :)

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    1. Hi Camie. Thanks for reading and leaving comments, it's much appreciated. xxx

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  20. Can't wait for the next chapters....Please don't stop....Your writing add so much excitement to each and everyday, now that I finished reading all 3 books for the 5th time!!!!You got me beaming here!!!!:-)
    Joyce

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    1. Hi Joyce. Well it must be a good thing to put a smile on your face, so I'm happy about that :)

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    2. Better believe it! I go here everyday to see if you've moved on to a new chapter...And I keep rereading!!!Can't get enough!!!Yay!!!!
      Joyce

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  21. Great chapter. I love it from Christian's perspective. Can't wait for more. you've made me more of a true fan

    Nan:)

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    1. Hi Nan, Nice to know you're on board, and thanks for your support xxx

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  22. My dear writer friend, it was such a great surprise and pleasure to see a new update this fine Saturday morning and, I agree with another one of your fans, the photos are tremendous! I was just thinking about the possibility of seeing you one day on the "Today" show, telling all abouit how you got started and how the numbers of fans just started to grow exponentially. I have just forwarded your blog info to my dear dad! He's a serious bibliophile and I knew he'd love both the CPOV as well as your superb writing. As always, thank you so much! xxx, Beth (BGHeron)

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    1. Hi Beth, The pictures are fun for me too. Gosh, what a dream that would be to be on the Today program. I think the answer is to get on with my own original work now, of which I have several ideas floating round in my head.
      First time I've heard of anyone forwarding my story to their dad - I'm guessing he's quite broad minded and not easily shocked! My father has no idea whatsoever about any of this, and long shall it remain that way!(He is 88 years old) xxx

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  23. Love it you are amazing at writing in Christian's POV...Keep it up.

    ~AnNaLeEmObRiEn

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    1. Hi there. Thank you for your support, as always. xxx

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  24. Great chapter can't wait for the nxt. Love how you really got christians pov. Keep going love it. Thank you

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    1. Hi Mish. Glad that you're enjoying this, watch out for updates soon. xxx

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  25. I love it. Mr. Grey always satisfies. Can't wait for the next chapter. Thank you for his POV.

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    1. Hi Sunshine Rocha. Mr Grey is very satisfying indeed isn't he? Thanks for reading my blog.

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  26. Now with comments in English:

    Is that ... I will not stand so long until the next update ... I'll stick with chills and fever by starvation ...
    My vacation will be spent waiting for updates ...
    You're doing a great job in addicted people in the Christian point of view ... I hope you're happy now that you have a legion of fans begging for updates (because I'm not the only)!

    We love your work! Thanks for another great chapter (you were right, my heart almost stopped) ... I do not think I'll resist the sex on the desk!

    Your Brazilian fans (for which I have to translate ... since they are too lazy to learn English and very demanding to use the translator) send their congratulations for your great work. I really wish the book had already been printed in Portuguese ... then I could have a break ...

    While I am translating your Fanfic, I'm also translating the book, so my friends are reading Ana's POV and Christian's POV at the same time.

    Thank you for excellent reading and keep going!

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    1. Hi Bruna. Thanks for writing to me in English this time, although I worked out what you were saying before. You must have some excellent translating skills, with some very interesting words to explain the meaning of!
      How does accurately does the translation link I added on here work, just out of interest?
      xxx

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  27. Damn!!!! That was smokin' hot!!!!!!!! You've got Christian's voice down perfectly. I enjoyed this chpt immensely & not only for its lemon-y goodness. I loved his laugh & surprise at Ana's attempt to negotiate info out of him--when he's normally quite stoic & so jaded. Love love love your story! Please keep the updates coming. ;) Thank you, Wendy

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    1. Hi Wendy. I'll keep writing as long as people want to read, and no one objects to me writing this version. Thanks for reading.xxx

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  28. I just finished reading chapters 1-20 absolutely loved reading Christian's POV, you write him so well it's hard to see how this couldn't be the work of EL. It's refreshing to see CTG struggle with his feelings as much as Ana did - it makes him all the more loveable!

    Looking forward to more updates! Keep up the great work :)

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    1. Hi there. Welcome to my blog, glad you enjoyed reading my take on Christian's pov. xxx

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  29. My inner goddess does flips when I get an email from Christian Grey saying the next chapter is up. You never disappoint! Please keep writing. I think I like Christian's point of view better that Anastasia's.

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  30. Your best yet I think. Like one of your other fans said you're capturing the essence of Christian even better as the chapters progress. I hope you plan to do the whole trilogy. What a treat this is. Thank you.

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  31. I discovered your blog a few days ago and I read the first 19 chapters in one sitting. Happily I found number 20 this morning. :-) I am loving your writing, and Christian's POV. I didn't want my FSoG fix to end (I have already read the trilogy three times!), and now it can keep going indefinitely. :-) Great job!! You are capturing Christian perfectly.

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  32. Great job! I was so excited to see a new chapter today. I can't wait for the next one. Keep up the good work!!!!

    Courtney

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  33. soooooooooooooooooooooo glad i found you.. i thought something happened to my story alerts!!!

    very well written... loved christian's POV from being turned down at dinner, loved the boathouse, loved this chapter! I also love that you can put little pictures in here too :)

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    1. H goldensnitch1. Welcome aboard! I'm enjoying being able to be a bit more creative on a blog. I'm sure there's lots more I could do if I knew how. Anyway, I'm glad you're enjoying this. xxx

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  34. Another great chapter-really hot! I love getting my email notifications from Christian Grey. It makes me giggle. **Dana**

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      Glad you enjoyed the chapter. xxx

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  35. Love Love Love Love!

    Adele

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  36. Another great chapter. Love the pictures :)

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  37. Wow, just wow! I was holding my breath and did not realize it. Another great chapter.

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  38. love reading this i hope you carry on and even do the other 2 books love it

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  39. As always, I enjoyed reading another chapter and we are getting near my fave parts of the book...Georgia and what happened after she came back to Seattle.

    Looking forward to your next update! :)

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  40. Can we please take it through book two? Pretty please?

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    1. Hi there. I will be taking it through to book two, then I'll see how things go after that. I'm debating whether to stay with the canon for the third book or maybe go au with another story line.

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  41. WOW! Amazing chapter! You definitely fulfilled my expectations, not just with the silver balls, but with all of the other aspects of Christian's character as well. The pictures you add are a great touch and I can't wait to see what eye candy you have in store for us in future chapters :)

    I don't know how you do it, find time to write during all the chaos that is real life. I know it is time consuming, but I can't express how thankful and excited I am that you are doing this. And doing it so well I might add.

    As always, looking forward to more! :) (Curious12)

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    1. Hi Curious12. Thanks for your lovely comments. Some weeks there is more time to write than others - this will not be a good week because I'm away for a lot of it, so there will be a little delay with the next chapter. It's nearly ready though, so not too long to wait. But I don't want to rush it and then not be happy with it :)

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  42. I get SOOOO HAPPY!!! to see your e-mail. It was sooo Hot sooo Good. I feel like I am reading EL James character Christian. You get in his head very well (have you thought about call Dr Flynn?).
    I have read 2 other stories, after 1 chapter I quit, didn't feel right.
    Please keep it up(pun intended). Will you be writing all 3?

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    1. Hi Cyndi. I shall be continuing the story, but I don't want to just repeat all three books if I don't feel I can bring anything new to it. So once I've covered the breakup/reconciliation, I shall be giving some thought as to where to head with this.

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  43. Another great chapter! Ii was sooo happy to see ur mention of Matt Bomer, until I read the "gay" part. He is a great actor who plays a convincingly straight guy on White Collar. We all have out own visions of "our" Christisn Grey and he is mine, lol. Great job I soooo look forward to your chapters. Keep up the AWESOME job

    Nancy

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    1. Hi Nancy. I find it helpful when I write to have a picture in Christian in my mind, and for me Ian's extremely handsome face fits the description of Christian perfectly - hence using his picture in my blog so much. Whether he's right for the film I couldn't say - maybe they should cast an unknown? Although Henry Cavill is quite nice too:)

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    2. Oh, please use Henry Cavill's picture. He's Christi an Grey to me!

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  44. I love your POV for Christian.. Keep up the great writing!!

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    1. Hi there. Thanks for your support, always good to get positive feedback :0

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    2. Waiting for more chapters from Christian and now I'm hooked on Grace's POV.. You are great!! Keep going...I have all my friends hooked..........

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  45. So good, can't wait for the next chapter xx

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  46. I absolutely LOVE your writing and your impressions of Christian. I am eagerly awaiting the next chapter!

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  47. You are doing an amazing job with the story from Christian's POV! You are an amazing writer. Sincerely hope you continue and do the trilogy!

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  48. I've read a few other 'Fifty Shades' stories and they were good ...but... when I came across your story on Sunday, I was amazed with the quality of your writing. I only meant to read a chapter or two and I literally couldn't stop until I had read the entire story (up to Chapter 20) and I was blown away by your incredible interpretation of Christian. He came alive with so much depth and personality that I believe you really captured the very essence of his character. You have a wonderful imagination and all of the added scenes and details help us to understand his life, his thoughts, and his feelings so much better. I really love the opportunity to get to know him on a deeper level, so thank you for sharing your (his) story with us. I can't wait to see where you will take him next . . . and like Ana, I want more

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    1. This is just soooo good. Are you sure you are't Christian Grey? ;) Every thought and every emotion feels so much in character, it is amazing! I guess I'm already addicted, hehe.
      Thanks, Ellen

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  49. When is the next chapter coming out???? I'm so happy I found your blog!! Thank you!
    Kelly H

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  50. Love it!It isalittle scary how well you write from his POV! So friggin hot.

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  51. Wow! I discovered your story just yesterday and read all 20 chapters in one sitting (yeah, my family wasn't very keen about that part, but I simply couldn't put it down!) You have managed to capture Christian's "inner voice" so perfectly. I love his inner musings...they are heartbreaking at times and sarcastic & funny other times. And the way you've unfolded some of the story plot points is so interesting and refreshing- they give me a new perspective on how thing may have unfolded when you know what's going on in Christian's head. Please continue! You are doing so well and I can't wait to see the rest. Cheers! Adrena

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    1. Hi Adrena - apologies to your family! Should be another chapter up tomorrow, so you'd better warn them!

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  52. Greeting from Boston,
    You are so talented and I am so glad and honor to be your fan. I hope to see you on Today show and all of the talk show. Your fans would be so happy and proud.
    I am so impatient to wait for your next chapter. But I would wait and know that the next chapter would be as good as the last. You respect your fans enough to do a great job.
    Thanks so much for putting your time in to this.
    Kim

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    1. Hi Kim. Thanks for your patience and understanding. I'd never want to rush through a chapter just to get it posted quickly, I'd rather work on it until I'm happy with it. Having said that, it is hard to know when to stop tweaking sometimes, and typos still get through, which is always annoying!

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  53. Anxiously awaiting more! You are AMAZING!

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  54. An amazing story and loving Christian's point of view. He is just how I'd imagined him to be. I can't wait to read more.
    Many Thanks
    Karina x

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  55. i love it i cant wait for the new chapter u r doing a good job

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  56. Amazing...i love these chapters and cant wait for the next ones.....thank you so much xx

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  57. I just stumbled across your blog on Tuesday and, once i started reading, i couldnt get enough. Sooo looking forward to chapter 21, and hopefully many more to come. THANK YOU for writing this!! - Christina

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  58. OMG!!!! I happened to notice a post on fb this morning regarding your newest chapter and once I realized what I had stumbled upon, I was hooked!!! I was left bereft and wanting more after the little excerpt at the end of book 3 and was hoping & praying that E.L. would continue with what she started there.... then I found you!!! YOU ARE AWESOME!!! I read all 20 chapters today and it has left me salivating for more...I can't wait for your next update and would love to receive one of those email notifications for updates that have been mentioned in several comments!!!! You capture the essence that is Christian Grey so wonderfully and it just falls into the story so well... everything you have written so far is spot on!!! Please keep it up!! lol I have already read the trilogy 3 times (I'm sure there is a 4th & 5th time in the future) but I looooove reading from Mr. Grey's perspective!!! It just brings the story to full circle!!! Just AWESOME!!!!

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    1. Hi there - have you added your email address to the email link on the left hand side of the blog? Anyhow, glad you are enjoying my blog :)

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  59. Excellent work!!!!! Waiting for more! Please hurry :)

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  60. Excellent work! Waiting for more.... please hurry :)

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  61. nooooooooooooo i need the next chapter , lol so nice 2 read from CPOV., cant wait 4 the next lot but i kow it takes time , but plz hurry lkol xxxx

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  62. Wow! great chapter, I'm loving this from his point of view. can't wait for the next chapter and how he copes with her away in Georgia.

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  63. you are absolutely incredible !! i can't believe how your writing fits perfectly into the trilogy, as if you've written all 3 books yourself !! and to give us all christian's version is amazing !! i've read all 3 books 5 times now, it's been very hard to put them down until now !! thank you a billion for this !! sucks me in just as the books did !! holy cow !! oh i cannot wait until the next chapter !!

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  64. I am really enjoying this series and can't wait for Chapter 21. Regarding your comments about maybe going in a different direction after Book 2: I wholeheartedly support this. I was really disappointed with Book 3, especially the pregnancy, so I'd love to see you change things up.

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    1. Hi Amy. I'm just thinking that maybe it would be good to explore another storyline, so I'm glad you think this might be a good idea.

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    2. Agreed with Amy regarding book 3 and YOU writing a new ending. But again. I will read anything you write.
      Kim

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    3. Hi Kim. Thanks for your support. I've got all sorts of possibilities lined up in my head, so we'll see what happens!

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    4. Please do the book 3 like it is and then change like book 4 :D

      I realy enjoy in your work.

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  66. Loved this chapter. Each one is better than the one before. Love the way you add thoughts and actions that might not have been in the original books.

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    1. Hi Mary. That's what I like to do most of all, bring out some things that weren't in the book. That's what's most interesting for me to write, where I can be the most creative.

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  67. Please hurry with more chapters!!!!!

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  68. That was excellent!! Great writing, love reading from Christian's POV. Thank you so much, looking forward to more!

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  69. You. Are. Fantastic. Please write more, please!

    So delicious! More, please . . .

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  70. I NEED MORE!!!!!!!!!!! This has been so great :)

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  71. hi heather again great chapter love it your very good hope you gonna write some erotic fiction for us ladies WE WANT MORE MMMMMMM

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    1. Hi Heather - erotic fiction is so much fun to write - deliciously naughty, and hopefully still romantic. I am a terrible incurable romantic I'm afraid :)

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  72. Thank you thank you thank you.......for allowing me to continue with my Christian fix! Your blog is keeping me at bay until the next book/movie comes out. Keep up the good work, it's much appreciated.
    ps. Although I love Ian, I think Henry is the whole package.;)

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    1. Hi Jo. Lets face it - all the contenders are pretty hot! And I have to keep looking at all their pictures too;)

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  73. your writing is great. have you got any further than chapter 20 yet? im addicted lol

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    1. Hi Natalie.

      Chapters 21,22, and 23 are under 'July', as that was when they were posted. Otherwise, use the 'newer post' right at the end of chapter 20 to get to the next one.

      Hope this helps :)

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  74. Loved and enjoyed reading FSoG from Christians POV!! I feel like i'm reading E.L.. James because thats how close and good your writing is in comparison to her. You hit his POV right on the spot. I hope your new chapters will be up soon as i am looking forward to reading how HE felt when she left him. Keep up the fantastic writing! :)

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  75. I may just move to this chapter and live here. OMG this was so hot...I thought every girl should have a Christian Grey. But after his tale of this story, I'm sure it's a basic necessity just like air......or water!!!!!! Please continue this story, please.

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  76. Every woman wants to be the physical, intellectual, emotional and sexual center of a mans universe. You are putting down the words that show us how Christian starts to discovers that he wants Ana to be the center of his. I didn't think that Christian could get any more real, but you have succeeded! You are Christian Grey!!!!
    Susan

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  77. excellent work!! congratulations, you are a really great writer, Christian trying to explain his feelings and thoughts, I love it, thank you for share it, I can´t wait for another chapter :)

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  78. I've read Fifty Shades of Grey 5x now because I just couldn't get enough of Christian and Ana. Im so glad that I came across this blog, I really enjoy what you've written so far and look forward to more. Your POV has fully satisfied my longing for more of this amazing couple, book and story!!!!

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  79. omg thank you for my christian and anas fix loved all the chapter from christians pov well written need more i think i will have to read the books again for the third time thank you

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  80. amazing work!!!
    cant take my eyes from it)))) kate

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  81. amazing when are the next chapters ready i cant wait now thankyou.

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  82. Passionnant!

    Fleur50

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  83. i really love this book so descriptive

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  84. Wow i love how you got into Mr Greys head.
    I cant stop reading these books and your blg.
    Cheers Angel

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  85. i think it is called "endorphins" not "endomorphin".... but good chapter none the less.

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  86. THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH for writing Christian's point of view!!! I can't wait for the next chapter. I'm addicted!!!! Great job and thank you for giving me a view into Christian's mind, I love it!!

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  87. I've really been enjoying reading FSoG from Christian's p.o.v. - very believable, and adds a lot of insights into his thoughts, since the books are from Ana's p.o.v.. I think it's so funny when Elliot offers to share his "sexpertise" with Christian...like, if you only knew, brother dear!!! I have no doubt Christian would be sharing more "sexpertise" than Elliot could ever hope to know if it ever should come down to that, which I very much doubt. Couldn't help but notice from previous comments that it's been almost a year since you've updated this...Is Ch. 21 up and I've just missed it somewhere else?? I really do hope you'll be able to update this very soon. I know I'm impatient, but I've just finished the first 20 chapters in two days and I really am anxious for more! ;) Thanks, Steph

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  88. I read all 20 chapter in a day!! You really do a great job at Christian's pov! I hope you complete the entire series! I can't wait till you post more(:

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  89. I found this yesterday and I'm hooked I think your have written the story from chrisians point of veiw very well and I think having the story from his side has made the origional that much better I love the origional books but reading this has shown how much better it could have been if el james had included christians point of veiw. I look forward to reading more from you ,your a wonderful writer on your own right have your written anything origional?

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    1. Thanks - I'm glad you're enjoying my blog. Go to my author's website for details of 'Starr Fated', my own original work that's written in the same erotic romance genre :http://www.gegriffin.com/

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  90. I was left bereft after EL James Trilogy finished. I read them all after seeing the movie. Please continue to write on the couple I have come to enjoy as a love story as well as interactive erotic couple. Thanks..

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  91. I think your writing is so much better than the original books... Sorry EL James

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